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yuta stares pointedly at his knees, his friend laughing by his side, trying as hard as he can to keep his focus off the other man's fiddling with his fingers. there's a crease in his brow. he's trying to psyche himself up, and the cute behavior of his best friend is absolutely not helping.
you can do this yuta.
no he can’t-
you can do it.
can he?
it’s just one kiss.
but, it’s ten..
one little kiss.
has anyone even kissed him before?
it’ll be super quick.
it’ll feel like a lifetime.
just smooch the kid.
he glances to his side, watching ten’s face. his full attention is on the movie they’re watching. ten picked it out, yuta doesn't even know the title. there’s a glint in his eyes and small creases at the corners from the grin on his face.
yuta wants to kiss him so fucking bad.
he steels himself, breathing in a shaky breath. he can do this.
his fingers curl around the hand on his and that catches ten’s attention, his head turning to look at his best friend. it would be so easy to just swoop in and kiss him. yuta can hear his heart pounding in his ears. then he smiles and the breath is stolen right out of yuta’s lungs. he’s shaken to his very core because that sweet smile he loves is being directed at him once again and suddenly his limbs are jelly and his confidence is completely gone.
he can’t do this.
he can’t risk that smile leaving his life.
so he squeezes ten’s hand and smiles back. the younger’s head drops to his shoulder and yuta tries to think about anything except how his hair tickles his neck, or how he smells like vanilla.
day four-hundred and thirteen of being in love with chittaphon “ten” leechaiyapornkul, and yuta still doesn’t have the courage to make a move.
but it’s okay, i’ll do it tomorrow, is what he promises himself every night.
ten will still be around.
( when ten’s tall classmate comes to him the next day, red in the face and asking for his blessing to take ten on a date because he is ten's best friend after all, yuta wants to scream. he wants to cry like a toddler and yell and say that he does not have permission because he loved ten first. he loves ten more and it’s not fair-
but the thai boy is tucked under johnny’s arm, pressed against his side, and looks up at him with such bright and hopeful eyes and who is yuta to say no?
he just smiles again and tries not to die inside.
because he always chickens out. )