Madita1908

Madita1908



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    Just a bunch of (unchronological) stories about the life of Joan/Francis.

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    If you don't like smut don't read this.
    It's only smut stories I came up with.
    I take wishes under:
    https://angi-sucht-schmetterlinge.tumblr.com/post/622558085566824448/the-naughty-list-for-the-sinf-fandom-recently-i

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    AU in which immortals can have children.

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    This is how I feel in this world.

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    She pressed her palms against her thighs, steadying herself. The bruises were Fury’s reminders. She wasn’t an agent, not really. She wasn’t free, she was an asset, a weapon, and SHIELD’s property. Just a thing, an object, to be used and thrown away when it wasn’t needed.

    If she had been good, if she had been perfect, he wouldn’t have needed to remind her. She wouldn’t need to hurt.

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    Natasha Romanoff has never known freedom. She has always been somebody else's property: first the Red Room's and now SHIELD's. She was never an agent. She was a weapon. A thing to be owned.

    Natasha Romanoff has spent years as SHIELD’s perfect agent, but perfect came at a price. Every choice and every movement was demanded with perfect obedience, and the truth of her life is more terrifying than anyone could imagine.

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    22 Jul 2026

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    And as for Natasha, this was it. She was laying the kill out for him, neat and nice, might as well have been a bow on top. As she lay on the ground waiting to die at the hands of an American, it occurred to her that it had to be over at some point anyway, so wasn't now a fitting time as ever? Natasha was the one staving off her fear with a fucking daydream. She'd given into a feeling so hopeless that it breached all of her confidence, and that years ago she'd believed was emptied completely from her system. She'd thought Dreykov had drilled it out of her. But clearly, Natasha was lying to herself. She hadn't grown up at all. She was still trying to find something to pray to. Did it console her or terrify her now? Did she have enough time to remember believing in something?

    There she was still, gun to her head, back flat on the floor, arm aching like it had been sawn off, panting like a wet dog in the heat as she noticed that he looked down at her with something far worse than vengeance—pity. She breathed in, and the unsettled feeling slowed down into her. Why was he taking so long?

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    After a mission dredges up buried trauma, Natasha can’t sleep. Each sleepless night pulls her deeper into pain and isolation—until the team steps in, and Clint offers the hope of rest.

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    5 nights Natasha didn't sleep and one night she did.

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    S.H.I.E.L.D: February 2013
    One year had passed since the battle of New York. Natasha, Clint and Steve are all working for SHIELD. After only a few missions together, Fury had quickly discovered that the Black Widow and Captain America made one hell of a team. From that point on, they were sent out together more often than not — the soldier and the spy.
    He’d come to care for her quietly, fiercely, with a steadiness he couldn’t explain. He didn’t know what to call it, didn’t think she would want him to call it anything. But he knew he would walk through fire for her. So when HYDRA threatens to tear down the walls between Natasha and her past, Steve is there.
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    The plot is loosely based on CAWS. Romanogers YAY!!!! Pretty much, Steve and Natasha become closer as they go on missions relating to the discovery of HYDRA's existence (I include the Red Room under HYDRA). Steve sees parts of Natasha she has tried desperately to hide.

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    she was trained to kill before she learned to speak. Raised in the shadows of the Red Room, her name was never hers- only a weapon, a whisper, a warning. Now she's escaped but freedom doesn't mean peace. Not when your past weights as heavy as steel.

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    The plan was to kill the Black Widow, not to bringt her home on a random tuesday like a cat you found on the street. The Plan didn't work out.

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