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From the first moment you pulled the wizard through the portal and he litterally landed on top of you and you two spent a good couple of minutes staring but it felt more an like eternity of you staring at each other ( you might have pulled him a bit too roughly) before he Got up and offered you a hand had you been facinated with the wizard.
You often found him in his tent Reading, his wavy hair falling down and grazing his cheeks.
You might have a bit of a staring problem.
you somehow managed to always look away before he caught on and you would keep your pens and sketch book out and keep your head down enough to never catch his eye.
You had drawn many sketches caching his beautiful expressions while he was busy reading, your pen was currently on your sketch book trying to capture the details of Gale’s wavy hair .
At one point Karlach had come over to your tent and you had tried to close your sketch book before she could see your art work but it was already too late as she was looking at it over your shoulders
‘Wow Soldier! You’ve really captured Gale beautifully’ Karlach spoke quietly which made you exhale softly
You felt a light warth spread across your cheeks
‘Thanks hot shot ’ you muttered quietly back and Karlach snorted
‘You know… you should really show him.. he would appreciate it’
You looked up at her and shrugged
‘ Maybe at some point but not yet.. Maybe when the time is right, you know?’
Karlach gave you a pointed look but nodded in understanding.
You sighed. You gathered that whatever you were feeling for Gale was obvious to anyone but him. You must have been as see through as water.
Later that evening when everyone was asleep you found yourself looking over at Gale who was laying on his sleeping mat across from you, you reached over and ran a finger through his hair before turning around and getting up and going over to the water and sitting down on the sand.
What did you feel for Gale?
You were confused if you were honest- you knew you cared for him deeply but you had started to care for all your companions deeply and yet you knew you cared for Gale in a way that was different from how you cared for everyone else.
You were pals… surely more than pals right?
This kind of thinking was dangerous
You had never thought about you two being more than friends it felt too dangerous too raw especially with Gale having hangups with his ex, you knew Gale’s history with his ex was complicated and that you could and probably would hurt her if you ever got the chance. Goddesses like Mystra used and abused people for their own sick pleasure! Disgusting!!!
You would make her pay if it was the last thing you ever did.
You hugged your knees close to your chest and had your head in your hands and sighed
You hasn’t thought about what you felt because of the dark urges running through your veins, cursing through your body… how could you when you didn’t know if you were dangerous?
These dark urges… they scared the living hells out of you and your worries were causing you to lay awake for hours upon hours every single night.
You could feel your heart beating way too fast and you loosing control over your breathing and you could feel yourself starting to shake.
You were unsure how long you had been shaking when you felt a strong grip on your shoulder
‘NIX!’
You looked over to where you heard the voice was coming from and you noticed that Gale was sitting next to you.
You took a shaky deep breath
‘What do you need right now?’ Gale asked his Voice soft but serious
‘C- com-comfort’ you managed to get out
Gale nodded and opend up his arms and motioned for you to crawl into his lap
‘If you are comfortable.. Would it be okay if I hold you?’
‘Yes’ your voice was weak and cracked slightly but you wasted no time crawling into Gale’s lap and you put your head against his chest so you could listen to his heartbeat
Gale started to caress your hair gently with one hand and hold on to you with the other.
‘I take it you are having night terrors again?’ Gale asked softly and you nodded against his chest
Gale started talking endlessly as he continued to caress your hair and you focused on the beating of his heart and the soft sounds of his voice . Once your breathing had slowed down you looked up at him and he looked down at you softly
The moment lasted ages with him looking into your eyes and you looking into his. It was intimate and you wanted to pull his head down towards yours so you could- so you could kiss him
Huh. That was new.
Your heart was beating so fast in your chest you could have sworn he could hear it.
‘Better?’
You didn’t quite trust yourself to speak right now as you would have said or done something incredibly stupid so you nodded
‘Good. I’m glad I could be some kind of help for once’
You opened up your mouth but no words came out and you sighed.
Why was he always do self depricating? Could he not see how wonderful he was?
You opened up your mouth again to protest but no words came out and you sighed in frustration and Gale took that as you trying to explain why you were upset earlier.
‘Shhh. Whatevers going on in that clever head of yours - I do not need any explaination. I’m simply happy to have been of service.
You squeezed his arm gently.
‘Now would you like to head back to the others or stay here just the two of us?’
You realized that words were failing you right at this moment so you traced your fingers along Gale’s arm. You spelled out the words ‘stay here with you’ and the words ‘hold me please?’ on his arm using your pointer finger.
Gale shifted your weight on him slightly so he could lie down properly and you cuddled up to him with your head on his chest.
The hight difference between you both was awkward at times and normally it would have been harder cuddling with you being at least well over a head taller than him but because you were laying with your head on his chest it was doable
‘Thank you’ you finally managed to get out.
‘My pleasure. Always’ Gale kissed your head softly and you leaned into the touch and his embrace tightened around you as you both drifted off to sleep.
At the tiefling party you made sure to look nice, you were wearing your nicest camp clothes and you were on your third cup of apple cider trying to calm your nerves as
Gale was looking very lovely on this particular evening.
You made sure to talk to Alfira and Lakeisha and you talked to your friends around camp and you even made pleasant conversations with Halsin who was coming on to you, he seemed sweet and all but the only person who’s company you craved was Gale’s.
You truly wondered if you were pathetic pining over someone who was still working through trauma and grief but Gale was smart as a whip, gentle and very sweet and a talker- hells sometimes you considered shutting him off with a kiss or two if he wanted it of course.
You wondered if he even knew that you wanted to kiss him for all his smarts sometimes his social skills were lacking a bit which was very adorable.
You took drank the rest of your cider and decided to head over to your favorite wizard.
Gale had his nose stuck in book and you chuckled at the sight causing him to look up at you
‘Ahh Nix! Are you enjoying the festivities?’
‘ yes. I’m wondering if you were?’
‘I am I just had the urge to read’ Gale confessed shyly
Instead of socializing I see. Should I leave you to the book?’ You sniggered
Gale gently reached over and grabbed your shoulder
‘Actually now that you have a moment I would like to show you something magical… If you are up for it that is?’
You nodded and gestured for Gale to lead the way. Gale lead you through the camp and over to the water and away from everyone else.
Gale makes a gesture with his hands and produces a purple blast that looks like a sphere, you repeat his hand movements and you produce a similar purple blast.
‘Excellent Nix’
Gale says a magic incarnation and you repeat it and the weave connects
The two of you together. There’s tension between the two of you so thick, you gather that now is your chance to test the waters to see if Gale likes the idea of kissing you or if it makes him uncomfortable.
You think about gently caressing Gale’s face, leaning in and kissing him gently.
You look at Gale’s face so you can study his reaction, there’s a ray of emotions hitting his features, first confusion, shock and at last surprise.
Hmm interesting
‘ I… I didn’t think ..’ Gale takes a deep breath and looks away briefly, scratching the back of his neck nervously before he continues
‘ Sorry. I wasn’t expecting… But it is a pleasant image to be sure!’ Gale looks up at you with a vulnerability that you haven’t seen before and you smile softly at him
You take a step towards him and lean down to kiss his cheek.
‘Don’t break that wonderful brain of yours’you say as you walk back over to the party, you need another cup of cider right now to calm how excited you feel before you do something stupid.
You had given Gale a lot to think about.
After that night the two of you are inseperable, you spend nights in his tent star gazing while he reads and he spends nights in your tent reading while you sketch.
You keep a spare notebook around when he is at your tent and you draw your other companions while he is present so he can’t see the drawings you have spent months drawing.
On a particular evening Gale is laying with his head on your stomach reading as you are watching the night sky and pointing out the different constallation as you find them in the sky, your other hand is running through Gale’s hair and he is humming softly, there is laughter in the background from your fellow companions.
‘I wish it could be this time of night all the time’ you sigh as you gaze down at Gale
‘ You don’t miss the thrill of our daily adventures? ‘ Gale asks his voice is full of mirtb as he looks up at you
‘ some are nice but others are stressful but this time of night is magical, everyone is relaxed and happy’ You looked over at your companions Karlach was in the middle of telling a story from her past, Shadowheart, Lae’zal and Astarion were drinking Wine and engaged in the story. Every one was happy and laughing.
‘Are you happy?’ Gale’s question catches you off guard and you have to sit with the question for a minute
Were you happy?
Overall you aren’t sure. There were many things you would like to change such as your ability to have a desent nights sleep, or your inability to remember who you are and your - whatever - this thing is with Gale - which you have no idea what is going on but it is nice and not complicated right now which you like.
But overall all your friends at this moment are alive, safe and laughing right now and the person you care for more than anyone else is right next to you happy and alive and that all counts for something.
‘Nix?’
‘Yeah?’
‘Are you alright? You kind of spaced out’
‘Apologies. I was just pondering about your question and…. I’m definetly happy right now… Question is are you happy right now Mr. Dekarios?’
‘You sound like Tara when you call me that you know…’
‘Way to avoid the question…’ you teased
‘Right now in this moment with you i’m perfectly content’
Gale looks at you tenderly and you look back at him and smile softly.
Elminster’s visit to your camp is a quite unpleasant one as the implication that Gale has to blow himself up is horrifying and leaves you and your companions afraid. What is worse is that Gale just seems to accept it so freely because it will earn him Mystra’s forgiveness- which you find stupid fuck her you tryly hope she burn in the hells someday soon. Gale is acting as if he doesn’t have people here in camp who likes him… Who lo…
Eughhh
After Elminsters talk Gale shares the story behind the orb in his chest, it scared you to know how and how willing he is to just kill himself for Mystra.
‘You cannot be serious Gale! What she’s asking you to do is completely preposterous ’
‘ it might be the only way! To get the absolute down and to earn forgiveness… please try to understand where I’m coming from!’
‘I cannot. You don’t owe her anything. If anything she should be begging for your forgiveness after everything she put you through’
Gale looks defeated and sad
‘If there was any other means of survival she wouldn’t have asked it if me’
You feel as though a knife has been stabbed through your chest and you shake your head.
This is all too much to think about right now.
‘What about the people who lo- who care about you! Your demise would destroy us… I cannot deal with this right now. I’m sorry but I can’t stand here and listen how willing you are to end it all without even trying to find another way out or a loop hole’
‘Nix!’ You hear him call your name but you shake your head and walk off.
You walk away from camp. You can practically feel Gale and everyone else staring at you as you walk away, you ignore them and keep walking until the camp is barely noticeable.
You sit down next to a pond and start to poke the water with a stick.
You know deep down that you will have to accept his decision, it is his to make after all but you certainly don’t have to like it nor do you want to be present for it- you can’t be. The thought alone hurts you too deeply.
You can’t believe you almost told him that you loved him too at the worst possible time! What in the sweet Hells were you thinking? Now was not the time for a love confession especially not if it meant loosing him in the process because it was more than you could bare but at the same time - is it not better to have lost and loved than to never have loved at all?
You stay most of the night outside of camp before you walk back and go into your tent to sleep insted of your preferred place next to Gale where you have been sleeping for the last two months at this point.
For the next week you keep your distance from Gale who is giving you sad looks when he thinks you aren’t looking but you are always looking, you noticed him looking worse for wear, Dark circles under his eyes, him seeming more tired than usual, he seems speechless and a lot more quiet than usual, he is usually reading or engaging in conversation.
One evening you found Gale sitting on the grass and using his magic to create a beautiful night sky.
You walk over gently and sit down next to him and he looks at you hopefully for the first time in a while.
‘I was hoping you would come to see me. But after our last conversation I had my doubts if I I’m being completely honest’
You look at him and take in his features, he looks like he hasn’t been sleeping much and there is a sadness to his face that you hate seeing especially knowing you are partly to blame for it
You reach over and grab his hand and gently squeeze it.
‘It’s been really hard for me to accept this. To be honest I don’t think I’ll ever be okay with the thought of you dying’
Gale gave you a strained smile
‘I understand where you are coming from. It can’t be easy knowing someone you care for might be dying any minute’
‘I apologize for walking off that night it wasn’t my finest moment but I wanted to process how I was feeling on my own’
‘ No need. I understand completely. You implied that people cared for me if I pass but to what extent did you mean? Surely you didn’t mean that you lo-‘ Gale seems to hesitate as if he can’t believe he is asking you what your affections for him is. It was as if the thought of you caring for him as more than a friend was absurd.
This was your moment to let him know just how deeply you care for him. It was now or never.
You need Gale to know how deeply you care for him.
‘I’ve debated on whether or not to tell you this as I didn’t want my feelings to sway your decision on if you should destroy the orb or not. That is your decision, your choice and while I’m not okay with it I need to accept that it’s your choice. I don’t think I’ll ever give up hope that we can find away around you dying…’
You take a deep breath and exhale before you continue and you reach behind you to get your sketch book and you hand it over to Gale.
Gale looks through each page of the sketch book admiring your sketches of him , his fingers are tracing your sketches delicately as if he is afraid of damaging them with his fingers.
‘These are magnificent Nix’ Gale
‘They are’ you agreed and Gale chuckled
‘ someone is certainly proud of themselves’ Gale says lightly
You can tell the mood is shifting into something light and warm and you become more confident
‘They are magnificent because they resemble a person i think is magnificent’
Gale looks at you with the softest expression you have ever seen, his eyes are glossy as if he is close to crying.
‘ You think I’m magnificent?’ Gale asks breathlessly almost as if he refuses to believe it. To let it sink in.
‘How can I not? Gale I’m hopelessly in love with you. Every time you are near I long to just exist alongside you’ you admit and reach out to caress his cheek Gale leans into your touch
‘I’m in love with you too. Have been for quite some time’
You lean in towards him and capture his lips with your own and kiss him passionately and heatedly as you have been wanting to kiss him for months at this point.
Gales hands caress your hair softly for a moment before tightening his grip as you moan softly into his mouth.
The kiss is heated and hungry and the both of you continue to kiss for as long as you possibly can before you both break apart because you need a break.
Afterwards you lean in and kiss different parts of him, first his forehead, then his cheek, then his nose, his lips and then his neck as you murmur sweet words of affection as you kiss different parts of him.
You kiss his orb marking gently before you feel Gale pull you up so you can look at his face, his cheeks are flushed and he seems a bit out of breath
‘Nix I want to bond with you in the way that gods do’
You take his hands in yours and looks at him. You need to get this point across to him
‘I don’t need you to impress me with your magic Gale’
‘Are you sure? Let me wow you’ Gale insists gently
You shake your head and squeeze his hands softly
‘The only thing I need right now is you. No magic, no bed just you and me together… At most I might need some blankets and pillows to make it more comfortable’
Gale’s expression turns incredibly soft and he is still seems unsure
Your hands let go of his and you caress his cheek softly with your right hand.
‘I’ve wanted this for months Gale. Trust me. I want you just as you are. No magic needed. Just you’
Your gaze on his was soft and a bit determined, Gale swallows a lump in his throat and nods in understanding.
With a flick of his hand he summons lots of pillows and blankets with his magic.
You look at him hungrily. You need him to be undressed right this moment.
‘Can I?’ You ask as you gently have your hands near his buttoned shirt
‘Let me take care of you tonight ‘ Gale protested but you shake your head
‘You have taken care of me so much in these past five months. Tonight you deserve someone to take care of you. Now, can I?’
Gale wanted to protest but you were stubborn and shook your head and he was looking at you like you had hung the moon
‘Please do’ Gale said breathlessly
You slowly opened up his night shirt and slid the shirt off his shoulders, you took your time drinking in his features from his face to his toned arms to his defined chest. It left you speechless for a moment.
Your cheeks flushed a deep shade of red and you traced his orb, down his shoulders and his nipples with your hands.
‘You’re so beautiful’ you murmured softly looking into his eyes. He was blushing a nice shade of pink
You started to undo the strings on his trousers before he stopped you.
‘ I feel it’s only fair for me to level the playing field’ Gale eyed your red corset top with excitement
‘Go for it my love’
Gale undid the strings of your top and slid the top off your waist and down your legs until you could step out of it.
Your chest was exposed and Gale gently reached over to touch you but he stopped himself. Before he could ask for permission you guided his hands to your chest and he started to caressing your boobs and looked at you in facination.
You moaned softly as you continued to undress him until he was completely bare in front of you. You shimmied out of your sleep trousers.
Both of you took in the sight of each other in for a moment
‘Lie down’
‘Someone’s bossy’ Gale chuckled
‘Please. Lie down. I want to explore your body ‘
Gale wasted to time taking your hand in his and guiding you both down on to the blanket.
The two of you spent most of the night exploring each other’s bodies before you fell asleep in each other’s arms.
In the morning you woke up to Gale gazing lovingly into your eyes. He was cuddling you close to him as if you were precious and that he was trying to protect you.
You leaned in so your faces were inches apart.
‘ good morning my love’ you sighed happily
‘Good morning my Goddess’
You blushed and pulled him into a soft kiss.
‘So how was last night for you?’ You asked brimming with nerves
‘Everything I’ve ever wanted and more. How was it for you?’
Gale seemed extremely nervous as well, he was avoiding your gaze and you gently turned his face towards yours with your hand.
‘Perfection. It meant the world to me. In fact I think we should ignore the world for the next fortnight and just stay here’
Gale laughed happily and pulled you even closer to him. You leaned into his touch.
The happiness that filled your whole body lasted for a hot minute before dread filled you as you knew you could possibly lose him any day. Any moment.
‘ I think we need to talk about the elephant in the room’ Gale confessed before he moved away slightly from your embrace.
You didn’t even need him to clarify what he meant.
‘ our conversation yesterday really moved me. I was so sure me dying was for the greater good, but you have made me realize that I have something worth living for. Something worth fighting for’
Your heart was beating so fast it felt like it was beating out of your chest
‘Wait are you saying what I think you are saying?’
You were happy but very nervous. Gale intertwined your hands together and kissed your hand.
‘ I don’t want to destroy the orb. I want to find away around it. I want more time with you, I want more nights like this with you, I want to explore out connection and have you close as long as you want me’
You smiled so wide that your face hurt. You felt ecstatic, elated and like you were light enough to fly.
‘You have me. I’m yours Gale. I’m only yours. I’m so in love with you that not being close to you hurts’
He pulled you close once again
‘I love you more than I can possibly express. I warn you right now that I have no intention of ever letting you go’
You looked into his eyes heatedly
‘Promise me. Promise me that you will never let me go. Please. I need this. I need y- y- you’ you said in a low tone of voice that broke towards the end
Gale returned your gaze with as much intensity as yours
‘I promise as long as you promise to always hold onto me as well’
He caressed your face ever so softly and you kissed his hand.
‘I promise. you are mine Gale and I am yours. Forever’