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One thing Minho was sure of was that he could keep everything under control. He was almost known to have a certain control over the things or people around him. A few examples to illustrate this: during practice, he was able to keep the others focused longer than usual, he was a really good cook, Hyunjin was scared of him. He was pretty proud of the last one.
The one thing he couldn’t control, no matter how hard he tried, was how he acted around Jisung. He doesn’t know if he should be thankful for that since it helped him quite a bit when it came to making his feelings known to the other (melting everytime your crush touches you is a dead giveaway to be honest). Everyone knew he liked him more than the others, even the fans. Although it wasn’t as obvious, Jisung liked him too. One more thing they have to hide.
And it was quite easy. They already had this bond, this relationship in front of everyone that showed their closeness, which is something none of them could have hidden. So they kissed behind closed doors, hid themselves to go eat outside, held hands in the car.
Between the two, Minho was the one who could control himself the best. Or so he thought. As much as he wanted to hide it, his fondness for the other was always so evident, so out in the open it made him feel warm. To love and to be loved. And, even if it was sometimes made on purpose, he absolutely loved touching him. As if his body was a magnet, constantly pulling towards the other.
But he was able to act indifferent, to act cute with other members. He made sure to interact a lot with everyone so the fans couldn’t be able to realize. Everyone made sure to protect their relationship.
I.
Living in the same place for years now, they all developed their routine. Minho’s routine was pretty simple: waking up and immediately kissing his boyfriend. So what he did was wake up, and unusually, find the room empty. Stumbling in the living room, Minho found his boyfriend eating on the floor in the living room, looking at his phone prompted against a bottle on the couch. His hair was a little bit messy but he seemed dressed up. Behind his phone, some of his make-up products were meticulously organized in a line. Minho found that it was one of the most endearing things about his boyfriend, the way he had to put everything in a line to get his routine perfectly.
“You going somewhere babe?” Yawning, Minho approached him pretty quickly, crouching down behind him to get his morning kiss. Just as he was about to get closer, Jisung turned around and put his hand on his mouth, his expressions translating fear.
“Hyung! Please brush your teeth before talking to me.” Jisung faked disgust, trying to laugh it off as Minho furrowed his eyebrows. Jisung never rejected his kisses before.
“Why are you doing this to-”
“Stays are asking if you just woke up.” Turning his back, Jisung leaned closer to his phone, with his hand still near Minho’s mouth. “He practiced late yesterday guys, don’t be mean to him. Right, hyung?”
Minho’s eyes fled to the screen, and to his horror, comments were flooding on the screen, Jisung’s face and his awkward smile reflecting next to them. Finally getting the hint, Minho took Jisung's hand off his face, cleared his throat and slowly waved at the fans.
Looking back at Jisung who was already staring at him, Minho chuckled nervously. “I did, sorry guys. I’m gonna brush my teeth now. Bye!”
That’s how he took off without looking back and locked himself up in the bathroom until Jisung came a couple of minutes later, gently knocking at the door.
“I’m done babe, you can come out.” His voice was soft, as if he was afraid to scare him away. The moment he opened the door, Jisung took his face between his hands and kissed him (for a long time).
(When Minho apologized, Jisung kissed him again until he stopped feeling guilty.)
II.
The second time it happened, Minho was sick. And when Minho gets sick, he gets clingy. Everybody knows that. It literally became common knowledge among the group, even if it still surprised them a bit that one time when he suddenly linked arms with Hyunjin as if he didn’t kick his ass the night before in the practice room.
So that morning, when Minho woke up a bit feverish because of his late night walk, he promised to stay away from Jisung the most as they had work. Normally, it would have been fine if he had stayed a bit with him, but he was vaguely aware that the radio show they were supposed to feature in today was filmed live, and his clinginess could not be accepted.
On their way to the station, Minho still sat next to Jisung, allowing himself a few minutes of cuddling. His body was so warm but Jisung’s hand caressing his head made it supportable. He made everything better.
“Did you take the medicine I gave you?” Jisung whispered. Minho could listen to his voice all day long, so soft and angelic.
Minho only hummed, signaling that he did, although it was going to take a long time for them to take effect. He slowly took Jisung’s other hand in his, admiring every one of his features. Jisung chuckled but soon extracted himself from Minho's hold, leaving Minho sighing.
“We’re here guys, get ready.”
The moment they entered, Chan made sure there was some distance between the two. Minho could cling on anyone and the fans would be happy, but the moment it was Jisung, it was all too obvious. They would probably see all the love Minho tries so hard to hide escaping his heart the moment he got his hands on his boyfriend. Even just by looking at him, Minho could feel himself slipping away from reality and back in his arms. Sitting as far away as he could from Jisung, Minho braced himself for what was coming: the act. He really needed the medicine to work.
Because of his experience in the "radio business", along with Seungmin, Minho was able to anticipate everything and act as normal as ever, though he could still see the members try to fill in whenever he accidentally zoned out. Everything was going smoothly until a fan requested Minho and Jisung to dance a part of their song together. When Chan looked at him worriedly, Minho just smiled and got up, so sure (he’s always a bit too sure of himself) he was feeling better but failed to calculate the fact that he could barely stand without his legs giving out. As he was falling, Jisung, who was already up, swiftly caught him.
“Are you okay hyung?” Jisung had his hands around Minho’s arms, his eyebrows furrowed in concern. How could he look so beautiful even with this expression, is what Minho thought at this exact moment instead of pulling himself together.
Lifting his hand to rest it on Jisung’s cheek, Minho lovingly stared into his lover’s eyes, “Everything’s fine.”
A sudden movement behind him pulled him out of his trance, Jisung’s wide eyes staring back at him. Changbin slowly detached Minho out of Jisung’s hands and looked apologetically at the host.
“We’re so sorry but it seems that our dear Lee Know is a bit more sick than he told us.”
Minho immediately bowed, tears pricking his eyes from the realization, or the fever, or both.
“So sorry. Stays, see you another time.” Coughing in his elbow to hide his voice cracking, Minho took his leave, not without thanking Changbin and Jisung while pointedly ignoring the looks his manager were sending him.
(When they got back to the dorms an hour after him, Minho was already sleeping in his bed. And when he woke up, Jisung was curled to his side with a glass of water and his medicine on his nightstand.)
III.
The third time it happened, he wished he could have prevented it. But as always, when it comes to Jisung, he doesn’t ever think before acting.
It had been a while since they had participated in a festival, so the moment the offer came up, everyone had been really excited to perform. Not even a little bit of rain could have stopped them.
The day finally arrived and surprisingly, the weather forecast announced rain. As it wasn’t their first time performing under the rain, no one was worried while still being careful. So when Jeongin slipped during their first song, everyone became a lot more tense than before. Chan made eye-contact with each one of them to tell them to be careful. Minho looked at Jisung.
Their second song starting, with only a few rain drops, Stray Kids continued to give their all while interacting with the fans in the crowd. Minho was reacting to fan’s outfits when he heard it.
“Han fell!”
Immediately turning around to see his boyfriend sitting on the wet floor, awkwardly laughing, Minho met Chan’s eyes, obviously telling him not to act impulsively. Minho simply nodded before walking to Jisung, already getting up, patting his shoulder before continuing on walking to the other end of the stage. He thought it could be alright for now, that there was no need to get worried.
And it would have been fine if it wasn’t for Jisung slipping multiples during the next song. Because he couldn't just walk up to him during the choreography, Minho tried to get a good look at him but Jisung seemed keen on avoiding Minho’s eyes. It’s only when they faced each other during a part of the song that Minho saw the younger’s eyes full of tears. And he just couldn't let that slide, could he? So Minho dropped everything he knew and learned about how he should act on stage, forgot everything they told him when they found out they were dating, everything he told himself not to do and ran to Jisung, who was looking at him like he was the only person that mattered to him.
Standing in front of him, Minho took Jisung’s face between his hands and wiped the rain droplets on his cheeks, or maybe they were tears, just looking at him. Meanwhile, the rest of the group stopped singing and were just looking at them, not that Minho would have noticed if Chan didn’t walk up to them, entering Minho’s vision perimeter.
“Is everything okay?” The fans probably heard worry in his voice, and while Minho was fully aware he was probably worried, he could only hear the warning.
Don’t.
His hands slowly sliding from Jisung’s face, Minho turned his head only to be met with smiles from his members and screams of excitement from the fans.
“Are you okay?” Minho doesn’t know who Chan was asking this question, but suddenly Felix and Hyunjin started beatboxing, Jeongin dancing to the rhythm with Seungmin rapping in the background. He promised himself to devote his entire lifetime to loving and thanking them.
(On their way home, Minho got lectured by Chan. Like a lot. But the fans made them trend on twitter and Minho spent his entire night looking at the pictures they took of them, Jisung sleeping soundly in his arms, safe from all harm.)
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The day they celebrated their one year anniversary, Minho and Jisung were in a hotel room in another country. Being on tour wasn't really how they wanted to celebrate but it didn’t really matter as long as they were together. At midnight, they kissed. When they woke up tangled in each other’s arms, they kissed. While changing into their stage outfits, Minho stole a kiss from Jisung, leaving both of them giggly while trying to act normal (anyone could have guessed what happened from the look on their faces).
Performing in front of a stadium full of fans, their fans, always made them the happiest. It was hands down their favorite part of the job. Minho is even more happy, if it’s physically possible, when Jisung gets all giddy, running around onstage, smiling so hard he's 100% gonna complain about his cheeks hurting after the concert.
Of course he knows he should be focused on not messing up the choreography or on interacting with the fans but he found out it was all a lot harder when your boyfriend of one year is standing there, looking so beautiful you could die on the spot. And when he looks back at him, Minho feels like he could destroy the sun so Jisung could be the only thing shining so brightly.
So of course, when Jisung approached him with his big smile and his eyes full of stars, Minho couldn't think straight before acting. So he gets as close as humanly possible, notices their faces on the big screen out of the corner of his eye, and weirdly, thinks. But he knew before he even made the decision that whatever he was going to think about, like weighing the pros and cons of kissing your idol boyfriend who’s also in the same group as you in front of all your fans, that he was going to do it.
Without waiting any longer, Minho grabbed Jisung by the collar of his shirt and smashed his lips on his. Jisung’s hands came quickly to place themselves behind Minho’s head, deepening their kiss. Like they were waiting for it, the fans cheered so loudly Jisung bursted out laughing against Minho’s lips. Minho didn’t really react except smile until he heard Felix scream “Finally!” before falling to his knees. Both of them laughing, they gently moved away from each other.
Next to them, Chan was shaking his head, a smile on his face while the others were celebrating, looking even more excited than the couple. Jisung placed his hand on Minho’s face and tilted it back to face him.
“You’re so beautiful.”
Minho kissed him again.