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Wonwoo found himself sitting on a bench on a summer day. Someone with larger frame than his was seated just a few inches beside him.
“Here, hyung,” Mingyu said as he handed the sandwich to Wonwoo.
Wonwoo smiled. “Did you make this?”
“You try to guess.” Mingyu chuckled.
Wonwoo was not really good at guessing. Neither did he knew Mingyu enough to be able to know whether he was actually capable of making his own food.
“Spill it,” Wonwoo commanded as he furrowed his eyebrows.
Mingyu just responded with a smile.
Wonwoo just gave up and started to eat his sandwich. Wonwoo was not a picky eater. He will eat anything that is tasty and flavorful. The sandwich was actually just a simple grilled cheese but it was not really bland like he expected. Next thing he knew, he was already leaning his head on Mingyu’s left shoulder with the sandwhich still on his right hand.
Wonwoo does not know why and how but he felt like a very positive person that day. Leaning his head on Mingyu’s shoulder gave him a feeling of relief.
(So this is what a carefree life feels like.)
“Hyung...” Mingyu suddenly spoke.
“Yes...?”
“I want to be with you forever.”
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The sun was already shining brightly when he opened his eyes.
“Another dream again....” Wonwoo thought to himself as he got up and put on his glasses.
It was already 12 PM. Wonwoo’s screwed since he hasn’t finished his Consti readings yet. Wonwoo picked up his phone from his side table. It was dead. Wonwoo brought out his charger from the drawer and plugged his phone. Wonwoo rushed to the bathroom and took a bath as fast as he could. He didn’t have the time to process what happened his dream anymore as he needs to finish his readings first. He got some clean clothes from his cabinet and turned on his phone.
Wonwoo received messages from Soonyoung and their class representative Lee Jihoon.
Wonwoo felt relieved. He had 2 classes only for that day and he got called for recitation already in his second class. Nevertheless, Wonwoo still needed to study in order to keep up with his professor’s discussion.
Wonwoo went out of his room. The living room and the dining area was a total mess but he did not care as he really did not have the luxury to do some general cleaning. He got his Criminal Law book from his shelf and sat in front of the dining table. Wonwoo flipped the pages his book until he found the page on Rebellion. Suddenly, his phone vibrated.
Wonwoo sighed.
He had no problem with lending his codal. The real problem was Kim Mingyu. He had been dreaming about Mingyu for several nights already and he thinks it already needs to stop. Wonwoo tried to brush off his thought and typed his reply.
Wonwoo threw his phone on the sofa since he did not want to distract himself. He switched on his lamp, picked up his favorite red sign pen and started to read. Just as he was about to finish his fifth page, Wonwoo’s stomach grumbled. Right. He hasn’t eaten breakfast yet. He got up from his seat, opened the fridge and took out the burger patty left from last night’s dinner. He placed its container inside the microwave and set its timer to 1:00. Of course, Wonwoo had to make coffee for coffee is life. He heard his phone vibrate amidst the noise coming from the microwave.
Wonwoo sighed again. For the past few days, he has been conscious of Mingyu’s actions ever since the time Soonyoung told him that they do look good together. Wonwoo was aware that his best friend only made such remark in jest but he just cannot get that thought off his mind. Mingyu is not his type but Wonwoo thinks he is actually a good person and whoever ends up with him will be really lucky. Of course, it’s not him since he really cannot imagine himself being in a relationship with anyone. The word “love” is absent in Wonwoo’s vocabulary. Wonwoo thinks it is because of proximity. Maybe they have been seeing each other a lot lately....in school. Whatever the reason is, it has to end already for he cannot let this interfere with his studies.
He is not that dumb anyway for he has a theory why this is happening to him - he is infatuated with Mingyu. Maybe the only solution for this is to tell Mingyu. He really really just needs to get this off his mind. He does not really like being controlled by anything or even worse, by anyone. Thus, Wonwoo asks Mingyu to meet him even though they were classmates. He needs to hand his codal to him.
Wonwoo felt very proud of his decision. At least in just a few hours, he can already tick this off his list of things to do.
Right after placing his food and his coffee mug beside his book stand, his phone vibrated again.
Right after pressing the send button, he realized something. He still does not know how he is going to tell Mingyu about his problem. Wonwoo suddenly felt nervous. Technically speaking, this might be his first confession. He is sure, however, that he can make whatever he is feeling disappear in a short while. For him, emotions or feelings are mere abstract concepts. They just exist in people’s minds. Truly, telling all of these to Mingyu in a way concretizes his “feelings.” Still, dwelling on these feelings is a hassle. He has a lot on his plate already as a law student.
Indeed, there is a big possibility that Mingyu might feel awkward but he has already thought of ways to reassure Mingyu that will eventually be over him. Wonwoo finished his breakfast. Time check, he still has around 2 hours and half to finish the chapter on Crimes Against Public Safety.
Wonwoo’s phone rang.
“It’s time,” he thought to himself.
Unfortunately, he did not make that much progress since he was only able to finish five out of seventeen crimes. Wonwoo fixed his things and placed them inside his backpack. Thereafter, he went inside his room to change. He finished all his preparations a quarter before 4. He went out of his apartment, rode the elevator and traversed his usual route to school. He sweated profusely even though the wind continuously made gushing sounds while he was walking.
“Seriously, why do we even have to dress up like this?”
Wonwoo reached the staircase a minute earlier that their agreed time. He chose this place since only a few people pass by there.
“It guess this is really the same with those shoujou manga confessions,” Wonwoo thought to himself.
3:55 came. Mingyu was still nowhere to be found.
Wonwoo brought out his phone to check whether his notifications. No message from Mingyu.
At 3:56, he heard footsteps coming from downstairs.
It was Jihoon.
“Not going to the classroom yet?” the short one asked.
“Uhm..no, still waiting for Mi-...someone.”
“Oh. Will go ahead.”
Wonwoo felt irritated and nervous at the same time. Why is he even nervous? He suddenly remembered the codal. He put down his backpack on the floor and got the codal.
Mingyu arrived at 3:58.
“Hyung.”
“Hey...Here’s the codal,” Wonwoo responded.
“Thank you so much, hyung. I left mine at home. I really owe you.”
“No problem...”
Just as Mingyu was about to leave...
“Mingyu, I have something to tell you.”
“What is it, hyung?”
“I think....I like you.......” Wonwoo blurted out with a straight face.
Wonwoo finally said it but he sweated more as he saw Mingyu’s shocked face which immediately changed into a calm one.
“Is that all, hyung?”
“Uhm....don’t worry. I can make this disappear in just a few weeks or probably a month maximum.”
Wonwoo did not have the courage to look at Mingyu’s face anymore.
Just as Mingyu was about to open his mouth to respond, the bell rang.
“We need to go to class already, hyung.”
Wonwoo picked up his backpack. A lot of things came to Wonwoo’s mind in the short span of time the two hurried to their classroom.
Truly, that was the kind of reaction Wonwoo expected but for some reason, it felt like he just got dumped by someone.
Wonwoo was very much disappointed with himself cause there’s not turning back anymore. He’s feelings have become part of the reality they are both in.