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" fuck " mew muttered under his breath as he tossed in his bed, for what felt like the umpteenth time.
it was three in the morning and his eyes were raw from all the rubbing, jaws achy from all the yawing, but still no sign of sleep. this had been like this the night before, and before and the night before that as well. basically, the entire time mew moved from his old dorm room to the new apartment, last week.
insomnia isn't a thing that's easy to hide. you yawn all day, you feel tired, lose your appetite, not to mention the terrible terrible headaches. and very stubborn dark circles appear around your eyes. that with glasses can almost make you look like a stupid racoon.
as the exam season approached, mew's situation worsened. so he brought his problem to his friends.
meditation, as suggested by chuem, didn't work. mew got distracted and started worrying about the syllabus and revision.
he made a mental note never to ask ray for health advice, because, "get wasted!" got him throwing up on their hostel couch and severely hungover the next day. so much so that he had to skip classes and stay in bed sipping lemon juice.
mew tried using pills for a couple of desperate nights, but quickly backed off after reading the very massive list of side effects on the internet.
so he was left with no other option than to go to college every day, dragging the wailing muscles in his body without any solution to this bloody ailment.
"still no sleep huh?" ray cocked his brow, as soon as mew slumped down at their designated table at the college cafeteria, the next morning.
mew shook his head gingerly and slouched down on the chair.
"maybe you can try massages?", cheum said, "it can loosen up the knots-"
"you just need to fuck your brains out, man."
mew was about to ask who the fuck dared to butt in. but then he turned and realised he would look very stupid if he did. because everyone in the campus knew who top tanin is.
top sauntered up to their table, pulled a chair and sat beside mew.
"you stay the fuck away from my friend." ray said, suddenly getting up.
top said, "you'll sleep like a baby after that." to mew, then looked at ray, "sand said hi." and smiled.
mew watched as the colour washed away from ray's face. he sat down, opening his mouth, then immediately closing it, blinking a few times.
mew was utterly confused. he was kind of desperate to get a good night's sleep, but then this is weird.
he got up, "i'm sorry top. we gotta go. we've got classes."
top tapped his fingers on the table and got up.
"good. if you wanna continue chatting, ask ray's boyfriend for my number." he winked and left.
mew and cheum both looked at ray with incredulous looks on their faces.
"he is not my boyfriend!" ray left without meeting their eyes.
××
that being said, it was true that mew was not getting any sleep and none of his friends' solutions worked for him. the midterms were approaching, and after another few sleepless nights, mew started to seriously consider top's option.
sure top and his friends are well known for their debaucherous habits, and mew was a little hesitant. but then he was really desperate and also a bit curious. it might be another failed attempt. what's the worst thing that could happen?
persuading ray to ask sand for top's number was a tough challenge. he was hell bent on denying that he had anything to do with sand at all.
cheum came to the rescue. she held ray's shoulders and shook him, literally.
"i don't give a damn about your little trouble in paradise or whatever. but mew can't still fucking sleep. so stop whining and call sand."
and everything was cakewalk after that.
××
"tonight, at phi yo's bar then?"
"i don't really drink"
"it's game night. you'll love it"
"trust me ;)"
and god did he love it.
game night at phi yo's meant trivia quiz night, of which mew was painfully unaware of. he spent, what would arguably be, the most fantastic two hours he had ever spent on a night out.
he aced almost all the questions. it was starting to get addictive, so much so that he almost forgot the reason he had this little date with top.
so when top asked, "so you're taking me up on my offer?", mew got a bit startled.
"um what-"
then when top cocked his head and smiled, his mind clocked back.
"oh yes. about that…" he hesitated for a moment, "it's just that i've never-"
"done it?"
"yes. done it. i mean, not done it. didn't do it." mew stuttered nervously.
top held his hand, and said, "let me help you" with a look so earnest, that mew was pretty sure it was fake.
mew could have given two shits about it, but later. now what he needed was his precious sleep back. so he smiled and nodded.
××
back at mew's house, he poured top a glass of water. he was a little jittery, not that he had any intentions of showing it.
"relax." top smiled, taking the glass from him.
"i am relaxed." mew fixed his glasses.
top sipped at the water, a cheeky smile plastered to his face.
"we need to talk." mew said. "ground rules."
top nodded.
"no penetration."
top opened his mouth, as if to say something, then thought the better of it and closed it. he nodded again, gingerly.
then suddenly, a wave of frustration hit mew.
"i don't think this'll work." he sobbed. "and i really don't wanna have my first time out of desperation, just cause i can't sleep."
"this is a bad idea.", he started pacing the room. "this is the fucking worst."
top grabbed his arm.
"how about we kiss?" he ran his fingers through mew's hair and cupped his face. mew felt his warm breath on his cheeks.
"if you don't like it, we can stop."
mew looked at top, properly, may be for the first time.
top was truly breathtaking. with his big foxy eyes, perfect lips, high cheekbones, and the beauty marks on his flawless skin, he was mesmerising . plus he was sweet to mew all this time. and it doesn't harm to try something new.
so mew nodded.
top smiled. mew gulped. fuck.
top took off his glasses. he tipped mew's chin up and kissed him softly. and mew knew that he was a goner.
"okay?" top asked.
it was more than okay.
"yes." mew whispered.
top kissed him again, this time with more heat and fervour, and mew could swear he saw fireworks behind his eyes. top opened his mouth. mew tasted the sweet daiquiri on his tongue.
top started trailing kisses across his positively blushed cheeks and nipped at his even redder ear. at that, mew let out a low whimper at the back of his throat.
"you okay?" top looked up in mild concern.
"go on" mew muttered. he held top by the nape of his neck and kissed him, swallowing a surprised moan from him.
top broke the kiss just to latch his mouth to his neck. he grazed his teeth at the skin, sucking. mew was pretty sure it was going to bruise later, but he couldn't care less.
he was starting to feel really hot and sweaty, when top lifted his t shirt by its hem and pulled it over his head. and when he started to slide his hand over his sweaty chest, and down his stomach, mew was really starting to lose his mind a little.
top's hand lingered over the elastic of mew's pants. mew shivered at the anticipation, inciting goosebumps all over his body.
and with the first touch, mew's breath caught and he legit saw stars. he inhaled sharply.
with each stroke, the friction was rendering mew breathless. he hid his face, now definitely redder than a tomato, mew was sure, at the crook of top's neck, gripping his shoulders tight.
"you like that?" top muttered, licking the sweat from his flushed neck.
mew replied with a ghastly whine. he pressed himself against top, needing more of that friction. he dug his fingers into top's shoulders even more, gaining a hitched inhale from him.
their mouths collided, lips parting. top licked into his mouth, hot and wet. that with the speeding rhythm, mew was certain he was being lifted into a limbo.
the last waves of pleasure hit him like a train, sudden and swift, knocking the air out of his lungs. moans stuck in his throat. eyes shot open, mew almost blacked out.
afterwards, mew sat on the couch, wrapped in his favourite blankie. he still could not trust his knees to stand. he slowly turned his head to see top walking towards him with a glass of water in his hand.
"you alright?" top said, giving the glass to him.
oh he has never been better.
"i'm good." mew sipped his water. he can not let his wild ecstasy ruin his impression.
"good. i got a bit scared whe–" top didn't complete, probably noticing the horrified look on mew's face.
"can i spend the night here?" he asked instead, sitting beside mew.
definitely. the least he can do is to make top feel at home for his great service.
"sure." he replied with a smile.
he was about to get up to leave the couch for top to sleep in, when top held his hand.
"can we cuddle?" he smiled.
and who is mew to say no.
he slotted himself comfortably into the warmth of top's embrace on the couch and fell asleep almost immediately.
that night, mew did sleep like a baby.