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It was the first time they've had sex since their recent comeback, and Hyunsuk was right on the edge of coming. Jihoon watched intently as he sped up his pace, making his thrusts more frequent and short. He could feel Hyunsuk's hands gripping at his back, jagged nails pinching his skin as he threw his head back. Jihoon had both arms pressed above Hyunsuk's head and he used one to grip his aching dick, flicking his wrist.

Just like that, it didn't take long for Hyunsuk to cum, body tensing around Jihoon's dick and ams flexing. Jihoon watched with dark eyes, taking in the sight of his boyfriend red faced and lip-bitten from when he held his moans it (it's always a disadvantage living in a dorm).

"Y-You're close?" Hyunsuk asked hoarsely, catching his eyes.

Jihoon nodded quickly and Hyunsuk rolled his hips down, causing Jihoon to curse under his breath. He knew that was permission to keep going, so he drawled back his hips before thrusting sharply in, whining at the feeling surrounding him.

As he got closer, Hyunsuk knew just what to do and pulled him down, kissing him deeply.

Hyunsuk doesn't like kissing as much, but always does it to please him. It was one of the things Jihoon loved about him. About their relationship. The give and take; the balance. Jihoon always knew when it was too much, and Hyunsuk always knew when Jihoon craved it.

Just as Hyunsuk brushed his tongue against the roof of his mouth, Jihoon snapped his hips forward one last time, orgasm taking over his body as he moaned against Hyunsuk's lips. Hyunsuk pulled him closer, body pressed against Jihoon's as he kissed him through it. It took a second before Jihoon's body filled with relief, smiling into the kiss and murmuring a soft 'thanks' to which Hyunsuk rolled his eyes and grinned.

A few moments later, Jihoon pulled out of Hyunsuk, pecking his cheek when Hyunsuk winced a bit. Jihoon took off his condom and tied it up, tossing it on the floor to which Hyunsuk smacked his arm, grimacing at his boyfriend.

"M'tired, hyung," Jihoon groaned, flopping down onto the bed.

Hyunsuk rolled his eyes, "I don't care, you have to go back to your dorm anyways so just - "

Jihoon frowned, "I thought I could sleep here..."

"We have schedules tomorrow," Hyunsuk retorted, tugging on his underwear before laying next to his boyfriend.

Jihoon stayed quiet for a minute, unsure of how to reply. He knew it was silly, but he's been feel extra clingy lately and it always hurt to leave after they have sex. It's not often they can hang out alone, so when they do, they have sex and he cherished the moments afterwards. Where they can just hang out and kiss and watch stupid movies.

And he knew it was dumb, but he loved that since they never got to do it before. They always styaed up way too late, talking and sharing small secrets. Holding hands under the covers and cuddling. Because even if they'd never admit it, they loved to cuddle (each other, at least).

"Hey," Hyunsuk interrupted his thoughts, nudging him. "Don't pout. What, are you that obsessed with me?"

He wiggled his eyebrows and Jihoon shoved him, sitting up. "You wish."

Hyunsuk watched in amusement as he stumbled to tug on his clothes. He laid on his stomach, resting his chin in the palm of his hand. He looked all cute and disheveled, short blond hair stuck up in all places. And Jihoon loved it.

"Just be glad you're not the one that's gonna be sore tomorrow," Hyunsuk murmured with a small smirk, sitting up to peck his lips.

Jihoon paused briefly, nodding, "Yeah, sure."

He waved him off after he grabbed his phone and said a quick goodnight. Then Jihoon headed to his dorms, cursing under his breath when he saw it was 2AM. He was gonna get barely 3 hours of sleep considering their schedule was early since they had to do hair and makeup.

When he arrived to the dorm, he tiptoed in and tried to quietly go to his room. However, he nearly skipped a heartbeat when he heard someone clear their throat.

Mashiho stood there, watching in amusement from the kitchen doorway. Jihoon scoffed, clenching his chest, "Jesus Christ, are you trying to give me a heartattack?"

"Says the guy stumbling in at 2AM," Mashiho retorted, sipping his tea. "Were you with hyung?"

Jihoon opened then closed his mouth before reluctantly nodding. "We uh, lost track of time."

Mashiho shrugged, looking down. "Well, just don't complain when you're exhausted tomorrow. You know we have like, eighty schedules."

"Yes, I am aware," Jihoon grumbled, walking passed his friend.

He went to his room and tossed his shirt off, throwing it onto the floor. He flopped into bed, rubbing his face with his hands in annoyance. It was going to be impossible to sleep, but he didn't want to risk not getting any shut-eye. He was style wired up after the sex. He never knew how people just pass out after, because it just gives him more energy.

When he checked his phone, the corner of his lips went up when he saw Hyunsuk sent him a photo. It was a blurry, dark picture of his laying down, eyes drowsy with a sleepy grin. With the photo, he also texted 'thx for wearing me out, see you tomorrow babe' and added a kissy emoji and a heart.

And as much as he found the picture cute, he also felt a bit of resentment. A lack of satisfaction that Hyunsuk apparently felt. He replied quickly with a 'anything for you' along with a winky emoji, then flopped back down with a heavy sigh, locking his phone.

Their relationship was so complicated. To him at least.

Hyunsuk and Jihoon started dating a year ago, and things have been going well. However, they started having sex nearly as soon as they got together. Maybe it was because both were already experienced and they knew each other as friends already, but they had sex nearly two weeks after dating.

It was great, sure a bit awkward transitioning into intimacy quickly, but overall it was in the heat of the moment and went decently well. Since then, they just started fucking any time they had the chance, and it wasn't often, but enough times to where they figured a routine out. And that was sort of the issue.

Jihoon feared they went too fast, because they never even had a chance to figure out what the other prefers. The only reason he knew Hyunsuk wasn't big into making out, was because he noticed himself. Jihoon asked him about it. Hyunsuk was always a people pleaser and didn't tell him on his own accord. Now they figured that out, but there were surely other things that have been going on unspoken.

One of the things is, Jihoon wanted to bottom.

It was something he's done only once before, and while the overall experience wasn't amazing, he knew he enjoyed it more than anything. The person was the issue, but the action was way more satisfying for him.

When he and Hyunsuk first had sex, it was so fast (embarrassingly) and Hyunsuk had instantly laid down for him. Jihoon had always topped before with his ex (aside from the one time...) and he didn't think twice of it. However, he recalled being a little disappointed since he had hoped Hyunsuk would want to top.

It was fine, don't get him wrong, and he's enjoying their sex life regardless. It won't kill him to continue on in this position, especially since Hyunsuk is getting off and well, it is nice to fuck him. Hyunsuk gets him off a lot too and it's very balanced. Plus, Hyunsuk has a nice butt and that's great.

But...he really wanted more.

It's really frustrating, because he knew he should just ask, but he's scared. Hyunsuk seems to enjoy bottoming and he didn't want to risk him leaving if he came off as ungrateful. Jihoon tries to be the perfect boyfriend and give him everything he wants, because Hyunsuk has been nothing but wonderful to him. So he figured he could just deal with it, but as their year anniversary passed, he was started to get antsy.

The sad part is, Hyunsuk doesn't seem to even considering topping or question Jihoon's position. Which was always the case. In his past relationship, it was already decided by his ex-boyfriend that he would top. Jihoon was just put in the role and it was expected. It was feeling the same way here, but he was at least more comfortable.

Jihoon spent that night researching and going on forums, barely sleeping. He wanted some advice, but he didn't have anyone in person that could help. He knew few gay friends and the ones he did know, it would be awkward to ask.

And as expected, most people said to just ask. And like, yes, obviously he should, but it was really hard for him. Jihoon felt a bit embarrassed and unsure of how to bring it up. They've never talked about it before and well, he was scared of being rejected. He knew Hyunsuk was nice, though, so he just sighed and tossed the phone to the side, putting it off for a bit.

-

It was only a couple weeks later when he finally had alone time with Hyunsuk. They've been busy with the comeback now, and Jikjin gained a lot of populairty, which nearly doubled the schedules. While comeback season was fun, anyone would agree it's the most exhausting time of the year for them.

Which is why they were in desperate need of rest and relaxation. And for them, that mainly meant fucking and sleeping. Two of Jihoon's favorite things, along with exercising of course.

Some of the members were in the other two dorms, thank god. However, they still try to stay quiet in case someone returns without warning. They haven't been 'out' to the group long and didn't want to scar anyone. Having younger members, even if they're adults, made them feel extra cautious.

However, the door was locked and clothes were off almost instantly. Hyunsuk was laid between Jihoon's legs, cock in his mouth and deep-throating him like a pro. Jihoon was glad they had a day off tomorrow because he didn't want to finish after cumming once. It's been only a couple of weeks, but he was extra-sensitive now.

Jihoon caressing Hyunsuk's head, pouting, "You-Your hair is so short now, can't even grab it, hyung."

Hyunsuk pulled off his cock, teasing at his tip with his tongue, right at the slit. "Aw, poor baby."

"Shut up," Jihoon grumbled, gasping quietly when Hyunsuk teased his tongue at his lower shaft. "F-Fuck, you're so good at this."

"Want me to eat you out?" Hyunsuk asked quietly, licking at his balls cautiously.

Jihoon inhaled sharply, gulping a bit. Hyunsuk has rimmed him a couple times, but it was a while ago and Jihoon never came so hard before. Hyunsuk was so in control of him, and having him laid out, open and submissive like that -- Jihoon loved it. He loved being under Hyunsuk and feeling his hands on his ass and --

"Yes," Jihoon breathed out, barely audible.

Hyunsuk pulled away, amused at the response, "Yeah?"

"Please, fuck, yes," Jihoon could barely speak, sitting up.

Hyunsuk chuckled, somehow finding this cute. "Want to be on your knees or?"

He nodded, nearly shaking when he got onto his knees for him. And Hyunsuk wasted no time, gripping his ass and licking a flat strip across his entrance. Jihoon let out a choked moan in surpirse, clenching his eyes shut as he let his head fall forward, whimpering at the feeling of Hyunsuk's tongue against him.

It was moments like these where Jihoon was relieved he prepped ahead, always trying to be ready in case the day comes that he's brave enough to ask Hyunsuk to fuck him. While it may not be that day, he was relieved as Hyunsuk's tongue traced at his hole, leaving his thighs tense and shaking.

"F-Feels so good," Jihoon whined, biting at his lips. "God, yo-your fucking tongue."

He nearly felt Hyunsuk grinning at the praise, licking lightly at his hole. Teasing him now. "I just started, Hoonie."

And while that was true, Jihoon was always sensitive as fuck and not the quietest person. He was a bit insecure with it at first, recalling his ex complaining about it. But Hyunsuk seemed to love it, always eagerly working his tongue whenever Jihoon was a whining mess, and today was no different.

He was relieved no one was home, because Jihoon could barely supress the sounds leaving his mouth. He buried his face into the pillow, shaking and moaning as Hyunsuk ate him out with such eagerness and precision. His tongue always felt so good wherever he used it and Jihoon loved it so much.

However, as he felt Hyunsuk plunge his tongue deeper, it felt like an itch that wasn't being scratched. He was just imagining his fingers instead of his tongue, and it wasn't enough. It felt so good, and yet, he just wanted it to be more. He wanted it to be deeper and harder and -

"H-Hyung," Jihoon said without thinking, panting heavily. "C-Can you um."

Hyunsuk stopped, "Yeah?"

Jihoon tensed up, his throat caught.

"Jihoon?"

The younger boy gulped, shaking his head, "Sorry, I just. Nevermind."

"Are you alright?" Hyunsuk asked, concerned, and it made him feel stupid.

Jihoon nodded instantly, moving onto his back, "Of course, just - I didn't want to cum yet."

Relief filled Hyunsuk's eyes and he crawled over Jihoon, running his fingers through his hair. "Fuck, don't do that, you scared me."

"Sorry, hyung," Jihoon chuckled, grabbing the older boy's cock.

Hyunsuk furrowed his brows at the feeling, but said reassuring, "Don't be sorry, babe."

He was always so sweet. So reassuring. Jihoon felt his heart flutter at the reassurance and tightened his grip on Hyunsuk's hard cock, flicking his wrist. Seeing Hyunsuk hovering over him and all red and sweaty -- it did things to him. He loved the position and just kept imagining this same scene, but with Hyunsuk fucking him.

Jihoon hesitated before subtly grabbing both their cocks, whimpering a bit at the feeling of them both in his hand. Hyunsuk's eyes snapped open, surprised, but not turned off. Jihoon bit his lip, slowly stroking them at the same time. Hyunsuk was smaller than him and Jihoon's hands were big, which allowed them both to fit.

It was only when he felt Hyunsuk grinding down that shivers sent down his spine. Jihoon moaned out, loosening his hold until he eventually let go all together. He watched as Hyunsuk grinded their cocks together, the sight turning him on so much. Watching Hyunsuk practically thrust against him was so much and -

"C-Can you fuck me?"

Jihoon snapped out of his thoughts and it took him a second to register what Hyunsuk, eyes dark and lips red.

Jihoon hesitated, so turned on and for a moment, he thought he asked that himself. Because he wanted nothing more than for Hyunsuk to fuck him, not the other way around. He didn't even realize how long it took, because Hyunsuk instantly looked down nervously.

So Jihoon quickly pecked his lips, pushing him down onto the bed. Hyunsuk immediately gripped his dick, forgetting all about the brief pause.

And that night ended with Jihoon fucking him into the bed, enjoying the sight of Hyunsuk getting off. And he got off too. He enjoyed it a lot, as he always did, but he just knew he would love it even more if he was the one under Hyunsuk and taking the dick.

-

Jihoon never knew Hyunsuk had such beautiful fingers until he kept imagining them inside of him.

He was getting increasingly more horny as their schedules continued to get busy. Not to mention, any time they do have sex in the occasionally days off, they have to be quick so it's just fucking and no foreplay. Which made him even more anxious and stressed, because foreplay was his favorite part considering he's not being fucked.

At first, he thought he was imagining things. Hyunsuk is beautiful everywhere to him and he never had a favorite part of him, per say. If anyone asked, the first thing he would think of is his eyes. Very generic answer, but true. He thought his boyfriend had the prettiest eyes in the world and he loved that.

Until he started noticing his fingers.

He wasn't sure what it was that triggered him, but some time during dance practice he noticed Hyunsuk uses a lot of hand motions and mannerisms. He noticed this before, it's what makes him great on stage and he doesn't care what YG says, they add to the performance, not distracts him.

Except today.

Because as they practiced their unit stages for their first concert, he couldn't stop looking at him. Hyunsuk was doing a lot with his hands and fuck, Jihoon wishes he was one of them. He's somehow delicate but strong and firm but gentle and Jihoon just wanted to know what it'd feel like to be taken apart by him.

When they went over Dararai choreography, there was a point in the choreography where they place two fingers up and Jihoon couldn't stop staring at Hyunsuk in the mirror. At one point he even stumbled over the choreography and Mashiho kept scolding him. It was embarrassing, because he usually stays professional in practice and they keep their relationship out of the work environment, but that day he was thrown off.

He had hoped Hyunsuk wouldn't notice but boy was he wrong, because that night he was thrown off when the bathroom door opened. He went to scold Jeongwoo for walking in but was surprised to see Hyunsuk in the doorway, also freshly showered and in his pajamas.

Jihoon spit out his toothpaste, then asked, "What are you doing here?"

"You seemed off today," Hyunsuk replied, going on his toes to rest his chin on Jihoon's shoulder.

Jihoon wiped his mouth clean and put his toothbrush away. He avoided the mirror, saying, "Just overwhelmed with all the choreography. I mean, it's our first real concert and like, I just don't want to screw it up."

It didn't look like Hyunsuk believed him. Hyunsuk gently grabbed his waist, murmuring against his shoulder, "Why are you lying to me, Hoonie?"

Jihoon scoffed, meeting his gaze in the mirror, "M'not, I'm just stressed, that's all. It's hard balancing mc-ing, being the leader and getting ready for a concert. Like, I just want to rest but I do love the job, so - "

"Hey," Hyunsuk interrupted, turning Jihoon around to face him. He frowned, reaching up to brush his hair back, "Relax, baby."

The petname made Jihoon flustered a bit. Hyunsuk rarely calls him that and when he does, Jihoon usually rolls his eyes. This time it just made him feel good inside and he secretly wanted to hear it more.

He felt bad for lying, but he also wasn't lying at the same time. He is stressed and overwhelmed, but he's used to it. Jihoon is fine with being overloaded. He actually prefers it than having too much down time. However, he didn't want to admit the real reasons he was being stressed out.

The lack of response made Hyunsuk huff a bit. Jihoon expected him to scold him or something, but instead, he was perplexed when Hyunsuk shut the door and turned on the water to the shower. He didn't quite catch onto what Hyunsuk was doing.

"I just showered," Jihoon said slowly, motioning to his damp hair.

Hyunsuk ignored him, and took Jihoon by surprised as he gripped his neck, pulling him in for a deep kiss. Jihoon panicked and held onto Hyunsuk's waist to balance himself. He moaned quietly into the kiss as he felt Hyunsuk's tongue brush against his bottom lip, to which he eagerly parted his lips.

Whenever they kiss, it's usually briefly and just to build the mood, considering it's not Hyunsuk's favorite foreplay. So when he does initiate tongue, Jihoon knows it's for his enjoyment rather than his hyung's. And he'd never complain, because kissing Hyunsuk is his favorite thing in the world.

He basked in the feeling of Hyunsuk's tongue tracing into his mouth, the taste of mint fresh. Jihoon murmured against his mouth, panting, "Fuck, r tongue."

"I know," Hyunsuk teased, biting lightly at Jihoon's bottom lip before going back to making out.

It was only a moment later when Jihoon then stumbled back a bit, surprised as Hyunsuk pressed him to the counter. Hyunsuk patted at his leg and Jihoon was distracted in the feelings of his lips, confused. He then felt Hyunsuk grip at both legs, and Jihoon yelped in surprise as Hyunsuk attempted to lift him up.

His heart skipped a bit, getting onto the sink. He was flushed red, far too turned on when Hyunsuk tugged at his pants. He never expected to be the one lifted like that. He never expected them to ever do something like this. They only do this in the bedroom. The most they've done is kiss chastely in an elevator or backstage when no one is looking. Just to comfort or show support.

But here Hyunsuk was, jacking him off in the bathroom while shoving his tongue down Jihoon's throat. He really couldn't ask for more. Just the feeling of Hyunsuk's lips on his and fingers tight around his cock with the steam from the shower -- he was in heaven.

When he came, it was muffled by his mouth, which was best considering they didn't want to scar the younger members. Jihoon couldn't stop grinning and Hyunsuk smiled back, brushing Jihoon's damp hair from his forehead and kissed him chastely there. It was the first time Jihoon felt like he was the one being taken care of in a sexual way (not that Hyunsuk hasn't before, but he was the focus). Hyunsuk didn't even ask for him to get him off too.

After that, there was a shift in the air.

Jihoon had a taste of submission and he wanted more. It was silly, because Hyunsuk only gave him a handjob on the sink in the bathroom but it was so different for them. He felt more clingy now and couldn't stop playing with Hyunsuk's fingers as they sat in the car or waited for an interview to start.

If Hyunsuk had noticed, he didn't say much. The members noticed more than him and it made Jihoon embarrassed one time when Haruto pointed it out. He stopped after that (in public at least).

Now when they're alone in their dorms, it's different. It's been a couple weeks since the 'bathroom incident' and they haven't done anything since then. Jihoon was eager for the next alone time and he was pleased when they got some time off after practice again, causing him to naturally migrate to Hyunsuk's dorm.

He had laid on Hyunsuk's bed, waiting for him to stop working on music but to no avail. Hyunsuk had been focused on his computer or playing the guitar. He's been slowly learning the guitar and Jihoon never knew he could be so turned on by it.

He watched and listened as Hyunsuk hummed a made up melody under his breath, the faint sounds of the other members playing some video game in the other room. Jihoon's eyes trailed to the way Hyunsuk plucked at the strings carelessly, no real focus in mind.

He sighed heavily, dramatically stating, "Why is my boyfriend paying no mind to me?"

"I told you I was going to be working on music," Hyunsuk said, not even looking at him.

Jihoon pouted, rolling onto his stomach, "I thought I would be able to distract you enough to focus on me. Am I not sexy enough right now?"

Hyunsuk snorted, watching him in amusement as Jihoon tried to lay in a sexy pose. He couldn't help the smile tug at the corner of his lips. However, he was strong and continued on strumming at the guitar.

"Hmmpf," Jihoon playfully frowned. "What are you even doing?"

"Trying to write a song," he replied simply.

"You know, you'd be hot playing the drums too," Jihoon said cheekily, resting his chin in the palm of his hand.

Hyunsuk peered over at him, smirking a bit, "I mean, aren't I already hot?"

"Hyung's always hot," Jihoon winked, then laughed as he sat up.

The older of the two turned his attention to the computer now, but still had the guitar in his lap. Jihoon knew he was working on some stuff, but he couldn't help it. Watching Hyunsuk so serious and focused, while also seeing the tip of his fingers tug at the strings -- it did things to his own heart strings as well.

He flopped onto the floor and shimmed on his knees to Hyunsuk, who raised an eyebrow at him. Jihoon grinned, pressing his face to Hyunsuk's knee.

"You know I'm trying to focus," Hyunsuk said with no threat in his voice.

Jihoon shrugged, lowering his voice, "Yeah, and it's really hot."

"Suddenly?"

He nodded, but Hyunsuk just turned back to the computer. Jihoon squeezed at his knee, asking, "One kiss?"

"Sounds fake."

"Please?" when Hyunsuk didn't reply, Jihoon added with a soft pout, "Baby?"

And Hyunsuk's shoulder's dropped, turning to him. He whined, caving in with a reluctant face, "C'mon, I'm really trying to focus and you know you distract me."

"Aren't boyfriends supposed to inspire?" Jihoon suggested, standing higher on his knees so he could grip at Hyunsuk's shirt.

Hyunsuk didn't reply and just put the guitar down, pecking Jihoon's lips once. Just as predicted, it didn't end with one kiss and instead, Jihoon moved in closer, pressed his lips to Hyunsuk's jawline. The older boy placed his hand on Jihoon's back, eyes fluttering as Jihoon nipped at his earlobe, where he was sensitive.

"You're so greedy," Hyunsuk murmured, but whimpered as Jihoon traced his tongue across his jaw. "Fuck, why are you trying to turn me on?"

Jihoon shrugged, "It's not fair when you do it to me."

"I didn't even do anything. Does me playing the guitar really get you going?" Hyunsuk joked, but was surprised when Jihoon nodded. "Why?"

"It just does," he said passively, huffing before getting up to hover over him.

He rain his fingers through his short, blonde hair, cupping his face before kissing him. He hesitantly lowered himself into Hyunsuk's lap and the older boy was surprised, but pulled him comfortably down. Jihoon was cautious, afraid he'd be heavy, but he tensed up a bit when Hyunsuk gripped at his waist.

Hyunsuk pulled from the kiss, breathless. He looked at Jihoon curiously and it made him feel shy suddenly, like he was being examined. Hyunsuk ran his hands up his sides, fingers dancing across Jihoon's strong chest and then he cupped Jihoon's face.

The attention was a lot and it made him embarrassed, but he also liked it. They were both quiet and Jihoon's throat was tight as Hyunsuk's traced his thumbs across his cheeks. Jihoon shuddered a bit, body tensing as Hyunsuk's finger brushed against his bottom lip. Hyunsuk must have noticed, cause he smiled a bit and did it again, slower this time. They pad of his thumb was callused but still somehow soft, pressing firmly to his bottom lip.

Hyunsuk raised an eyebrow when Jihoon tensed up and he looked at him intensely. He pinched the bottom lip between his two fingers and was surprised as Jihoon let out a soft noise. It embarrassed Jihoon but Hyunsuk just let go before he kissed him deeply, tongue instantly slipping into his mouth.

Jihoon moaned into the kiss, mind reeling back to the feeling of Hyunsuk's fingers that were playing the guitar earlier. The way the fingers felt against his lips. He kept having sexual dreams recently about them in him and now he can't stop imagining it.

Of course, Jihoon has masturbated on his own. He's only ever used his fingers, no toys (he didn't want to risk anyone finding them). However, he knew it'd feel ten times better with Hyunsuk's. He could feel Hyunsuk's long fingers brushing into his hair, so slim and beautiful, and it turned him on so much. Hyunsuk must have felt it too cause he chuckled, breaking the kiss.

"God, you've been uh, horny recently," Hyunsuk said with amusement, gripping Jihoon's thighs.

Jihoon shrugged, playing with the tuffs of Hyunsuk's hair at the back of his neck. He pecked his lips, meeting his eyes, "Does hyung not like that?"

Hyunsuk scoffed, pulling him closer, "I mean, I won't complain but..."

That's all Jihoon needed to hear before he smirked, pressing down as he kissed him deeper. Hyunsuk made a noise of surprise but allowed him to be kissed. He loved the way Hyunsuk kept shifting beneath his hips, hands grabbing at his back and pulling him closer. Jihoon rarely is in this position and the dynamic switch up was nice; being pulled close, being in his arms.

It was when Hyunsuk trailed his hands down to his butt that Jihoon whimpered, rolling his hips down, feeling his boyfriend's hard dick press against him. Hyunusk tensed up a bit and Jihoon gasped softly, the pressure of Hyunsuk's boner turning him on. He couldn't help it as he grinded down, moaning at the way Hyunsuk's dick rubbed against him. He felt Hyunsuk shiver a bit and it encouraged him to roll his hips more until -

"W-Wait, fuck," Hyunsuk stills his hips, tilting his head back. Jihoon kisses at his neck and Hyunsuk stutters out, "Calm down, one sec."

Jihoon stops, frowning, "What?"

"We can't...do that tonight, I have a performance video to film and - " Hyunsuk pauses, catching his breath. "I can't be sore tomorrow."

Jihoon wants to say 'I can bottom then!' and it would be the perfect oppurtunity. However, his nerves get the best of him and instead, he gets to his knees and looks at him with daring eyes. Hyunsuk mutters a 'fuck' and eagerly shimmies his pants down, eyes full of lust.

"Just, quick okay?" Hyunsuk said, red cheeked. "I told you that you're a distraction."

Jihoon took that as a compliment and he eagerly wrapped his lips around Hyunusk's hard cock, watching as the older boy melted at his work. It's moments like these, where Hyunsuk is biting back his tongue and trembling under him, that Jihoon easily ignores his urges.

It feels good to know Hyunsuk enjoys his talents, but sometimes Jihoon is reluctant. He loves making Hyunsuk come undone so easily, loves the way his body shakes and how much he clearly enjoys their sex life. However, Jihoon was only really cumming cause of the simple pleasures of making Hyunsuk orgasm.

The only real times he gets off without it coming from Hyunsuk's voice and pleasure, is when he's getting oral. Mainly when Hyunsuk rims him. Hyunsuk is the only person who ever did it for him, and that night when they did it for the first time, he came harder than ever before. It was the first time someone offered anything for him.

The main thing that he enjoyed was that it was the closest he gets to being fucked. Sometimes Hyunsuk's fingers would trace at the rims or he'll thrust his tongue slightly inside, teasing the idea of being fucked. And it drove him mad, had him begging for more. If only Hyunsuk truly knew what he meant by that.

Jihoon rarely had trouble asking for what he wanted in any other situation. He speaks his mind often and is very confident. However, in the bedroom, his tongue gets tied. It's the only place he feels very vulnerable and scared. In relationships in general, he gets meek and struggles to stand up for himself or speak his mind. With Hyunsuk, he's better at it, but before, his only boyfriend previously had always intimidated him. Maybe cause he was older and bigger, but also cause his personality was louder. Stronger.

And he's a little insecure.

More so than people would assume.

He knew he was lucky to date Hyunsuk. They probably wouldn't be together if he hadn't kissed him in the first place, so he didn't want to ever show his other sides. Hyunsuk's exes were apparently strong and dominant and Jihoon knew he probably liked that. Since Hyunsuk is often in charge outside of their relationship, it made sense that he'd want a boyfriend to take care of him.

But, Jihoon wanted that too.

-

Hyunsuk had no idea what the fuck was going on with Jihoon.

For the past month or two, he noticed something shifted between them. Jihoon had been all over him for a month, and suddenly the past week he has been distant. He could tell something was bothering him, and he assumed it was just the comeback because that's what Jihoon said. However, he worried it might be more.

At first he just thought it was a Jihoon issue, like in his head. But now he worries he's done something wrong or the relationship was stressing him out. Was Hyunsuk not giving him enough attention? He was clingy for a while and maybe Hyunsuk said something mean or in passing that hurt his feelings. Is that why he's distant now?

Their concert was in a couple days and Hyunsuk really didn't want this tension to distract him. He wanted to enjoy their first show in front of fans and let that energy consume him, but it's hard when something else already is.

Hyunsuk was currently eating with Asahi and Mashiho, chowing down on a delicious japanese meal that Mashiho made them. It's always nice to have someone from different countries in your group. It adds a lot to meal time, that's for sure.

"I love doing covers on stage," Mashiho said brightly, wiping his mouth. "It just adds so much, ya know? Like we get something already made but put our own flare. It lets us show our colors even more to people."

Asahi shrugged, "I guess."

"What? You don't wanna cover Love Scenario?"

"I do, I just like that we can finally perform our own songs. Doing covers reminds me of Treasure Box," Asahi murmured, yawning as he checked his phone.

As the two lightly bantered over the discussion, Hyunsuk was distracted as he watched Jihoon walk out of his room, eyes glued to his phone. He didn't greet them, just entered the kitchen without glancing up. He was all dewey from his shower and wearing a big shirt with pajama pants.

Hyunsuk got up, going into the kitchen as well. He put his bowl in the sink and the sound made Jihoon glance to him with a brief smile. The reaction made Hyunsuk frown a bit and he had the urge to pout, but instead he just lightly squeezed Jihoon's shoulder, watching him pour a glass of milk.

"You just showered?" he asked, making conversation. His voice was low, always a bit embarrassed of showing affection in front of the other members. Even if Mashiho and Asahi are two of the most mature of the group, they still tease.

Jihoon rolled his eyes, biting back playfully, "No, just ran in the rain."

Hyunsuk lightly smacked his butt, but laid his head on the taller's shoulder. "The concert is in a couple days. Are you nervous?"

"No, I'm excited."

It always impressed Hyunsuk on how confident his boyfriend was. While Hyunsuk is always more excited than nervous, he knew the other boys get anxious before a stage for the most part. Not Jihoon, though. He was ready to get on stage and show off. To let everyone see him shine and dance his ass off.

"Mmm, that's good," Hyunsuk said lowly, eyeing Jihoon's face. He had a few blemishes, most likely from sweating so much over the amount of practice they've been doing. But he still looked great.

Hyunsuk pecked his cheek, grinning at Jihoon's surprised expression. They heard the sound of gagging and turned to see Asahi pretending to throw up. Hyunsuk ignored the boy and ruffled Jihoon's hair a bit, chuckling at his annoyed expression.

Hyunsuk asked softly, "Wanna watch a movie tonight?"

It looked like Jihoon was gonna say yes, but then he looked down and replied, "I uh, I actually feel tired, hyung."

For a moment, Hyunsuk wanted to suggest they can just sleep together, but he felt abit insecure. It's not often Jihoon says no but he's been saying it more lately. Maybe he is clingy. The fear of being too clingy made Hyunsuk quickly nod, not pressing him more on the suggestion.

After a brief pause, Jihoon murmured a goodnight and waved to the other two before going to his room. Hyunsuk sighed heavily, trudging to the table. Mashiho saluted goodnight as well and now it was just Asahi and Hyunsuk sitting alone. Asahi was still eating, always being a bit slower with his food. He had his phone propped up, watching some video.

Hyunsuk hesitated, anxiously playing with his fingers. He felt so tense right now, and Hyunsuk sort of wanted Asahi to notice. It's hard for the leader to initiate conversations relating to his own issues, but either Asahi was ignoring him or didn't pick up on his pleading eyes.

Eventually Hyunsuk sighed heavily, leaning back in the chair with a blatant pout on his face. When Asahi just watched the screen, he sighed even louder, dramatically glancing away. He just knew Asahi was ignoring him now and that made him even more upset. So he cleared his throat, causing Asahi to look up, bored expression in his eyes.

"Are you okay?" Asahi asked slowly, clearly no interest.

Hyunsuk smiled brightly, saying, "Well, since you asked..."

Asahi reluctantly put his phone down, giving him his attention.

"I um, I think things are weird with me and Jihoonie," Hyunsuk said, tone quiet now. Asahi didn't reply, so he elaborated, "Like, you saw that earlier right?"

"Yeah, you practically had sex in the kitchen."

Hyunsuk blushed, scoffing, "And people call Junkyu dramatic." but he added on, "Well, it was weird? Wasn't it? He's been very weird and like, I don't know why, because it was fine a few weeks ago but the past week is off. His vibe is off. Is it me? I think I might be doing something wrong."

"You're really bad at explaining things," Asahi murmured, furrowed eyebrows. "I don't get it. What's off, hyung?"

Hyunsuk hesitated, flustered now. He hated to give too much detail, but he knew he had to. He trusted Asahi, so he lowered his voice and nearly whispered, "Sex? I mean, it's always hard to keep it up during promotions but we were doing fine until not long ago...I keep trying to initiate but he kind of blows me off."

Surprisingly, Asahi blushed, shifting a bit in his seat. It was rare to see Asahi flustered and it was kind of cute. However, this is why Hyunsuk hesitates to talk to the members. They're all younger than him and it's already embarrassing to discuss sex with anyone, let alone your younger members of your group. Especially when you're dating another member. It all felt weird.

Nonetheless, Asahi nodded slowly, but was biting his lip nervously. "Ah. Um, yeah, that's odd."

"I think I might be clingy."

"Probably."

"But it seems like it might be something else?"

"Maybe."

"I don't know what's going on," Hyunsuk admitted, biting at his nail. "I just, I try to balance us as best as I can but I also can't read him mind, ya know?"

Asahi shrugged. "Talk to him."

"What?"

Asahi turned to him, blinking. "Ask him..."

The suggestion nearly made Hyunsuk gasp. He replied, deadass serious, "I can't just ask him that! Are you crazy?"

"Wait, you guys don't talk?" Asahi looked genuinely confused, frowning. "I don't know much about relationships but...I feel that's important."

"We do, but sex is just - it's hard," Hyunsuk said, realizing how childish he sounds.

It's true, though. They never really talk about it and maybe that's the immature side of them. For idols, it's hard to have sex, let alone date. And they managed to do both, so to them, it's a win. Now the main issue is that they have time for sex, but not talking. Managing all of that is hard, especially when they're still practically teenagers.

Asahi looked frustrated himself, exclaiming, "Well, I don't know how to help. If you won't talk about it, then what can you do?" he got up, muttering under his breath, "God, how did either of you even manage to get fucked? Guess you're meant for each other."

Hyunsuk gaped, offended at the words. He watched as Asahi rinsed his dishes before heading out, waving him off. Maybe it was a mistake asking a virgin. He simply didn't understand the complexities of a sex life. What a child.

Hyunsuk waited a few minutes, scrolling on his phone to distract his mind. It didn't work well because a lot of twitter was filled with cute pictures of his boyfriend.

Eventually he got up, seeing it was past midnight. He turned off the lights and something caught his eye. Hyunsuk noticed the milk still on the counter, half full. Jihoon must have been in a rush and forgot it. He hesitated before grabbing the milk, heading to Jihoon's room.

He snorted, hearing Doyoung and Jeongwoo playing video games. He had the urge to scold them and tell them to go to bed, but he would be a hypocrite. If they're tired at school, then that's their own comeuppance. They all have to learn the hard way.

It was only when Hyunsuk opened the door, that he realized he made a big mistake. The cup of milk in his hand nearly dropped as he blushed fiercely, seeing Jihoon laying in bed jacking off, laptop open to a very dirty video that Hyunsuk couldn't focus on because what the fuck --

Jihoon nearly jumped up, frantically covering himself and his headphones fell off. Hyunsuk looked away quickly, exclaiming, "Oh my god, sorry - I just -- um, sorry."

He shut the door, not even able to make out what Jihoon said as the door muffled his words. He quickly went to the kitchen and dumped the milk in the sink before fleeing. His face was beet red and he ran his hand over his face, feeling flustered and tense.

It was only when he went to the elevator that he was able to calm his heart down, embarrassment washing from him. It was not like he didn't know Jihoon jacked off. They all do and usually they're sneaky and careful about it. Considering Jihoon said goodnight, he must have assumed Hyunsuk wasn't going to come back tot he room. It made sense.

But, Hyunsuk felt very inadequate all of a sudden.

It's not like he cared that Jihoon was getting off to porn. Like, that's fine. He does too (rarely now, but still sometimes he does). It's just that Hyunsuk asked him to watch a movie and Jihoon said he was tired. Maybe that's true, but something felt off about that. Why didn't he ask Hyunsuk to get him off? Why was he suddenly so horny that he wanted to jack off but didn't want to have sex? Usually they fuck after a movie (or at least do some sexual activity).

Hyunsuk wasn't sure why, but he felt insecure now. It was dumb and maybe he's projecting onto Jihoon, but that's how he felt. He just wanted to know if it's all in his head. Asahi was probably right, maybe they should talk. But how do you bring that up? He was mortified.

When Hyunsuk got to their dorms, he flopped into bed, groaning as he rubbed his face. He heard his phone ding and hesitated before opening up the message from Jihoon.

Jihoonie <3: sorry for that

Jihoonie <3: can we not bring it up? :/

Hyunsuk: dont be sorry

Hyunsuk: bring what up?

Jihoon sent a cute smiling face back and Hyunsuk sighed heavily, staring at the messages. They probably shouldn't avoid the topic of that either, and yet the next day, when they see each other again, it's only awkward briefly before neither mention it.

-

There are many times in life where you think 'fuck, my boyfriend is hot'. However, this was the first time when Hyunsuk thought it mid-performance and it never left his mind. They've spent months practicing for 'Good Boy' and he's seen Jihoon practice so many times, to the point where it's grained in his mind.

And yet, when Jihoon threw it back during the end, Hyunsuk was taken back. He only saw it after they performed backstage, but it lingered in his mind as they fixed his hair and makeup. There's something different about Jihoon when he's on stage. Is this the duality fans always talk about? Is this how it feels?

For the rest of the concert, Hyunsuk was distracted. He couldn't stop thinking about how hot Jihoon is. How sexy he looked all sweaty and grinning proudly on stage. Sure, Jihoon was and is always attractive, but that night hit different for Hyunsuk. He had to physically make himself look away from his boyfriend the rest of the night.

And sadly, he was already busy later that evening, unable to jump his boyfriend at the dorms. He instantly had to return to the studio, despite it being one am, and work on songs for the next album while some of the other guys were working on choreo and songs themselves.

He was drowned in the process of producing, jotting down lyrics and going over the same song ten times. It was only an hour after he started that he felt a shift and nearly jumped when he turned to see Jihoon waving at him in the doorway.

"Fuck, you scared me," Hyunsuk laughed.

"Hey," Jihoon popped his head in, bundled in a hoodie and sweatpants. "You're still working?"

"I need to finish the song by the end of the week so it can get approved for the next album," Hyunsuk said, turning back. He did a double take, seeing Jihoon still had his makeup on from the concert. "Are you heading home?"

"I was waiting for you," Jihoon explained.

"Oh," Hyunsuk hesitated, glancing to his computer. He wanted to keep working but fuck, Jihoon looked so good. "Um, ten minutes?"

Jihoon sighed heavily in exaggeration, but flopped onto his couch anyways. He went on his phone and Hyunsuk smiled a bit, the gesture of Jihoon staying meaning a lot. He loved how supportive he was, even if he's just laying behind him.

Hyunsuk went back to working on the song, headphones on. He occasionally looked behind him to see how Jihoon was doing. He had a few tracks he was working on and they meant a lot to him. He really wanted to make sure at least one made it to the album, so it had to be perfect.

As with most producers, though, time was a lost cause. Because as he dove deeper and went down the dark hole of producing, he was unaware as the time went on. It wasn't till he glanced at the clock that he saw it was 2am now.

Hyunsuk looked back, smiling fondly at Jihoon's tired face. His eyes were heavy, staring at the phone.

"Stop staring at me and finish your song. It's already been an hour, Mr. Ten Minutes," Jihoon grumbled, glaring at him over the phone.

Hyunsuk's smile dropped, feeling guilty. "Sorry, babe. Why don't you head out? I don't wanna keep you longer, you know how I get. You can go."

Jihoon yawned, shifting on the couch more comfortable. "S'fine, I don't mind, hyung."

Despite saying this, Hyunsuk's mind kept lingering on Jihoon sitting and waiting for him. He couldn't focus. Not only was Jihoon just chilling behind him, but his head was filled with images of his hot boyfriend at the concert a mere few hours ago.

He spent another half-an-hour working on some music, but eventually he tossed any hope away of continuing right now. It was clear that he wasn't going to get anything done. Besides, he deserves a break, right?

Hyunsuk bit his bottom lip, glancing back at Jihoon. His hair was stuck to his forehead, sweat from the concert clinging to him. He hasn't showered yet and his makeup was a bit smeared, eyeliner smudged and fuck, he can't hold back.

"You looked so good tonight," Hyunsuk told him sincerely, turning his chair toward him.

Jihoon grinned cheekily, sitting up, "Yeah?"

Hyunsuk held his arms out, nodding. He caught a slight hesitation in Jihoon's movements, but brushed it away when Jihoon approached him. Hyunsuk tugged him forward, causing Jihoon to stumble a bit but plop into his lap. He was a bit heavy, but Hyunsuk never cared. It's not often Jihoon sits in his lap, so he appreciates the moment even more.

Hyunsuk played with the strings of Jihoon's hoodie, nudging his nose against his. "You looked really good tonight."

"You said that already," Jihoon laughed.

Hyunsuk shrugged, pecking his lips, "And I'll keep saying it."

He kissed against Jihoon's jawline, pleased to hear his soft laughs. Jihoon wrapped his arms around Hyunsuk's neck, grinning sleepily at him. It should be gross, them both being sweaty still. Yet, he didn't mind. Maybe this is what love is.

Hyunsuk slid his hand under Jihoon's shirt, touching his toned back. Jihoon shivered at his hands on his skin, tucking his face into Hyunsuk's neck. His hot breath fanned at Hyunsuk's neck, lips brushing against his skin. Hyunsuk careful thrust his hip up, gripping his waist.

As the room started getting hot and Hyunsuk started getting horny, he tugged Jihoon's hoodie up. The boy raised his arms, revealing his shirtless body. Hyunsuk cursed, dragging his hands across Jihoon's back and kissed down his neck. He basked in the sound of Jihoon's soft gasps, proud to make him so turned on.

As he trailed down Jihoon's neck, he grinned at the sight of his toned chest. Hyunsuk lapped his tongue over Jihoon's prominent nipple, chuckling when Jihoon squirmed a bit, lightly shoving him.

"T-That tickles," Jihoon complained, but his nipples hardened.

Hyunsuk was amused, "Good tickles or bad tickles?"

"Are there bad tickles?"

"Yoshi doesn't like tickles," Hyunsuk pointed out.

"Don't mention Yoshi when I'm turned on, hyung," Jihoon groaned, whimpering when Hyunsuk nipped at his chest.

Hyunsuk raised an eyebrow, retorting, "Didn't you say you had a crush on Yoshi?"

"Shut up, everyone did," Jihoon blushed fiercely, burying his face in Hyunsuk's neck. "Are you jealous?"

Hyunsuk shivered at the breath on his neck, "You wish."

Hyunsuk pulled Jihoon back, pecking his cheek. "So."

Jihoon hummed, eyes closed, "Hm?"

"The tickling. Does it make you laugh or turn you on?"

"I don't know," Jihoon feigned curiosity. "Maybe try again?"

"You're so needy."

"You love it."

"Isn't the bottom supposed to be the needy one?" he asked rhetorically, kissing his neck again and missing the faint frown on Jihoon's face.

Considering how long it's been, Hyunsuk was not letting this chance go. He instantly went for Jihoon's lips, knowing how much he loved kissing. He set in, making sure to slip his tongue instantly into the boy's mouth, amused at how eagerly Jihoon returned the favor.

It's rare he goes for a kiss, let alone one with tongue, and he knew Jihoon appreciated it. Jihoon always took advantage of these moments and Hyunsuk wanted to make sure he catered to his needs. Hearing the small, pleased sounds turned him on a lot.

After a moment, he licked the roof of Jihoon's mouth, pulling him closer as he tilted his head. Jihoon moaned quietly, body flushed against him. Hyunsuk pulled back a bit, sucking at the tip of his tongue before going back in and raising his hands to tangle his fingers in his hair.

"For someone who doesn't like kissing much, you're really good at it," Jihoon panted against his mouth, amused.

Hyunsuk shrugged carelessly, pecking his lips, "I like making you happy."

Jihoon hummed quietly, letting Hyunsuk kiss him for a moment longer before he murmured, "It's fine, you know. If you don't want to."

"I like kissing you," Hyunsuk chuckled in amusement. "I mean, kissing just isn't my favorite thing, but it turns you on a lot and it's not like I hate your lips." he then added, "Besides, I'd do anything that makes you happy."

There was a brief pause, Jihoon's heart fluttering. "Anything?"

"Yeah," Hysunsuk replied absent-mindedly, rolling his hips down causing Jihoon to let out a soft moan. "I mean, I wanna like it too of course."

Jihoon then hesitated, nodding. "Yeah, duh."

Hyunsuk raised an eyebrow, "Why? Did you - "

"No, no," Jihoon chuckled, shaking his head.

Before he could counter that, Jihoon began kissing him again. This time with more heat, lips slick and tongue feverish. He was always a messy kisser; rough and careless. It was fine though, because Hyunsuk loved knowing how much he enjoyed it.

It wasn't enough, though. And that's what he didn't like about kissing. He craved more, dull nails digging into the boy's back, feeling his half-hard dick tight in his pants. He could feel Jihoon was hard too, and it made him antsy.

"I want you to fuck me, I miss you," Hyunsuk murmured against his neck, grinding up against Jihoon's crotch.

Jihoon tensed and Hyunsuk frowned at his reaction, because suddenly Jihoon sat up and off of him. He adjusted his pants, saying quickly, "S-Sorry, I...we don't have anything."

Hyunsuk chuckled, confused at his response. "We've been tested...And I have lotion. It's not that great but we've done it before."

"I really..." Jihoon swallowed, grabbing his hoodie from the floor. "I think we shouldn't cause like, you gotta be good for tomorrow."

There was this awkward tension in the air and Hyunsuk felt cold. His body felt empty and hard-on was abandoned in his pants. He could tell something was going on and it left him tense, like he was out of the loop.

"What happened? I feel like you're very hot and cold with sex recently," Hyunsuk said with a confused face. He wasn't mad, it's fine that Jihoon doesn't want to, but he felt like there's more going on.

Jihoon glanced away, rubbing at his neck, "Nothing, I just...I wanted to be here with you, that's all. I'm too tired to do anything else, sorry hyung."

"Don't apologize," Hyunsuk said softly, eyeing him curiously. "Alright, uh, I should probably work on my song."

"I can stay, right?"

Hyunsuk smiled a bit, laughing, "Duh, I won't just kick you out, babe. I just have to focus now, alright? You can lay on the couch."

Jihoon smiled a bit, but his eyes held a bit of remorse, "I feel bad, you're hard still..."

"So are you, babe. You gonna jack off alone again tonight too?" Hyunsuk joked, but instantly regretted it when he saw Jihoon's expression change. "Sorry, I didn't mean - "

Jihoon stepped back, mortified, "I thought we weren't bringing that up, hyung..."

Hyunsuk quickly cupped his face, reassuring, "Sorry, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to say that, babe. I won't bring it up again, alright?" Jihoon looked away and Hyunsuk saw how red his ears were. He told him quietly, "Listen, it's fine. You shouldn't be embarrassed anyways."

Jihoon frowned deeply, eyebrows furrowed.

"Alright, I won't mention it anymore," Hyunsuk stepped back, pretending to lock his lips.

For a moment, he feared Jihoon was still angry. He didn't know why he let the words slip from his lips, but he regretted them as soon as they did.

Thankfully, Jihoon just went back to the couch, laying down with a yawn. Hyunsuk nearly let out a breath of relief, giving him a small smile. Jihoon didn't look at him, instead texting on his phone as Hyunsuk reluctantly went back to work with a half-hard penis in his pants.

It's not easy working after getting blue balls, but he managed. If anything, it was a bit inspiring. He rushed, trying to get things done so Jihoon didn't pass out, but of course he checked the time and cursed under his breath.

When he looked back, he saw Jihoon was unsurprisingly knocked out on the couch. He was curled up, hoodie raised and body tucked. Hyunsuk felt bad but he also feared letting him go after a bit of tension between them. Sleeping it off and cooling down may cool things between them.

Hyunsuk crouches in front of him, smiling softly. He brushes his fringe from his eyes, kissing his cheek gently. "Hoon-ah, wake up. Baby, it's 3 in the morning..."

When he lightly tapped his arm, Jihoon grumbled a bit as he slowly opened his eyes. Hyunsuk watched in amusement, pressing his mouth to the boy's a few times until Jihoon slowly kissed him back, humming against his lips as they vibrated a bit. Hyunsuk pulled back, nudging their noses.

"Did you wanna stay in my room tonight?" Hyunsuk asked, pecking his lips once more. He added quickly, "We dont have to fuck or anything, just...hang out."

Jihoon stretched, making a sound as he did so. He sat up sleepily, rubbing his eye. It made his eyeliner smear more and Hyunsuk held back a chuckle at the raccoon look. As he went to brush his hair, Jihoon stood up and avoided his eyes.

He murmured, "I uh, I think I'm just gonna sleep in my room tonight."

Hyunsuk's heart sank. "Oh. Are you...Are you mad at me?"

"No," Jihoon said, far too quick. "No, I just. I don't want the members you know, getting suspicious."

The excuse was bullshit and they both knew it. Hyunsuk didn't press the situation, though, fearing for the real answer. He swallowed back his argument, forcing a smile of content. He wanted to kiss him good night but also did't know his boundaries right now.

The ride back to the dorms was more awkward than it should be and Hyunsuk went to bed that night with a heavy heart and more questions in his head.

-

"And then he just left, mom," Hyunsuk exclaimed, frustrated as he scrolled through his files. "I don't understand. He's been so distant and it's my first proper relationship. I'm scared I'm screwing things up."

"well, did you try talking to him sweetie?"

"Asahi asked the same thing," Hyunsuk murmured childishly, clicking randomly on the computer.

"You should listen to Asahi more then."

He chuckled a bit, rolling his eyes, "Funny."

He knew she was right, and he knew Asahi was right. But it felt so much more complicated.

"You know," his mom sighed softly. "Sometimes it's hard for people to open up. You only came out to me when I started asking questions, sweetie." he tensed a bit, frowning as she continued, "It's good you notice something is going on, but maybe he's scared to talk to you about it. Jihoon is a very sweet boy and I'm sure he's just worried to bring whatever it is up."

Hyunsuk paused, the words lingering on his tongue. "W-What...What if he wants to break up with me?"

Saying his fears out loud made them more real. He's been worried about that for a month now and it's only grown since their recent argument. If you can even call it that. Rather than lots of fights, there's been lots of silences. The silences scared him more.

A heavy sigh was heard on the other line. His mom asked sincerely, "Do you really think he wants that? Cause, I doubt it sweetheart."

"I don't know."

"Usually when there's tension on one side of the relationship, it has more to do with the person than with the actual relationship. I suggest you see if he's doing okay. For all you know, he may just be struggling with something," she said, wisdom always apparent.

A smile tugged at the corner of his lips. "Alright, thanks mom."

"And listen to Asahi more."

He rolled his eyes playfully, then muttered his love as he hung up. The small chat didn't help too much, but it was always nice to vent to someone a bit older and with more experience. His mom was always supportive of their relationship and he knew she would give honest advice.

When they first came out to her, it was accidental. She had overheard Hyunsuk talking to him on the phone during a break and when she saw the caller ID, she had questions. At first, he was scared to out Jihoon, but he wasn't actually that mad about it. He was more concerned she didn't like him.

If only he knew, she was Jihoon's biggest fan (after Asahi.)

His mom's words lingered in his head the next few days. He didn't have time to think much about it. They were fine and nothing happened that made him think too deeply, considering they were doing a lot of promotions and being super busy.

Eventually, they were left alone again when Jihoon and Haruto came by the studio. They just left the gym after Jihoon was trying to get their 'son' into shape, as he liked to joke. Haruto was quite offended, assuring he was in shape.

"Cute," Hyunsuk laughed, watching the two. "Are you guys heading out?"

"Yoshi-hyung and Jeongwoo are waiting to go out to eat," Haruto grinned, cracking open a cola.

Jihoon glared, "Did we not just leave the gym?"

Haruto frowned, "As if you don't do the same, hyung!"

"You can't argue that," Hyunsuk snickered.

And he didn't, which is why Haruto cheekily grinned as if he won. He checked his phone, saying, "They're telling us to hurry, so we should head down."

"Actually," Jihoon said quickly, then cleared his throat. "I was uh, just gonna wait here with hyung." He turned to Hyunsuk, hesitant, "If that's okay?"

"Of course," Hyunsuk flustered at how eager he was.

The youngest glanced between them, confused at how weird they were acting. He didn't question it and just headed downstairs, clearly focused more on he food. Hyunsuk doesn't blame him, considering he knew how Jihoon worked out and he'd be starving too.

jihoon stays and watches ondly

"You know, I was," Hyunsuk took a breath, eyes fluttering as Jihoon kissed his neck. "I was writing a song about...you. Today."

Jihoon halted, looking up with wide eyes. "Is that what you were working on?"

Hyunsuk sheepishly nodded. He's a bit embarrassed to admit it, but he's been writing these lyrics on his phone for a while and finally decided to work on the music. It's not a ballad, it didn't suit Jihoon or their relationship, but it is a love song.

Surprisingly, Jihoon looked more concerned than flattered, "Isn't that like, risky? I mean, when people write love songs about someone, they usually break up a year later."

"The only way we'd ever break up is if you dump me," Hyunsuk shrugged, looking at him fondly. "I mean, I couldn't imagine breaking up with you in a million years. And it's dumb, cause you're my first love and my first relationship that's lasted more than two months, but I really believe it."

Jihoon murmured, playing with Hyunsuk's hoodie strings, "It's not like I'm anymore experienced than you, hyung."

Hyunsuk replied, "Well, you dated your ex for way longer and you dumped him. I was dumped by my exes, so, I'd say you're a bit more experienced there."

When he laughed, he was surprised to see Jihoon lost in thought, staring ahead blankly. At first he feared he offended him, despite them mentioning Jihoon's ex a few times previously (he was dating him since they met in Treasure Box, so clearly it was unavoidable). However, the more seconds passed and he realized it was something else. Especially when he saw a mist in Jihoon's eyes; very rare.

Hyunsuk nudged him, asking with furrowed eyebrows, "What's wrong?"

"He actually...broke up with me."

"What? You told us you dumped him."

Jihoon sniffled a bit, shaking his head, "No, I was just...embarrassed."

His response made Hyunsuk taken back, raising an eyebrow at the words. It's a surprise to hear Jihoon has ever worried about being embarrassed or ashamed. He's a very confident person, which is what Hyunsuk always admired (and envied). He always loved how Jihoon spoke with conviction and assurance, and that he stands proud. So it was weird and surprising to know he felt that way.

His mom was right (as always). Jihoon is going through some things and Hyunsuk was scared to ask simply cause he felt embarrassed, when the whole time, Jihoon is also feeling the same way clearly. He needed to press more.

"I don't understand," Hyunsuk said slowly, moving off of Jihoon to sit next to him, facing the boy criss-crossed. "Why lie about that? We'd never make fun of you."

Jihoon glanced away, head lowered, "We were together for two years and - and everyone just seemed to think we were so cute and a great couple. But then I," he bit his bottom lip, rubbing at his eyes fiercely, before he let out a dry chuckle, "Well, he was cheating on me."

"What the fuck."

"It made me feel like shit," Jihoon admitted quietly, shaking his head with a bitter smile. However, the smile faded and tears brimmed his eyes, which he tried to blink away. "I mean, I swear I am over him, but it-it hurt? And I just wonder why I wasn't like, enough for him. And I feel really dumb, cause I didn't even know till he told me when he broke up with me."

Hearing this broke Hyunsuk's heart. Not only because he didn't know this, but because he realized it was the first time they've spoken in a serious manner since they started dating. It's the first time Jihoon's opened up like this and for a moment, he was unsure of how to reply. He never knew anyone who got cheated on, let alone his own boyfriend.

Hyunsuk placed his hand over Jihoon's closed fist, scooting closer. "I...I promise, you were enough. Byounggon was just. He's an asshole and he has no idea what he lost."

Jihoon shook his head slowly. "I should have known, though. He never kissed me and we only ever really had sex. A lot. It's pretty obvious he was using me for my body and maybe emotinoal support."

No wonder Jihoon always loved when Hyunsuk kissed him. His ex was simply using him for his body and never showed him affection. True affection. Hyunsuk never questioned why he was so into it, but it was the way Jihoon felt what they had was real.

"The guy he was cheating with...was just...so pretty, hyung." He looked up, voice cracking and his eyes looked so broken. "He was pretty and I remember him from that one JYP group. He's so talented and nice and cute. Like, he's so fucking perfect. It's hard not to compare."

"Listen," Hyunsuk said sternly, forcing his hand into Jihoon's grip, entwining their fingers. "I can't make you feel beautiful or talented, but I swear to God, I think you're the most attractive guy in the whole fucking world. And your voice - " he paused, baffled, "Baby, your voice is gorgeous and so husky and amazing. Don't even get me started on your dancing. It's what made me fall in love with you."

There was a moment of silence before Jihoon asked shakily, "It was?"

They don't ever talk about this. The way they started dating was so abrupt and they never had to have this conversation, nor do they have time frankly. And it really made Hyunsuk realize that maybe Jihoon didn't know how much he loved him (or at least, the reasons why). And now knowing that his ex cheated on him and how Jihoon's been holding that it, he feared Jihoon may be very insecure over their relationship; he may not even realize Hyunsuk is head over heels for him.

Hyunsuk knew many things about Jihoon. It's an objective amount of things, but he knew him well. However, Jihoon keeps walls up and now Hyunsuk knew those walls were double the amount he assumed. He always knew he would have to tear them down, but maybe it's time he started to actually try.

So he smiled weakly, meeting his lover's eyes, and said, "I remember uh, the first day I saw you. And well, it wasn't love at first sight." Jihoon made a surprised laugh and Hyunsuk was happy to hear it. "But, having you leave and gone for so long...and then you coming back, something changed. I looked at you differently. Maybe cause it was then I started realizing I like guys? And well, you were everything I found attractive in a guy."

"I am?" Jihoon seemed genuinely surprised.

His reaction was bittersweet. It seems obvious considering they're dating, but maybe Jihoon didn't think Hyunsuk found him attractive like that.

Hyunsuk nodded confidently, saying sincerely, "Yeah, you're...so fucking hot, Jihoon. And beautiful. Especially when you're dancing and your confidence shines. I couldn't help but find you attractive. I think it was around when you did that Ko Ko Bop performance that I knew I had the biggest crush on you. I thought you looked really sexy."

Jihoon rolled his eyes, yet he blushed fiercely, "Shut up."

"But to be honest, when you did Boomerang...you had this stage presence," Hyunsuk said sincerely, recalling the stage. "I mean, we were both performing and yet, I kept glancing to you and seeing you work so hard despite being injured. And seeing how strong you were...I admired you, babe. Like, so much."

Hyunsuk slowly took his hand, squeezing it tightly. Jihoon met his gaze and Hyunsuk whispered, "And it makes me realize that I always saw you as being really strong and tough, and you shouldn't have to be that."

"You're so annoying," Jihoon tried to bite back, but his bottom lip trembled a bit.

Hyunsuk could see him fighting back tears and he couldn't stand it.

He reminded him, "You know you don't have to be strong all the time, right? It's okay to talk to us and cry in front of us."

Jihoon snorted, "Okay, dad."

Hyunsuk rolled his eyes, nudging him, "I'm serious."

Jihoon glanced away, but Hyunsuk lightly gripped his chin and made him look forward. His boyfriend reluctantly met his gaze and Hyunsuk said softly, "I...I love you, you know that right? And you should never...be embarrassed to talk to me about stuff. I know the other guys are younger and you always wanna seem like the cool older brother, but you don't have to do that with me. I'm not just your boyfriend, I'm your best friend. And I'm your hyung."

"I," Jihoon cleared his throat, a ghost smile on his lips. "I love you too. I just, I really hate crying in front of people."

"Well, I'm not just people, am I?"

Jihoon rolled his eyes, but nodded nonetheless. "Yeah, you're not."

Hyunsuk grinned, kissing him intently, causing Jihoon to whimper slightly against his lips. He was pleased to feel Jihoon kiss back, his lips tasting like diet coke. It was nice to have Jihoon open up like that and it made him want to comfort him so much; be close with him.

Knowing the door was locked, Hyunsuk didn't think twice as he moved closer, gripping onto Jihoon's waist. He slowly crawled into Jihoon's lap, wrapping his arms around his neck. He was sat, pressed onto Jihoon's lap, ass directly on his crotch. He kissed this intimacy so much. He could feel Jihoon's hand gripping the back of his neck and it was so nice.

As Hyunsuk reached for Jihoon's pants button, the older boy pulled away. Jihoon looked off, chuckling a bit. And it was an awkward chuckle. One that made Hyunsuk's heart drop. Why was he chuckling like that?

"Um, I - I'm kind of tired," Jihoon said suddenly, lightly pushing Hyunsuk to move off of him. "You know, with practice and stuff."

"It's fine," Hyunsuk laughed a bit, trying to smile. He sat up, pecking his cheek, "You keep being a tease, huh?"

It was a joke but Jihoon's face went dark suddenly, eyes cast down. Hyunsuk instantly said, "No, I - I was joking, you know that right?"

"I'm sorry," Jihoon replied, glancing to his hands.

I didn't mean that baby," Hyunsuk promised, reaching for him but Jihoon shook his head, sinking into his seat.

It was tense and Hyunsuk hated it. He tried to joke to settle the mood before but he only made it worse. And when Jihoon looked at him that way, he knew things were wrong. Not just sexually in their relationship, but more than he feared.

After their conversation, he thought things were okay. And maybe he's being unfair, but he couldn't help the insecurities he was feeling. The question that was lingering constantly in the back of his head for weeks now.

"Do you like, not like me anymore?" Hyunsuk asked, holding his breath for a response.

Jihoon furrowed his eyebrows, head snapping up in surprise. "What? Why would you ask that? Cause I don't want sex?"

Hyunsuk frowned, looking down. "No, o-of course not. I can wait, I don't mind. But like, we always had sex and then recently we stopped and you say it's cause you're tired, which could be true, but that feels like...you're making excuses? Like that's not the reason why? I was like, worried...you might not be attracted to me anymore. We always almost get there and then you stop. A...As if you don't want to do that with me anymore."

"If you feel like you need to stay with me for the group, please don't," Hyunsuk said, swallowing back a lump forming in his throat. "Like, I can be professional. I don't want you to be with me if you're unhappy."

It was quiet for a minute, and when he looked over, he saw Jihoon's face covered in silent tears. Hyunsuk gasped softly,

"God, I fucked up," Jihoon choked out, rubbing his eye.

Hyunsuk grimaced, thinking the worst, "D-Did you cheat on me?"

"Oh my god, no!" Jihoon replied frantically, sniffling. "I would never - I'm just stupid. I ruined this and all for the dumbest reason. I should have talked to you but i was embarrassed and now I'm more embarrassed, cause I hurt you."

Hyunsuk was lost, and he still had a lingering fear that Jihoon cheated. He never thought he would, he knew he wasn't the type of guy, but there was an irrational fear there. He stayed quiet, waiting for Jihoon to speak again.

"It's about sex," Jihoon blurted out.

Hyunsuk was taken back. "Oh."

It made sense. Their issues stem around whenever they are in the heat of the moment, but this doesn't make the fear go away.

"You know how you said I - I can tell you anything?"

"Yeah."

Jihoon swallowed a lump in his throat. "Did you mean it?"

He looked at Hyunsuk with such scared eyes, and Hyunsuk hated how nervous he looked. He should never be this nervous to talk to him. He was wringing his hands and he's never seen this face before. Not even when they debuted.

"Of course I meant it," Hyunsuk promised.

It was a long pause and for a moment, Jihoon was silent. Eventually Hyunsuk went to speak again, but Jihoon beat him to it.

"I wanted you to fuck me," Jihoon said, nearly holding his breath as he watched Hyunsuk's face intently.

The words caught him off guard and it took Hyunsuk a moment to register what he was asking.

And well, fuck.

He looked down, hesitant as he tried processing this. He could tell Jihoon was nervous, his hands shaking a bit. Hyunsuk took the left hand, entwining their fingers and he slowly rubbed the back of Jihoon's hand. It didn't calm him down much but he was trying to process it all.

It surprised him a lot, hearing Jihoon ask this. Never once did he get the impression he wanted that nor did he expect someone like Jihoon to want it. And Hyunsuk never even considered changing positions. He was content and frankly loved Jihoon on top, fucking him.

"How long did you want that?" Hyunsuk asked, curious.

Jihoon gulped, whispering, "Since we first had sex."

"What - " Hyunsuk was even more taken back and now he felt horrible. "Why did you never ask? God, is - I never noticed. I'm sorry, I - "

Jihoon sat up, frantically saying, "No, it's me, I - I'm sorry. I was scared that if I asked, maybe you'd not want to...be with me anymore. And it's not like I didn't enjoy having sex. I just always wanted you to top me and I was scared." he then added, lowering his voice, "But lately I've been wanting it more and I'm sorry for not just saying it."

Things started to make sense more and now when he thought back, he realized how much Jihoon was putting signs out there. Clearly he never asked directly, but with the suggestion in mind, he can put the pieces together. All the flirting and subtle changes in their sex life. And then Jihoon eventually being quieter and less active in their sex life -- it made sense.

He saw Jihoon's guilty face and felt bad. Hyunsuk asked cautiously, "Is this why you've been distant?"

"Maybe," Jihoon frowned.

"Oh, wow. I - I was worried for a bit, that like, you only wanted me for sex," Hyunsuk admitted, ashamed. "Cause like, you've been avoiding me but then you just stopped wanting that even."

Jihoon frowned, "I'm sorry. I was just embarrassed."

Hyunsuk wanted to scold him for that, but they just discussed this and it's no use going over it again. Instead he asked quietly, "Have you done it before?"

"Done what?"

"Bottomed."

Jihoon nodded carefully, looking down.

"Ah, and you liked it?"

He was surpirsed as Jihoon didn't respond, clearly still anxious over the topic. It's so rare for him to see Jihoon not confident or eager to talk about something. It gave Hyunsuk this urge to protect and almost coddle him.

"What's wrong?"

I...I dont want to make you like, jealous or anything, hyung," Jihoon said cautiously, his eyes flickering down.

Hyunsuk frowned, eyebrows furrowed, "Why would I be jealous? You're with me now, I just want to know what you liked before so I can make you feel good."

"My ex didn't really like me talking about anyone else. He said it was rude."

"Fuck him, he's dumb. I'm with you now and if you felt good before, I'd wanna make sure i do that too. Alright?"

Jihoon hesitated, nodding slowly, "Well, with my ex, we'd...one time I bottomed cause he was curious and I realized I preferred that. But he didn't like it and since then, I would keep topping. I just didn't want to upset him, cause he liked when I would top. I only did it once but...he refused to after that. I really wanted to know how you'd feel..." Jihoon lowered his head, murmuring, "I think you'd feel really good."

Hyunsuk shifted a bit, his cock hardening at those words. Jesus Christ.

Jihoon looked at him, saying, "I just, I really want that and I get off a lot on the idea of it. Is that weird?"

"No, I mean, I'm just surprised that you want that. Like, you never seemed like the type of person to want to bottom," Hyunsuk admitted, trying to be honest.

Jihoon frowned a bit, but nodded. "I know. I'm kind of used to that and I think it made me naturally try to be more dominant and top but I never really wanted to. And you always liked it when I did it so I just...kept going with it. And it got me off enough, cause I like having sex with it, but I'd get off more if you ever, you know, wanted to..."

Hyunsuk gulped subtly, the image of Jihoon under him whirling in his mind. He's literally never imagined it, but just the idea formed some images in his head that he can't get out now. Knowing Jihoon wants to be more submissive was actually kind of hot.

Now that the context is clear, he could tell that Jihoon was putting on more of an act. He always assumed it was just something he was into, but it wasn't. Jihoon did usually respond more to foreplay and when he asked Hyunsuk to finger him once, maybe that was a sign. He just ignored them.

"I never really did that before," Hyunsuk started, slowly trying to explain this.

Instantly Jihoon nodded, looking away, "It's fine, you don't have to - "

"But I'd want to," Hyunsuk interrupted, causing Jihoon to look up abruptly. "If you like it and want me to fuck you, I wouldn't say no."

Jihoon's eyes widened, nodding frantically, "Yes, I want to."

Hyunsuk chuckled a bit, amused at his eagerness. He bit his bottom lip, saying, "I just, please don't be too disappointed if I suck or something. I mean, my dick isn't even that big and that's why I always kind of stayed bottoming and everyone just assumed i'd rather..."

"Hey," Jihoon mocking glared, "Don't ever say that, I love your dick."

Hyunsuk burst into laughter, but the insecurity was still there. Just like Jihoon, Hyunsuk naturally formed into the bottom position in the gay community. He was small and his dick was too, so the top option was never there since day one. It never crossed his mind that he could even top in the first place.

Yet, here it was, his first opportunity and now that it was there, he wanted to do it. It was nerve-wracking and he was worried about messing up, but seeing the eagerness and smile on Jihoon's face, it made it worth it.

Hearing that his ex just ignored his wishes was horrible. He always knew Jihoon's ex was trash, but since he's slowly hearing of the way Jihoon was treated, he could see why Jihoon ended up being more cautious about asking. His ex never took his wants into consideration and was selfish. Of course Jihoon was scared to ask for anything in bed.

Sadly, Hyunsuk glanced at the time, sighing heavily, "I guess tonight isn't an option..."

"I mean," Jihoon shrugged, but he chuckled sadly. "I guess not."

"I'm glad you told me," Hyunsuk said sincerely, pecking his lips. "Next time, ask me, alright? Even if I don't want to, I'd at least like to know what's going on in that head of yours."

"Fine," Jihoon sighed, flushed. "It's hard for me to...say things."

"I've noticed," Hyunsuk laughed, kissing him again.

Jihoon grinned against his lips, sincere and clearly relieved. It was nice knowing he was happier now. Hyunsuk didn't realize how much he was holding this in. And he knew it was more than the sex. It was Jihoon being scared of being shamed and rejected in general.

He's just glad things are open now.

-

Over the next few days, Hyunsuk tried his best to make Jihoon feel confident. They were talking more and kissing a lot more. Honestly, the horniest from their first month dating was back, but this time, Jihoon was not holding back at all. It was frustrating.

Hyunsuk was still scared about topping, but he did a lot of research beforehand. Jihoon said he did it before, but he had to make it better. Not out of some dumb competition between his trash ex. More so for Jihoon's sake. He didn't ever want Jihoon to feel uncomfortable. Hyunsuk's had good and bad experiences, but sadly the bad ones stick in his mind more. He wanted to prevent that.

Sadly, the only things they've been able to do are quick hand jobs. The next week was torture and it was only when they were in the Jihoon's dorm that they found any time alone. Hyunsuk was actually glad it was there, though, because they were alone, as Doyoung was staying in Jeongwoo's room for the night.

When Hyunsuk went next, he returned to see Jihoon passed out, curled up with his stage outfit still on. He looked like he was watching something on his phone before he fell asleep. Maybe he took too long in the shower. The guys always complained he takes forever.

Hyunsuk walked over, tossing his towel onto the chair. He smiled a bit, fondly brushing the boy's hair out of his face. Jihoon moved a bit, blinking his eyes sleepily.

"Hm?" Jihoon glanced at his phone. "Shit, did I fall asleep?"

"Yeah, are tired? You still have your makeup on, baby," Hyunsuk frowned.

Jihoon whined, curling up, "M'tired."

"Want me to take it off?"

Jihoon nodded, much to Hyunsuk's surprise. He raised an eyebrow, but shrugged as he grabbed the makeup wipes from the dresser. Jihoon rubbed his eye sleepily and Hyunsuk lightly slapped it, straddling the boy. Jihoon blushed a bit, but he closed his eyes, the eyeliner smeared a bit.

Hyunsuk gently wiped the makeup wipe onto the boy's eyes, letting it linger until he rubbed it off. Jihoon made a small noise, but was quiet as Hyunsuk did so. It felt strangely intimate and he loved how much Jihoon trusted him to do this. Jihoon is quite sensitive with his eyes and Hyunsuk was always shocked at how much he lets the artists put eyeliner on him. It looked hot, though, so he wasn't complaining.

"Cute," Hyunsuk murmured, seeing the boy's cheeks a bit red from wiping so much.

Jihoon blinked his eyes open, pouting. "Shut up."

Hyunsuk laughed and pecked his lips. "One more."

"I think you enjoy this too much."

"I love doing things for you," Hyunsuk retorted.

He lightly wiped once more, making sure he got everything off. Then he kissed the boy's cheek, lightly patting it. He got up, flopping onto the chair.

They both stayed there quietly, taking a moment after the intense concert. It was always jarring going from loud music and cheers to an empty dorm. Thankfully they all had each other. Hyunsuk could never be a solo artist for this reason.

After a while, Jihoon took a shower and changed. He returned with a hoodie and shorts, looking fluffy and cute. Hyunsuk was playing with Jihoon's guitar and the younger boy was playing some game on his phone. It was nice. But Hyunsuk kept glancing at him, eyeing the shorts and the hoodie that was clearly his. It was taunting him, reminding himself of the fact that they're alone

There was something about the way Jihoon looked, laying there in Hyunsuk's hoodie and shorts. His eyes were sleepy and Hyunsuk's corner lip quirked, eyeing his boyfriend. He slowly put his guitar down, walking over and Jihoon frowned when he slowly pulled his phone away.

Before Jihoon could speak, Hyunsuk pressed his mouth to his boyfriend's, tongue instantly licking into his mouth. Jihoon gasped, but eagerly kissed back albeit being confused. Hyunsuk slid his hand under his hoodie, not even surprised when he felt bare skin. Of course Jihoon wouldn't wear anything underneath.

"W-What are you - ?" Jihoon muttered a curse word under his breath as Hyunsuk sucked on his neck. "Fuck, fuck, that feels good."

Hyunsuk nipped the skin, lifting his head to meet his eyes. "D-Did you want to?"

Jihoon looked confused, but then flushed deeply. "N-Now?"

Hyunsuk nodded, moving his hand up his hoodie to brush his fingers against his perked nipples. He could feel his heart pounding, yet he wanted nothing more than to take Jihoon then and there. Right in this moment.

"What brought this on?"

Hyunsuk shrugged, leaning closely. "I can't just wanna fuck my boyfriend?"

"God," Jihoon nearly whimpered, swallowing. "Yeah, of course, I mean - yes. I want to. I want you to fuck me. Please."

"As you wish," Hyunsuk smirked, pecking his lips twice and then tugged at the hoodie.

As he sat up, Hyunsuk eyed Jihoon's toned abs. He's been working out more than usual and it was definitely paying off. He saw Jihoon's confidence build over the years and not only has it grown, but his body has to. He loved Jihoon's body before, but it doesn't hurt to see his abs get more intense.

He pushed Jihoon back down, the boy making an 'oomf' sound as he flopped onto the mattress. Hyunsuk was glad to have a bed with no frame. It meant he was allowed to move around without too much noise and it conveniently makes sex a lot quieter.

He quickly pinned down Jihoon's hands and made note of how Jihoon flinched a bit. Hyunsuk immediately freed his hands, but pointed his tongue and licked down his body. Jihoon whined, biting down on his bottom lip and his body shivered from the pleasure. Hyunsuk subtly placed his hand on the boy's crotch, rubbing him over his shorts.

Hyunsuk traced down to the happy trail leading to his shorts, licking at the v-line. He told him sweetly, eyes glinting, "I sound-proofed, remember?"

"Still," Jihoon huffed, subconsciously spreading his legs when Hyunsuk squeezed at his half-hard dick. "W-Wait, I wanna suck you off first. Before we...ya know."

Hyunsuk's dick twitched in his pants. He knew they had more time than usual but god, can he cum twice tonight? He glanced to Jihoon, who was sitting up eagerly. The younger boy licked his bottom lip and Hyunsuk shifted a bit, turned on at the sight. Fuck it. He'll make sure he can cum twice.

He got up, nearly tripping over his pants as he tugged them off. Hyunsuk went to lay back down but Jihoon grabbed his waist, stopping him. Hyunsuk inhaled sharply, seeing Jihoon kneel before him on the bed, tucking his thumbs into the boxers bands to pull them down. Hyunsuk nearly moaned at the sight of Jihoon below him, lips parted and ready to take him.

There was something so hot about looking at Jihoon at this angle. He gently petted the boy's head, watching as Jihoon licked at the tip of his half-hard dick.

"Already hard, hyung?" Jihoon teased, giving playful licks to the cock as he gripped at it. Hyunsuk blushed and Jihoon suckled the tip, pleased when his hyung tensed up. "Are you sure you can fuck me tonight?"

Hyunsuk said sternly, "Of course."

His response made Jihoon giggle way too innocent considering what he was doing. Nonetheless, he accepted the response and went to work, licking the underside of his cock before tracing his tongue across the length. He licked up the pre-cum, eyes meeting Hyunsuk's as he did so.

The thing was, Hyunsuk always felt embarrassed about his side but Jihoon never made him feel insecure. He happily sucked him off, never teasing him or showing disinterest. It boasted Hyunsuk's confidence when they dated. So to see Jihoon happily suck him off, Hyunsuk felt a bit more at ease for what comes later.

Jihoon eagerly took his cock whole, bobbing his head as he looked into Hyunsuk's eyes. He wasted no time deep throating him, Hyunsuk's cock fitting into his mouth with ease. He looked so hot taking him whole and Hyunsuk was always flustered at how easily he did it.

"Your gag reflex...it's so fucking hot, Jihoon-ah," Hyunsuk cursed, gasping at the feeling of Jihoon's soft hum against his cock.

Jihoon picked up the pace, taking him so far it hit the back of his throat. Hyunsuk tensed up, muttering curse words under his breath. He loved how confidently he sucked him off, always using his tongue so well.

Hyunsuk subconsciously gripped onto Jihoon's messy hair, biting the bottom of his lip. The hot, wet heat of Jihoon's mouth felt so good around him and how he used his free hand to play with his balls turned him on so much. He nearly came then and there.

Jihoon pulled off briefly, voice hoarse as he requested, "Fuck my mouth."

"Fuck," Hyunsuk whined, but didn't hesitant to instantly do that when Jihoon took him in his mouth again.

They've only did that a few times and it was mostly the other way, but Hyunsuk loved it. He usually loved to be the one being used, but when the roles reversed, he realized how nice it was. He watched intensely as he thrusted into Jihoon's mouth, the boy just sitting there and letting him do it.

In general, using someone is bad, but with permission, it felt so hot. Jihoon is usually so bossy and controlling (in a good way), yet here he was, letting Hyunsuk take over him. His cheeks were so flushed and eyes red and Hyunsuk grabbed at his hair, quickly pulling him down and back up, snapping his hips as he tightened up.

He came a moment later, panting heavily. Jihoon choked a bit, pulling off with a gasp. He coughed a few times, rubbing at his eyes and Hyunsuk was concerned, but then the younger boy smiled, licking his lips.

"That was so hot," Jihoon said, looking up toward him.

His voice was so wrecked and Hyunsuk blinked in surprise. He cupped at his face, asking, "D-Does your throat hurt?"

"Mmm," Jihoon shrugged, pecking his lips, "A little, but I like it."

"God, you're crazy," Hyunsuk murmured back, nipping at his puffy lips. "I never knew you were like this." When Jihoon leaned in, Hyunsuk grimaced, "Don't you dare try to kiss me after that. You just had my dick in your mouth."

When Jihoon pouted, Hyunsuk tried to hold a straight face, but it faltered as Jihoon leaned in closer. He rolled his eyes, but reluctantly let Jihoon kiss him. And he kissed back when he felt the smile on the younger boy's face as their lips pressed together.

A moment later, they parted and Jihoon eyed his face, whispering, "Can you fuck me now?"

Despite the ploy of confidence, Hyunsuk saw the small bit of insecurity in his eyes. As if he still thinks Hyunsuk is against the idea.

Just to show that he wasn't, Hyunsuk didn't answer and instead gripped his thighs and flipped them so Jihoon was thrown onto the bed. Jihoon yelped in surprise and looked up at him, pupils dialeted. Hyunsuk grinned, eagerly giving him open mouth kisses as he hovered over him, tossing a leg on either side of his boyfriend.

He tangled his fingers in his hair, kissing him deeply like he enjoyed it. He licked into his mouth, using his other hand to stroke him till he was hard. Jihoon responded eagerly, wrapping his arms around Hyunusk's neck to pull him closer, kiss him deeper. Moan harder.

And Hyunsuk let him, doing exactly what he wants. Whatever made him feel good. Letting him know that he's not his ex. That he loves him, cherishes him. That he'd do anything he asked and more, that love is both ways; give and take. A balance. And it was his turn to be loved and appreciated. That his requests are never too much. That what he wants made Hyunsuk feel good too.

And god, Hyunsuk loves his man.

He loves the way Jihoon goes lax when he kisses him, that he whines a bit when he pulls away. That his eyes go hazy whenever Hyunsuk kisses at his neck and the way he squirms a bit when he teasers at the spot right above his collarbone. He loves that he lets out little breathy sounds when he licks across his pelvic bone and his hands grip slightly at the bedsheet, always scared to respond too much to something.

"Do you want me to suck you off?" Hyunsuk asks, gripping at Jihoon's hard cock.

Jihoon gulped, silent before he admitted shyly, "I-I think I'll like, cum too fast."

"Do you not want to?"

"Not yet. I wanna cum with you in me," Jihoon said and fuck, that was so hot.

Hyunsuk shrugged, stroking him a bit, "I can make you cum twice."

Jihoon snorted, but shrugged, "I know you can." he then added, "I um, I just want you to finger me."

"Oh. Right."

"Unless you want me to do it myself," Jihoon said quickly when he saw Hyunsuk's reaction.

Hyunsuk reassured, stumbling to grab the lube from under the bed, "No, I - I want to! I just, this is happening so fast and like, I never fingered someone else."

Jihoon gulped, "You've done it to yourself?"

"Er, yes," Hyunsuk laughed a bit, embarrassed. He clumsily tried opening the bottle, nervous all of a sudden. "But I can do it! I want to."

Jihoon smiled a bit, watching as he made a fool of himself trying to open the bottle. Hyunsuk reluctantly let the younger boy take it, easily opening it. He felt bad not being perfect for him. When Jihoon fucked him the first time, he did so well and was so sweet. But here Hyunsuk is, unable to open a lube bottle as if he hasn't done it before.

Hyunsuk quickly lubed up his fingers, amused at how Jihoon was staring at him. Seeing how eager he was for this made him more turned on. He didn't know Jihoon was this into the idea of being fucked by him. It was flattering.

Jihoon perked his butt up, flushed a bit at the exposure. Hyunsuk never realized just how perky his ass was. He did work out a lot, but fuck, he was quite thick and it was more noticeable now that it was right in front of him.

"I really wanna eat you out right now," Hyunsuk admitted, cautiously stroking his finger across Jihoon's hole.

Jihoon cursed, "Don't - Don't say that! Fuck."

Hyunsuk smugly smiled, loving the affect he had on him. He lightly licked at the boy's hole, chuckling as Jihoon flinched, gasping at the sudden action. He could feel Jihoon glaring and just did as told, lightly pressing the tip of his finger against his entrance, slowly pressing it. He was very tight, clearly new to this and Hyunsuk could empathize with that.

When Hyunsuk first had sex, it was very painful. He worried how nice Jihoon's ex was to him. Did it hurt? Was he careful and slow? Did he take care of him? He only hoped it was at least decent. But he'll make sure to be cautious and patient with him this time. While he can't change his past, he can hopefully make this experience good for him.

Hyunsuk feverishly licked at his perky nipples, fingers thrusting into Jihoon.

"Y-You have no idea how often I thought of this," Jihoon admitted, breathless.

Hyunsuk licked his lips, curling his fingers, "Really?"

"I-I kept just, seeing you fingers and wondering how they'd feel inside me," Jihoon drawled out, moaning heavily when the fingers pressed deeper.

"Are you okay?" Hyunsuk asked, seeing him wince.

Jihoon nodded quickly, biting at his bottom lip. Hyunsuk tried to be slow, carefully thrusting his finger in and out. He didn't want to be too abrupt, but also being slow can make the pain a bit more agonizing.

After a few seconds, he felt Jihoon spread his legs a bit more and he carefully added another finger. He tried keeping a steady pace, allowing Jihoon to stretch. Being on this end, he never knew how much effort this took. Jihoon was all in his hands and trusting him so much. He was honored.

Eventually he added a third, just in case. He was a bit smaller but he didn't want any pain for him. This time Jihoon scrunched his face a bit and it made Hyunsuk frown. He comfortingly rubbed the boy's thigh, pecking at his leg.

"Was that too much? Should I go slower?" Hyunsuk hoped he was being honest.

Jihoon gulped, choking out, "Uh, y-yeah."

"Are you sure?" Hyunsuk noticed the boy's eyes were glossy. "It looks like you're gonna cry. We can stop."

"No! It's not that, It's just, you're so sweet," Jihoon said breathlessly, taking a shaky breath.

Hyunsuk frowned at his words, "For asking if you're okay?"

"Yeah," Jihoon chuckled a bit, but his eyes showed sadness. "I've never really had anyone ask that? I mean, not that you have to, but it was sweet...to see you cared. I don't know, I'm being dumb, you can just keep going."

There was embarrassment in his tone and Hyunsuk watched as Jihoon covered his face with his arm. Hyunsuk gently grabbed his arm to pull it away and eye his red face. He pressed a kiss to his swollen lips, heart aching at the sight of Jihoon's damp eyes. A tear fell and Hyunsuk wiped it with the pad of his thumb. It was so rare to see Jihoon cry.

"You're not dumb, your ex was - was such an asshole," Hyunsuk muttered, bite in his voice.

Jihoon laughed a bit, shrugging, "I don't know, he was...fine, hyung."

He didn't really want to argue right now, so Hyunsuk bit back his tongue. He always saw Jihoon come home later and go out early. He knew Jihoon was dating that guy, even if he hid it from the others. However, he never saw him come home with a smile. It was rare, if ever, and seeing how Jihoon acted in their relationship made him realize that maybe there was a reason for that.

Jihoon was always cautious and almost overly caring, as if compensating for something. Like he felt he had to be doing the upmost all the time. Hyunsuk knew Jihoon wasn't an open-book, so he doesn't expect him to tell him everything, but what he can do is be there for him and let him know he cares. Ten times more than that asshole ever has.

"I-I'm okay," Jihoon reassured, nudging him.

"Yeah?"

Jihoon nodded, whimpering as Hyunsuk brushed his fingertip against his prostrate. "F-Fuck, yeah, just. I need you, now."

"Okay, okay," Hyunsuk pulled his fingers out, trying to grab the condom but it was slippery.

"You're so clumsy, shit," Jihoon snorted, snatching the condom from him.

Hyunsuk pouted, but the expression slipped when Jihoon gripped his cock. He cursed under his breath, licking his lips as Jihoon stroked him till he was fully hard. The younger boy rolled on the condom, then flopped back down on the bed.

It was then that reality hit him. Jihoon was laid out, pillow under his waist to perk him up. He was ready for him and fuck, he looked amazing. Hyunsuk carefully crawled over him, allowing Jihoon to kiss him deeply. He could feel how tense Jihoon got and when he asked if he was alright, he smiled sheepishly, nodding.

"You sure?"

Jihoon paused, then nodded carefully, "Yeah, I trust you."

His words meant so much. Hyunsuk knew he meant them fully.

As Hyunsuk slowly pressed the head in, his eyes never left Jihoon's face. He was careful, going as slow as he could even if the tight squeeze just made him wanna shove in. Jihoon made a small noise, eyes clenching as his body went rigid. Hyunsuk was gonna stop but Jihoon just kept nodding, despite his expression.

Hyunsuk paused anyways, but Jihoon squeezed out, "D-Don't, keep going."

"But - "

"Hyung," Jihoon practically pouted, eyes fluttering open.

His eyes were damp, but pupils dilated. Hyunsuk listened and moved until he was pressed deep in, flushed against his ass. There was this feeling inside of him that he never felt. It was similar to being fucked, but on the other end and it was constant. His arms were nearly shaking as he hovered over Jihoon, staring down at him.

Jihoon placed his hand on the back of Hyunsuk's never, fingers playing with the little hairs. He was breathing heavily, as if trying to calm himself. Hyunsuk waited, patiently watching him. It felt like so long has passed, yet he knew it was merely a minute.

"You alright, baby?" Hyunsuk choked out, tensing to hold back.

Jihoon nodded, whispering, "Just...one second?"

"Yeah, that's fine," Hyunsuk reassured, pressing their foreheads together. He could feel how tense Jihoon was. He could feel everything.

The next minute felt like ten and Hyunsuk's body was begging to move, but he stayed. His arms were a bit sore and now he knew why Jihoon was so fucking bulky. It was then that Jihoon nodded, silently asking him to move.

Hyunsuk leaned over him, cock pressed as deep as he could into Jihoon. He started with small thrusts, allowing Jihoon to get used to the stretch. Looking down at him like this, dominantly hovered over him and filling him up, Hyunsuk found himself more turned on than usual.

Not only did the tightness around his dick feel amazing, but the sight of Jihoon's flushed face and clenched eyes beneath him was so sexy. He's seen this angle a few times, but always when he was riding Jihoon. Now he was in control and it made tingles shoot up his arms.

After a moment, he thrusted sharper, grinning a bit as Jihoon moaned out in surprise, lips parted. Hyunsuk snapped his hips at a steady pace, leaning down to peck the boy's lips and Jihoon fluttered his eyes shut. The younger boy whimpered out, gripping at Hyunsuk's arms.

"Y-You like that?" Hyunsuk asked, voice raspy as he struggled to speak out.

Jihoon nodded frantically, "Yeah, f-fuck, feels good."

"Yeah?"

"Your cock feels so good," Jihoon admitted hoarsely, moving his hips unconsciously to meet each thrust.

His words turned Hyunsuk on even more and his confidence grew. He kept steady, shallow thrusts. Jihoon made a noise at each snap of the waist, hands tight on his arms that were tensing from where they held himself above the boy. It felt amazing, having Jihoon around him so intimately.

As he continued, his speed went faster, growing more and more turned on by the moment. He got lost in it, feeling his cock occasionally slip out when he got too enthusiastic. Jihoon's moans grew louder, echoing in the room.

"W-Wait fuck, I - I'll cum, just wait," Jihoon gasped out, placing his arm over his forehead. "Sorry, I just. Don't want to yet." He whimpered out, "Y-You feel so good, hyung, it's a lot."

It felt cocky, but Hyunsuk was proud to know Jihoon was nearly cumming already. He held back that thought and rubbed his hand on the other's chest, focusing on how gorgeous he looked. He already looked so fucked, despite them just starting.

Jihoon rubbed at his face, asking breathlessly, "H-How do you not cum so fast? Fuck, this is intense."

Hyunsuk chuckled a bit, shrugging, "Just...kind of used to it?"

"Aw, I bore you?"

"That's not what I meant," Hyunsuk rolled his eyes, leaning over to kiss him chastely. "You're just sensitive right now."

Jihoon eyed his face, smiling a bit.

Hyunsuk added, leaning closer to whisper in his ears, "I was about to cum too, by the way. You feel so hot around me right now."

JIhoon gulped, shivers sent down his spine. "Fuck, shut up."

Even if he said it to boast him up, it was true. Hyunsuk was this close to orgasming. He enjoyed bottoming it, it's all he knew. However, he felt so hot being the one in control. He's ridden Jihoon and been in other positions, but nothing like this. It was overwhelming but he loved it. It opened a new world to him.

After Jihoon nodded for him to continue, Hyunsuk slowly began thrusting again, finding a rhythm as he rocked into the younger boy. Hyunsuk brushed Jihoon's sweaty fringe out of his eyes, caressing his face. Jihoon wrapped his arms around his neck, pulling him down for a quick kiss, whimpering when Hyunsuk continued.

"I want to on the wall," Jihoon blurted out, panting against his shoulder.

It took a second for Hyunsuk to hear what he said, asking in confusion, "What?"

Jihoon gulped, leaning back to meet his gaze, "I want you to fuck me against the wall. Like, grab me and fuck me against it."

"Jesus Christ," Hyunsuk muttered under his breath, legs feeling like jelly.

The image Jihoon put in his mind had him weak and he got hard just from the thought. Hyunsuk has never even fucked someone before, but now Jihoon wanted that? He couldn't ask for anything more in life.

"Does that turn you on?" Jihoon asked, grinning cheekily.

Hyunsuk nodded frantically, pecking his lips, "You want that?"

"Mhm," Jihoon giggled a bit, biting his bottom lip as he traced his finger onto Hyunsuk's arm. "I get so hard whenever I think about you working out. Like, it turns me on so much and I just keep dreaming about you lifting me up and pounding me into the wall- "

"Stop," Hyunsuk nearly whined, pressing his mouth to the other boy's to shut him up.

He shoved his tongue into the boy's mouth, catching him by surprise. Jihoon moaned in response, eagerly pulling Hyunsuk closer, sweaty body pressed against his. Maybe it was the idea of fucking against a wall, but he felt eager to kiss Jihoon and be as close as possible, licking against the roof of his mouth, tongue's tangling.

After a moment, Hyunsuk could feel his dick throbbing again. He pulled away, panting heavily. Jihoon's eyes were dilated, lips more red than ever. All Hyunsuk wanted to do right now is let the dream come true, so he quickly got up, tugging Jihoon with him. Jihoon wasted no time, kissing him intently, all mouth and no rhythm.

Hyunsuk stepped back, stumbling, "Shit, your room is not equip for this."

"I'll clean it next time," Jihoon murmured carelessly, giggling against his mouth as he pressed his back to the door.

He won't, but Hyunsuk didn't care to argue.

He just pushed his body against Jihoon's, kissing down his neck. Jihoon lifted his head, letting Hyunsuk trail kisses against his tan skin. Each touch was met with goosebumps, the room silent aside from their soft breathing. He felt Jihoon reach for his dick and quickly grabbed his wrist, stopping him.

The action was met with a sharp inhale and Hyunsuk raised an eyebrow. He then grabbed both of Jihoon's wrists, pinning them up above the boy's head. Jihoon crouched a bit, clearly into it despite their bit of height difference. He's thankful or the longer arms, sucking a hickey right onto Jihoon's chest.

"H-Hyung, please," Jihoon begged, abs clenching. "Fuck, please."

"Please what?"

He didn't think he'd like the teasing this much. It's nice finally putting Jihoon in his place. He can be a brat at times.

Jihoon whined, "Fuck me."

"If you insist," Hyunsuk feigned nonchalance, pecking his lips.

Jihoon wrapped his arms around his neck once more, bringing their lips together. Hyunsuk kissed back, feeling generous tonight. This night was about Jihoon and he wanted to make it perfect. So he kissed him as much as he wanted, gripping the man's thighs as he held him against the door. As he lifted him, Jihoon wrapped his legs around his waist, back pressed to the door.

Jihoon gasped in response, cursing under his breath. His head tilted back against the door. Hyunsuk trailed kisses down his exposed neck, taking a moment. Jihoon was in his trust right now, literally in his hands.

However, as he managed to slip his cock back in, his arms began shaking. Jihoon bit his bottom lip, looking at him so intently. Hyunsuk gathered as much strength as he could, thrusting upwards. Jihoon moaned out, chest heaving but as soon as it started, it stopped.

Hyunsuk cursed, slipping out before quickly dropping Jihoon as carefully as he could. Jihoon yelped, finding his balance thankfully. Hyunsuk gripped his arm to steady him more, guilt building when he saw his confused face.

"S-Sorry baby, I don't ... I don't think I can," Hyunsuk frowns, panting heavily.

Jihoon pouts a bit, but nods, "It's fine."

"You sure?"

"If you can't, it's fine," Jihoon says, leaning up to whisper against his ear, "But I really want you to fuck me against the wall one day..."

Hyunsuk then made it his goal to do that.

Clearly it didn't bother Jihoon too much, cause he shoved Hyunsuk back onto the bed and hovered above him. Hyunsuk's guilt was vanished as soon as Jihoon lowered himself onto his cock, thick thighs bulging as he pounded down onto him. It was a sight only he could behold and he was honored.

However, he didn't want Jihoon doing too much today. He gripped at his waist, flipping them over so Jihoon was under him again. He had to show his strength somehow, and Jihoon definitely liked it if the volume of his groans had anything to say.

Hyunsuk basked in the sounds, feeling the bed creak beneath them. Nothing is harder than fucking in a tiny bunk bed. He stared down at Jihoon, eyes lingering on the marks he made earlier. His sweaty neck, glistening in front of him. His parted lips. He's so fucking beautiful.

"You're so fucking pretty," Hyunsuk said subconsciously, nuzzling his nose against his neck.

"W-What?"

Hyunsuk smiled a bit, shaking his head, "Nothing, you just, you feel so good."

Jihoon grinned, but it diminished as Hyunsuk angled differently, his cock getting ridiculously hard. He's only maintained this long cause of the small pauses, but he can't handle it much longer. Not with the way Jihoon was grinding back against him.

"F-Fuck, faster please, hyung," Jihoon asked in between pants, tugging him down with his arms tensing up.

Hyunsuk frantically did as told, exerting all of his energy as he thrust shallow into his boyfriend. His cock occasionally slipped out but he quickly shoved back in, arms burning as he held himself up but he planned on making sure Jihoon came hard.

Hyunsuk sat them up, Jihoon hovering over him as he rolled his hips down to meet his thrusts. Hyunsuk eagerly licked at his neck, giving him hot kisses on his skin. Jihoon moaned as he tilted his head to give more access, his movements becoming more frantic.

It was only a moment later when Hyunsuk came, moaning out his boyfriend's name. His chest heaved, trying to grip at Jihoon's cock between them. He pressed his thumb against the tip, jerking him off as he fucked up into him.

"K-Kiss me," Jihoon pleaded, nails digging into Hyunsuk's back. "F-Fuck, please, kiss."

Hyunsuk quickly did as told, though it wasn't much of a kiss. Jihoon panted softly against his lips, coming not long after. He spilled into Hyunsuk's hand, body tensing against him. Hyunsuk pulled back, watching as his face tensed up, eyes rolling back. It was the most intense orgasm he's seen Jihoon had and he's never looked more gorgeous than in that moment.

There was a brief silence that swept the room. Hyunsuk carefully moved them, his arms felt like jell-o. He laid Jihoon down, the two limp as he followed beside him after pulling out. Jihoon winced a bit, sensitive. Hyunsuk knew the feeling.

Hyunsuk grabbed a wash cloth from the floor, wiping the cum off of his hand. He then snatched a towel from the doorknob. It was still damp from Jihoon's shower earlier. He wiped himself down, then Jihoon, the boy tensing a bit.

"S-Sorry, just um," Jihoon laughed in embarrassment.

"I know," Hyunsuk smiled in amusement, relieved that the tensions were gone. He grabbed his boxers, tugging them on. Then he handed Jihoon his own.

Hyunsuk got into the bed again, hesitant as he kept eyeing Jihoon. He came and he looked like he had a good time, but he was still nervous. Did he make it good enough? Did he pretend? He couldn't fake an orgasm like that, but still, who knows?

Jihoon turned to him, curling up against the older boy. He pecked his cheek, muttering sheepishly, "Thanks."

"Hm?" Hyunsuk was too lost in thought.

"For um, doing this for me," Jihoon said, tracing mindlessly on Hyunsuk's chest. "It means a lot to me...especially after I was such an asshole."

"You weren't an asshole, next time just ask," Hyunsuk reassured, taking his hand to entwine their fingers. "Was it...okay?"

Jihoon snapped his head up, staring at him in disbelief.

"What?"

"Are you fucking with me? That...that was the best sex ever," Jihoon said, dead-serious.

Hyunsuk blushed, "Yeah?"

"Perfect," Jihoon nodded. He then cheekily moved to straddle him, tracing his fingers across his chest and abs. "But um, next time, I really want to fuck against a wall. So if you can make that happen....that'd be super hot."

Hyunsuk let out a shaky breath, nodding frantically, "Anything for you."

"I like the sound of that," Jihoon smirked, lowering his head to nuzzle their noses together.

When he went to press their lips together, Hyunsuk rolled them over, quickly jabbing his fingers at Jihoon's sides. The boy yelped in response, cackling as he swatted at Hyunsuk's hands, trying to shove him away. He knew his weak spots.

The two continued tickling each other until Jihoon yelped at a sharp pain in his lower back. Hyunsuk had laughed, but he sympathized. It was Jihoon's turn now to endure the aftermaths of anal sex. When he pouted, Hyunsuk kissed him and assured that it gets better the more they do it.

"So we're doing it again?"

Hyunsuk was surprised at the genuine surprise. He squinted fondly, yawning as they laid down for bed. He nodded, promising, "We can do it as much as you want."

And the smile on his face afterwards was worth it. Hyunsuk would do anything for him, and hey, topping was fun for him now too. He's just glad they worked through this and that Jihoon trusted him intimately now. And he promised to never betray that.

A Week Later

"Huh, am I crazy or are you joining us more than usual?" Yedam asked, tossing his towel over his shoulder.

Hyunsuk chuckled a bit, cheeks flushed, "Uh, yeah, a bit."

"Are you trying to tone up for the tour?" Yedam tilted his head curiously.

There was the sound of snickering beside him and Hyunsuk elbowed Jihoon, replying with a tight smile, "Uh, yeah, for the tour! Just wanted to bulk up a bit more. You know, so I can keep up with the...choreography. You know, it's so hard these days and I just want to make sure I can maintain that strength and stuff."

Jihoon grinned brightly, grabbing onto Hyunsuk's bicep as he bragged, "He looks so good, doesn't he? His arms are already bigger, huh?"

Yedam raised an eyebrow, smiling in confusion, "Yeah, I guess. I don't think the choreography needs much arm strength, though."

"Right but uh," he paused, Jihoon watching in amusement as he laughed, "It always helps, right? To be strong all over. I mean, I can do it but it helps to be stronger and more fit," Hyunsuk said, then added quickly, "For the choreography!"

Yedam blinked.

"Choreography," Jihoon repeated in a mocking tone, smirking. "You love choreography, don't you, hyung?"

"I'd love choreography more if it wasn't so difficult to maintain," Hyunsuk replied under his breath, smile still on his face, but his eyes met Jihoon's mischievous ones.

"But the choreography is fun, isn't it?"

"It'd be more fun if it wasn't so hard."

The two continued to bicker and Jihoon laughed as Hyunsuk glared at him. Yedam looked between the two, cautiously walking away to join Haruto, who was sneakily eating some Cheetos while watching Junghwan do pull ups. When he glanced back, he rolled his eyes as he saw the couple now giggling with their arms wrapped around each other.

Yeah, for the choreography.