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Christopher Pike woke to the distinct and deeply unfair sensation of knowing something was wrong.
Not alarms. Not red lights. Not the Enterprise shuddering like she sometimes did when an ensign sneezed near the wrong console.
No.
This was worse.
This was quiet.
Pike lay still, staring at the ceiling of their quarters, listening. The room was dim, washed in soft blue night-lighting. Phil was sprawled beside him, one arm flung over Pike’s chest, mouth slightly open, breathing heavy and utterly unbothered by the universe.
Chris frowned.
There it was again.
Soft movement. Bare feet. A whisper that was more breath than sound.
Outside the door.
Chris gently—very gently—shifted. Phil immediately responded by grumbling like an offended bear.
“Mmmf,” Phil muttered. “If this is another nightmare about Vulcan food poisoning, I told you, Chris, it’s not my fault—”
“Phil,” Chris whispered.
Phil cracked one eye. “Someone bleeding?”
“No.”
“On fire?”
“No.”
Phil sighed, already sinking back into the pillow. “Then I’m asleep.”
“Our children are lurking outside our door.”
That got both eyes open.
Phil squinted toward the door. “How many?”
“Just the two.”
Phil groaned. “Is one of them grumpy, missing an eye, and liable to insult my medical credentials?”
“Almost certainly.”
Phil rubbed his face. “Fantastic.”
Chris swung his legs out of bed and stood, tugging on a robe. He moved quietly to the door and knelt slightly, lowering his voice.
“It’s okay,” he said gently. “You can come in.”
There was a pause.
Then the door slid open with a soft shhht.
Leonard McCoy stood in the doorway, barefoot, hair sticking up like he’d personally fought his pillow and lost. His pajama shirt hung crooked on his narrow shoulders, and the scar that ran down the left side of his face, vanishing where his eye should have been, ending at the corner of his mouth, looked harsher in the low light.
He looked exhausted.
Beside him stood Jim.
Seven years old. Far too small for it. Big blue eyes rimmed red with lack of sleep, face pale, a faint tremor in his hands as he clutched his stuffed badger to his chest like a lifeline. The badger’s fur was worn thin in places, one button eye replaced with stitching Phil had done himself.
Jim’s scar cut across his cheek, faint but unmistakable. He tried to smile anyway.
“Hi, Chris,” Jim whispered.
Chris’s chest tightened instantly.
“Well,” Chris said softly, dropping to one knee so he was eye-level with Jim, “to what do we owe the pleasure of a midnight badger visit?”
Jim hesitated, then shrugged, pressing his face briefly into the badger’s head.
“I couldn’t sleep,” he said. “My brain’s… loud.”
Leonard snorted quietly. “That’s putting it politely.”
Phil appeared behind Chris, arms crossed, hair wild. “Leonard McCoy,” he said dryly, “it is oh-three-hundred hours. The ship is asleep. The stars are asleep. Even Spock is asleep, and that’s a medical miracle.”
Leonard lifted his chin. “Jim had a seizure.”
Phil’s entire posture changed.
“How long ago?”
“An hour,” Leonard replied immediately. “Short. He came out of it fast. No fever. No bleeding. I monitored his pupils.”
Phil nodded once, already scanning Jim with a doctor’s eye, but carefully, deliberately non-threatening. “Good job.”
Leonard relaxed just a fraction at the praise.
Jim shifted closer to Chris, pressing his side into Pike’s knee. Chris instinctively wrapped an arm around him.
“You’re safe,” Chris murmured. “You’re on the Enterprise. Nothing bad gets to happen here.”
Jim nodded, trusting that completely.
Phil crouched, keeping his voice light. “Hey, buddy. Any nausea?”
Jim shook his head.
“Headache?”
“Just… buzzy,” Jim said, tapping his temple. “Like bees.”
Phil smiled faintly. “Yeah. That checks out.”
Leonard rolled his one good eye. “You gonna do something useful, or just narrate?”
Phil smirked. “Careful, kid. I outrank you.”
“Tragic flaw in the system,” Leonard muttered.
Chris hid a smile.
“Alright,” Phil said, straightening. “Everyone inside. Floor’s cold, and Jim looks like he might fold in half if a stiff breeze hits him.”
Jim blinked. “I don’t fold.”
Leonard snorted. “You absolutely fold.”
They moved into the room. Jim immediately climbed onto the bed beside Chris, curling against his side like he belonged there, which he did. Chris tucked the blankets around him, careful of Jim’s joints, his breathing, the subtle signs only experience taught you to watch for.
Leonard hovered at the foot of the bed, arms crossed.
Phil raised an eyebrow. “You can sit, you know.”
Leonard hesitated.
Jim peeked over the blanket. “Leonard,” he said softly. “You promised.”
Leonard’s jaw tightened. Then he climbed onto the bed, sitting stiffly beside Jim. Jim immediately leaned into him, small fingers gripping Leonard’s sleeve.
Leonard relaxed instantly, one hand coming up to rest protectively on Jim’s shoulder.
Chris watched that—how automatic it was, how fierce.
“You two look like hell,” Chris said gently.
Leonard smirked. “You should see the other guy.”
Jim giggled, then yawned so hard his badger nearly fell out of his arms.
Phil crossed his arms, satisfied. “I’ll monitor him in the morning. For now, rest. All of you.”
Leonard eyed him. “You promise no hypos?”
Phil held up two fingers. “Scout’s honor.”
Leonard relaxed another notch.
Chris leaned back against the headboard, one arm around Jim, the other reaching out to squeeze Leonard’s shoulder.
“You’re safe here,” Chris said quietly. “Both of you.”
Jim smiled sleepily. Leonard didn’t—but he didn’t pull away either.
Outside, the Enterprise hummed softly, steady and sure.
For now, that was enough.
Chris woke slowly.
Not to alarms. Not to whispers.
To snoring.
Chris lay still for a moment, listening.
One snore was deep, rumbling, and familiar—the kind that vibrated slightly through the mattress. Phil. Predictable. Reliable. Sounded like a warp core settling in for the night.
The other—
Chris turned his head slightly and blinked.
Leonard McCoy was sprawled on his side next to Phil, one arm flung over a pillow, mouth slightly open, producing a sharp, offended little snort every few seconds—like sleep itself had personally insulted him and he was protesting.
Chris bit his lip to keep from laughing.
“Well I’ll be damned,” he murmured under his breath. “He does sleep.”
Phil snored louder, as if in agreement.
Chris shifted his gaze downward.
Jim was awake.
Wide blue eyes stared up at him, calm and observant, pupils already adjusted to the soft morning light creeping in through the viewport. He looked… peaceful. Alert. Awake in the way only Jim ever was—like his mind never really shut off, just slowed enough to rest.
Chris smiled softly.
Jim blinked once, then twice, like he’d been waiting.
Chris lifted a hand and gently scratched his fingers through Jim’s hair, slow and careful, just the way Jim liked. The little boy sighed almost immediately, eyelids fluttering.
Jim pushed himself upright and, without hesitation, crawled across the bed and onto Chris’s chest, curling there like a cat finding its favorite warm spot.
He leaned close to Chris’s ear and whispered very seriously,
“They’re loud.”
Chris nodded solemnly. “They are.”
Phil let out a snore so powerful Leonard twitched, muttered something unintelligible, and scooted closer to Phil in his sleep.
Jim stared at them both, unimpressed.
Chris whispered, “I believe you and I are what we call morning people.”
Jim nodded again. “Leonard is grumpy.”
“Yes.”
“And Phil is worse.”
Chris considered that. “Also yes.”
Jim rested his chin on Chris’s chest. “Can we get up?”
Chris glanced at the two unconscious bodies taking up the other half of the bed—Phil’s arm draped protectively over Leonard’s shoulder, Leonard’s hand curled unconsciously into Phil’s shirt like he trusted him even in sleep.
Chris’s expression softened.
“I think,” Chris said quietly, “that we can get up without waking the bears.”
Jim’s eyes lit up. “Sneaky?”
Chris smiled. “Very.”
They moved carefully.
Jim slid off first, silent as a shadow despite his fragile frame. Chris followed, easing himself up slowly, making sure the bed barely shifted. Leonard snorted once, turned his face into the pillow, and kept sleeping.
Phil didn’t even stir.
Out in the main living area, the lights automatically adjusted to a low, gentle glow. Jim padded over to the replicator and waited patiently, hands folded behind his back.
Chris leaned against the counter, arms crossed. “Alright, genius. Breakfast?”
Jim thought hard. “Toast. Dry. And apple slices. But the green ones. Red ones make my mouth itchy.”
“Green apples it is.”
The replicator hummed. Jim watched it with quiet fascination, rocking slightly on his heels, not anxious, just full of contained energy.
Chris handed him the plate and a cup of water. Jim climbed onto one of the chairs, knees tucked up under him, and took small, careful bites.
“You feeling okay?” Chris asked gently.
Jim nodded. “My head is quieter.”
“That’s good.”
Jim took another bite, then said casually, “Leonard stayed awake all night.”
Chris looked at him. “He did?”
Jim nodded. “He pretended he didn’t. But he kept checking my breathing. And he counted my heartbeats.”
Chris’s chest tightened.
“He loves you very much,” Chris said softly.
Jim smiled around his toast. “I know.”
They ate in companionable silence for a moment. Outside the viewport, stars slid past in a slow, steady drift.
Jim suddenly tilted his head. “Chris?”
“Yes, buddy?”
“Are you and Phil married?”
Chris chuckled quietly. “Yes.”
Jim nodded, satisfied. “Good.”
“Why’s that?”
Jim shrugged. “Means you won’t leave.”
Chris reached over and squeezed Jim’s hand gently. “Not going anywhere.”
From the bedroom, a voice drifted out—groggy, sharp, unmistakably irritated.
“Why does it smell like apples and betrayal?”
Chris grinned.
Jim smiled—bright, warm, sunshine incarnate..
Leonard shuffled into the kitchen like a man personally offended by consciousness.
His hair was an absolute disaster—dark curls sticking up in defiance of gravity, pillow-creased on one side. He yawned so hard his shoulders hunched, then made a low, dissatisfied noise in the back of his throat like waking up had been optional and someone forgot to ask him.
Jim looked up just in time for Leonard to step in close, wrap both arms around him from behind, and rest his chin on the top of Jim’s head.
Jim immediately melted.
Leonard’s eyes slid shut again as he stood there, swaying just slightly.
Chris snorted. “You’re gonna fall asleep standing up.”
Leonard’s response came slow and thick with sleep, his southern drawl heavier than usual.
“No, I ain’t.”
Phil appeared in the doorway, rubbing his eyes. “You absolutely are.”
Leonard cracked one eye open and glared. “Didn’t ask you.”
Jim giggled, the sound bright and soft. Leonard smiled into his hair without even realizing it.
Chris folded his arms, fond and amused. “Alright, gentlemen. We should get ready for school.”
Jim made a face so dramatic it bordered on theatrical tragedy.
“I hate school,” Jim declared quietly, leaning back harder into Leonard’s chest.
Leonard hummed. “Mm. That checks out.”
Jim turned his head just enough to look up at him. “Can I stay with you?”
Leonard opened his mouth—
“Lunch,” Leonard said instead. “We can eat lunch together.”
Jim considered this very seriously. Then he shrugged. “Okay.”
He took another bite of apple, chewing thoughtfully. “All they do is play and color in my class. And some weird kid keeps putting the crayons up his nose. Then he hands them to someone else”
Chris raised an eyebrow. Phil froze mid-step.
“You’re seven,” Phil said carefully.
Jim shrugged again. “I know.”
Leonard frowned, finally fully awake now. “What do you mean, all they do?”
Jim listed it off on his fingers. “Blocks. Coloring. Songs. Naps. They don’t even have real books. And the teacher talks like I’m made of glass.”
Leonard’s jaw tightened.
Chris and Phil shared a look over Jim’s head—quiet, heavy, familiar.
They were trying. Gods, they were trying, to give Jim childhood. To give Leonard adolescence. To give them something other than survival and vigilance and scars.
But Jim had seen too much. Leonard had grown up too fast. You couldn’t un-ring that bell.
Chris cleared his throat gently. “It’s okay to be a kid, Jim.”
Jim didn’t argue. He just said softly, “I know.”
Leonard tightened his arms around him just a bit, protective without thinking. “You won’t be there forever,” Leonard muttered. “You’re smart. They’ll move you up eventually.”
Phil sighed. “That’s what we’re trying not to rush.”
Leonard shot him a look. “With all due respect, sir—”
Phil smiled faintly. “None taken. You’re thirteen. It’s expected.”
Leonard huffed. “I’m tired.”
“Yes,” Chris said dryly. “That was established by the standing-nap.”
Jim smiled up at him. “You snore.”
Leonard scoffed. “I do not.”
“You did,” Jim insisted. “Like this.” He made a tiny snorting noise.
Phil laughed outright. Chris covered his mouth.
Leonard groaned. “Traitors. All of you.”
But he kissed the top of Jim’s head anyway, gentle and instinctive, before straightening.
“Alright,” Leonard said, voice rough but steady. “School. Then lunch. Then we’ll see.”
Jim nodded, trusting that completely.
Chris watched them one broken boy holding another and silently promised himself again
They would get a childhood.
Even if they had to fight the universe for it.
Leonard sat Jim on the edge of the bed and tugged a soft shirt over the boy’s head, careful not to snag it on Jim’s ears or the scar that crossed his cheek. Jim held his arms up obediently, humming quietly to himself—off-key, but enthusiastic.
Leonard reached for the trousers next when Jim hesitated.
“Leonard?” Jim asked.
“Yeah, sunshine?”
Jim fidgeted with the hem of his shirt, eyes down. “Can I wear a headband? Like Gaila wears?”
Leonard froze.
Not in a bad way—just long enough for the question to land and settle.
He crouched down in front of Jim so they were eye-level, resting his forearms on his knees. “You mean the yellow one she wears over her curls?”
Jim nodded. “It keeps her hair out of her eyes. And it’s… nice.”
Leonard studied him for a moment, then nodded once. “Alright.”
Jim blinked. “Alright?”
Leonard scratched the back of his neck. “I’m gonna have to get you one later. Don’t think we got any headbands your size.”
Jim’s shoulders slumped a little—but only for a second.
Leonard glanced around the room, eyes catching on a small yellow bow Phil had replicated weeks ago for reasons Leonard never quite asked about. He grabbed it, along with a simple clip from the dresser.
“Well,” Leonard muttered, fingers already working, “this ain’t Starfleet regulation, but neither am I.”
He twisted the bow onto the clip, securing it with careful precision.
Leonard held it up. “How about this, for now?”
Jim’s face lit up like a sunrise.
“Yes!”
Leonard reached out, gently sliding the clip into Jim’s hair, just off to the side so it wouldn’t tug. He adjusted it once, twice, until it sat just right.
“There,” Leonard said softly. “Looks good on you.”
Jim beamed, eyes shining. “I look like Gaila!”
Leonard smiled without meaning to.
He cleared his throat. “You wanna try anything else new today?”
Jim went quiet, thinking hard. His fingers twisted in the fabric of Leonard’s sleeve.
Then, barely above a whisper, “Could I… maybe… get a dress? Like what Gaila wears.”
Leonard didn’t laugh. Didn’t flinch. Didn’t question.
He just smiled—small and warm.
“I’ll see what I can do,” Leonard said. “Promise.”
Jim launched himself forward, wrapping his arms around Leonard’s neck. Leonard laughed, startled, but hugged him right back.
“Alright, alright,” Leonard chuckled. “You’re dressed enough for today.”
He finished up quickly—socks, shoes, a quick check for medical alerts—then scooped Jim up into his arms and carried him out into the living area like a proud announcement.
“Gentlemen,” Leonard said, “observe.”
Chris looked up first, then Phil.
They both paused.
Then smiled.
“Well, look at you,” Chris said warmly. “Very stylish.”
Phil nodded. “That’s a good color.”
Jim puffed up with pride.
Leonard set him down. “Bathroom. Wash your hands.”
Jim saluted dramatically. “Aye aye!” And bolted down the hall.
Chris and Phil exchanged a glance.
Phil nodded toward the clip. “That new?”
Leonard leaned against the counter, arms crossed. “Yeah. He wants to wear dresses.”
Both men raised an eyebrow—slowly.
Then they nodded.
Chris said carefully, “Did you talk to him about it?”
Leonard nodded back. “Yeah. He just wants to look like someone he likes. Feels right to him.”
Phil sighed softly. “Alright.”
Leonard hesitated, then added, quieter, “We might need to have a sit-down sometime. About… everything.”
Chris’s expression gentled. “Yeah. I think you’re right.”
Phil reached out and clapped Leonard’s shoulder. “We’ll handle it together.”
From the bathroom came Jim’s voice, loud and cheerful: “I used soap!”
Leonard snorted. “That’s my boy.”
And for a moment—just a moment—everything felt almost normal.
Chris slung Jim’s book bag over one shoulder and then, without ceremony, scooped Jim up onto his hip like he’d been doing it Jim’s entire life.
Jim immediately curled in, one arm around Chris’s neck.
“Can I bring Badger?” Jim asked, holding up the well-loved stuffed animal hopefully.
Chris smiled. “Of course you can.”
Phil handed Leonard his own book bag, smirking. “Don’t forget your homework, Doctor Doom.”
Leonard snorted. “Don’t call me that in public.”
The four of them headed down the corridor toward the turbolift, the hum of the Enterprise steady underfoot. Jim rested his head on Chris’s shoulder, Badger tucked under his chin.
Phil and Leonard walked ahead, already deep in animated conversation.
“I’m just sayin’,” Leonard insisted, waving one hand, “if the enzyme folds that way, the math works.”
Phil laughed. “You’re thirteen.”
“And right.”
The turbolift doors slid open.
Chris stepped in, adjusting Jim’s weight. “Education deck.”
The lift hummed to life. Jim watched the lights scroll past, swinging his feet slightly.
“Leonard?” Jim called.
Leonard glanced back instantly. “Yeah?”
“I like lunch with you.”
Leonard’s expression softened. “Me too.”
The doors opened onto the education deck—bright, warm, designed to feel welcoming instead of sterile. Children’s voices echoed faintly down the hall.
Phil and Leonard split off toward the older classrooms, Phil clapping Leonard lightly on the shoulder. “Try not to start a debate with Amanda Grayson before lunch.”
Leonard smirked. “No promises.”
Chris headed the other way, toward Jim’s classroom.
The door slid open to reveal a space full of color and gentle order. The room was large, with low tables, shelves of books and toys, and wide windows looking out into space. Soft rugs covered the floor, and children of all species sat in small clusters—drawing, building, reading.
Miss Wesley looked up and smiled immediately.
She was human, middle-aged, with warm brown skin and streaks of silver in her dark hair, which she wore pulled back loosely. Her eyes were kind and sharp all at once—the sort of teacher who noticed everything but made you feel safe anyway.
“Good morning, Captain Pike,” she said warmly.“And good morning to you, Jim.”
“Good morning, Miss Wesley,” Chris replied.
Jim smiled shyly. “Hi.”
Chris set Jim down and crouched to place his book bag into a small cubby labeled J. Kirk in careful block letters.
“He’ll be eating lunch with Leonard today,” Chris said. “In Amanda Grayson’s class.”
Miss Wesley nodded. “I’ll make sure he gets there.”
She leaned down slightly, smiling at Jim. “And I like your clip. It’s very bright.”
Jim’s eyes lit up. “Leonard made it.”
“Well,” she said gently, “he did a very good job.”
Jim turned—and froze.
Gaila waved at him from across the room.
She was Orion—her skin a soft, luminous green, hair a vivid red tied back with a ribbon. She sat alone at a small table, a stack of books beside her instead of toys.
An outcast.
Just like Jim.
Jim’s face broke into a smile. He waved back enthusiastically.
Chris watched the two of them for a moment—two children who had been pushed to the edges, who had found each other anyway.
Chris leaned down and kissed Jim’s head. “Have a good day, sunshine.”
Jim nodded but then hesitated.
His shoulders hunched. His grip tightened on Badger.
Chris immediately crouched in front of him, voice low and gentle. “Hey. What’s wrong, baby boy?”
Jim swallowed, eyes flicking toward the room, then back to Chris.
“Can you… stay?”
Chris melted.
There was no other word for it.
He crouched fully in front of Jim, bringing himself down to the boy’s level, his hands light and steady on Jim’s shoulders.
“What’s going on in that head of yours, baby boy?” Chris asked softly.
Jim bit his lip.
Chris lifted a hand, brushing his thumb gently against Jim’s cheek, then tipping his chin up just enough to stop the nervous habit. “Hey. You don’t gotta hurt yourself to think.”
Jim swallowed. His eyes flicked toward the room—too many bodies, too many sounds—then back to Chris.
“You wanna talk?” Chris asked.
Jim hesitated. He looked torn, like he wanted to say something big but didn’t have the words yet.
Chris nodded slowly. “That’s okay. You don’t have to right now.”
He squeezed Jim’s shoulders gently. “I gotta go to work. Captain stuff. But I’ll check in on you, alright? And I’ll pick you up at the end of the day.”
Jim’s face crumpled for just a second.
Then he stepped forward and wrapped his arms around Chris’s neck.
Chris froze.
Just for a heartbeat.
Jim had hugged him before, plenty of times, but this was different. This was tighter. Needier. Like Jim was anchoring himself.
Jim leaned in close, his voice barely a whisper.
“Be careful, Daddy.”
The word hit Chris like a phaser set to stun.
Daddy.
Jim had never—never—called him that.
Chris’s chest locked up. His hands came up automatically, holding Jim as if the universe itself might try to take him away.
Jim pressed a quick, soft kiss to Chris’s cheekclumsy and earnest, then pulled back before Chris could say anything at all.
Gaila appeared at Jim’s side, her green fingers slipping easily into his.
“Come on,” she said gently. “We’re gonna build a star map.”
Jim nodded, glancing back once more.
Chris managed a smile. “I’ll see you later.”
Jim smiled back—small, brave—and let Gaila lead him away.
Chris straightened slowly.
His gut twisted.
Something deep and instinctive told him this moment mattered—that something had shifted, quietly but permanently.
Miss Wesley watched him with gentle understanding. “He’ll be alright, Captain.”
Chris nodded. “I know.”
But as he turned to leave, the word echoed in his chest.
Daddy.
And Chris Pike knew—absolutely, undeniably—that nothing would ever be the same again.
Chris didn’t walk to Sickbay.
Chris ran.
Which was how half the deck crew knew something either very good or very bad had just happened—because Captain Christopher Pike did not run unless the universe was on fire.
Heads turned as he barreled into Sickbay with an expression so bright it practically qualified as a navigational hazard.
“Captain?” a nurse called.
“Morning,” Chris said cheerfully, not slowing down.
Phil looked up from a console, one eyebrow already climbing his forehead. “Why are you smiling like that? Are you concussed?”
Chris skidded to a stop in front of him. “Phil.”
Phil folded his arms. “Chris.”
“I need you to sit.”
Phil glanced around. Every eye in Sickbay was on them.
“No,” Phil said flatly. “You don’t get to look that happy and ask me to sit.”
Chris leaned in anyway, grinning so wide it hurt his face. “Jim called me Daddy.”
There was a beat.
Then Phil’s expression cracked.
“Oh,” Phil said softly.
Then he smiled.
A real one. Warm. Fond. The kind that came with misty eyes and a hand unconsciously coming up to press over his heart.
“He did?” Phil asked.
Chris nodded, breathless. “Just—out of nowhere. He hugged me and said ‘be careful, Daddy.’ Like it was the most natural thing in the world. Only took like 6 or something months”
Phil laughed quietly. “Well,” he said, “guess that settles that.”
Chris exhaled a shaky breath. “I didn’t even say anything. I couldn’t. I just—”
Phil stepped closer and squeezed Chris’s arm. “You didn’t need to say anything. He knows.”
Chris swallowed hard. “I think I scared him this morning.”
Phil shook his head. “No. I think he trusted you.”
They shared a look—years of partnership, of shared responsibility, of loving two very complicated boys.
Before either of them could say more, a sharp chirp cut through Sickbay.
“Captain Pike,” Una Chin-Riley’s voice came over the comm. “We’re approaching the planet.”
Chris straightened automatically. “On my way.”
Phil leaned in and kissed Chris’s cheek. “Go have fun, Daddy.”
Chris laughed, glowing. “Don’t you start.”
But he did—carrying the word with him all the way to the bridge.