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"Yes, Neil?" Andrew prods gently. There's little he wouldn't do to make sure Neil gets to experience the simple and gentle childhood neither of them got to have. He would tear cities apart just for—
"Bluey?" Neil requests in a small voice and huge, pleading blue eyes.
Luckily for the cities of South Carolina, Bluey streams on the same service as Aristocats. The Mouse, Andrew thinks, is making a killing from the needs of age-regressed Neil Josten alone.
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23 Jun 2026
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Absolutely amazing, little Neil
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As I see you grow, I love you more by foxkitjosten (starveils)
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
31 Dec 2022
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Neil regresses with his caregiver, Drew, to deal with some of his hurts.
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“Um,” Neil fiddled with the hem of his shirt, trying not to drag his gaze away. “I feel. I’m feeling… small. Little. Can we…” Neil averted his gaze.
“What do you need?” Andrew asked, voice smooth and unwavering. A pillar for Neil to lean on.
“I need,” Neil brought his sleeve to his mouth, nibbling on it. “I need my Drew.”
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Andrew realizing his boyfriend involuntarily regresses to a younger age and how to be gentler with him
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- Part 1 of Regression fics
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23 Jun 2026
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Absolutely amazing, little Neil Josten
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Pinky promise I'll still love your garden even with no flowers by Shakespeare_Is_Gay
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
14 Jan 2026
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"It started out as a silly thing, really. They were walking idly through a store, not looking for anything in particular, when they (he and Andrew) stumbled across the baby section. Neil’s eyes found a baby blanket, just barely noticeable from the corner of his eye. Again, a silly thing, but Neil became drawn to it. Thinking back to his childhood, he couldn’t remember ever having a baby blanket or a stuffed animal of any kind. It shouldn’t have caught his attention, but it did, and he ended up pausing in the middle of the aisle to stare, eyes somehow blank yet swimming with so many emotions. Of course, Andrew caught on, but nothing was done about it. Not the first time, at least, but the third time it happened, Andrew silently grabbed the baby blanket (white with little bears that had little pink bows around their neck), and that was that. So Neil now had a baby blanket."
Title from "Bombs on Monday morning" -- an unreleased Melanie Martinez song
It's a relatively short and easy read :)
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21 Jun 2026
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Age regression little Neil Josten, absolutely amazing
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it’s alright if you wanna come back to me by cyanica
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
23 May 2026
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“How old are you, kid?” Wymack asks.
Nineteen-year-old Neil takes the hand that Andrew isn’t holding and puts his thumb in this mouth. “I don’t know.”
Or Andrew looks after baby!Neil because sometimes brains go brrr.
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After blowing up his Aunt Marge Harry spend the rest of the summer before his Third Year in Diagon Alley. Having heard about Inheritance Test he decided to take one only learns about the betrayals from his friends. Only to find out that what they had done caused even more harm they could imagine.
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What if Neil and Andrew met in California?
What if Neil never went to Millport?
What if Janie didn't make an attempt?
What if Seth still dies after Kathy's interview?
What if Andrew has the phone number of a certain junkie?
A certain junkie that asked Andrew to call if he ever needed anything?Bookmarked by River5
10 Jun 2026
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Absolutely amazing, if you like lifeline you probably will like this
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More Troubles Than Minutes In A Year by way_too_many_fandoms
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
20 Apr 2025
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Neil was supposed to be at the top of his game, everything was looking up for him and the Foxes. So why can't he seem to leave his room?
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Neil opens up too much to Bee, and it has consequences.
Why has talking become so hard now?– Selective mutism
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He'd never hurt Neil in such a visible place until this day, and if whatever had snapped in him drove him to give up the pretense of the picture-perfect Wensninski family, then staying under his roof was not an option anymore for him, not if Neil wanted to live.
He had to run.
Or, where Neil escapes to his coach's place for shelter from Nathan's temper but discovers he wasn't the only one who'd thought to do the same, finding his boyfriend-not-boyfriend and his childhood friend there.
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Neil Josten didn't understand why someone would actively try to harm themselves. Until he did. After spending his entire life running away from death, he suddenly seems to be spiraling down towards it.
His twisted body is slipping in and out of reality and if making himself bleed is the only way to feel real again, is it really that bad?
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Or: where Neil deals with his trauma by biting himself while being completely oblivious to the harm he's putting himself through.
But it's okay cause the foxes are there to help him :]- Language:
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Bookmarked by River5
28 May 2026
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Absolutely amazing, hurt but lots of comfort as well, self harming Neil Josten, suicide attempt
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Neil is feeling unwell. He seeks comfort from Matt.
It was late at night. Neil stood in the kitchen, deep in thought but still with one ear alert for any movement of his roommates. He shifted from foot to foot, hands digging into his sore neck.
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Fics within the universe of "Pinky Promise."
The first work is from Andrew's POV, starting and ending in the same place as "A Liar with a Promise."
The second is from Neil's POV, starting and ending in the same place as "Pinky Promise."
They can be read independently and in whatever order you want.
The third work takes place after the events of "Pinky Promise" and "A Liar with a Promise."- Words:
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“Stop knowing things,” Neil blurts before he can think better of it. He sees Betsy’s lips form a tight line as she tries to hold back a laugh. If it escaped her, he’d probably walk out. But it doesn’t, and so he doesn’t.
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I’ll just say this is I wish you fair well.. by Red_Fox_05
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
29 Mar 2025
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Title based on praying by kesha
A Neil and Aaron fic
(Neil and Aaron talk about their love and hate for their mother because it’s something nobody else understands)
(Warning, no proof read, I was too tired!! I’ll probs read though at some point but if there’s mistakes don’t be afraid to point them out just don’t be a dick)
(One proof read down!! Thanks to the comment that pointed out how much I needed to re read 😂 did not realise it was that bad!! Hope it’s a little cleaner now, probs not perfect but yk!)(ALSO Warning if I got any distances wrong or anything like that please don’t come at me 😭 I’m not from the USA and I literally have no knowledge of anything really!! So if anything’s not right apologies I’m kinda just estimating and using google maps where I can)
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16 May 2026
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Absolutely amazing, Neil and Aaron bonding over their bad mothers
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Waiting (Waiting Drives You Crazy) by neiljostensj0rts
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
28 Apr 2025
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Neil Josten is not built for softness.
Not after a lifetime of running, bruised knuckles, and survival stitched into his skin.
But it turns out wanting something you can't have hurts worse than any hit he's ever taken—and this time, he's not sure he can walk it off. -
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It's the anniversary of Mary's death, and Neil finds comfort in an odd place.
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The worst part of it all was that he had felt so good about this step. He'd thought about it for weeks before he asked and Neil had been receptive.
Now he's staring at scars on Neil that he had only ever seen in a mirror before. Scars that Neil would have told him about if Neil remembered anything about getting them.
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Andrew realizes that Neil was sexually assaulted at the Nest and Neil has no idea.Series
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You have my heart (So don't hurt me) by WitheredCarnelians
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
26 Feb 2026
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"Hi dad, do you have one of those granola-" Kevin noticed Neil at the same time as Neil turned around in a panicked flourish. Neil stiffened at the sight of Kevin, as if he was almost bracing for impact. Kevin's face in turn shifted from surprise, to recognition, to sheer disbelief, to something like solace.
Only one second later,Kevins was running forward and his arms wrapped around Neil in a hug so tight that it looked painful. Kevin was fresh off a growthspurt and had to bend his back to be leveled with Neil, but he didn't seem to mind; his only focus was on the boy he was currently engulfing. Neil was tense for only a moment before hugging back with the same ferocit
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Six months after Mary's death, thirteen year old Neil gets taken in by Kevin's family where he'll maybe learn how to be safe for the first time.
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It's fics like this that let you know the author used to be really into the DreamSMP/j
Title from the song Dreams by the cranberries
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- Part 2 of AFTG Bang Fics
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“He’s joining us earlier than we anticipated.”
“He’s a flight risk. This way there should be no more risk of him getting away from you. I’ve killed his mother. He belongs to you.”
“Six years old and already training in the Raven’s nest. He will be a player that won’t be rivaled.”
Nathaniel lives a hard life in the ravens nest, choosing Jean and Kevin's safety and happiness over his own constantly. Like the martyr he is. Then one day he is given a chance. It's a fools bet, and Nathaniel is unlikely to win it.
But he has one season to take the Foxes to championships and win.
If he doesn't, well.. he doesn't like the other options.
So he makes his own. Win or die.
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- Part 1 of DFDF