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^•ﻌ•^ ૮ˆﻌˆა
If there is doubt in the depths of my heart
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^•ﻌ•^ ૮ˆﻌˆა
If there is doubt in the depths of my heart
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AND2BLE dorms, late night. Somewhere down the hall, Seungeon is loudly cackling at something on his phone.
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AND2BLE dorms, late night. Somewhere down the hall, Seungeon is loudly cackling at something on his phone.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
—bing.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
—bing.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
Qubing? GYUVIN! Hello? Are you there? You're not paying attention! I asked if you've eaten like 5 times already!
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
Qubing? GYUVIN! Hello? Are you there? You're not paying attention! I asked if you've eaten like 5 times already!
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
What?
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
What?
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
What do you mean—what? You were totally out of it just now.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
What do you mean—what? You were totally out of it just now.
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
…Sorry, Rwick.
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
…Sorry, Rwick.
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Ricky's narrowed eyes meet Gyuvin's and he must find something he's searching for there, as his incredulous gaze melts into something softer. A delicate frown tugs at Ricky's lips as he glances away awkwardly.
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Ricky's narrowed eyes meet Gyuvin's and he must find something he's searching for there, as his incredulous gaze melts into something softer. A delicate frown tugs at Ricky's lips as he glances away awkwardly.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
Oh. What's wrong?
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
Oh. What's wrong?
I'm just thinking. About… everything, you know?
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
I'm just thinking. About… everything, you know?
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
I'm just thinking. About… everything, you know?
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
Everything like…?
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
Everything like…?
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
Like. Our debut. Our future. Where it all goes from here. I don't know.
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
Like. Our debut. Our future. Where it all goes from here. I don't know.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
I think about it too. A lot.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
I think about it too. A lot.
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
Really?
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
Really?
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
Obviously. Why do you look so surprised?
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
Obviously. Why do you look so surprised?
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
I don't know. You just always seem… fine. Like yourself. Like nothing affects you.
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
I don't know. You just always seem… fine. Like yourself. Like nothing affects you.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
Some things affect me.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
Some things affect me.
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The two of them lapse into silence, Ricky's eyes boring into Gyuvin's meaningfully.
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The two of them lapse into silence, Ricky's eyes boring into Gyuvin's meaningfully.
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
I know. It's just, you're always Ricky. Even as trainees, during Boys Planet—even when everything's changing, you're always just. You.
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
I know. It's just, you're always Ricky. Even as trainees, during Boys Planet—even when everything's changing, you're always just. You.
Are you calling me boring?
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
Are you calling me boring?
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
Are you calling me boring?
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
Not at all, it's the opposite of boring! It's—I don't know how to put it.
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
Not at all, it's the opposite of boring! It's—I don't know how to put it.
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
It's like when I think about everything coming up and I start spiralling… I look at you and it gets quieter somehow. Because you're there and you're okay. Or you're not okay but you're still just you.
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
It's like when I think about everything coming up and I start spiralling… I look at you and it gets quieter somehow. Because you're there and you're okay. Or you're not okay but you're still just you.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
…
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
…
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
That probably sounds weird.
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
That probably sounds weird.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
No. It doesn't.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
No. It doesn't.
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They're about to lapse into silence again, but Seungeon's laughter rings through the dorm loudly.
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They're about to lapse into silence again, but Seungeon's laughter rings through the dorm loudly.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
It's the same for me, you know? Everything we've been through—we went through it together.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
It's the same for me, you know? Everything we've been through—we went through it together.
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Gyuvin looks at him. Ricky doesn't look back, a shy flush creeping across his cheeks.
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Gyuvin looks at him. Ricky doesn't look back, a shy flush creeping across his cheeks.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
So, have you eaten already?
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
So, have you eaten already?
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
No…
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
No…
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
I'll order.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
I'll order.
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Ricky unlocks his phone and leans in. When Gyuvin leans against him, he just allows it. They stay like that until their food arrives, and Gyuvin lets his worries fade into the night.
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Ricky unlocks his phone and leans in. When Gyuvin leans against him, he just allows it. They stay like that until their food arrives, and Gyuvin lets his worries fade into the night.
— the quiet ending —
Is that really what you think about me?
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
Is that really what you think about me?
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
Is that really what you think about me?
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
Yeah, why?
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
Yeah, why?
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
No, it's just. I didn't know that's how you saw me.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
No, it's just. I didn't know that's how you saw me.
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Gyuvin goes quiet. Ricky is picking at the hem of his sleeve, eyes cast somewhere toward the floor.
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Gyuvin goes quiet. Ricky is picking at the hem of his sleeve, eyes cast somewhere toward the floor.
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
I do. You're my anchor, Ricky.
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
I do. You're my anchor, Ricky.
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Ricky finally looks up at that. He holds Gyuvin's gaze for a moment like he's trying to figure out if he means it.
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Ricky finally looks up at that. He holds Gyuvin's gaze for a moment like he's trying to figure out if he means it.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
That's a lot of pressure.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
That's a lot of pressure.
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
I know. I'm sorry.
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
I know. I'm sorry.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
I don't mind.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
I don't mind.
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Ricky thumps Gyuvin's arm with the back of his hand, a small act of silent comfort.
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Ricky thumps Gyuvin's arm with the back of his hand, a small act of silent comfort.
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
I'm glad. That you don't mind. And that it's been you, Ricky. Out of everyone.
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
I'm glad. That you don't mind. And that it's been you, Ricky. Out of everyone.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
…
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
…
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
Me too.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
Me too.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
So, have you eaten already?
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
So, have you eaten already?
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
No.
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
No.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
I'll order.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
I'll order.
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Ricky unlocks his phone. Gyuvin watches him a second longer than necessary before leaning in. Ricky doesn't move away.
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Ricky unlocks his phone. Gyuvin watches him a second longer than necessary before leaning in. Ricky doesn't move away.
— the anchor ending —
It's nothing. I'm fine.
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
It's nothing. I'm fine.
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
It's nothing. I'm fine.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
Okay.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
Okay.
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The two of them lapse into awkward silence. Gyuvin is about to get lost in his thoughts again when Ricky snaps him back.
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The two of them lapse into awkward silence. Gyuvin is about to get lost in his thoughts again when Ricky snaps him back.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
Did you want to get something to eat?
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
Did you want to get something to eat?
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Just as Gyuvin is about to shake his head, his stomach betrays him and growls loudly.
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Just as Gyuvin is about to shake his head, his stomach betrays him and growls loudly.
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
Pfft… I'll order from the samgyeopsal place, okay?
Ricky ^•ﻌ•^
Pfft… I'll order from the samgyeopsal place, okay?
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
Okay. Thanks, Ricky.
Gyuvin ૮ˆﻌˆა
Okay. Thanks, Ricky.
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Ricky smiles.
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Ricky smiles.
— the simple ending —