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the mirror

Summary:

Have you finally become your ideal self?

Notes:

(See the end of the work for notes.)

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A child wanders into a forest.

 

The trees are tall. Light filters down in dust and green, thinning into a hush that swallows even the sound of her own steps. After a while the path forgets to be a path. Needles bite through socks. The air smells clean and old. 

The child is lost.

Still the child advances—once, twice, thrice the distance of her first brave step—until the silence itself seemed to vibrate. A tremor passes through her small frame, a shiver half born of chill and half of the dawning recognition that one could, in the space of a few hundred yards, become as solitary as the first human on Earth. She imagines herself the world’s final inhabitant, the last witness to the forest.

She searches the tangled green overhead but found no scrap of sky, no sign of where Jove had sent his thunderbolts. 

The child tells herself to keep walking. She tells herself she is not afraid, but her heart knows better. The forest has a way of saying: it is only you.

Then, with a suddenness that felt orchestral, the forest parts. In a small clearing lay a spring-fed pond, its surface a faintly glowing mirror. 

The child stumbles, catches herself, and—compelled by a reverence she could not have named, sinks to her knees, as though the earth itself required genuflection. She leans over the water, and for an instant it isn’t a mirror but a stranger: a girl looking up from a deeper world, steady and impossibly composed, as if the stillness itself belongs to her.

The stranger lifts the corners of her mouth, a small practiced courage, and the child feels it land inside her chest like a hand on the back, like a promise passed across the surface.

It is only you, the forest says. The water answers, it is only you.

She straightens. The trees have not moved, and yet the place is brighter. She cups the surface with both hands and carries a vision of herself out of it, warm, brave, impossibly certain, as if light could be learned. Somewhere a bird calls; somewhere, a path remembers itself.

 

She never leaves that spring. From that day, courage is not a feeling but a performance: a brightness she can step into until the world believes, because she needs to believe it first.

She would later teach others the same spell. To a hospitalized girl afraid of surgery; she lends a mirror and declares the image beautiful until fear has nowhere to sit—“hold onto it until the shine is evident to your own eyes… there is no space left for fright”. The mirror becomes a sparkling star; her presence, a nightlight someone can turn on whenever the room gets dark.

 

***

 

Floodlights. A crowd like a living tide. The present unfurls in gold and thunder as the woman on the track raises her chin to meet it, every inch of her built from that small, stolen certainty. She steps into the center as if it were a stage she’s been rehearsing her whole life, smiling bright like the sun.

Watch how the ritual repeats. She hears phantom applause and refuses to call it delusion; she dates it forward—“that’s praise from my future”—and proceeds as if the ovation were already earned. 

 

She arrives at Tracen Academy. The sun gleams in her stride, in the tilt of her chin; the girl in the spring has been rehearsing for this entrance for years. But the ground does not care for choreography.

On the first day in the gymnasium, she catches her toe on the edge of someone’s shoe. For a heartbeat the spring-warm certainty is gone, replaced by the sick lurch of falling—child-lost-in-the-forest again. If she hit the ground now, it would be the sound of something cracking.

So she doesn’t fall. She pivots. The misstep becomes a flourish, an extravagant sweep of her arm, a declaration of arrival so grand it swallows the stumble whole. “Ah—Tracen, your Overlord has arrived!” she might as well be saying, every gesture rewritten before anyone else can write it for her.

 

***

 

A desk has collapsed under a trembling Umamusume’s hands—one splintered piece of bad luck in a long day of bad luck—and the girl is already folding in on herself, bracing for the judgment she expects from her.

To Opera O, though, the scene is perfect. The broken desk isn’t a problem; it’s a prop. The startled expression isn’t shame, it’s character! In an instant, she rearranges the moment into theater: the ruined desk becomes the stage, the other Umamusume the “villain” who will spar with the Overlord, and herself the magnanimous ruler who will turn even calamity into play!

The other Umamusume—Meisho Doto—doesn’t know it yet, but this is Opera O’s way of handing her a mirror: here, see yourself not as a mess, but as someone important enough to share the stage with me.

The Overlord will keep the light trained on you until you can stand there without shrinking. After all, that’s how it worked in the forest: someone in the reflection had to smile first.

 

***

 

Opera O notices the dark-haired Umamusume before she notices her. Not because the other girl is loud—quite the opposite. Admire Vega moves through the hallway like a shadow that’s learned to walk upright, gaze somewhere far beyond the walls, carrying her own weather. The crowd parts for her without meaning to, as if afraid to touch whatever gravity she’s wrapped in.

Opera O is used to making the first move; the sun does not wait for planets to introduce themselves. She sweeps into Admire Vega’s orbit, voice bright enough to cut through the quiet. “O, beautiful star of the night sky—at last, I’ve found you!” It’s a ridiculous greeting for someone she’s just met.

Admire Vega’s eyes flicker, caught between surprise and exasperation. “I don’t know what you’re talking about,” she says flatly, already angling her body back toward the dark.

 

***

 

The morning of the Satsuki Shō, she is already gilded in her own mind. The race is not a beginning so much as an opening night, and the audience—visible or not—deserves their proper greeting. Opera O steps away to select the right attire, the right shape of herself to meet the day.

Ayabe is exactly where she expects her—in the shade, trying to be part of the scenery. Opera O reaches in and plucks her out, holding her up to the light like a rare stone. “Such a glum face… what troubles you, Ayabe-san?” And then, because theatrics are safer than intimacy, she pretends to have misheard her name entirely.

Ayabe frowns, demanding she stick to her actual name, demanding to be left alone. But Opera O only tilts her head, smiling as though they have a secret pact. “I thought we had an understanding, you and I, after all the running we’ve done together.”

It’s true she doesn’t know Ayabe well, not really. She can recite only the obvious: that Ayabe is an Umamusume at Tracen Academy, that she’s here for the same race. Bare minimum facts. But facts are dull; what matters is the story! and Opera O is already writing it. “Then let us walk side by side to the track, o rival of mine!”

Ayabe tries to return to her own headspace, to the gravity of racing for someone else. Opera O doesn’t press her for details; she only steps into her space again, smiling like she’s about to pull her into the center of a stage. “Well then, shall we?”

And just like that, the sunlight moves with them. The curtain rises, and the first act of their legend begins.

 

***

 

She turns to find Ayabe in the shadows beyond the track.

Ayabe’s voice was low. “You threw off my pace. My own weakness is to blame… but still, if you hadn’t been around—”

Opera O only smiled wider. “Yes, hate me! It is fitting for the rival to despise the protagonist!” She leaned closer, her tone dropping just enough to thread under Ayabe’s guard. “But was it truly my fault? The cause of your lapse lies within your own mind. Face your troubles as I face my reflection each day.” 

Then she turns away, laughing.

 

***

 

The morning of the Derby hums like a stage before the curtains part. 

The Tokyo Yūshun is sold out; she calls it a “live orchestra” with a cast of “this year’s brightest stars,” then promptly claims them all as backdrop to her light. The Overlord’s reign, she says, will be forever.

“Ayabe-san,” Opera O calls, “what say you—shall we join in song before the race?”

The answer is quiet but firm. “No. I’m not going along with your shtick. But… I won’t pin the blame on you anymore.”

Opera O tilts her head, curious. “Blame? Whatever do you mean?”

Ayabe meets her eyes. “The Satsuki Shō—I couldn’t bear responsibility for myself, so I played the victim. That’s why I couldn’t finish strong. But today… I’m focusing inward. I’m here because I want to run. I’ll win this Derby through my own will.”

For a moment, Opera O says nothing. Then her smile changes—smaller, sharper.

“Interesting… So that is your mindset.” She laughs, deflecting, but there’s a flicker in her gaze. “You are indeed the Umamusume I thought you were.”

The invisible mirror she’s been holding out since the Satsuki Shō finally shifts into Ayabe’s hands. She’s not sure if Ayabe realizes she’s taken it, but she can see the difference—the weight of self-recognition settling into her stance.

Then the curtain rises again. “In any case, I’m glad to see the fire in your eyes! You are a worthy rival, Ayabe-san! Show me what you can do—are you simply a supporting role, or the comrade who joins me in the battle against the older generation? The plot is yet to be written; its fate lies within our strides!”

Ayabe says nothing more, but her silence feels different this time—less the absence of words, more the presence of something new.

 

 

***

 

The vending machine hums softly beside her, but Opera O treats it like part of the set. 

“Your drink’s been waiting ages for you,” Opera O points out, as if the can had been in on the plan. 

“O-Opera O-chan!”

Opera O’s gaze lifts past Top Road’s shoulder, then to the sky. 

“Behold the color of these clear skies. Surely the day of the Kikuka Shō will be just like this—the heavens celebrating our grand occasion. The spectators will shield their eyes, not just from the autumn sun, but from an even brighter brilliance that will blind them. That’s right—me!”

Top Road didn’t interrupt, but when the monologue wound down, she hesitates. “Don’t you ever have times when you feel lost, or frustrated at the limits of your own abilities?”

It catches Opera O mid-step in her performance. Her eyes flicked to Top Road, a faint crease crossing her brow before her smile returns—brighter, sharper. 

“Certainly not!” she says. “I see the road of the Overlord stretching out endlessly before me. I have no choice but to advance! Do you not see the path that lies in front of you? Top Road-san.”

Top Road’s eyes widen. 

The answer is flawless, and it lands like a mirror angled just right—showing exactly what she wanted Top Road to see, and nothing else. Whatever passed through her in that pause was gone.

Top Road touches the can, its chill seeping into her palm, and admires the confidence reflected back at her. The smile in front of her is radiant, sunlight catching on every edge, but Top Road can’t quite forget the fraction of a second before it appeared—like the ripple before still water closes over again.

The surface is smooth, and all it showed was the brilliance she’d been told to see.

Notes:

alone and frightened, she invents a self that can rescue her, then commits to performing that self until the world believes, because she needs to believe it most. that’s why sincerity punctures her, and why she insists on dramatics; the spectacle becomes safety, something she learned early on in her youth.