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reflections by ffantastic
Fandoms: とんがり帽子のアトリエ | Tongari Boushi no Atelier | Witch Hat Atelier (Manga)
13 Feb 2025
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“Close your eyes,” Coco said, so quietly it was almost a whisper.
Behind her shut eyelids, every sound and feeling magnified as Coco brushed her remaining un-cut hair to the front. The comb’s teeth on her scalp. Coco's breath, so close. And this, too: How quiet she was, as if waiting for something.
Snip . The first part of her bangs fell to the floor.
“Can I tell you something, too?” Coco said, almost too quietly to make out.
“Sure.”
Anything, she didn't add. Please tell me anything.
Agott doesn't recognize herself in the mirror anymore, but Coco is there to help.
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23 Jun 2026
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Personne Sait Comment On Fait Des Papas by kindofhaunted
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
12 May 2026
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“Alexei, I fucking told you to never call me again, you fucking piece of—”
“Am I speaking with Ilya Grigorievich Rozanov?”
Ilya went silent immediately. That was not his brother’s voice. Nor was it Katia’s, his sister-in-law. It was an aristocratic, cold voice. He went completely still.
“Yes.”
“I’m calling from the Child Services Department, Ilya Grigorievich,” the woman continued, and Ilya frowned deeply. “Your brother Alexei Rozanov and his wife died yesterday in a car accident.”
Twice in his life, Ilya had felt like this. The ice around his heart melted just enough for the numbness to vanish and give way to a sharp, stinging pain. It lasted only two seconds before he managed to compose himself. He didn’t want to feel anything for Alexei, so even if Katia’s death carried a trace of sadness—she was a mess, but she always tried to smile at him and cook warm meals for him when he visited Russia—, he dismissed the feeling entirely.
“So what?”
“You are the only living family member of their daughter. Your brother named you as her legal guardian, Ilya Grigorievich.”
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07 Jun 2026
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“Sometimes I think that… only you understand how I feel.”
“Do I? I’m not so sure. I keep hurting you. I-”
“What I did hurt you too, didn’t it? None of it is your fault, Mizi. You don’t have to be afraid. That’s not what I want.” Sua pauses, like she isn’t sure how to word it. She seems frustrated. Communication has never been their strongest, even now. She blurts out, “I- I want you to touch me.”
“… You want me to? Right now?” Mizi asks softly, trying to mask all the uncertainties welling up inside her. She’s afraid of hurting Sua again. Afraid of making another mistake.
Or: after they are saved by the rebellion, a clingy desperate Sua longs for an equally clingy desperate Mizi. Neither of them know how to handle it.
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Once outside, he leaned forward and put his hand against the cold stone wall. His phone was still to his ear, the message still recording.
“Ilya. Please. Please. I can’t do this. I don’t know what to do. Please. You can’t be dead.” His voice broke on the word. “I love you. I love you so much. More than anything. I need to hear your voice. I need you to…I need you…I need you…fuck. Please Ilya, please.”
Shane took the phone away from his ear and held it between both hands as though he were praying. He realized he was on the floor and didn’t know how he got there. He was crying. He was fairly certain he was hyperventilating.
His brain was desperately trying to grab at anything. Any thread of logic. Any idea of what to do next.
I have to see him.
Yes. That made sense. Shane needed to get to Tampa. Now. He would go there. He would find Ilya. Ilya would be fine. They would be together. He would see him. Tell him how much he loved him. He had to go. He had to go now.
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OR: What if Ilya lost his phone during the emergency landing, Shane couldn't reach him, he panicked, and chartered a plane to Tampa to find him instead...
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25 May 2026
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Before It Gets Too Loud by cjr2
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
26 Feb 2026
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Ilya realized that he had two choices, and neither of them was very good. He could let his teammates believe he was a controlling asshole of a husband, or he could talk to them about things that Shane would probably prefer to keep to himself. He knew how private his husband was, how much time he’d spent cultivating a very particular image of himself to the world. An image of himself that only Ilya and a few other people were ever able to see behind.
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Wyatt Hayes and the rest of the Ottawa Centaurs find out that Shane Hollander isn’t exactly what they’d imagined.
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22 May 2026
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These Little Wonders by empressoftheclouds
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
14 May 2026
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In the beginning, suggesting Ilya move to Ottawa seemed to be a bridge over a previously unpassable body of water. It felt like a lifeline, a breath of air after drowning for years upon years. Maybe it was, at first. Shane got to have it all, everything he wanted. But despite his willingness to go along with whatever Shane wants, he can tell it’s been weighing on Ilya. He’d given up everything, and Shane can feel how lonely he is. He can see his bright eyes dimming, his laugh growing hollow; he’s withering away while Shane is emptying everything he has into a sport that can never love him back the way Ilya does.
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Two years after Ilya moves to Ottawa, Shane decides he's worth more than anything Montreal can give him. He won't let Ilya be the only one who makes sacrifices for their relationship. But he doesn't know that Ilya has been struggling, secretly and in silence. And now the only question is if Shane is too late.
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An alternative version of Shane changing teams and deciding to move to Ottawa willingly, on his own accord, without being outed. He and Ilya are honest with each other - but not before a bit of angst ensues.
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16 May 2026
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there's an endless road to rediscover by isnt_that_wizard
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 Jan 2026
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Hayden hated the guy. Hated him.
Hated his stupid, smug smirk and the myriad of insults he threw Hayden’s way and the way he made fun of Shane like it was a funny game then looked him up and down like a piece of meat and his reputation of sleeping with everything that fucking moved and the memories of being slammed into the boards by him and quite literally everything about this Russian dickhead.
And he hated that he was now going to have to do everything in his power to learn how to tolerate Rozanov because Shane was inexplicably and hopelessly in love with him, and Shane was his brother in every fucking thing but blood, and Hayden was not going to keep being responsible for that sad puppy look on his face every time he realized how poorly they got along.
So far, Hayden sucked at it. Big time.
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It bothers Shane that Hayden and Ilya don't get along, so Hayden is putting in the effort to try and see these redeeming qualities Shane claims the guy has. Over the years it becomes easier and easier, until one day, he realizes he doesn't have to actually try anymore.
or, 5 times Hayden realized he was starting to tolerate Ilya + 1 time they acknowledged they were actually friends now
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16 May 2026
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the way that i love you (is the way that you taught me) by jellyrose222
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
04 Feb 2026
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Shane doesn’t like to ask for what he needs, but when Ilya is around, he doesn’t have to.
or five times Ilya fixes it without making Shane feel bad, and one time he doesn’t.
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09 May 2026
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this is not enough (i am not enough) by blankjournals
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
08 Jan 2026
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Shane's breath catches on a sob, and he muffles the sound with his hand. Everything feels like too much. He’s naked, and he can feel entirely too much on his body, inside his body, and he hates how it's starting to feel gross. His head is pounding, and he can't even focus on placating his mind when his lungs are also screaming in his throat for breath.
Ilya hears, and his hands reach out to hold Shane, tension lying in every part of his body. “Shane—”
“Don't touch me,” Shane snaps, more desperation than yelling as he rips his arm out of Ilyas's grasp. His tears have nowhere to go now, and they finally spill over, hot and humiliating, down his cheeks.
Ilya freezes in place, hand hovering mid-air. A myriad of emotions flicker across his face: confusion, hurt, fear. Ilya takes an unconscious step back like someone shoved him. His body curls in on itself, trying to make himself appear smaller.
He looks... terrified. Like, Shane just called him a monster, and he believes it.
OR: inspired by the fight in the long game when ilya had told shane he could have sex with other men because he did not believe in cheating.
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- Part 2 of missing scenes from TLG 📖
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27 Apr 2026
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Wolfbird by OpalApparition
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
28 Apr 2026
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Shane Hollander is hockey’s closeted golden boy with everything to hide. Ilya Rozanov is a professional Dom with everything to lose and an expired visa.
Through their arrangement at a discreet Montreal kink bar, where NDAs protect secrets and sessions are charged per hour, they discover the most dangerous thing isn’t being caught—it’s wanting more than those hours allow.
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19 Apr 2026
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18 Apr 2026
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shane gets sick before a game against boston... looks like he wont be seeing ilya later (unless???) ft. ilya bringing shane russian food
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He hadn’t told Rozanov, why would he? They’d exchanged their usual quips in the days leading up to the game, riffing about who would win, how many goals they’d score. But underlying it all was the knowledge that they’d end the night in each other’s arms. Shane refused to admit it, but that might have been part of the reason he was so determined not to get sick. If it was any other game, any other team… It had been four months since he’d seen Rozanov. Four months of convincing himself he would finally end it, while simultaneously counting down the days until they would see each other again-- until this game. A game Shane would not be attending.- Language:
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19 Apr 2026
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Shane’s heart drops into his stomach. “Ilya,” he breathes. His vision goes blurry, throat tight. He tries to swallow it down and focus, shove his swirling thoughts into a neat little box, but it’s impossible. He feels—he might throw up, actually. “Are you seriously telling me you tried to fucking kill yourself?”
“Yes,” Ilya agrees blandly, “It did not work.”
Ilya calls Shane from the hospital. Shane handles it very normally.
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19 Apr 2026
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Please don't leave (I won't ever) by 17darwinism
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
01 Mar 2026
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“What did you actually think?”
He can’t help it. He looks at Ilya. Ilya only stares at him. “I say that now, in hindsight. Back then, I wasn’t thinking. Not really. It would come to me in waves, the anxiety, the fear. Most of the time,” he says. “I was just…”
“Waiting for me to speak?” Ilya offers.
Shane shakes his head, “I was trying to make it to tomorrow with you alive.”
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Ilya and Shane work to find themselves, and each other, again after Ilya's suicide attempt.Series
- Part 2 of Please, God, I'm finally loved
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19 Apr 2026
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Hunter had calmly awaited Ms. Noceda’s instruction. It made sense that she hadn’t made any demands the first few days, it was clear that they were all in shock and needed time to process before any of them could be trusted to successfully carry out any task, no matter how simple. But this was day five, and though none of them were doing particularly well, they were coming back around. The thousand-yard stares and silence that had cloaked them those first awful nights had fallen away into something less shell-shocked. And yet, Ms. Noceda had not told any of them what they were supposed to be doing.
Because they had to have been expected to be doing something. Hunter was not naive. Ms. Noceda’s assurance that they were all welcome in her home was a kind gesture, but kindness was not given without being earned.
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Hunter thinks he has to work to earn Camila's kindness. Too bad he can't figure out what she wants.Series
- Part 2 of Different (but not bad)
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14 Apr 2026
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Living with the Noceda's is different from life in the emperor's coven. Hunter learns that that's not such a bad thing.
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14 Apr 2026
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“Mom said you used to have a lot of flashbacks.”
“Uh—” Mark choked. He flipped too far and started turning pages back.
“Is it because of Dad?”
He looked up. “What? How did you know?”
Oliver shrugged, picking at the edge of the hotel duvet. “You only ever seem scared when you talk about him.”
A family vacation leads to some unintended brotherly bonding.
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03 Apr 2026
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Such a Pretty Crier by Bruja_oscura
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Dec 2025
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Shane is still learning that he doesn't have to be perfect in his own relationship. Ilya is still learning the rules of Shane's bad days. So when Shane tries to push him away after a crushing loss, it leads to a tense argument. But ten years of rivalry are no match for Shane’s tears; the second he starts to cry, Ilya folds like a house of cards.
Or: Shane tries to starve himself as punishment for losing, Ilya tries to feed him, and it turns into a very soft night of pampering because Ilya is legally incapable of staying angry at a crying Shane.
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03 Apr 2026
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batteries not included by insatiablegaydesire
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
21 Feb 2026
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They’re in Boston on Ilya’s couch when it happens. They’ve lapsed into a comfortable silence, a muted game on in the background, Ilya’s head in Shane’s lap and Shane’s fingers in his hair. Ten minutes ago, they were tugging and twisting and curling; four minutes ago, they grew slow and tepid. When they go entirely still, Ilya turns in his lap to look up at him, ready to chirp him for falling asleep, but his breath catches in his throat at what he finds instead. Shane is not asleep, but he is not awake either.
While visiting his boyfriend, Shane has a verbal shutdown in front of a woefully-unprepared Ilya for the first time.
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23 Mar 2026
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Candy Apple hates what her Master has become ever since he moved into the Vanilla Kingdom, so she tries (re)gaining his attention with a love potion. She didn't think she'd accidentally make him fall for Pure Vanilla harder.
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23 Mar 2026