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Red string theory where we met in every path, only 1-2 worlds is where we didn't and unfortunately, I met you in the state you're fully aware of the book. Too aware that you chose to leave me with shatter glass in my heart to make me remember you everytime it aches.
Were you making me leave was a way for you to make it less painful for me because you're planning to die knowing my pledge was to protect you or was it for me not able to stop you ?
Whatever it is you know that without you my head is in a mess right ? You know very well how far I'm willing to go just for you right ? Yet you still choose to do this... You should just take me with you to die. Don't you want someone to die with ? You don't wanna die alone so bad so why didn't you think of me.
With all those thoughts ringing to my head as I pace out to the room, willing to destroy everything within the place and probably die with it, without his touch who can stop me ?
It goes on for like hours and hours until someone...gives a letter. Out of frustration I might have killed this guy in front of me then he said his name.
"It's from Dazai-san" He said in a voice you can't describe, this guy... Atsushi is someone who seems dependent on him. As I look at his hand handing out the letter and I take it from him quickly. Then asked him to leave.
Everything is messed up... No rather it is my art, a chaotic one which he called beautiful and human. As I look at the letter on my hand and the ocean, not minding my surroundings.
My heart is heavy, my hands are trembling... A last letter. Quite a gorgonizing feeling, was he that much into my soul ? I feel a sense of fear of losing the last thing he could ever and ever can give me.
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As I look at side ways then breathe... And mutter to myself
"A letter that I want to break and protect ha..." While thinking to myself I wished I didn't even have to receive it. As I finally calm down and leave because soon enough, it will spiral everything inside of me again.