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Jisung could still remember when they first started this whole thing. It was back in their trainee days, when everyone was stressed to their maximum and had no way of relaxing besides eating their anger away. But since, they had to keep their bodies fit, Jisung knew better than do any of that. It wasn’t rare for trainees to be scolded for gaining weight, and he didn’t wanna deal with any of that on top of his problems.
So, most of the trainees had to get quite creative when it came down to blowing off steam. The most common way to that, you may ask? Fucking. Yes, the sweet pleasure of having sex. Of course, it had to be done in absolute secret and with no feelings involved, since it prohibited by the company. It had been made very clear by everyone. Anyone who got caught dating or having any sort of sexual slash romantic relationships, would immediately get cut from the company.
Jisung could understand why they would prohibit such thing. They were working with horny teenagers after all and wanted to avoid any sorts of scandals later on in the debuting process, which happened often. But what they didn’t know about, couldn’t hurt, right? So, the trainees kept on doing their horny duties anyway, but this time with maximum secrecy.
And, just like anyone out there, Jisung was no different. He wanted to fuck away his problems like everyone else. He felt needy and he couldn’t think of anything else that would help him relax other than doing what most teenagers do at this age.
But, of course, Jisung was still to afraid to anything. He was very aware that any dating scandals for him would be immediately worst, since he was not very straight. If he got caught doing anything less than friendly with another boy, not only he would be kicked out of the company, but the rumors would make it impossible for him to debut in any other company. So, it was only logical, he was struggling with what decision to make.
The rapper still wanted to do it, don’t get him wrong, he just wanted to do with someone he could trust and that he knew would never tell anyone about it. Because once an outsider knew, everyone did. It was too risky.
So, the problem had how to find someone that shared his interests and was also trustworthy.
And that came to be Minho, for Jisung’s surprise at the time.
Jisung never thought of the dancer as someone who would be interested in him. They worked together, practiced together and even dreamed of debuting in the same group, but they were never the type to talk much about their personal life and interests.
That’s why, it came to such a surprise when Jisung had caught Minho making out with another trainee in their practice room. He didn’t intend to look, really. It was late and he was just coming back from the studio he had been with Chan. He was tired and just wanted to head home but had remembered he had forgot his phone’s charger in the dance practice room.
Not many people stayed in the company that late, and if they did, it was never in the dance practice rooms. That’s why, he didn’t even think before coming into the room with no care. He didn’t expect to find Minho, of all people, against the mirrored wall, fully making out with another boy.
Jisung didn’t even try to move away and out of the room. He had been so shocked, he just stood there, looking directly at Minho, as if he had seen the ghost of his great grandfather. He never knew Minho liked boys in the first place! Sure, he didn’t exactly act as the stereotyped unbreakable figure of a straight man from the 90’s either, but Jisung didn’t think he had ever showed anything that could paint him as gay. To be fair, Jisung didn’t know he was actually bisexual at the time. Minho only told him about it a couple weeks later after that.
But, what really shocked Jisung enough to make this moment remarkable was the fact that, even after Minho noticed Jisung’s presence in the room, he didn’t stop his movements. Minho kept making out with that random trainee, while staring at Jisung with half-lidded eyes. He didn’t seem to be bothered by the fact that another person was watching him in such an intimate moment.
And that should have not turned Jisung on. But Jisung was one of the many horny teenagers in the company after all. He couldn’t deny that anything could turn hm on at this point.
But after a while, Minho must’ve started to get bored of the whole thing, because he pushed the boy slightly and turned to Jisung.
“Jisung.” He said, his voice hoarse. “I thought he had already headed home earlier.”
The other trainee turned around to look at who Minho was talking to, and upon seeing the boy standing in the entrance, tried to cover his face with his hand and run past him. He was probably afraid of Jisung recognizing him and spreading rumors around. Jisung couldn’t blame him.
But now, he was alone with Minho, who was still standing against the mirror, looking like nothing was happening.
“Not even a good night.” The boy said, with a cocky giggle. “I shouldn’t have expected more.”
Jisung couldn’t say anything. He was still trying to understand what was happening. His heart had calmed a little bit down from the shock, but the awkwardness that followed was no better. What was he supposed to say at these sorts of moments? This was just so weird for him.
“Come on.” Said Minho, calmly, while walking towards his friend. “It’s late. We can walk to the dorms together.”
Jisung didn’t really know what to say, so he just nodded and went along. Minho didn’t seem affected by any of this though.
During said walk. Jisung felt the mood get even worse. The silence was unbearable, although he seemed to be the only one to notice it.
“I’m sorry.” He said, trying to start conversation. “For walking in on you. I didn’t know you were there.”
Minho laughed.
“It’s okay. I was getting bored anyway. He wasn’t all that good at kissing.” The dancer revealed without care.
Jisung nodded with an awkward smile. Hearing Minho tell him about these sorts of personal things was something he was definitely not used to. Minho never really talked about relationships or his any of his experiences with kissing people, so no wonder Jisung was a bit confused with how to act.
“Aren’t you scared?” he asked, anyways. Jisung couldn’t say he wasn’t curious about this whole thing. Not only, he was finding out about a part of Minho he wasn’t aware before, but he wanted to know how the boy could just do these sorts of things without fearing the consequences. “Of getting caught or having other people find out? This is something that could get you kicked out, you know…”
Minho sighed, contrasting to his earlier, more confident behavior. He still had a small smile on his face, but it didn’t look all that energetic anymore.
“Of course, I am, Jisung.” He answered. “Who isn’t? We all know that this sort of thing could ruin someone’s entire career. I’m no exception. But I trust you. I know you would never tell anyone. You know how it feels like.”
With that last part, Jisung stopped walking.
“How could you know that I wouldn’t tell anyone? I could, you know?”
Minho turned around, rolling his eyes.
“Are you kidding me?” he said. “Jisung, honey. Having the word ‘homosexual’ spelled on your forehead couldn’t make it more obvious.”
Well… Yes, but Jisung didn’t think Minho would ever notice that out of all things. But, he figures, people can always recognize other alike.
“Fine.” Jisung said with an annoyed look on his face. “Was your friend also that obvious?”
Minho laughed.
“That guy?” he asked, mockingly. “Oh, no. He still insists that he’s absolutely straight without question. But he said that I looked pretty so he wanted to do it with me. I call it bullshit, but I was bored so, why not?”
Jisung thought the whole thing was hilarious. How could one say he’s “absolutely straight” and then ask to make out with another guy? How can one be this dense to his own feelings?
“Well, I’m sure he’ll start questioning his actions from now on.” The rapper said, going along with the conversation. “I don’t think he’ll do it again soon though. He might be too scared now that he got caught by me.”
Minho shrugged.
“I don’t mind.” He revealed. “I wasn’t planning on doing it again anyway. I don’t usually hook up with straight guys. They’re always too afraid to do things properly. And they don’t care if I finish either. Those types of guys only care about their own pleasure. I would be just a mere toy on his hands. And I don’t go through all this trouble to just not get off.”
Jisung felt like the conversation was starting to take a more intimate mood. They have never talked about things like this. But, Jisung was so curious. He wanted to know more about Minho. Now that he knew the boy was interested in guys, he thought he could have a chance with him. Maybe.
“Did you like it though?” he asked, feeling suddenly bold. “You looked like you were enjoying it.”
Minho looked at Jisung, side eyeing him. He probably could feel the different mood settling in. He didn’t say anything about it though.
“I did, at first.” The dancer started. “But I could feel his hesitance. I knew a simple make out session was all he could do before panicking. It wouldn’t go very far, and I… I wanted to do more…”
Jisung felt a shiver go down his spine when he heard Minho saying that. He knew what that was implying. The rapper could already imagine Minho getting hard from just kisses and trying to grind on his leg, hungrily.
“Do you still want to do more?” he asked.
He didn’t really expect Minho do respond. Jisung was ready to get rejected. After all, why would a experienced gorgeous boy like Minho would want anything with a virgin like Jisung? It didn’t make any sense.
“Yes.” The dancer said, with a shake tone. “I do, actually.”
And that’s how they both ended up making out for the first time in a dimly lighted alley, while grinding on each other’s legs against a wall. Since it was already so late, they were rushing through it, and Jisung could tell his back was going to hurt the next day from standing against such an uneven wall, but he couldn’t care at that moment.
Minho’s moans were simply heavenly. Jisung wanted to hear so much more. He almost couldn’t believe he was the one that had caused this.
And this was when it all started. Them sneaking out and away from the other trainees to get each other off. Jisung could tell they both started to look much happier and brighter, since now they had a way to relax. Other trainees might also have noticed but they both knew there was no way they prove anything. The weren’t so scared anymore.
Jisung lost his virginity with Minho a while after they had started to mess around with each other. He had been so nervous, but Minho was very gentle and prepped him well. He barely felt pain at all.
But he knew this would end up well, when he started noticing that his feelings for the dance were starting to change from just simple sexual attraction. He liked him more than just a friend with benefits now, and that’s what scared him the most. He knew Minho didn’t feel the same. The dancer made it clear to him when they first started that he was not looking for a relationship and that this was supposed to be a no attachments thing.
Jisung had already broken that rule the moment he let Minho kiss him in that dark alley the first night. It had all been a mistake.