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The after noon at the agency was going pretty normal. Dazai bothering Kunikida instead of doing work and Kunikida scolding him. Ranpo eating every snack in sight, Atsushi and Kyoka busy actually completing their work, Kenji napping since he ate not that long ago, Yosano busy hidden away in her clinic, and the Tanizaki siblings doing their weird brother sister love thing that was by no means normal to anyone besides them. Dazai had been extremely annoying to Kunikida barely allowing him any time to breathe let alone get even a few reports done which was honestly getting in his nerves. Sure him and Dazai went back and forth on the daily but today was just extreme and he couldn't stand any more of it. There was work that needed to be done and if Dazai wasn't going to do his work he should at least let Kunikida finish his.
Kunikida sighed looking over to where Dazai was currently laying on the couch reading his stupid guide to suicide book. This was the first break he had gotten from him in a while today and he sure wasn't going to waste it. About 1 hour went by and Kunikida was being more productive than he usually was trying to catch up on all of the time he wasted because of Dazai that could have been used on getting his work done. He wasn't even paying attention to his surroundings to notice that Dazai had swiped his Ideal's notebook. By time he did realize Dazai had already gone around showing people things in the notebook but it wasn't like he hadn't done it before. Kunikida tried to just ignore him so he could keep working but then Dazai went too far when he started reading the more personal part of his notebook out loud.
"Dazai can you sit the hell down for 5 minutes and leave me alone. All damn day you have been pestering me and not doing your work. I haven't even really been able to do mine. Sit the fuck down and shut the fuck up. Make yourself useful for once and actually do some damn work." Kunikida yelled at Dazai. The entire agency went quiet including Dazai. No one had expected him to react in such a way not even Dazai. He didn't even know what to say so he just didn't say anything. Dazai walked over to Kunikida's desk placing the notebook back in the same place he grabbed it from before walking over to his own desk and actually starting to do some work. Kunikida didn't exactly mean for what happened to happen the way it did but he wasn't going to complain about Dazai being silent and actually doing his work. Things were peaceful for about another hour before Dazai started to play little pranks on Atsushi.
had just about enough of all of his little pranks today and was especially not about to let him torment Atsushi. "If you're not going to do your damn work then just leave. Everyone here would he be better if you weren't here right now. Hell I could have been pretty much done with my work if you had just left me the fuck alone but no you just had to push it didn't you. I don't care what you do hell die for all I care but just leave." Kunikida had yelled much louder than before. Dazai was to stunned to speak. He certainly knew he has been a bit of a pain today but he never thought Kunikida out of all people would react like that. "If that's what you would like then I will see myself out." Dazai said quickly exiting the building. Kunikida felt like shit. Sure he was mad and annoyed but he couldn't believe the things that had come out of his mouth. "Kunikida I think you need to go home as well." Ranpo said shooting him a glare. Kunikida just sighed knowing that if Ranpo was telling him to do something there was no point in arguing. "I'm sorry for the scene I caused." Kunikida said just before leaving.
He needed to apologize to Dazai. The only problem was he had no idea where he was. Sure he might be inside his dorm but he also may be anywhere else in the city for all he knew. Dazai couldn't believe what Kunikida had said to him. He also couldn't believe that he would go as far as kicking him out for the day. The thing that really stung the most was saying that they would be better off without him. He couldn't really shake the thought that Kunikida had said that he wouldn't care if Dazai died which made sense but still stung a bit. He just needed to get to his dorm and silence all of his thoughts. Once he made it there he unlocked the door before taking his shoes off and practically speeding to the bathroom. Once inside he threw his coat and his shirt off and disposed of all the bandages on his arm. Then he grabbed a fresh blade from the cabinet along with a new roll of bandages. Dazai slowly brought the blade up to his arm looking at all of the scars that littered it.
He really was disgusting he thought to himself while sliding the blade hard against his skin. Dazai did this over and over until he couldn't find the room on his right arm anymore. Watching the blood drip down his arm and onto the floor he got to work on his left arm as well. Not nearly as many as the right arm but enough to put him at ease and to silence his thoughts. He thought about showering but it just seemed like too much and a waste of time. So he wrapped his arms back up in fresh bandages and put the blade away not bothering to clean the blood off of his floor. He slowly made his way over to his liquor and grabbed the entire bottle not bothering with a glass and just drinking it straight out of the bottle. He was interrupted by knocking on his door followed by Kunikida saying "Dazai if you're in there can we please talk about what happened." He didn't want to talk to Kunikida though and stayed completely silent while still drinking more of his alcohol. Once he was sure Kunikida was gone however he walked over to his couch and just sat there. Dazai didn't even know how long he was sitting there for if he was being honest.
He didn't even realize be had drank the entire bottle until he went to drink more and found that it was empty. Unfortunately that was all he had since he hadn't gone shopping in a while. His brain was somewhat fuzzy but he was still able to function. He knew he didn't drink enough to make him black out but how was he going to get more. He had no money and no way of even getting more when Chuuya came into his mind. Chuuya always had some sort of liquor at his apartment and it was the good stuff. Dazai wasn't too happy with the fact that he would have to walk over there but he could manage after all he wasn't shitfaced. It wasn't long before he found himself standing outside of Chuuya's apartment. If he was being honest he wasn't even sure when he got there or how long he had been standing there. Slowly Dazai took out his tools and quickly picked the lock pushing the door open. What he didn't expect to see was Chuuya sitting on his couch watching some random reality tv show while also staring it him. "Ever heard of knocking you waste of bandages" Chuuya said getting up for the couch and walking over to Dazai.
Dazai didn't really say anything instead he just stared at Chuuya. "Well you going to come in?" Chuuya asked noticing something wasn't entirely right with Dazai. Dazai just looked at Chuuya before walking inside and taking a seat on his couch. "Can you give me some liquor Chuuya?" was the first thing Dazai had said since he got there. Chuuya wasn't stupid though and knew he had already been drinking since he could smell the alcohol on him when he walked over. "Don't you think you should lay off on the alcohol. I can smell that you have already been drinking." Chuuya responded looking at Dazai a little concerned. "I have only had one bottle and you know that's not enough for me to black out." Dazai said lying down on the couch and pulling the blanket Chuuya had on him. "What's up with you. First you show up at my apartment which you haven't done in a long time and then you ask me for alcohol because you want to black out. Now you're curled up on my couch. Seriously what's wrong Dazai?" Chuuya said taking a seat next to where Dazai's head was lying. "Something happened at the agency and I just want to forget about it." Dazai replied practically whispering.
Chuuya sighed knowing that he probably shouldn't give him any alcohol but he knew something serious must have happened for him to just show up at his place. "I'll give you one glass on one condition. Tell me what happened." Chuuya said to Dazai and to his surprise Dazai agreed. So Chuuya got up and poured Dazai a glass of his favorite and sat back down giving it to him and making him sit upright. Dazai just leaned on Chuuya sipping his drink not really saying much. The fact that Dazai was even leaning on him just showed that something really was wrong because this didn't happen very often. "Me and Kunikida got into a fight in a way and he said some mean things to me." Dazai told Chuuya. "Dazai I don't know who that is but what happened." Chuuya said back trying to not be a smart ass even though he had the perfect remark to say. "Kunikida is my current parter for the agency but today I was being a little more annoying than I usually was. He got mad at me and started yelling and told me to be useful for once and do some work so I sat down and worked for a little. I couldn't focus on my work all that much though so after a little bit I decided to bother Atsushi. Well I guess Kunikida had enough because he told me to just go home and that they would be better if I wasn't there. He went as far as saying that he didn't care if I died." Dazai told Chuuya voice cracking near the end.
Chuuya looked over at Dazai who was now crying and he wasn't even sure if he was aware that he was crying. "Dazai you can be a real pain sure but don't listen to what he said. It sounds like he was just mad and wasn't thinking. I'm sorry that this happened though." Chuuya told Dazai pulling him in for a hug. He felt Dazai's body tense before relaxing and letting himself cry into Chuuya. He wasn't sure how long they stayed like that before Dazai left the hug asking for more liquor. "Dazai I know you want to fix this with alcohol but it's not going to help you." Chuuya said grabbing Dazai's cup and placing it in the sink before returning back to the couch. Dazai however just frowned and leaned into Chuuya hiding his face in his chest. Chuuya sighed knowing that he couldn't send Dazai home knowing how drunk he was. "Are you tired Dazai?" Chuuya asked getting just a nod in return from Dazai. Chuuya slowly pried Dazai off of him dragging him along to the bedroom and giving him a change of clothes.
Dazai accepted them and walked over to the bathroom to change. While he was in there Chuuya changed into his sleeping clothes as well before going to check on Dazai since he had been in there for a while. When he was about to walk over to the door though Dazai walked out. Chuuya certainly didn't expect to see both of the bandages on his arms soaked with blood in some places. "Dazai your bandages are all bloody go and change them." Chuuya said to Dazai dragging him into the bathroom and handing him a roll of bandages. Dazai didn't move though he just stood there staring at the roll. "Do you want me to do it for you." Chuuya asked Dazai concerned. Dazai just nodded avoiding eye contact and he sat himself on the counter. Chuuya grabbed the bandages and took off the ones Dazai had on. He was met with fresh angry red lines all over Dazai's arms. "I'm sorry." Dazai said still looking away ashamed of what he had done. "Don't be sorry this isn't the first time I have seen this and it's not the first time I have changed your bandages." Chuuya said not even phased. Once he was done putting the new bandages on Dazai they both went back into Chuuya's room and get into bed. Dazai hugged Chuuya burring his face in his chest. "Thank you Chuuya." Was all Dazai said before he drifted off into sleep. "Your welcome shit face." Chuuya responded falling asleep as well.
Authors Note: Hi my lovelies!! I think that this turned out pretty good but I’m not entirely sure. I know I didn’t have Kunikida apologize to Dazau but I feel idk where the story ended was perfect. I hope you enjoyed reading this and I hope it wasn’t trash. But if you made it all the way here then thank you so much and I hope you have a wonderful rest of your day or night. Anyways bye my lovelies <3<3