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Mina has never wished for much. All she needs to be happy- or at least to get as close to happiness as you can- is her expensive gamer pc and her customized nintendo switch. No matter where she goes, she always has either one of those with her. That's what happens when you don't have much friends.
When she graduated from high school and went to college in Seoul, far away from her home in Japan, she should have expected to lose all connections she used to have with her friends back home. And yet, it had hurt nonetheless. Especially since she was way too shy to talk to anyone in any of her classes and was therefore unable to find new ones.
But she is okay now. She has Momo if she ever feels the need to talk to someone- although Momo is always with the most intimidating girl Mina has ever encountered. And her parents send her enough money to buy all of the games she wishes to play.
So her life is pretty simple but also good. It's been that way for a while now and she's pretty sure it's not going to change. But we never really know what's going to happen to us, do we ?
Unless we are Im Nayeon, that is. That's Momo's other friend, a girl too pretty for Mina to directly stare at her when she sees her, a blush coating her cheeks whenever she eats with Momo and Nayeon is there with them.
She's well now on campus as the girl who has her entire future figured out, probably because of her strong confidence in herself. But Im Nayeon is different from the usual popular girls Mina has seen in the romance movies Momo always insists on bringing her watch. She's far from being what Momo qualifies as a 'bitch' (Mina would never use such words).
And that's the problem. Nayeon is too nice and pretty and cute for Mina's heart not to flutter every time she smiles at her. It's been months since she's tried to ignore Nayeon and she's been doing pretty well at it (not at all). Unfortunately for her, that won't last for much longer.
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Mina doesn't really understand how she got in this situation. She had come home after a long day of classes, had ordered sushis because she's never been good at cooking and had quickly gotten to bed. Only to end up on a camgirl website.
It wasn't planned, of course not. She's not really the type of person to go on such websites but her curiosity had gotten to her and here she now is, looking at really pretty girls with a hint of shame. Obviously, she isn't planning on clicking on any of these videos. But looking is alright, right ? She's not a pervert for doing this, is she ? Because she really doesn't want to be associated to one for doing something like this. Her tiredness becomes too much to stand and she's about to close the tab, not finding anything- or anyone- really worth her time. She has an exam tomorrow and she knows she will fail if she doesn't get enough rest, she's tried it before.
But right before she can close it, a familiar face appears in her vision, at the bottom of the screen. The face is a bit blurry due to the video only being in small size but she's nearly sure that she's seen this woman before and that she's seen her on multiple occasions. She shouldn't click on the livestream, she knows this. Because then it would mean that she's not simply there for her curiosity anymore and she might see things she will regret having witnessed right after.
But she does it anyway. And her phone slips out of her hands when the face of the woman who's always on her mind appears on the screen. Her face but also her entire body, nearly completely on display for her eyes to see.
So Mina panicks and grabs her phone, closes the tab and throws it on the other side of the room as if someone would walk in any minute and see her on a camgirl website staring at a half naked Im Nayeon, red lingerie the only thing keeping wandering eyes from seeing her nude form.
It is safe to say that after this, her eyes aren't sore from tiredness anymore and her brain is fully awake. Her hand itches to go and grab her phone. To press play on the live again and to find out if Nayeon intended on keeping her sexy red ensemble on or if she planned on taking it off. What if she had arrived on the stream at a later time and had found Nayeon pleasuring herself like those other camgirls did ? What would have she been supposed to do ?
No. It isn't a good idea to think about what Nayeon might be doing on the other side of the city right now. She's not like this, she doesn't think about Nayeon's curves because that's not respectful.
She decides to think about Nayeon's smile and her smile only. It's always made it easier for her to fall asleep, always calmed her usually racing thoughts down enough so that she could close her eyes without seeing anything she didn't want to. And it works, it works well enough for her to fall asleep fairly quickly. But it doesn't mean her dreams are any better than the thoughts she had while being awake.
For the first since she has met Nayeon, she dreams of the girl's heart-shaped lips getting closer to her own, of her own hands exploring her body with tenderness but also passion, of her mouth laying tender kisses on her neck. There is no place for shame in her dreams. No place for self doubt and shyness. But all of it is back as soon as she wakes up. She feels bad everytime she thinks about where her thoughts have been, when she turns on her tv in the morning to see two movie characters she doesn't know kissing she's immediately reminded of how badly she wishes this could be her and Nayeon.
She almost decides on leaving her phone where she threw it but then realizes that her mother might get worried if she texts her during the day and doesn't get a reply. As she dresses up, all she can think about is how badly she hopes she won't see Nayeon at all today. She's blushing enough as it is now, she can't imagine how red she will get if she ever crosses Nayeon's way again.
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But she doesn't need to have to imagine it anyway. Momo texts her wondering about where she is because she says she has to talk to her about something and Mina wishes she could say no, that she could pretend she's busy and doesn't have time to eat lunch with her- but she's not like this, she's never been a good liar and has always felt bad for lying anyway. Even for the most meaningless of things, she is not made to hide the truth. Her mother once asked her what she had been during the night to look so tired- an innocent question that did not need much of an answer- but she had not been able to keep herself from admitting that had spent the entire night playing games, surprising her mother who had genuinely not believed her daughter to have been doing something other than sleep.
And now here she was, looking down at her plate and her hand shaking everytime she brings food to her mouth, while Momo excitedly tells her about the new game her father bought for her and Nayeon smiles while staring at the cute hand movements her friend always does when talking about something she's passionate about, pushing her falling glasses back up her nose.
"You need to buy it so we can play together. Even Nayeon loved playing it when she came over yesterday afternoon."
"I-I will. I will order it tonight."
"Are you alright ?" Momo asks when she stops talking to look at Mina. The usual gummy smile she always has when they talk about games or animes isn't there and she looks like she's about to faint from how red her cheeks are. "Is it hot ? We can go outside if you need to."
"Oh." Mina looks up from her plate and gulps when her eyes naturally settle on Nayeon instead of Momo. She realizes what Nayeon is wearing, a purple dress that shows just enough cleavage for Mina to accidentally choke on her saliva. It's her favorite outfit. "N-No, I'm just tired. Haven't gotten much sleep last night."
"Oh really ?" Nayeon says. It's the first time since Mina joined them that the girl directly talks to her and she truly wishes that she could just ignore her presence instead. "Me neither. I couldn't sleep until early in the morning."
And Mina knows why. It's not hard to connect the dots. It was already midnight when she had thrown her phone across the room and gone to sleep in panick. Which could only mean that Nayeon had continued for a lot longer after she had left. Her blush intensifies greatly and she sees Nayeon raise and eyebrow in curiosity, not understanding why Mina reacted like this for something so innocent. Not that it was odd for Mina to be a blushing and stuttering mess when it came to their interactions but this, this was different.
"I've already told you both no to stay on your laptops too late. You need to take better care or yourself, especially since you both live alone."
"Sleeping late doesn't mean I'm not taking care of myself, Momo." Nayeon says with a teasing smile only Mina can understand. How many times has Nayeon referred to her night time activities like this without her realizing it. Had she been drinking water, she would for sure have spit it out all over Momo by accident.
"Yeah. Sure." Momo obviously isn't convinced but she's gone through this argument with Nayeon before and doesn't need to do it again. "Anyway,,I was supposed to ask you if you have any plans for the weekend ? To the both of you actually. I think it would be fun if Nayeon joined us for game night. Right, Mina ?"
"S-Sure. I'm not sure she will want to-"
"Of course I will. As long as you tell me a few days in advance so I can organize myself but I will always be glad to spend time with you. The both of you."
Mina doesn't see Nayeon's smile disappear when she doesn't react to what she said, only playing with her food and not even sparring her a glance.
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Nayeon wishes Mina would look at her more. What's the point of wearing this uncomfortable dress if it's not for her to stare ? Nothing but a waste of effort, as always.
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It's been an hour since Mina arrived to her small but comfortable apartment and immediately rushed to get in bed. She had eaten on the way home and was so tired the only thing on her mind was sleep. Sleep and Nayeon. Unfortunately, those two didn't go well together and Nayeon kept her from sleeping while sleep would keep her from Nayeon.
She knows she's going to go watch her anyway. She knows she's going to give in because no matter how shy she is, she's always been weak for pretty girls- even more when said pretty girl is Im Nayeon. It only takes a few more minutes of her laying over the covers of her bed in her penguin printed pajamas before she lets out a small groan of frustration and goes to grab her laptop.
In a few seconds, she's on the website and staring at the thumbnail of Nayeon's ongoing live. She doesn't even pretend not to know what her channel name is- it's been on her mind during the entire day and she even found herself accidentally writing it while studying. This time, she does not hesitate to click on the video and doesn't look away when her eyes fall upon Nayeon.
"My day was a bit boring. I'm excited about this weekend though. I think I will have a great time."
Nayeon's voice is soft. It's different from how loud she can get when she's with Momo but Mina find herself liking this new found part of her too.
"I'm not feeling like doing much tonight. I'm sorry about it."
And Nayeon's pout is so cute and devastating to Mina she wishes she could reach her across the screen and hug her. The comments on the live are understanding, telling her to take care of herself well and that it's alright if she just stops now. But Nayeon doesn't stop. She does exactly anything but that.
"Anyway, let's get going shall we ? I've been wet for so long now, I need to do something about it, right ?"
Mina's glad she's turned the lights off. To watch Nayeon reach across her bed for a small bullet vibrator and put it right next to her with the lights of her bedroom turned on would have felt odd and she for sure would have shuddered in shame. She gulps as she watches her crush sit more comfortably to slowly take of the light pink thong she was hidding by crossing her legs. But what really make Mina's blood boil, what makes her cross her own legs from the need radiating from between them, what makes Mina licks and bite her lips until she thinks they're going to bleed, is the moment Nayeon lays back against her pillows and slowly, teasingly opens her legs, revealing to Mina and the rest of her viewers what was hidding between them.
And Nayeon looks so good. and is absolutely soaked. She wasn't lying about being wet.
Her bra is still on and her viewers ask if she would mind taking it off. "Oh, sure, I'm sorry I forgot to."
If Mina had gotten turned on from seeing her glistening folds, she couldn't explain how wet she got when Nayeon's small pink nipples appeared on the screen. Everything about her was perfect- as Mina had expected- and her eyes were two pools of black, her lips plump from having bitten them too much.
"I'm sorry about this but I can already tell you I won't last long."
And Mina wanted to comment that it's alright, that what matters is her pleasure and not theirs and she could come in seconds and still satisfy everyone. But she catches herself reaching for the keyboard before she can actually type anything and has to stay still as she watches the others say everything she wants to tell Nayeon but can't.
When Nayeon grabs the camera and brings it closer to her folds, the same folds she's spreading open with her long and slender fingers, Mina loses all control she has on her hand and it slips under her pajama pants, settling over her panties. She's sad that Nayeon's face is hard to see from the new angle of the camera but she can't complain when the sound of a vibrator resonates in her room from her laptop as Nayeon brings the small toy on her clit.
The loud moan she lets out makes Mina shudder and she has to bite her own lips no to release one of her own. Nayeon's pale thighs look soft and inviting, she's sure that if she ever got to bite her there, the mark would stay for days. They're shaking from pleasure and Nayeon doesn't tease herself any longer and brings the bullet to her hole, slipping it in with a high moan Mina would now recognize between any other.
Her head is thrown back, the veins of her neck visible. When she finally looks back at the camera, her eyes are almost teary from how badly she needs her well-deserved orgasm. She's a whimpering mess, her bunny teeth peeking from her opened mouth, and Mina's fingers move on their own over her now very wet panties. She's never wanted to come this badly in her life but she's also never wanted to watch someone go over the edge like she does with Nayeon.
"I- Please." Nayeon's voice is different now. It's deep and strained from the light frustration she's feeling. "Please, can I come ?"
Mina had not expected her to ask her viewers for permission but she understands exactly why she did when she realizes the effect such a submissive Nayeon, begging to come and at their mercy has on her. She knows she's not the only one thinking that way when her eyes land on the comments- all denying Nayeon her orgasm.
It's cruel but it feels so good. It feels so good to know Nayeon's pleasure is in their hands, to know she's letting them have such control over her. She thinks she wants to see Nayeon come more than anything but to watch her squirm over her silk purple sheets which she is pretty sure are stained by how wet she got, her inner thighs drenched in slick Mina wishes she could clean up, there is no better feeling in the world.
"Please... I've been so good." She sounds like she's about to cry from frustration, the fingers that were spreading her reaching across her stomach to her nipples, seemingly begging from attention. "I need it so much, please."
At the first comments giving her permission, Nayeon grabs a tiny object she had left on the side until now and pushes a button that seems to increase the vibration of the bullet. In no more than seconds, she is coming around nothing but the small object barely able to fill her well, her two hands busy playing with her chest and her head thrown back against the headboard of the bed.
Mina is surprised to hear Nayeon come so silently, no more than a few whimpers escaping her mouth. But she's even more surprised to feel herself go over the edge so suddenly, her walls clenching around nothing as she struggles to keep her eyes on the screen displaying Nayeon's still shaking body.
Mina doesn't wait for Nayeon to end the stream. She closes her laptop and puts it back on her bedside table, tears welling up in her eyes as shame invades each of her every thoughts.
She falls asleep not long after, her panties still uncomfortable from the slick and her cheeks stained with tears of shame.
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From this night, Mina never fails to come back to Nayeon's lives. And the shame she feels afterwards is always there as well- but it's getting better. She doesn't cry herself to sleep anymore and doesn't run away when she sees Nayeon in the corner of her eyes, walking towards her with an excited smile. She stays until the end (at least when it's not too late at night- Nayeon's sleeping habits are worse than she thought.) and whispers a soft good night back to Nayeon's image on her screen when the girl waves at the camera with a wide happy smile.
She finds out that Nayeon is really close to her viewers and that she knows the names of those who donate her money by heart. It doesn't take her long until she makes herself an account on the website and starts leaving comments on Nayeon's streams. At first, they're not very creative. And not very sexual either. She asks Nayeon about how her day went, tells her about hers and gives her a few compliments- nothing much, Mina just tells her she likes the new lipstick the camgirl bought or that her smile illuminates her day and it never fails to make Nayeon smile and blush as she whispers a small thank you.
But Mina gets more and more confident and in the span of three days, the nature of her comments change a bit. Most of them now have to do with whatever Nayeon is doing or what Mina wishes she would do. It never is an order, of course, but only a mere suggestion. And the first time Nayeon decides to follow Mina's comment and starts fucking herself with the new toy one of her viewers bought for her, the biggest one she owns, satisfying her size kink just the right way, Mina can't help but come on the spot.
So if Mina had donated just enough money to Nayeon so that she could reach her goal and buy nipple clamps, what about it ? She might need to pass on eating there meals a day for two or three days but choices had to be made and she certainly does not regret her choice when Nayeon excitedly opens the package and a wide smile graces her lips as she shows her viewers her new toys.
(The whimpers it brings from her also play a big part in Mina being happy about her investment. And she finds out thanks to them that Nayeon's light pink nipples are way too sensitive not to get the attention that they deserve.)
She's doing pretty well actually. She avoids Nayeon during the day which is a bit hard but she spends as little as possible time on campus and tells Momo she has to study for her exams- which is true for the most part- when the girl asks her to eat lunch with them and it makes it easier for her not to get too close to her crush.
Problems only arise when Momo texts her on a Saturday afternoon to remind her of game night and gives her Nayeon's address, telling her that she can't receive them in her apartment. She can't believe she forgot about this. Can't believe she's going to have to spend the entire evening with the girl that's been occupying her every thoughts, most of them dirty.
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Nayeon's apartment is a lot bigger than Mina's and also a lot more modern. It's exactly what Mina had expected Nayeon to live in. Classy and beautiful. When she arrives, Momo isn't there yet. And Nayeon opens the door in a casual outfit, with high waisted jeans and a thin red t-shirt. It is rare for Mina to see her look like this, so refreshed and relaxed, but Mina decides that she really likes this other side of Nayeon as well.
She's not expecting Nayeon's hands on her shoulders and gasps when the girl tries to help her take her coat off.
"Sorry, I forgot you're not a big fan of human contact." Nayeon genuinely looks sorry and immediately yanks her hands away from the girl's shoulders. It kind of breaks Mina's heart- Nayeon shouldn't feel rejected because of her and how shy she gets around her. The hurt in her eyes is clear no matter how much she tries to hide it by looking away.
"I-It's alright. I just didn't expect it but it's alright. No need to apologize."
She takes her coat off and places it on a chair before joining Nayeon on the couch. They both wait for Momo in silence at first but it doesn't last. The more time passes the more awkward it gets for the both of them and Nayeon quickly has enough of it, breaking the silence by telling Mina they can start without Momo if she shows her how to play.
With a light nod, Mina agrees to Nayeon's proposition and does just that, forgetting that Momo isn't there to make the mood lighter as she has always had the role of the link between them both. She grabs a controller and Nayeon does the same, she starts playing and guides Nayeon during each and every step of the game, giving her small advices here and there.
Nayeon is so bad at it Mina can't help but laugh as she fails to suppress her laugh for the third time now. Her character keeps on dying as soon as it spawns and without Mina, they would have lost a long time ago. But Nayeon is still having fun- spending time with Mina and seeing her finally getting more comfortable with her could only bring her happiness.
Neither of them think about Momo's absence and they're so focused on the game and on eating the pizza Nayeon ordered that they miss the text sent by their friend apologizing for not being able to come due to her grandmother having come to see her. They only find the text when Mina finally stops playing to check her phone. But their night definitely doesn't stop there.
"You're so cute." Nayeon says with a genuine wide smile Mina knows all too well now. "I never really got to tell you this because you're always looking away when I'm there and I know that's because you're shy but... you really are the sweetest girl I've ever had the chance of meeting."
Mina doesn't know what to say. She has a feeling that Nayeon's words aren't completly innocent and sure, she's never been an expert when it comes to friendships but she's pretty sure that's not something a friend would say to another one on such a serious tone.
"T-Thank you." She says in a small voice, her usual shy self now back. "Well, I am nowhere near as pretty as you are. But thank you nonetheless."
And the smile that appears on Nayeon's face is one Mina has never yet seen. She wonders if that is true happiness but knows there's no way to find out anyway.
"You know, Mina... I genuinely hope we can get closer from now on. I like you a lot and have always thought you hated me and only accepted my presence because of Momo but after tonight, I have a feeling that's not entirely true. That perhaps you like me too."
"Of course I do!" Nayeon lets out a light laugh when she sees Mina playing with the long sleeves of her sweater nervously the way she always does when Nayeon is in her presence. "It's hard not to if I were to be honest."
"Great then." She slowly brings her hand to Mina's, pushing the sleeve back just enough for her hand to appear and for Nayeon to gently grab it in hers. "I'm glad."
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On the same evening, when Mina arrives home and goes to take a shower, her mind is an absolute mess. She doesn't understand what happened and is pretty sure the words she heard Nayeon pronounce were from her imagination. There was no other explanation.
She stays under the showerhead for a long time, knowing she will probably be blaming herself for it when her water bills will arrive. It allows her to empty her mind for a few minutes and relax which is something she hasn't had the occasion of doing in quite some time now.
When her eyes land on her laptop once she's out of the shower and dressed in her usual pajamas, she can't help but to start thinking about Nayeon again. And as always, she does not resist for much longer and settles comfortably on her bed to go on her now favorite website, not expecting Nayeon to be there after the evening they've just had.
And yet she is staring back at her on the screen, not in her bedroom but on the couch Mina had been sitting on no more than an hour earlier.
"- don't think she would be interested in my like this, you know. There's nothing really amazing about me, she's so much better at everything."
Mina doesn't know who or what Nayeon is talking about but she immediately brings her hands to her keyboard to deny her words. How could anyone be better than her ? Where is the usually confident girl Mina is used to ?
"Thank you for your nice comments. It really means a lot."
Then the camera that was focused on her face zooms out and Nayeon's full body appears on the screen. Mina chokes on air when she sees what Nayeon is wearing.
"I bought this yesterday... It's her favorite color." She says while showing off her body clad in a mint green babydoll that look so sinful Mina can't even find strength in herself to move her fingertips over the keyboard and compliment Nayeon the way she usually does. Then what she said hits her.
Her favorite color. Mint green is her favorite color.
"I think she would like it. Well... if she liked me, that is." A small sigh escapes Nayeon's red painted mouth. "Anyways, let me take this off and show you what's underneath. That's what you want, right ?"
The teasing smirk Nayeon always has before she undresses is there as well and Mina finds herself nodding. No matter how amazing the girl looks in her favorite color, nothing can look better than Nayeon's nude form, her skin flushed with light pink and her nipples begging for attention as soon as cold air reaches them.
As Nayeon turns around to grab a pillow- one that Mina remembers had not been there before- the black haired girl pauses when she sees something in the corner of the screen. Something that looks a lot like her coat, the one she put on a chair and might have forgotten on her way out. It feels so... odd and is a bit of a turn on. To know that a part of her is still there, physically right next to Nayeon and that it doesn't bother the girl one bit. She thinks she's going to die when Nayeon asks to bring her back the coat and already knows she won't be able to look at her.
Nayeon comes fairly quickly on this night, rolling her hips on her pillow and rubbing her clit at the same time to bring herself to a fast and strong orgasm, exactly what she needed after a long day. And Mina tries not to wonder about why Nayeon was so wet, tries not to think the girl has been this turned on since she was at the apartment. Mina remembers how Nayeon bit her bottom lip everytime she got close to her to help her use the controller and she remembers how she shuddered when Mina's hand accidentally brushed her shoulder and her arm. Would it be crazy to think she played a part in Nayeon getting so turned on, in Nayeon getting herself off without any difficulty and a light brush of her own fingers.
Mina doesn't sleep until the early hours of the morning. Nayeon and sleep definitely aren't a good combination.
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Nayeon dreams about Mina wanting her that night. But she doesn't seriously think that Mina does. Although that doesn't stop her from wishing.