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Naruto was absolutely stunned. He may only be five years old, but this swelling in his chest couldn't be anything other than love. The girl across the school yard was the prettiest thing he'd ever seen with her dark hair that framed her pale face and pitch black eyes that looked so cool and yet so deep.
Yes, Naruto was beyond smitten by the moment he laid his eyes on her. He was new to this school and didn't have any friends, and judging by her solitude, neither did she.
Unlike the other girls, she didn't wear as feminine outfits in the form of skirts or dresses. But she was still stunning with her dark, long eyelashes that made her eyes pop.
Most of the time she wore a frown on her face and avoided talking to anyone. Then again, no one really spoke to her either. Mostly she sat alone next to the fence during playtime and in the classroom she kept her head down to focus on whatever book was up at the time. Maybe that's what earned her such good grades.
Yeah that's right. The love of his life was not only unbelievably beautiful, but a genius as well. Naruto couldn't stop marveling at her. When she walked she always held her head up high, as if she took pride in every step. In gym class she could always throw the balls far and run faster than anyone.
Naruto was spellbound, to the point where he couldn't stop thinking about her. Every day he'd steal glances but whenever she looked up he quickly darted his eyes away, not wanting her to know how he sometimes stared at her.
Whenever they were close Naruto's heart started beating wildly and his cheeks would feel warm. Being near was both agonising as well as uplifting. Even though they had never spoken a single word to each other, Naruto knew he was head over heels.
So one day, he decided to be brave. It was early spring and little flowers had bloomed in the corner of the playground at school. With a goofy smile Naruto picked a couple and made his way over to where the other kids were.
He stopped dead in his tracks when he saw her crossing the yard. His beating heart slammed against his ribcage, but he had made up his mind. So with a deep breath he ran over to her.
"Hey!" He shouted, maybe a little louder than he intended. The girl stopped and turned to look at him with a raised eyebrow, clearly confused as to why anyone was talking to her.
"Um…." Naruto started, immediately feeling the nerves tensing his throat, making it hard to speak. He swallowed before Goulding out the flowers between them. "I-I think you're really pretty! And cool and smart! And I wanted you to know-uh, that I like you! Like, like-like you!"
Naruto had yet again spoken a bit louder than he intended, but it seemed like the only way to get any words out. The girl stared. The slight annoyed and confused look had passed as she was left with the expression of being completely floored by the confession. Naruto stated back, seeing his trembling hand slightly shake the flowers in front of her. He was waiting, not knowing what else to do than wait for an answer.
Suddenly, one kid burst out laughing. Naruto glanced over. Much to his dismay, his confession had apparently been heard by many, as the shocked school yard was staring at them both. Except for the one kid who was laughing. Naruto frowned at him. Sure it was a bit embarrassing to have done this in front of so many people, but what was he laughing about? Could anyone blame him for falling in love with the prettiest and smartest girl in the entire school?
"He fell for a guy!" The laughing kid said between snorts and soon the giggles started erupting all over.
Naruto's frown went deeper. Who fell for a guy? Who's the guy? Some cold sweat started to run down his back as he slowly turned to look back at the love of his life.
He looked at her, for the first time really up close. The eyelashes were still long, the hair silky smooth, the skin pale and the eyes dark and mysterious. The beauty in front of him hadn't changed, but something inside Naruto had.
"Who are you?" The voice coming from the pale beauty made it all so clear, and probably would've done so sooner if Naruto had heard him speak before this.
She was a he.
Naruto's heart sank. The sweat burst out on his forehead and his mouth fell open in a soundless scream. The giggles around him angered the shame and embarrassment inside him and before he knew it, the flowers in his hand collided with the other boy's face.
"I hate you! I hate you! You're a bastard!" Naruto shouted at the top of his lungs as the boy was clearing his face and hair from the flowers that had just been thrown at him with a scowl.
Then Naruto turned around and bolted out of there, leaving everyone behind.
12 years later
“You rat bastard!” Naruto shouted as he pressed harder on the buttons on the controller.
“Just because I’m kicking your ass doesn’t mean I’m a bastard.” Sasuke responded with a smirk.
“Shut up! You’ve always been a bastard!” Naruto said as his eyes were glued on the screen where the digital fight between them took place. When they had started both had been sitting on Sasuke’s bed, but as the battle got more intense Naruto had slid down on the floor. He thought the firm ground stabilised him better. Sasuke had laughed at him, but soon joined in.
“Well soon you’re gonna call me the winner.” Sasuke said and landed another punch on Naruto’s character.
“Not if I-” Naruto started, but got interrupted by the K.O on the screen as Sasuke had managed to land a double combo hit and taken out Naruto in a final blow. “Damn it!” Naruto cursed. Sasuke laughed.
“You know I’m better at this game than you.” Naruto glared at him. He never wanted to admit it, but in this particular game Sasuke won every nine out of ten fights. Naruto thought he one day would surpass him, but it didn’t seem to be the case. To be fair, throughout the years it was clear that Naruto was good at some games, and Sasuke was good at others. Despite that, both were competitive, especially against each other and always wanted to win. Spending every day together didn’t lessen that fire between them.
It was true, he and Naruto hadn’t spent a day apart for over ten years. Even before they had become friends and saw each other as mortal enemies, they had spoken at least once every day. Even if the words used had been anything other than pleasant.
After Naruto’s embarrassing incident of confessing to what happened to be a boy, his shame saw no bounds and he started to act up against Sasuke all the time. Maybe to confirm that he hadn’t had a crush on a boy and to bury his embarrassment under the name calling and punching. Sasuke had of course responded with an equal amount of name calling and punching. No way that a stubborn bastard like him would take that crap laying down.
It had taken a while for Naruto to get over the pain of his lost crush. Especially when the beauty that had once captured him was somewhat still there. It had just turned into a boy. Naruto had cried into his pillow that first night.
But eventually the embarrassment had faded and thus they were hitting each other as well. Little by little they started talking, especially through all the times spent in the time out corner together. Seeing how competitive they both were, they often played games and sooner than later, they had become friends. Friends that followed each other all the way up to high school to spend their school days together just as much as their free time. Sure they had other friends by now, but it was always Sasuke’s shoulder Naruto would hang on.
“Fuck off. I wanna play something else.” Naruto said with a pout.
“You’re such a sore loser.” Sasuke said, but with a smile on his face.
“Like you’re any better.” Naruto said.
“Maybe not. Good thing then I always win.” Sasuke said, sitting up straight to gain height over Naruto.
“You do not!”
“Yes I do.”
“No you don’t!” Naruto said before leaning over to wrestle Sasuke to the ground. Sasuke struggled, but with Naruto’s surprise attack he had managed to gain a steady gripon Sasuke’s arms to help hold him in place. Naruto smiled down at his friend. “See? I got you.”
“That wasn’t a fair fight.” Sasuke said with a frown. Naruto lowered his face to look intensely at Sasuke with a grin.
“Maybe you’re just a sore loser,” he said mockingly. With a grunt, Sasuke suddenly wrapped his legs around Naruto’s waist and with a flip managed to roll them around to switch positions. Now it was Sasuke who grinned.
“Maybe that’s what makes me work harder.” Naruto first blinked at him in surprise at the movement. Then he smiled amused. With a quick grip on Sasuke’s arms he managed to pull him down and they rolled around a few times before Naruto laid pressed down on Sasuke. Keeping him in place with his body weight. His hands held Sasuke’s hands steady against the ground and their faces so close that their noses almost touched.
“I win.” Naruto said mockingly, feeling himself pant slightly from the intense wrestling. Sasuke was breathing heavily as well, clearly also having just worked hard in their battle on the floor.
Naruto wasn’t sure what happened. He had looked into Sasuke’s eyes many times, but maybe not this close. Never at a moment where Sasuke had nowhere to go and was forced to keep still for Naruto to really stare deep into them.
In that second, his heart swelled, much like it had done that day on the playground when he had seen what he thought was the most beautiful girl in the world. Sasuke’s long lashes still made his dark and mysterious eyes pop, the only difference now was that those eyes didn’t just hold the beauty Naruto had seen since the first day they met. Now they also held the kindness he knew from his best friend.
Maybe it was the warm breath that Sasuke was puffing out that tickled Naruto’s lips that made him do it. That made him aware of Sasuke’s lips in the first place. But whatever it was made him lean in the rest of the way to graze Sasuke ever so slightly. Sasuke’s lips felt soft and as Naruto moved his own against them, an electric shock flew down his spine.
He heard Sasuke suck in a breath, and as Naruto had moved to the corner of Sasuke’s mouth, he leaned up to press firmer against Naruto. Not by much, but enough for Naruto to slide his lips back over Sasuke’s to this time meet him in a slight kiss.
Naruto hummed silently as the not only soft, but surprisingly warm lips met his own and he couldn’t help but to press down a little firmer himself. Now it was a proper kiss, a real kiss. One that no one could dispute was a kiss and that was enough for Naruto’s eyes to fall and his hands to loosen their grip on Sasuke’s hands to slide his fingers in between his.
Naruto felt Sasuke part his lips slightly and even though his brain was lost to all thoughts, Naruto parted his own. He moved his with Sasuke’s, almost as if to explore every inch of those sweet lips. Wanting to see if they actually were sweet, Naruto carefully let his tougue subtly graze Sasuke’s lips.
But despite only carefully taking a taste, Sasuke had felt it and suddenly Naruto’s touge met Sasuke’s. Without meaning to, Naruto let out a gasp in surprise and Sasuke’s tongue moved inside his mouth. That triggered a heat to explode inside Naruto as he pressed himself harder against Sasuke while his own tongue tasted Sasuke’s upper lip, down to his bottom and along all of Sasuke’s touge.
Sasuke made a noise, one that could only be described as a moan. Naruto had to choke back a sound of his own as a response to the sound. He wanted more, needed more. He shifted to make himself lay higher up to maybe be able to kiss Sasuke deeper.
That’s where he moved over a bulge in Sasuke’s pants. And it was only then he discovered, or rather realised, that he had one of his own, because it rubbed up against Sasuke’s. Naruto didn’t have time to be shocked, his mind was lost and distracted. Sasuke groaned as Naruto rubbed up against him.
That sent vibrations through Naruto’s body and without so much as a second to spare, he grinds down against Sasuke’s pelvis. As Sasuke sucked on Naruto’s bottom lip as he whimpered, Naruto shuddered and started grinding harder. His hands slid off Sasuke’s and immediately found a hard grip on his hips to hold him steady. He could feel Sasuke’s hands come up to rest around his neck and his skin burned where he could feel Sasuke’s cold fingertips against him.
Naruto started gasping as he did his best to keep exploring Sasuke’s mouth. He was warm and every movement and sound Sasuke did just caused him to move faster and more intensely. By this point there was no ignoring the erection he sported in his pants. It caused heat waves down into his trembling thighs as it pressed and rubbed against Sasuke’s hard cock, despite layers of clothes between them.
Naruto clawed at Sasuke’s hips as he felt his groin really start to contract. The pit of his stomach was tingling and before he could ease the pressure, a low groan erupted from his throat into Sasuke’s mouth. He dug his fingers hard into Sasuke’s hips as he kept rubbing down slowly and hard against Sasuke while wave after wave shot through his body.
As the waves got fewer between and less intense, Naruto eased the grinding until he was able to lift his shaky hips a little from the warm body under him. Naruto had stopped the kissing to only gasp for breath, while feeling Sasuke’s lips move against his despite not receiving kisses in return.
In an instant, Naruto’s eyes flew open to see Sasuke’s closed ones. As quickly as if he had been shot, Naruto jumped into a sitting position and stared down at the red faced panting boy he had pressed down onto the floor. Sasuke blinked surprised at him. Those dark eyes that had captivated him from the beginning were staring at him intensely.
Naruto’s swollen lips trembled as he tried to find words, but it seemed hard to do. While his brain had regained somewhat of a consciousness after he had found some release from the tension, it wasn’t at full speed yet.
“Uh…” Naruto said as he realised how his fingers were still digging into Sasuke’s hips and pulled them away as if he had been burnt. “I-I uh…” Naruto kept mumbling as he got up to stand on his wobbling legs and managed to just in time grasp hold of the edge of the bed so as not to fall over. He took a few steps back from Sasuke who slowly sat up into a sitting position and pulled his legs up, resting his arms on his knees. They didn’t make eye contact.
“I should go.” Naruto eventually went out and in a hectic manner looked for his bag and jacket. For the first time in the decade that he had come over to Sasuke’s place, he was angry at himself for being so disorganised. His escape would’ve been a lot quicker if he had known where everything was.
“Okay.” Sasuke said, but nothing more. Naruto started to feel the panic coming over him as the tension in the air grew thicker and thanked the god above when he found his stuff, scattered across each side of the room.
“I-See you tomorrow.” Naruto flashed him a crooked smile, trying to act as normal as one possibly could be in the situation. Naruto didn’t have time to see if Sasuke nodded in return before he bolted out of Sasuke’s apartment.
He ran down the stairs, down the street, down the block before he slowed down to catch his breath. His still shaky knees ached now and it wasn’t until he had stopped he realised how awfully wet and sticky his jeans felt. That’s when he looked down to his crotch and with a lump in his throat realised what the dark spot on his pants was from.
Trying to take calming breaths, Naruto pulled his hoodie off and tied it around his waist, letting the sleeves shief the embarrassment in his pants. No one he would meet on his way home needed to know that he had just ejaculated in his pants. And especially that he had done so when grinding against his friend. His best friend. His male best friend. His male best friend that he had pushed down against the floor and without asking had violated for his own gain. His own unplanned, really unwanted gain.
Naruto smacked his hands against his burning cheeks as he pierced his eyes onto the concrete he was standing on. What the hell was that? What happened? Never in his life had he even had the idea of doing something like that.
He wasn’t gay. He wasn’t attracted to his friend. And while he was a hormonal teenage boy who dreamt of the day when he could have sex, he would never have seen himself as someone who assaults people. Especially guys. Especially his best friend.
With a shout Naruto let out a frustrated scream to the sky. What was he going to do now? He had to apologise to Sasuke. Then he wanted to forget the whole thing had ever even happened. If he could.
But first, he wanted to get home and get out of these wet pants.