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As it turns out, having a backbone is hard. Izuku sat on his bed staring at his phone for who knows how long, his finger hovering over the ‘call’ button. How was he supposed to just break up with Rody? He truly was a good boyfriend, Izuku is just dramatic. Rody would buy him coffee, would take the time to go to an occasional dinner, and let Izuku do as he pleased all day.
Is that really so bad?
Izuku’s heart clenched as unwanted memories flashed in his mind.
==
”I’m breaking up with you,” Rody had said, his hands shaking.
They were on a hike up at his families cabin, all of his relatives just a few miles back to the main part of the house. Izuku’s eyes were wide as he watched Rody crouch down, shielding his face from view.
”What?”
”Don’t make me repeat myself, Izuku,” he pleaded, still not making eye contact. Izuku felt hot tears rolling down his cheeks as he stared at his boyfriend.
”You- you are really breaking up with me at your family cabin? One that YOU drove us to?! The trip ends in two fucking days, Rody! How am I supposed to share a bed with you, and act like nothing is wrong around your family?!” Izuku’s chest was heaving, trying to suck in air, but it was failing. All he could focus on was the fact he was trapped here for the next two days with people who don’t love or care for him. All because of Rody’s selfish decision. “You couldn’t even wait till the last day? You had to say this on day one?”
”I’m sorry Izuku-”
“No, you don’t get to ‘be sorry’ right now. I- I need to-” Izuku’s ears perked up at the sound of familiar footsteps. Rody’s father is coming. “Couldn’t have even waited till we were alone…” He quickly wiped his face, throwing on a mask over the hurt, his eyes crinking at the corner from the forced smile.
”What-”
”You two ready to head back? I will lead the way!” Rody’s dad exclaimed as he quickly passed by the two, only glancing at Izuku’s too perfect smile and not thinking anything of it.
”Sure are! We will be right behind you,” Izuku giggled. It took everything in him to keep his voice from wavering. He watched the elder man’s back as he strolled down the path before turning to his son. If Rody wanted to break up, then that was his decision, but he won’t see Izuku cry. He had to be strong and levelheaded for the both of them right now.
”We can talk more at the cabin.”
Silver eyes stare at Izuku in shock at how easily a mask of happy had fallen into place, but he still nodded numbly, standing up with a sniffle, trailing behind Izuku like a kicked puppy. As if it were Izuku saying they were breaking up.
The walk was slow and painful, but when they did make it back, the pair immediately holed themselves up into their room. Izuku’s eyes lingered on the bed for a moment. Just the day prior, in that very bed, Rody had pleasured Izuku. What changed in the last 24 hours? Had Izuku done something so horrible without realizing it?
”Izuku, I’m sorry-”
”Was it something I did? Something I said?”
He watched as fresh tears streaked down Rody’s face leaving his eyes puffy and red. “No! It is me, not you. I am just in a bad spot, mentally, right now, and I just feel like I am waisting your time! I feel like I am dragging you on when a few years down the road things could just end because of my stupid brain!”
Lifeless green eyes were frozen on the younger man. He watched as he tried to explain his muddled thoughts, but all Izuku felt was hurt. Hurt that there were no signs. Hurt that Rody had let his feeling boil up to this point before speaking to Izuku about any of it. “I want to leave. I don’t want to be stranded out here with all of this going on.”
Rody nodded dejectedly, not fighting Izuku’s decision. “Before we leave I am going to talk to my mom, I need to talk about this to someone. Can you go somewhere else while I talk to her,” Rody pleads as he reaches for his phone. Izuku’s heart only broke further as he watched his boyfriend of so long speak about their breakup to someone else rather Izuku, mid breakup. Regardless, Izuku left the room after composing himself once more.
It had taken Rody two hours to resurface from their room, and the first thing he had said to Izuku was “I cange my mind.”
==
If Rody could so easily want to break up with Izuku, he should be able to do the same. Sure, rody had chickened out of actually breaking up, but what difference does it make? Izuku had felt the grief and pain all the same. Instead of calling the man, though, he clicked on messages. Maybe it was a dick move to break up over text, but it was the only way Izuku felt he could face Rody.
He took in a shuddered breath before he let his thumbs move on autopilot.
Rody My Love
Rody, we need to talk
I have been thinking for a while now, and I think we should take a break.
Before you say anything, I know what you’re thinking. ‘This is so random’ ‘why would you do this to me’ But honestly this isn’t out of the blue.
We both want different things in life, and in the long run we won’t be the best fit
I want you to be happy and find someone who fits into your daily life, truly
You deserve to be loved and cherished and have someone to talk about videogames with, not someone like me
Wait, are you serious?
Are you breaking up with me?
Izuku, we can talk about this
Rody, you have already brought up the fact that we aren’t the best for each other, and I am finally starting to realize it
With that said, I don’t think I would have changed anything for the world. I love you and probably will continue to love you, but I think this is for the best.
I love you too, but if you think this is for the best then i will support you, I will always support you
I’m just a little confused though. Why now of all times?
Because I can’t stop thinking of how much you hate kids and how you had said that you refuse to think about that future, but Rody, that is my future.
Is there another man in your life?
What? No. It was only ever you, Rody. I’m sorry, but goodbye.
I figured there wasn’t, I just… I just needed to hear you say it.
I’m not like that, .
Izuku ugly sobbed for the next hour before he was able to pull himself together enough to leave his room where his mom immediately picked up on the mood shift. She didn't need to be told anything before she swooped him up in a crushing hug.
-
Izuku felt like he was on a rollercoaster. The rickety cart he was strapped to called life was plummeting far too close to the ground and it left his stomach clenching uncomfortably, but that’s fine because when you swoop so close to the ground, that always means a rise is surely to come.
Izuku had lost college and his boyfriend, but he still has work.
He dismissed his alarm on the first ring at 05:30. He works today, and he is ready to throw himself into it.
Before that though, he gives himself five minutes to be on his phone, the orange tinted screen helped ease his eyes into the bright white that was sure to come soon. As he went to unlock the phone he paused. A message? Who would message him so early?
As he read the message from an unknown number his heart stopped. He was called off for the day? Izuku didn’t have work? What was he supposed to do with his time? Why was he getting called off? They are always sending out messages saying they need someone to cover a shift, so why?
Izuku tried his best to ignore the message, instead trying to sleep more. Maybe he can catch up on missed sleep for the day, because he does work tomorrow afterall.
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The next morning, Izuku got the same message from the same number saying that he is getting called off for the day.
And the next.
Izuku didn’t want to feel worried, but honestly, what else could he be feeling? He read the messages over and over, making sure he didn’t misread anything, or misunderstand. All he could do was sit there and bite at his lips in silent worry.
Izuku shook his head before pulling up a different chat box
Katsuki CNA
Katsuki, have you been getting called off lately?
I don’t know why but I have been caleld off for the past three days :((
Called*
you too?
yea i have been
:< I mean I hate that you have been called off too, but it makes me feel better… :> Thank you Katsuki!!
yeah nerd, youre welcome or whatever. Just enjoy your time off tbh, you deserve it
Izuku smiled down at his phone before he decided to take Katsuki’s advice and go enjoy his free days, and what better way to start off an early morning with coffee.
Despite it being 0600, he felt almost excited for a day off. For a brief moment he felt guilty that he wouldn’t be able to hold baby Mo, but he brushed it off. He was going to go out and do as his heart desires. He has the money to do anything, and apparently the time too, so with a smile on his face he got to work.