angsty malec
stories that make my heart hurt just right. likely mostly "happy" endings relatively speaking, but including lots of heartache, unintentional cruelty (sometimes intentional cruelty), anxiety, fear, pining, and general whump.
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Shoelaces and Precious Metals by violetrenegade for lawsofchaos
Fandoms: Shadowhunters (TV), The Shadowhunter Chronicles - All Media Types
01 Jun 2021
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Magnus loves Alexander, his proud dragon Shadowhunter, and he knows that Shadowhunters don't display their relationships with collars the way Downworlders do. Magnus always thought he understood what that meant for him and Alec. As it turns out, Magnus didn't understand at all
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In the early months of their relationship, Alec had let himself wonder about what kind of collar Magnus might offer him. Sometimes, he'd even indulge in the thought that Magnus would coordinate Alec’s collars with his own outfit, marking it clear who Alec belonged to every time they went out.
And then Magnus doesn't ask.
And doesn't ask.
And doesn't ask.Series
- Part 1 of Love Letters & Lace
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On The Sands Of Edom by lawsofchaos
Fandoms: Shadowhunters (TV), The Shadowhunter Chronicles - All Media Types
21 May 2020
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“Alec!” Magnus drops to his knees next to him, his eyes wide and his hands fumbling as he tries to staunch the blood flow, magic sparking uselessly over his skin in failed attempts at healing.
And Alec hates hearing Magnus beg, hates hearing the tears in his former lover’s voice. He fixes his gaze on the man who only weeks ago he had dreamed he would marry.
“I can help,” Magnus promises wetly.
Alec forces a smile on his face, finally managing to still Magnus’ hands with his own. “You can’t.”
OR, the one in which Alec thinks he's dying in Edom and asks Magnus to pretend to love him one last time.
EDIT: Now with sequel, The Space Between Us, by violetrenegade
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The Space Between Us by violetrenegade
Fandoms: Shadowhunters (TV), The Shadowhunter Chronicles - All Media Types
04 Dec 2021
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Magnus swallows. Alec deserves to have everything that he wants. And somehow, for some reason, Magnus is what he wants.
Magnus thinks of Alec, begging Magnus just to pretend to love him, and— and Magnus can’t let him think that, not for a moment longer
Alec could have— would have died, believing to the heart of him that Magnus didn’t love him.
He doesn’t want Alec to have to beg for him. He doesn’t want Alec to live another moment not knowing how deeply loved, treasured, he was.—
A sequel to lawsofchaos' On The Sands Of Edom
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[“There’s this thing that you do,” Alec murmurs. “This power you have that makes you look indestructible.”
“You know that’s not true,” says Magnus.
“I do,” replies Alec, “But even then … there are times when I’m not so sure.”]
1992, New York, a city hanging on to politically-tinged Cold War feelings. Alec Lightwood is a Corporate - a superhero for hire - jostling with a secret identity, holding on to a sense of a normal life, and the fact vigilantes keep turning up murdered in the gutters with no explanation.
Things can only get worse when Magnus - an investigative journalist - starts peeling back Alec’s carefully-crafted mask … and then there’s the mysterious vigilante with the power to move things with his mind who keeps turning up wherever Alec goes - Alec just can’t cut a break.
A neonoir slow-burn superheroes AU about identity, truth, and falling in love without knowing someone’s real name (ft. everyone has superpowers because I couldn’t help myself).
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- Part 1 of a cold night for good deeds
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At nineteen years old, the life Alexander Lightwood had been building for himself was ended in one fell swoop. Convicted of a crime he didn’t commit, Alec is left deruned and banished, with no one to stand at his side. Not even his sister or his ex-parabatai. He’s stuck living a life on the run, constantly trying to avoid the demons who hunt after his angel blood, and the Downworlders seeking revenge, all while trying to figure out a way to clear his name.
But it’s not something he’s going to be able to do alone. Alec's going to have to learn how to trust the very people he was raised to believe were less than him if he wants to have any hope of finding out what’s going on.
Before it’s too late.
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- Part 1 of The Time of Shadows