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    The first time it happens, it's an accident. And really, even if he hadn't caught it, it wouldn't be his fault if someone decided to post it on the internet.
    But the more he thinks about it, a plan forms. If he can prove that Rozanov will leave when things get hard, or once Shane is no longer his dangerous and forbidden secret...
    It'll be like ripping of a bandaid for Shane, something he doesn't want to do, but needs to be done. So Hayden will do it for him, temporary pain, but necessary.
    Shane will thank him later.

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    17 Jul 2026

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    Shane hates losing control and the last several months-years if he's being honest-have been nothing but him trying to grab onto any choice he can make for himself. In the wake of being outed, exiled from the team he's dedicated his life to, and losing everything he's worked so hard for just because of who he fell in love with, Shane does the only thing he can: he runs until he feels like he's far enough away that he can't hear anyone else's opinions.

    It's time for Shane to make a decision, just once, he wants to choose something for himself.
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    chapter one can be read as a standalone

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    selbindery (on ao3 and instagram!) has fic bound this series and it is so, so wonderful, please go check out their beautiful work of art here! (fic binding is only ever acceptable for personal use! do not attempt to sell or monetize fanfiction!)

    This series is marked as complete and maybe it is, but I might return for the occasional in-universe one-shot, so feel free to subscribe if you're interested!

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    14 Jul 2026

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    Shane and Ilya are champions. They are partners, and they’re in it for life. And people are starting to notice.

    After being traumatically outed two years ago, Shane and Ilya's relationship and their lives have been fundamentally changed, and most days, Shane thinks that's a good thing. But sometimes, the pressure of being out, and the endless online speculation about #hollanov, and rumors running rampant through the NHL, and a new generation of rookies looking up to them, and the knowledge that everyone is relying on Shane Hollander to be perfect at all times—sometimes it's a lot.

    But Shane's dealing with it. Ilya seems happier than he's ever been, and Shane just needs to get his act together to support his husband. He can do that. He needs to, and he will, if he doesn't crack under the pressure first.

    They've got a second Stanley Cup to win, after all.

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    14 Jul 2026

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    “Uh,” he says, looking up from his screen and feeling his ears go hot, realizing for the first time that this habit of his hasn’t actually come up before until this exact moment.

    “What?” Rozanov asks, sounding more amused than anything else. “You are one of the people who does Instagram for food now?”

    “No,” Shane says, stalling between answering and finishing his Snap so he can send it to Melissa, “one sec.” He finishes typing out 'Tuna melt. Chips. Pickles. It smells really good. Swiss cheese, I think.' before he looks back to Rozanov, putting his phone facedown on the coffee table. “Just sending it to someone on the staff. She likes knowing what I’m eating.”

    He doesn’t know if Melissa likes knowing what he’s eating, per se, but she also seems pleased when he talks about enjoying food for things beyond how many grams of protein it has in it.

    “Ah,” Rozanov says, in a tone Shane can’t quite read. “You always send her your food then, this girl?”

    (shane has a habit of sending his team's dietician his meals for approval) (the problem with this habit? he forgets to tell ilya exactly what it is that melissa does) (how the tuna meltdown is AVERTED through the power of miscommunication)

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