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It was another day of school. Another day. Another day… another day…
The simple sounds of people existing around him were deafening. Everything filling his senses was so prominent and so there yet none of it was grounding.
Everything was so… so dull. Foggy. Slow… Izuku's thoughts weren't his… maybe they never had been.
None of that really matters. Where he was now was all that mattered. Not school. Not the screaming voices. Not the searing heat pressed against his skin… screaming, blistering, bleeding heat…
Breathe.
Nothing mattered.
Breathing felt like drowning… it pulled him out of his head and reminded him that his physical body still existed.
That the world around him was real.
That the pain was real .
It was exhausting. Remembering… thinking… being . It was too much for the broken soul. He just wanted to lay on his desk, drifting into the haziness, the warmth, the comforting dullness of his mind.
It was times like this that were precious, when everything was quiet, when his mind was suitable enough to escape to. When it didn't feel like his thoughts were caked in lead and laced with poison, when existing as a conscious being was too painful, too overwhelming, too real.
He would much prefer escaping a physical prison then being trapped in a mental one.
No, don't think like that. There is no physical prison.
Excuses excuses excuses.
You know how to live normally. You don't know what you're talking about.
There's nothing wrong with you. There's nothing wrong with your life. Other people have it worse. Be grateful . Other people have it worse.
Other people have it worse.
Pathetic pathetic pathetic
You did this to yourself.
There's nothing wrong with you
There's nothing wrong with your life
So privileged.
They love you so much don't they?
Don't they?
Don't they? Don't they? Don't they? Don't they?
You did this. What even are you? You did this. They don't love you. They don't even see you. look at yourself. You're real
breathe
Why don't you understand? You don't understand- look at yourself.
breathe Izuku
They won't- they are looking at you. aren't you hurting? look at yourself. why can't you understand?
Breathe
You're hurting.
Breathe.
you're so privileged aren't you?
Breathe
Other people have it worse.
Breathe.
They don't hurt you.
Breathe.
They dont starve you.
Breathe.
They love you.
Breathe.
Breathe Izuku.
Why can't you breathe?
Why can't you breathe Izuku?
Breathe. Breathe. Breathe. Breathe. Breathe. Breathe. Breathe.
Breathe.
Breathe.
Breathe.
Breathe.
Breathe.