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The Las Cruces sunset beamed over Organ Mountains. Frustration from a win slipping through his fingers lingered in the back of Sebastian's mind, but being here, 600 miles from the memory was enough to get a smile back to toying with his lips.
His current grasp on Kimi's hand was as victorious as the one he just about missed anyway.
It hadn't taken much. It never really did with Kimi. One look from the older man and Sebastian could just about agree to anything. He almost had it in him to be worried at how quickly he'd lay down on a pyre, just in the name of a glance his way, but one glimpse to his muse and reason and rationality all were rendered obsolete. One peek to the lipsticked goodbyes tattooed on his arm, and all Sebastian could do was try to hush his exploding heart.
"What'd you think of it?"
"Huh?"
Kimi's eyes peeked from above his glasses. Those stupid frameles sunglasses. Sebastian could barely count on one hand the number of times he'd itched to rip them off all to admire the depth of Kimi's soul through crystalline skies.
"The movie. Did you fall asleep?"
As it turned out, Sebastian had in fact fallen asleep in front of their screen. The drive over had been long, the state of his back was testament enough to that, but having gotten a chauffeur and comfortable enough backseats, Sebastian had been unable to deny Kimi a request for a movie night.
"Yeah… sorry."
A shrug. Kimi's attention turned back to ther mountains. The pinks washed over his face, perfect watercolour blush imprinted on passive features. Glowing. Glances thrown his way often necessitated double takes, the man looked so perfectly himself, so perfectly at home anywhere. Sebastian couldn't decide whether he prefered the cold-flushed cheeks in pearlescent suns on snowy mountain tops, or the glowing skin like fountains of gold under late summer tinted skies.
Maybe he just prefered Kimi in general. All of him. The insignificant as well as the essential. Maybe that was it. Maybe Kimi was all Sebastian could find to plentifully care for. Maybe Kimi was all Sebastian needed to care for.
"It's no problem. It was good. We can watch it another time."
Kimi's index twitched against the back of Sebastian's hand. The breeze toyed with his hair, the featherlight contact no more than a small tickle on his forehead. A part of him mourned the length Kimi's blond locks once held. He could still remember running his hands through silken strands as kisses were pressed against his cheeks, nose, and mouth like prayers in the nightsky.
"Is that a promise?"
Sebastian dared hope. Lord knew he'd cast countless spells, yelling them to the ocean, sound covered only by the crashing of waves on time-sharpened rocks, all begging, craving, imploring Kimi's mind be as haunted by Sebastian's eyes as his was by glacier blues.
"Do I even need to promise you anything? You know you'll always get what you want."
But I haven't. Sebastian's grip tightened on calloused skin. I can't when you're all I ever wanted.
"That's not true."
"With me it is. To me it is."
Sebastian glanced to his right. Kimi's eyes already were awaiting his.
"What do you mean?"
"When have I said no to you? Ever."
"You…"
Sebastian's voice trailed off. When had he ever said it? Kimi wasn't a man of many words. At least to most. Sure, he enjoyed getting his point across, but despite the convenience, the efficiency, of a monosyllabic refusal, Kimi had never uttered it at Sebastian. Not once. Not ever.
"Exactly."
The wind made conversation in their guise. Sebastian couldn't settle, there was no way to know how to respond. Words didn't seem enough. Gestures didn't seem enough. All he wanted was to merge with Kimi, become one sentient being capable of seeing, feeling, disecting every last inch of what Sebastian craved to let him know. Of what Sebastian had to let him know.
But silence continued in its wake. And Sebastian could still find comfort in the weight of his dream promise rest upon his hand. The sun had long disappeared behind rocky mountain tops. The promise of a better day was rearing its head beyond starry night skies. All there was left for Seb to hope for was a tombstone engraved with more than just his name.
"You know."
Kimi's voice almost faded along with the wind. Sebastian had to ponder whether it wasn't just a mirage.
"I think I'm tired of this title."
"Which one?"
The air had grown cooler, just enough to elicit goosebumps on bare skin. Kimi's sunglasses were useless against the gleam of the moon, but he kept them on. Of course he did. His eyes never left the mountains looming in the distance. Sebastian's never left him.
"The friends one. I don't think it matches what my heart wants. Aren't we better off as lovers anyway?"
Sebastian's eyes trailed back to the mountain. The hand in his had turned clammy. Sebastian didn't care. The mountains were a sight bigger than they could ever be, but it wasn't going to stop them from trying to outdo them.
"We are. Not the other way around."