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    It’s like they think that Ilya's someone to put up with, rather than someone that Shane wants to spend every waking minute of his life with. Someone that is, in every single fucking way, Shane’s person. Someone that knows exactly how to make him laugh and someone he doesn’t have to hide his quirks from and someone who allows his own asshole side to shine when Shane wants it to.

    Shane loves Ilya, is in love with him. It’s just that Ilya is also his best friend.

    Or, 5 times that Shane gets annoyed by people thinking he's supposed to control Ilya, and 1 time he finally says something about it.

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    25 Jul 2026

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    “You’re Ilya Rozanov, right?” Dimirty walks up to Ilya and holds out his hand with a smile. “Captain, yes?”
    Ilya nods, “Yes.” Did… did Dimitry not recognize him? Was he so old he was becoming like Grigori? A little spark of hope shoots through him. He could do this, he could survive this again. Four months, and then he’d be gone for good. And besides, he’s older now. He’s not a kid, he’s not Dimirty’s type anymore.

    OR

    When LeClaire goes on paternity leave and the new guest coach is brought in, Ilya finds himself facing old traumas and gaining new ones. Ilya thought he’d been able to escape the man who assaulted him and leave his traumas behind for good. Instead, Ilya finds himself in the same predicament he did when he was just a kid in Russia. He thinks no one notices his suffering, but Cliff Marlow does, and so does Scott Hunter. Together, they do their best to protect Ilya from his old coach.

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    22 Jul 2026

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    Shane Hollander has spent the better part of the last five years knocking out hit after hit for the Assassin's Guild and becoming one of the most lethal agents in the business. After a series of unprecedented, wildly successful cases across the country, his boss pulls him off the active case roster for eight months. He's been keeping tabs on the Boston Bratva for years and has finally deemed Shane ready to take out their leader, Morpheus.

    The only problem is that undercover agents have been able to turn up little to no information regarding Morpheus's identity. The only information the Guild has been able to dredge up is the name of one of their business fronts: a sophisticated private nightclub called Nyx, and the name of its director, bratva member Ilya Rozanov.

    or: Ilya is a low ranking member of the Russian mafia and Shane is the assassin hired to kill his boss.

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    22 Jul 2026

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    Shane’s ears turned pink, and he looked mortified. There was a long pause before he finally whispered, “I want a pet.” He was looking somewhere over Ilya’s shoulder rather than meeting his eyes.

    Ilya took a long second to process what he was hearing, unsure if he had misheard the English. “A pet? Like dog? You want a dog?”

    "Not exactly."

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    18 Jul 2026

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    “Go, please,” Ilya begs, his voice shaking like the words don’t want to be spoken.

    Like maybe he would ask Shane to stay, if he could. If he knew how.

    “No.”

    Shane.

    It slips out; he doesn’t mean to say it. Shane can tell from the way Ilya’s face contorts, almost like he’s trying to take it back - like he’s trying to un-say Shane’s name, un-learn the taste of it in his mouth. But it’s out there now, hovering in the space between them. Heavy, despite its fragility.

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    16 Jul 2026

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    Ask Ilya Rozanov and he’d tell you that the only thing worse than being a broke PhD student was being a broke PhD student facing eviction from your Humans Only rent-controlled apartment because you maybe, accidentally got yourself Turned over summer break.

    Cue the Bloodbanker$ app and its allegedly discreet and lucrative arrangements: a whole swipeable nest of generous Vamp4Vamp ‘Donors’ waiting for the perfect fledgling to spoil.

    Seducing an old rich dude with this hot bod? Light work.

    ‘Shane, 30*, O+’ wouldn’t know what hit him.

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    14 Jul 2026

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    It starts with Troy Barrett coming out to Ilya Rozanov.

    Then they start having sleepovers, drinking beer, watching movies, talking about their feelings, and gushing about their crushes (of course, no one can know about that last part).

    Shane is totally fine with Ilya's new friend.
    Fine with them going to gay bars and spending time in each other's hotel rooms.

    So why does he suddenly want to punch Troy Barrett every time Ilya talks about him?

    Or: Shane is jealous because apparently you can’t be gay and not be in love with Ilya Rozanov… so of course Troy Barrett is trying to steal his man.

    Meanwhile Ilya and Troy become cute besties and Hayden needs a break…

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    14 Jul 2026

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    “Oh shit.”

    Shane looked up, turned his head to where J.J. was sat across the aisle. The blue glow of his phone lit up the too-wide whites of his eyes staring down intently at whatever was on his screen. Shane’s stomach lurched again, anticipating a sudden stop his body hadn’t quite caught up to yet.

    “The Centaurs’ plane crashed in Tampa.”

    There was a moment where everything was still moving, where Shane and the world were still spinning at the same speed they both always had, and then it all came crashing down. Shane wasn’t sure whether it was him that had stopped, or the world around him, but either way, in a matter of seconds the distance between himself and the bus he had only a moment ago been sitting in became staggeringly, dizzyingly vast.

     

    The Centaur's emergency landing plays out a little bit worse, and Shane is left with the harsh reality of the cost of loving Ilya in secret.

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    12 Jul 2026

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    Maybe together they could figure out a way to make sure Ilya was never afraid of David again. He really didn’t want to be afraid of David.

    “Is… silly.” Ilya said. “Maybe not silly, but now that we are here and not there, I see it was silly. I broke the wine, and I thought - maybe everyone will be angry. And…” Clearing his throat, Ilya pushed past his discomfort to spit out the next part. “Well, angry back in Russia is not the same as angry here, I think.”

    “What was angry like back in Russia?”

    OR

    Ilya drops a bottle of wine, and it's fine. Really, it's fine. If only someone could tell Ilya's brain that.

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    12 Jul 2026

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    11 Jul 2026

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    When in the 20/21 season Shane is forced to come out, Ilya is not far behind him.
    Twitter sees this as a chance to get the two rivals together, with help from their teammates.

    Except they’re already in a relationship, unbeknownst to everyone.

     

    (Hayden already knows like in the original timeline)

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    11 Jul 2026

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    “We’re so sorry, Mr. Hollander, Mr. Rozanov, we’ve called for the technician, and he’s working on getting the two of you out of there now,” the frazzled voice of the hotel manager comes through the speaker, all staticky.

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    It’s All-Star week 2017, and Shane and Ilya find themselves stuck in an elevator together, alone for the first time since Shane left Ilya in his Boston home.

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    10 Jul 2026

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    10 Jul 2026

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    The first sound Ilya hears is a thin, discordant symphony of beeps and whirs. Something vibrating. 

    The next thing he hears is…wet. A sort of shaking, gargling sound, that feels like the ugliest crying he’s ever heard. And through it, Shane’s voice. 

    “I’m with him now, mom. He’s— he’s not fine. He’s not. I know—”

    Ilya wants to ask who's not fine, but he can’t feel his own body, his mouth, enough to ask.

    “Yeah,” Shane is saying, only slightly calmer. “I know. He wasn’t breathing—"

    Ilya knows there's a link, between the clinical musicality of medical settings, Shane’s audible, awful distress, and his own physical incapacity. It’s just, it’s so tenuous, and the air around him is so thick, so heavy. It would be easy, to sleep, a little. 

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    Footage of the last game between Ottawa and Montreal is everywhere; it’s breached containment from the sports world, and now it seems like everyone is baying for Montreal’s blood. Except, Ilya is oblivious. Not exactly blissfully so, but as the fight for accountability within the league rages on without him, Ilya just wants someone, anyone, to tell him what happened.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    Ilya knew Shane would taste good.

    He just hadn’t known it would feel like this.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    Yuna can’t help it. There’s just something about Ilya Rozanov that rubs her the wrong way.

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    01 Jul 2026

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    “So we meet again,” Ilya shouts, a lazy grin on his face as he peers at Shane from the Ottawa penalty box.

    Shane glares back from Montreal’s penalty box, deadpan look on his face. He’s still fuming—angry that he got called for a practically non-existent penalty, angry that Ilya called for the same stupid penalty, and angrier that they’re both sitting out for the next two minutes of play because of it.

    At least Ilya doesn’t seem too phased by it. In fact, he seems to be enjoying himself.

    “You come here often?” Ilya asks in a flirtatious tone.

    Shane snorts, shaking his head. “Not that often. But I heard you’re here a lot.”

    Ilya spreads his arms. “Ah, but the penalty box is always better when you’re in yours, too. You always look so cute in there. Like a wet kitten.”

    or: five times Shane and Ilya end up in their respective penalty boxes at the same time while playing against each other, plus one time they end up sharing one as teammates.

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    01 Jul 2026

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    Ilya turned toward Shane and held the camera up, centering the view lens on his own eye. Framed in a perfect square, Shane smiled back at him gently, his face full of love. The camera softened him around the edges, lighting him in an ethereal glow, blush spreading across his cheeks. Tousling his hair, unbuttoning his shirt, making him beg…
    Ilya put the camera down, his face hot. “Yes, I will purchase this one, please.”
    - OR -
    Ilya purchases a Polaroid camera. Shane rails him about it.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    Hi Ilya,

    My name is Shane! I don’t speak Russian, I hope that’s okay. I’m also 25 years old and I love hockey too! So we have some things in common.

    I’ve never written an inmate before. I don’t really know why I’m doing this. I guess I’m lonely. I’m not very good at making friends or dating. I think maybe I can be a bit awkward in person, but I’m good at writing. So I hope that’s okay.

    or Shane Hollander finds Ilya Rozanov on WriteAPrisoner.com and sends him an email.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    “Two losses in a row,” Bood shook his head. “That must be a new record for the great Shane Hollander.”

    Shane snorted. “Yeah. I have it in our Prenup actually that if we lose three games in a row I get to divorce Ilya and keep everything. So if we lose against Detroit, I’m filing for divorce.”

    The team surrounding Shane burst into laughter and continued on with their post game routine, removing gear and taking showers. While Ilya’s world silently fell apart.

    Or, Ilya hears Shane joking about divorce and takes it seriously. He does not handle it well.

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    29 Jun 2026

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