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Each step, every movement forgotten by them. Was it worth it to lose the only people he had left? Was it worth- was it worth choosing the right thing?
Not really, but it was still for the better.
His push of a doorknob, the creak from opening the door. It’s all too much, but too little. The cloudy sky, people chatting and partying and loving. Ned and MJ loving - without him. He can’t handle it, can’t contain the emotions it gives him but they still leave him so indescribably empty. A feeling that he’s felt before but never as long as this. Never as long as “forever”. A feeling that is unable to escape his heart for the rest of his lifetime.
The empty apartment of his, papers thrown and shredded all over with the blinds completely closed. The messy bed, stitched together and stained with red no matter how much he’s attempted to scrub it off. He knows nothing will wash it away but he tries anyway. The counter corner taken over by spiderwebs - his fridge being ridiculously empty, only containing expired food and a singular dessert.
He steps into the room, the constant groans of the floor increasing with every labored breath. Shrugging off his battered bag, and removing his ripped-at-the-seams coat. The sting his leg gets from moving too much, still not completely healed. His spider-man suit peeking out his collar and sleeves as he reaches for the fridge handle. Opening the fridge, taking out and opening the only dessert contained.
He takes the cupcake out of the package and flings the plastic remains into a sagging bag of trash. He grabs a small candle and lighter, gently sticking it into the frosting and lighting it up. The fire being the only source of light in the room, giving a small sense of warmth to Peter’s bleeding face.
The coffee cup and lego figure next to him, filling up the spot Ned and MJ would’ve had, if Peter were to still be so careless. Still so willing to let them be in danger.
He blows the candle out, leaving the room in a dark drape that only he can navigate.
He leaves the cupcake in the trash.