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    After Shane Hollander's sudden trade to the Ottawa Centaurs three years into their careers, Ilya Rozanov can't help his curiosity, or his impulse.

    With no one else truly on his level, and desperate to know what happened to his greatest rival, Ilya joins the Centaurs only to find that something is truly wrong with Shane Hollander.

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    Traded mid-season, Shane Hollander is fighting to keep it together. His secret was discovered and nearly made public, but that didn't stop the backlash. The backlash the never ended, a constant reminder of why he kept the secret.

    Then, Ilya Rozanov barges into his life, into his new safe space, and Rozanov had come to remind Shane who the fuck he is and what he deserves.

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    06 Jul 2026

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    “Eyes on me.” There is a sharp satisfaction as those eyes lift immediately to meet his again. “I need your name.”

    The man’s lashes flutter. “Shane, sir.”

    Ilya nods and lets his hand move through Shane’s hair. It is soft, and Shane leans into the touch, eyes closing briefly as if the contact alone is enough to ground him. The response is so natural that it gives Ilya pause.

    “Tell me about your limits.” Ilya doubts he is going to be close to any limits tonight, as Shane looks like he already had a pretty rough night. But he still needs to ask, good hygiene. 

    A small smile appears on Shane’s face, he looks at Ilya deeply, eyes not wandering away as he speaks, “There are no limit, sir.” He looks at the disbelief appearing on Ilya’s face and offers, “I’m the house slave.”

     

    Or, Ilya didn’t come for attachment, but Shane, bruised, obedient, and unraveling, becomes the one thing he can’t leave broken.

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    05 Jul 2026

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    Shane discloses his diagnosis during Autism Awareness Month, setting off a ripple of insanity in every direction. While he may be able to handle the hate without lashing out, Ilya and every other sane human being are not. Chaos ensues.

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    A collection of tweets stemming from Shane Hollander's innocent autism awareness post.

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    04 Jul 2026

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    He was walking to his Jeep when the stench of cigarette smoke hit his nose. A few feet away, a tall, broad shouldered figure was standing, back to Shane, watching the sunset. Propped against the wall next to him was the bi-pride flag emblazoned sled.

    “That was a great game.” Shane said, taking a couple steps in the direction of the sledge hockey center. “You’re an amazing player to watch, but you’re really not supposed to smoke here.” The man stiffened and then pivoted slowly towards Shane. Backlit by the setting sun, his facial expression was indiscernible.

    “Oh my God Hollander, you are so boring.”

    Ilya was dead.

    Or at least, Alexei Rozanov said he was. Even after two years, Shane still hoped to see him again. He never imagined reuniting in the parking lot of a community center in suburban Ottawa.
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    A family emergency means Ilya and Shane never meet in Las Vegas. In Russia, Alexei uncovers Ilya's sexuality and attacks him, inflicting grievous injuries. Ilya escapes with his life, but is forced into hiding, seeking refugee status in Canada where he builds a quiet, but meaningful, existence.

    The only problem: even two years later, he misses Shane Hollander.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    Loud beeps from his phone startled Ilya, and he slowed down, reaching for the device he’d put on the bar between his legs. Jane. He smiled to himself when he saw the notifications, and, checking Marlowe was absorbed in his own fitness, opened it quickly, smiling in anticipation of Shane's words.

    The smile was wiped off his face almost instantly.

    The blood drained from his face, and Ilya felt like the bottom had just fallen out of his world.

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    Maybe he was naive, but Ilya always thought he had time. Time with Shane. Time to tell him what he truly meant to him.

    That, somehow, one way or another, Shane would always be there.

    But a text message late one night threatens to destroy the future that Ilya has spent the time carefully constructing in his mind.

    Maybe Shane wasn't always going to be there. That Shane would be cruelly snatched away from him before he had a chance to be honest.

    That he would be left behind. Alone.

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    30 Jun 2026