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who burns like fire on the rushing sea by asael
Fandoms: Raven Cycle - Maggie Stiefvater
03 Jul 2017
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When Adam Parrish attends the Royal Academy, he doesn't expect to get tangled up with the nobility - and he especially does not anticipate Ronan Lynch. As he finds his place in the world, they grow closer, but nothing is ever easy. (Fantasy/Medieval AU)
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“Let’s make a deal,” he says, finally, and then Ronan looks at him, confused and wary. “There’ll be a way to renegotiate this, bargain the terms down, or at least make them clearer and more achievable. I can work on it - I think I’ve read about a few inheritance clauses like that before. But in return, you have to… you can’t do this anymore.”
Adam is the one who looks away now, because he’s not sure how he’s feeling and he doesn’t want to show it. He thinks of Ronan, bloody on the melee ground, falling. Drunk in a back alley, the sharp glint of a knife. All the other times that Adam doesn’t know about, couldn’t do anything about. All the times he’s survived thanks mostly to luck.
“No more drinking until you can barely stand and then picking up a sword. No more fights with strangers in dark alleys. Drink if you want, fight if you want, but try to have some moderation. If you keep doing things that’ll get you killed, I won’t help you. I’m not going to waste my time on a man who’s already dead.”
His words are harsh, but he doesn’t think Ronan will take this seriously if they aren’t. Still, it takes an effort to raise his eyes, look at Ronan. The expression on his face is complicated. Adam can’t read it.
“Why the fuck would you do that at all?” Ronan asks, blunt and raw. Adam doesn’t think he’s asking about the renegotiation. He’s asking about his half of the deal, the half where Adam asks him to stay safe, to stay alive.
There are a lot of things he could say, some of them true. They are friends, after all. Isn’t it obvious that Adam wants him alive and well? And for Gansey’s sake as well, their mutual best friend and prince. He needs Ronan too. Ronan has so much ahead of him, if only he can pull himself out of his spiral.
Those things are all true, and they would be a satisfactory reason. But Adam gives Ronan a secret instead, something he would never admit to anyone else. It’s a split-second decision, one that even he doesn’t quite understand.
“I don’t want to do this without you.”
This. Being Gansey’s advisor, stepping into the world of nobility and royalty, so far beyond Adam’s station. He didn’t realize it, not until he was faced with the prospect of Ronan being gone, but it’s true. Adam is strong, Adam can do this alone if he needs to, Adam can stand at Gansey’s side and do his job. But he doesn’t want to. He wants to know that he isn’t alone, that there’s at least one person in the royal palace besides Gansey who likes him, who thinks he deserves to be where he is, who will back him up if it comes down to that. Someone he can trust. Someone who will curl his lip at noble airs and mock them behind their backs - or to their faces - and make it easier for Adam to get through each day under their disapproving looks, their superior smiles when his accent slips.
This tournament has made it clear to him. It isn’t difficult, exactly, and no one is openly rude to him, not while he’s at Gansey’s side. But he sees the way they look at him, the soft whispers. He is keenly aware he does not belong. Gansey doesn’t understand, he’s born to this, he has the look and the manner. He might love ancient books and curious stories more than trade disputes and marriage contracts, but it’s still easy for him. It’s second nature - saying the right thing, doing the right thing, accepting their respect as something he’s due rather than something he must earn.
It’s not like that for Adam. It’s not like that for Ronan, either.
Ronan is looking at him. Adam can feel the weight of his gaze, and when he finally raises his eyes to meet Ronan’s, he’s not sure what he’s seeing in them. He never knows what Ronan sees when he looks at Adam, except that he knows it isn’t something he dislikes anymore, he knows they’re past that. But it’s something, and Adam feels strangely bare under Ronan’s gaze. So focused, like Adam is the only thing in the tent - in the world, maybe, in that moment - worth looking at.
Then he looks away, and Adam can breathe again
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Adam is forced to deal with his past, i.e. his annoyingly hot and magical ex-boyfriend back home, when his best friends get engaged.
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The Ungraceful Art of Falling by brainless_scarecrow
Fandoms: Captain America - All Media Types
03 Apr 2016
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Bucky Barnes was cold.
He felt like he’d been cold for months now; doing nothing but experiencing one unending chill after another. He’d been cold in England, and again in Italy, and again especially in Austria – both while he was kept in an underground cell, and when he was strapped without cover to the unforgiving metal of Zola’s lab table.
But Steve… Steve Rogers was sunshine. Everything about him was warm, from his crinkly-eyed smile to his white-hot rage. Steve was Coney Island on a summer’s day; lying back on high rooftops to watch fireworks on the 4th of July; drinking stolen whiskey in his parent’s living room…
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Asymmetry by candlemaker
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America (Movies), Captain America - All Media Types
10 Jul 2020
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“Isn’t that weird?” Sam starts, raising an eyebrow at Bucky’s parallel self.
“Sam-“ Bucky tries to interject, looking increasingly distressed – but it’s no use.
“I mean, you third wheeling Steve and his wife out here in the middle of nowhere?” Sam finishes, and Bucky can only cover his face with his metal hand and wish the ground would swallow him whole, knowing what is coming as surely as he has ever known anything.
“Pal,” the Other Bucky replies with a smirk, holding up his flesh hand to show off a thin silver band while the real Bucky stares resolutely at the ground, “I am his wife.”
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Of all the parallel universes they could have ended up in, Bucky can't think of a worse one than this - one that serves as a constant reminder of everything he's ever wanted, and everything he can't ever have.
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Well It Goes Like This by orphan_account
Fandoms: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Prequel Trilogy
17 May 2020
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At the end of it all, the thing is: Palpatine breaks his heart.
(or the one where Anakin makes the hard choice, the right choice, the other choice. Then he keeps making it.)
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