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    Love Me Normally by

    Fandoms: Project Hail Mary (2026), Drive (2011), The Fall Guy (2024), The Gray Man (2022)  

    22 May 2026

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    In which Ryland kind of falls in love with his apartment neighbor. Now if only his brothers could stop acting like Casey was a threat to his safety. He was sometimes oblivious but not that dumb. He could make his own judgements thank you very much. The window for overprotective brother antics was far gone now. Court and Colt has to suck it up if they wanted back into his life.

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    Like recognizes like after all. Court does not like the man that made a home by his brother's side and the feeling is mutual. Colt would like to say he's making an effort but he doesn't trust this Driver either. Ryland would very much like for the people he cared about to get along. He thinks he has earned it from what they put him through. And Casey? Well Casey already has what he wanted.

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    23 May 2026

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    Ryland/Driver! Ha i am so happy and warm, thesis gonna bite me in the ass. Tough cookies but soft and gooey brownies of a man that i are Driver, the devotion, love, YEARNING 🤌🏻🤌🏻🤌🏻 hell this is Grace pov and he can see the devotion love affection and yearning Driver has for him man. Also Grace saying he is a coward for loving driver and not letting this one good thing in his life go, dude u are so brave, despite his flight fight response telling him with all the fiber in him to run to flee to get away from the very violent scene and man capable of such violent. Choosing to stay, to care to love him, BABY U R NOT A COWARD, UR BRAVER THAN ANYONE I KNOW

    "Ryland ends up vomiting in the school staff bathroom after one of his colleagues gossip about a dead body being found in a certain alleyway. A supposed mugger. Cause of death a brain bleed from a bashed in skull. He was distinctly grateful that he found out about it away from Casey, just so Ryland could take a moment to cry a little in the bathroom. To puke his guts out and sob about the guilt of having someone love you enough to kill for you. To know he would never deserve such devotion and have it anyway. It was crushing to be loved to the point of destruction but Ryland meant it when he said he could not lose another person like this. The police don't come knocking on Ryland's door and he was not brave enough to let the first good thing in his life in a long time go on his own. So Ryland pulled himself together and told himself to live with it. If he was a coward for this, then he would be a loved one and that would be enough for him."

    "Slowly, as Ryland proved to Casey how willing he was to keep Casey in his life, Casey told him more. Ryland learned that Casey moonlighted as a getaway driver. That he never carried a gun or participated beyond driving the criminals away from the scene in 5 minutes. He learns that Casey has killed before. Killed multiple people. Casey never explained completely, not in so many words, but Ryland could read between the lines. It was always just to protect. Backed in a corner, survival hunting. Some might consider that evil anyway. Despicable regardless of intentions. Ryland might have, if he hadn't seen Casey's softness. The sensitive man that tried his hardest to be there for Ryland. Who looked at Ryland like he still couldn't believe he could have this. Like Ryland was just a breath away from disappearing. With awe and worship and longing that Ryland still didn't know how to deal with but tries to anyway."

    He remembers standing in Casey's apartment. Looking at the barren living space. Nothing outside the bare necessities to stay alive. No posters Ryland have imagined, not even pictures of Casey. It was empty. Barely lived in. The only hints of personality were the knitted gifts Ryland had given Casey and a car part Casey had been currently working on. An empty case for someone who believed themselves to be nothing but a tool. Who believed they had nothing worth being. It was so heart wrenching to see that the man who took the effort care for Ryland not show the same effort for himself.

    A few weeks later they've settled somewhat. It's not the same as before, when Ryland was blissfully unaware, but Ryland prefers what they have now. They've worked it out. Casey doesn't take as many "side" jobs as he did before and Ryland settles on making him promise to stay safe on the ones he does take. They haven't gone farther than kissing just yet. Casey doesn't rush and Ryland finds it more comforting than he thought he would. They kiss and cuddle and hold hands and Ryland likes it. He finds that he likes it because Casey can always seem to know the moment Ryland gets overwhelmed or checks out. When it becomes a task and not desire. Casey does not get upset or offended even though Ryland still shrinks in ashamed guilt when it happens. But just like Ryland is making sure Casey knows he's safe with him, Casey makes Ryland believe the same. Casey wants Ryland. The Ryland who rambled and snarked and sometimes found the idea of sex as an unappealing waste of time. Casey saw all Ryland's own faults and decided he wanted him too.

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    Beneath Unforgiving Stars by

    Fandoms: A Knight of the Seven Kingdoms (TV), A Song of Ice and Fire - George R. R. Martin  

    26 Feb 2026

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    “Why do you love him so much?”

    The question lingered between them, trembling and terrible. The firelight threw her shadow across the floor, fractured and long, and the faint creak of the inn whispered like a warning in the silence.

    “Most men despise him. They fear him. They mock him behind closed doors. Some curse his very name.” She swallowed. “And yet you do not.”

    Valarr closed his eyes briefly. There were a thousand answers, and none that would ease her pain. When he opened them again, his gaze was steady.

    “Because I see him,” he said simply. Not the prince. Not the reputation. Not the whispers. “He has never been what they believe him to be.”

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    Or, in which Valarr is torn between duty and love, and Aerion is a lustful brat.

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    08 May 2026

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    AerionVallar! Ụ ẹ giỡn mặt hả sao ko có tag sad ending zay má sao chớt hết r????? Mé đọc cuốn vl, í là tình yêu giữa 2 chả viết đủ á đủ emotion ô kê. Carry me not as ash but as love 🫵🏻 👊🏻 này phải đọc kĩ lại mới viết típ đc

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    Southwark Bridge by

    Fandoms: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling  

    30 Dec 2023

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    On February 1st, James Potter has a strange day.

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    The day that Regulus Black didn't die.

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    This oneshot is a prequel to the fic "Mastermind".

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    06 Apr 2026

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    Jegulus! Part of the mastermind eu politics one. Damn last yr this time when I read this i was so out of mind, literally full on nervous mental breakdown or major depressive episode (is more correct ig). Trying to harm myself maybe trying to kill myself idk. But fuckkk the way I relates to Reggie so much and also realized I have a type, aerion then regulus, ppl that r vicious tongue and fucked in the heads.

    “Reggie, what the fuck?”

    And Regulus – he loses, too, because all of his shield shatters, and he’s suddenly five years old and confused, and he’s eight years old and in pain, and he’s ten years old and just needs his big brother.
    -> THISS IM CRYING THE WAY HIS OUTER SHIELD BREAKS TO JUST A LITTLE BROTHER NEEDING HIS BIG BROTHER 😭😭😭 I WISH I HAD THAT WITH MY SISTER

    “I’m scared,” he whispers, pretending his eyes aren’t tearing up, and pretending he doesn’t know that Sirius notices. “I’m – I’m so fucking scared, Sirius.”
    -> I WAS SCARED TOO WAS SCARED OF THE THING THAT IS MY MIND, AND EVERYTHING KEEPS FALLING APART, I KEEP FAILING WHEN IT MATTER MOST. FULL ON DROP OUT OF THESIS TWICE, NEARLY DROPPING OUT OF UNI. ITS BEEN A YEAR NOW, IM STILL AMAZED AT HOW I CHANGE SINCE GETTING HELP BY MY SELF CAUSE NO ONE WAS THERE.
    “Hey – it’s okay,” Sirius hushes him, reaching out to grab his hand as if he does that every day. -> AS IF HE DOES THAT EVERYDAY 😭😭😭
    It doesn’t feel okay. Nothing feels okay, and the only thing keeping Regulus from being sure that nothing will ever be okay again is that in spite of everything, Sirius is here.
    -> IM SO JELOUS OF REG HAVING A BROTHER WHO CARE AND BE THERE FOR HIM, TELLING HIM ITS OKAY

    "What do you want for dinner tonight?”

    “What?”

    “I asked, what do you want for dinner tonight?”

    Regulus swallows. “I don’t know. I… hadn’t planned to have dinner tonight.”

    Sirius makes a strange, gurgling noise, then pretends it didn’t happen. “How’s spaghetti vongole?”

    Regulus sniffles. “That sounds good.”
    -> I HAVENT PLAN TO HAVE DINNER TONIGHT???!!!! SHIT FUCK OMG MY HEART MY HEART, STILL MAKES CRY OVER AND OVER AGAIN

    ALSO THE WARPED WAY REG THINKS THAT HIS BROTHER HATES HIM AND ONLY CARE FOR HIM BC OF THE FAILED SUCIDE ATTEMPT. He loves u, everything complicated but one thing for sure Sirius loves regulus his Reggie his little brother dear

     

    Regulus feels a thick lump in his throat. It’s probably the damn undeserved gratefulness that keeps choking him.

    “Okay,” he says quietly, looking down. “Thank you.”

    In the corner of his eye, he can see how Sirius nods again. Without any warning, he then stands up, moves closer, sits down right next to Regulus and hugs him.

    Regulus flinches by pure reflex. He wishes he didn’t flinch – "he wishes he knew how to be hugged, and how to hug his brother back. He wishes Sirius’ arms around him didn’t make his eyes well up with tears." -> now IM THE ONE IN FUCKING TEARS REG, I WOULD BE THE SAME A SOBBING MOP IF MY SISTER HUGS ME AND TELL ME THAT I HAVE POTENTIAL IM NOT A FAILURE LIKE I THINK IM AM AND HOW SHE GONNA HELP ME GET MY LIFE ON TRACK

    “We’re going to fix this,” Sirius says, holding on to Regulus even though Regulus isn’t holding him back. “I – I know things are difficult and terrifying and a bit all over the place right now, but we’re going to fix this. One day at the time. You and me. We just have to… keep living. That’s all we can do, when things are rough. Just keep living.”
    Regulus releases a shivering breath, and thinks that even though he may not want to be alive, maybe Sirius wanting him to be alive can be enough. For now.
    “Yeah,” he whispers. “We can only keep living.”
    => WE JUST HAVE TO KEEP LIVING, ONE DAY AT A TIME WHEN THINGS R ROUGH JUST KEEP LIVING 🥹😭😭😭 RENDER ME INTO A SOBBING MESS. AND REG 'S " WE CAN ONLY LIVING" EVEN THO HE MAY NOT WANT TO BE ALIVE BUT SIRIUS WANTING HIM TO BE ALIVE IS ENOUGH FOR NOW 😭😭😭. Im so jelly of reg I want someone who actively want me to be alive too

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    infinite source by

    Fandoms: A Song of Ice and Fire - George R. R. Martin, A Song of Ice and Fire & Related Fandoms, A Knight of the Seven Kingdoms (TV)  

    27 Mar 2026

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    He would tear armies apart with his bare hands for them. Dunk knows this with a certainty that terrifies him.

    They spend five blissful years in Lys before ghosts from the past come calling.

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    30 Mar 2026

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    DunkAerion! ABO verse! Them and them sweetlings in blissful Lys and then Dunk have to return to westero for duty war and realm needs him whatever

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    A Most Inconvenient Tenderness by

    Fandoms: A Song of Ice and Fire - George R. R. Martin, A Knight of the Seven Kingdoms (TV)  

    27 Mar 2026

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    In which Egg is forced to acknowledge that his terrible, horse-murdering brother has caught feelings for the one genuinely good person in their vicinity, and the audacity is frankly breathtaking.

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    29 Mar 2026

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    DunkAerion from egg view, waiting to see new update

    He wondered if love was always this—a patient, foolish planting of yourself where nothing ought to grow, a waiting for fruit that might never come, or might come only when it was too late. And the fruit of that particular tree was going to be something between a miracle and a disaster, depending entirely on which part of it you bit into. He was not certain he wanted to be standing underneath when it fell.
    THIS THIS how can a person write such thought so its just perfect