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"Common, one bottle won't kill me. Plus no one will find out. My parents aren't here" Maddie had been trying to convince Caspian to give her a bottle of liquor for an hour at this point.
"Mads, we've been over this. Even if I'm 21, you're still 19." Caspian shot back, emphasizing 'You're.' His hands gripped the steering wheel slightly harder, and he said this sentence.
"So, why'd you bring me then?" She asks turning her body away from him in the passenger's seat. Caspian sighed and pulled off into a gas station he spotted on the empty highway in the middle of the night.
"Fine, I'm not fighting you but I'm choosing what it is." He says looking over at her once he had parked in front of the station. She looked at him and nodded.
A few minutes later Caspian walked out of the station with a bag in hand. He got in the car and handed this bag to Maddie.
"Vodka?" She questions looking back at him getting in the car. He shrugs and starts the car once more.
"Figured it would deter you at least a little. Tastes awful. " He says bluntly as he starts driving down the highway once more. Maddie rolls her eyes and opens the bottle taking in the smell. He was right it smelt gross as she took it in. However, she didn't want him to be right and took a swig of it almost instantly spitting it out the window.
"Told you." He says in a cocky tone looking over to her "tastes bad?"
She rolls her eye and takes another swig this time keeping it down.
"Worse than bad." She says looking out the window. Caspian keeps his eyes on the road waiting for the inevitable.
Sooner or later Maddie had managed around 1/4th of the bottle.
"Fuck, my head hurts." She said slightly mumbling her words. Caspian turned to look at her seeing her curled up in the passenger's seat.
"How about we stop at a hotel for tonight? I don't want you throwing up in my car." He says with concern for her behind his words although he was trying to keep those at bay. She nodded and turned her body to face him
"Please Cas." Her words still mumbled. It made his heart flutter. Cas. Just Cas, it sounded so right coming from her. Had anyone else called him that he may have sent them through walls, but it was Maddie. This girl he had fallen in love with so much over everything. He shook himself out of these thoughts, she was drunk.
Eventually after 30 more minutes he had spotted a sign for a motel. Maddie had been in tipsy rambling for the entire time.
"Maddie, You stay here. I'm gonna get a room, okay?". Maddie nodded. To this he went and got a room for the set of them. heading back out to the car to collect Maddie. He opened the door and helped her walk to the room he had rented for the night.
He set her on one of the two beds in the room.
"Let's get you some water" He said turning around before feeling a tug on his sleeve.
"Please-Please don't leave me" Maddie said almost begging although she was clearly drunk. He tensed up and sighed.
"I'm not leaving Maddie; I just don't want you badly hungover tomorrow" He said kneeling down to meet her eye level "Okay?" She nodded at this and let go of his sweater. He walked over to one of his bags and pulled out a water bottle before walking it back over to her handing it to her. She twisted the cap off taking a swig closing the cap.
"Happy?" she asked dramatically rolling her eyes. Caspian shook his head and sat next to her.
She stared at him for a moment before putting both her hands to either side of his face. His cheeks began to feel hot, he couldn't do this, she was drunk. She leaned in to kiss him, he pulled away from this and stood up
"You're drunk Maddie, we-I can't do this while you're drunk" He sighed closing his eyes pinching the bridge of his nose. she shuffled to the edge of the bed now gripping his sweater. She was fucking adorable, but this was wrong. Caspian didn't want this unless she was sober, herself and thinking properly.
"Cas, please" she said begging him still gripping his sweater.
"No, It's wrong. You're drunk. Not thinking right." he said sternly and took a set backwards sitting on the other bed. She fumbled to stand up Caspian putting his arms out in case she fell.
"I want this, I've wanted this, I want you." She slurs as she stumbles to him straddling him. His face burning red. Fuck if she was sober, he would've pounced at the chance. Instead, he picked her up and set her back down on the other bed.
"I wish you were sober." He says and hands her the bottle of water again "Drink it, please." He asks defeated.
"If I do, can we at least cuddle?" She asks her words all becoming one. Caspian tenses up, his face beat red at this point. Why couldn't she have just been sobered?
"yes" he says quietly. To this she quickly picks up the water bottle drinking it almost instantly. Once finished she looks at him with glee.
"Just cuddling, nothing more" He says sternly as a reminder before she fumbles her way back over to him sitting beside him. Fuck Maddie was everything he wanted but why did she have to say all of this drunk? Did she mean it? He gets knocked out of these thoughts by her pushing him onto his back before laying down herself. She rests her head on his chest one of her hands reaching for the fabric on his chest to hold on to. He freezes for a moment before feeling her fall asleep. It was peaceful, her breathing slowing, the soft rise of her up and down. He slowly wraps both of his arms around her as to not wake her. This was a feeling he wanted for so long, just not like this.
As if on cue 'superstar' by GRMLN started playing on the radio. One of his and Maddie's favorites. Fuck why now? He wanted Maddie, He knew that but now? He knew he shouldn't have given her the vodka but maybe what she was saying was true. Maybe drunk talks were sober thoughts, that's what Maddie said at least. Did it apply to her? He couldn't think properly. He suddenly felt a tug on his sweater from Maddie as if trying to hold him as close as possible. Maybe it was true. He tightened his grip on her as if she'd just vanish if he let go.
Eventually he had fallen asleep, waking up to Maddie getting out of bed.
"Fuck, my head hurts. What happened?" She asks in a tired voice holding her head in her hands.
"You insisted I get you liquor and wouldn't stop until I did" Caspian said sitting up rubbing his own eyes. Maddie looked at him as if in shock
"And you gave it to me?" She said almost angry. He nodded standing up and walking to collect is things from the room
"You said some... stuff too" he said keeping his back to her. Her face had gone bright red.
"Care to share?" She asked keeping her head down. Caspian took a deep breath
"We'll talk in the car." collecting the last of their things before escorting her to the car
"So.. What did I say?" her head down looking at her feet in the passenger seat
"That you 'want me' and went on like that for a good 10 minutes." He said before getting on the road "We didn't do anything. I have morals" He adds. heat rising to both of their faces. They remain in silence for a few moments.
"I kind of wish I stayed sober, so you wouldn't have had to hear it like that" She chuckles before looking at him. He tenses, up was this real?
"So, you meant it?" he asks gripping the wheel hard. Maddie nods trying to smile
"I wish you stayed sober too"