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Tommys pov:
I woke up and looked at my phone 7:53 It read. ‘Ugh 8 minutes til the among us stream.’ I thought about rolling out of my bed. I got up and went to the bathroom. I had a t-shirt on which I definitely needed to change out of. Why you might ask, well because my arms look like zebras. Or better explained, I have a lot of scars.. you know.. self inflicted scars.. I put on a hoodie and some sweatpants and went and sat up my steam gear. I went down to my messy kitchen. And again, you might think ‘Why aren't your parents cleaning it up then??’ Well because when my carrier started taking off and they knew i had enough money to fend for myself they simply left. I went to get some painkillers for my headache and mentally prepared myself for an awful stream. The stream started as the usual. I went on a voice call with:
Wilbur
Tenco
Phil
Tubbo
George
Dream
Sapnap
Bad
Karl
We were exactly 10. A nd so we started playing. A good 20 minutes later, Wilbur held an emergency meeting . " Listen guys, I say we vote of T ommy because then we will get rid of the annoying child.”Wilbur said playfully. Everyone agreed and I yelled “I'm no child, I'm a big man, and if I get voted off for being annoying, then you have to vote off Tubbo too, because he is also a child and very annoying! " They all just laughed and voted me off. After the round, Wilbur and Tubbo were revealed to be the imposters. We played a couple of rounds and every time Wilbur would make an emergency meeting just to come up with some dumb reason why I should be voted off. And everytime they all laughed and agreed to vote me out. After a while, I got tired so every time he accused me I just stayed quiet. My chat noticed something was off and started spanning W ilburs chat about it. This time, when Wilbur pressed the emergency button, I zoned out.
Wilburs pov:
My chat were going crazy saying Tommy looked sad. I pressed the emergency meeting button and was immediately met with Sapnap saying “So why should we vote tommy off this time??” “That's not why I pressed the button.” I said. “So why did you press it then?” Tubbo said a bit confused. “You alright there tommy?” I asked, ignoring Tubbo. No response. “Tommy you alright?” Phil said in a more confused tone. Still no response. Then suddenly my chat blew up with concerns about tommy.
A\n these are made up usernames.
RattyWilbur: Tommys crying?!
SexyKneeKaps69: Omg is he alright??
Woodycore83448: Wilbur help Tommy.
DSMP_Is_Best: Omg what is happening-
Wait, was Tommy crying? I thought I went to his steam and clicked on it sure enough Tommy was sitting there and he was definitely crying. He looked to be in some sort of trance. Suddenly he looked at the monitor again and ended the stream. I quickly ended mine and left the voice chat. Everyone did the same, still quite confused. I texted the DSMP group chat.
WilburSoot: Tommy, seriously are you ok?
Tecnoblade: Wil and Tommy why did you end the stream?
Dream: What's happening guys?
WilburSoot: Tommy was crying on stream.
Tubbo_: Really is that why he ended stream?!
BadBoyHalo: Omg i hope hes ok..
TommyInnit: I'm fine.
WilburSoot: Omg Tommy why did you cry on stream did something happen?
TommyInnit: No it's nothing, I'm fine.
WilburSoot: Alr…
No one's Pov:
Tommy knew Wilbur would not believe him
‘Omg how useless can you possibly be? You had ONE job and that was to not let them find out, I guess you are just a failure. ’
The voice was right, he thought. He made his way to the bathroom and began searching his drawers until he found it.. a razor blade. He counted 1.. 2.. 3.. 4.. 5.. 6… and suddenly there were 15 cuts on each arm. He patched his arms up and changed into some comfy clothes before making his way to his bed, falling asleep almost instantly as his head hit the pillow.
Wilburs Pov:
Something was definitely up with Tommy, but what exactly? I messaged another group chat we had containing:
Me(Wilbur)
Tecno
Phil
Dream
George
Sapnap
Karl
Quackity
WilburSoot: Guys I think something is up with tommy.
Quackity: Yeah I saw the stream. Is he okay?
Technoblade: He seemed kinda off, what should we do?
Karl: I just hope he's okay :(
George: We all do.
Dream: I can fly over if yall want? To you know check up on him?
Phil: Should we all meet up? I have a few spare rooms if you want?
Sapnap: Sure, I don't think it will be a problem.
WilburSoot: Alr sounds like a plan.
Phil: I will send you guys the details.
Tommy pov:
I woke up to a light buzzing. And when I tried squinting my eyes the light shone in my eyes and I quickly shut them again. Closing my eyes made me feel relaxed, something I never really felt anymore. I was quickly awoken by a light buzzing again. I felt around in my bed and quickly found my phone that apparently had been buzzing. I looked at the person that had tried calling me 2 times and was a bit confused as to why Phil had tried to call. My mind began racing at 100 km a second anxiously making up scenarios to why he would call me, and 2 times. He didn't even release the buzzing until it began buzzing again. He quickly answered and was met with an exciting hello from Phil.
This is how the call went:
Phil: Hello Tommy!
Tommy: Hi Philza!!
Phil: You little shit, but anyway me and some other people were thinking about having a meet up. It will of course be at my house so you don't have to fly. Someone will probably pick you up, though you need to ask your parents of course. Are there any questions?
Third person pov:
Tommy had a lot of questions like: Who would be there? Do you need to talk to my parents first? Why so suddenly? Is everything ok? He was suddenly broken from his thoughts by phil calling for him
Phil: -llo?
Tommy: Hmm? Sorry I just zoned out a bit, so what were you saying?
Phil: You alright mate? You were out for a long time..
Tommy: No i'm alright should i ask my parents for permission to go.?
Phil: Yeah probably, see you later and update me if you can come or not!
Tommy: Ok! bye Phil!
Well that went great? he thought to himself sarcastically. Tommy knew that his parents didn't care at all if he went or not so he would just call Phil later and tell them he had permission. After a while Tommy called Phil again and explained he could go, and to make it all realistic he said that the only rule was to not do anything stupid or something. Phil took the list easily and Tommy mentally praised himself for being a good liar. And after thatphil said some bullshit about how they were going to pick him and tubbo up, but Tommy zoned out again after around 2 minutes and the only words he could seem to pick up was: Wilbur -Car- 11:30 - Tomorrow.
And based on that he assumed Wilbur was picking him up at 11:30 tomorrow. They both left the call and Tommy sat zoned out there for another three hours. Someone told him that he was dissociating, but Tommy brushed it off to that he was indeed not and was perfectly healthy. Tommy again remembered he had to pack so He went to his dresser and pulled out 3 t-shirts, 6 hoodies, some pants, socks, and boxers. He then went to the bathroom to get all the essentials and products he needed on a daily basis. And of course rome razors too. After he had packed everything He looked at the time. It was around 3 in the morning so he opted to get some sleep.
The next day he woke around ten and decided he was just going to get ready and mess around until Wilbur came to pick him up. So at 11:27 a car pulled up in his driveway and Tommy practically jumped into Wilbur's arms when he ran out to greet him. Tubbo was in the car too so I quickly put the bag in the back and went to talk to Tubbo.
Wilburs pov:
When I pulled up to Tommy's adresse came running out of the front door in a matter of seconds. He jumped into my arms and hugged me tightly. I was shocked when i held him, i was really preparing myself to be lifting a 60 kg kid, but when i held him he was closer to around 45 kg. And if that wasn't concerning enough he had dark circles around his eyes and had eyes the colour of a tomato. So he had definitely been crying. He loaded his things in the trunk of the car and went to greet tubbo. When i sat myself in the car i noticed tubbo giving me a glance that was saying “Should i say something?”
I sent him one back to not mention it and act normal. The ride was pretty quiet because Tommy seemed quite tired. After an hour and and a half he was fully asleep. When we were sure he was, Tubbo said “Why the hell does he look like that!?” in a frantic and scared voice. “Hey, i know right now this is honestly very scary, but this is one of the reasons that we planned this meetup.'' I said, trying to soothe him from his worries. And the rest of the trip was fairly quiet and peaceful, but I could see tubbo sending Tommy some worried glances. When we arrived at Phils 2 hours later me and tubbo mentally agreed we should talk to the others before waking tommy up again. When we knocked on the door. Phil opened and seemed confused as to why it was just me and tubbo.
I gestured to the car and he seemingly understood. We were led into what seemed to be a living room and there sat Tecno, Dream, George, Sapnap, Karl and Quackity. We all greeted each other and sat down. They were all looking at me expecting some kind of answer. So i started “Honestly it's pretty bad he's severely malnourished and is definitely not sleeping as well as he should be. and that's only the things we know by looking at him.” the others looked sad by my statement and Tubbo continued “Also he's not energetic anymore and zones out a lot, and almost the whole way there he barely said any words.” This broke everyone's heart where was the boy that was their little ray of sunlight. When did the rain drown him in his own pretty tears. Then Karl spoke up “Sowhat should we do? How do we even approach this?” His voice sounded broken and on the verge of tears.
Sapnap and Quackity that sat on each side of him rubbed his back and hugged him. Tecno was about to speak up when he suddenly stopped and looked shocked at me. No.. not at me but something behind me as others began to catch on to where tecno was looking. We all turned our heads to see Tommy in the doorframe looking broken and tears running down his face. Then he started yelling at us “Wht the actual fuck! Here I thought you guys were being nice and inviting me to a meet up, but noo you guys just wanted me here because you think I'm some type of stupid charity case. Whose parents have abandoned them, and they dont know what to do so they cut themselves every fucking night just to feel something and starves themselves until theyre t their brink og death, and lets not begin to talk about the sucidal thoughts!”
Tears were streaming down his face and we were all too shocked to process the information or say anything. He continued “I-i really thought you guys loved me and wanted me for who i was.. I hate you all!” And he stormed out the door. It took us some time before we all came back to our senses and Karl who seemingly seemed at the verge of a breakdown stormed to the bathroom with Sapnap and Quackity after him. Seconds later we heard someone throwing up. George stood up to go and when Dreamtried to follow he said he needed alone time. Phil stood up and helped tubbo to another room leaving me, Tecno and Dream. We all looked at each other before dream said “We need to find him.”And after that the three of us went to find tommy. Three hours later and we haven't found him Dream called Phil to say he needed to call the police. And after another two hours we stumbled across a bridge. When we were about to walk past it I saw a figure standing on the edge. I went a bit closer with Tecno and Dream right behind me and when I saw the person more clearly I yelled “TOMMY! Don't do it please..”
Tommy pov:
After I ran out I wandered around the town. I walked for what I would say was days but maybe around 4 hours before I spotted a bridge in the distance. I went on it and sat on the ledge for what I would say was about one hour trying to find reasons to continue living. When I heard yelling in the distance. “TOMMY! Don't do it please..” I turned around to see Wilbur walking towards me with hasty steps and Tecno right behind him and Dream on the phone with someone.
Wilbur stopped a few metres away from me with open arms. “Tommy, sunshine can you come here please..?” I wanted to hug him so badly, but looked down again and he immediately began to speak again. “P-please don't do this we love you all so much and it would break everyone's hearts if you did this, we can help you just please get off the ledge for me.” His voice broke when he spoke. And he took a step towards me. and I realised why am I doing this? They love me, so I turned around to face Wilbur. He had tears in his eyes. I slowly tried to climb to the other side when my foot slipped.
And I fell.
Not for long and suddenly I felt like I was floating. I opened my eyes and looked up. Tecno held onto my hand for dear life. And in a flash I was dragged up and handed carefully to Wilbur who sat himself down cradling me in his arms and we both sobbed. Tecno sat beside us and I was being held in the middle. We sat there for a while until we heard sirens. I tried to sit up but Wilbur shushed me and quietly whispered. “Sleep love, we'll be here when you wake up.”
So I did.