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    Six months ago, Shane’s intimate conversation and break-up with Rose Landry was recorded and leaked. In those six months, his life had completely upended and everything had changed, for better or for worse. Except for Ilya. He still has Ilya, and he’s beginning to understand that he always will.

    It’s 2018. Shane Hollander has to figure out his new life, in a new city, on a new team, while being out to the world but not by his own choice. Ilya, along for the ride, also has to learn what it means to be connected to a place, to a person, and to his own inner truth.

    (Sequel to “something you can fix,” set post-Heated Rivalry, pre-The Long Game)

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    Chapters:
    13/13
    Collections:
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    Comments:
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    16 Jun 2026

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    My heart

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    We Dem Boyz
    Vaughny added J.J, and unknown number.

    Vaughny: Fellas, I just spoke with the rookie in Ottawa, Boodram, and we realized there is no safe space in the league for minorities for us. I would make a big group chat, but I think the four of us is good enough.
    J.J: Ahhh, shit. Sounds good to me. Welcome to hell – I mean welcome to MHL Boodram!
    Vaughny: No, you were right J.J. Welcome to hell.
    Boodram: 😂😂. Thanks guys. I appreciate it.
    Shane: Yes welcome!
    Shane: Also, what does the name of the chat mean?
    J.J: Ahhh Captaine….

    Or Carter Vaughn creates a group chat with Shane, J.J and Zane and they become each other's support system.

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    Chapters:
    18/?
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    07 Jun 2026

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    Assigned reading for all heated rivalry people. Yous got to acknowledge the black player experience

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    Eleven years ago, a total psychopath walked into a bar, onto a wharf, and all over Captain Shane Hollander’s life. And then he did it again, and again.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
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    Comments:
    196
    Kudos:
    577
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    Hits:
    8,893

    10 May 2026

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    Ilya was nineteen when he moved to the US. Nineteen years of Russia. Over half a decade of Russian summers after that to re-up. His brain, Shane knew, operated in Russian.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
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    Kudos:
    781
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    3,813

    09 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander has chemistry with his new American linemate. Montreal fans are thrilled. Ilya Rozanov is not.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    633
    Kudos:
    20,140
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    169,773

    29 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander is a man who thrives on structure, routine, the solid ground of a ten-year plan. Ilya likes that about him, likes the embracing squeeze of having a life organized in tandem with Shane.

    No one would call Ilya a man who thrives on structure. But it’s there, if not in his DNA then in the patterns of his brain. A call-and-response of: they do this, I do that.

    When Ilya’s life is flayed open for the world to dissect, how will they push-and-pull their way back towards what was once a well-organized life?


    “I thought we could go through the schedules and figure out what days we’ll be in the same cities this season, or when either of us have a couple of days off in a row. Maybe make a shared calendar, so we c—”

    “A sex calendar? Your parents are arriving in thirty minutes, and you are proposing making a sex calendar?” Oh, this was delicious. He’d be able to eat out on this for years, if Shane was willing to give him that long.

    “It’s not a sex calendar! It’s just … when we might be able to see each other,” he finished, already sounding defeated.

    “And what are you planning on doing when we are seeing each other? Not fucking?”

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    Chapters:
    7/7
    Collections:
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    19 Apr 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    This
    Is
    Balm
    For
    My
    Soul

    Prescription: come back when ever you need hope or love or have the negative self talk or want to laugh. Just come back, time and time again

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    It’s not going viral because Jane’s true identity was exposed—or even because Ilya was blatantly sexting in public. That part’s as expected as Shane doing yoga or any human being on earth breathing.

    No, the texts are going viral because no one can believe how bad this “Jane” is at sexting.

    The women of the world are outraged. The men of the world are baffled. No one can understand why Ilya Rozanov, whose abs have their own fan club, is wasting his time on ‘a piece of cardboard that wished to be turned into a real girl’ (this particular joke has 300k likes and counting).

    Or: After a social media trend mocks Shane's sexting skills, he tries to improve them. It goes about as poorly as you'd expect.

    Now available in Russian

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    18 Apr 2026

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    Chirping as foreplay my beloved

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    “-can’t see each other again,” Ilya says, looking only at Shane’s hand, holding it so, so gently and stroking over Shane’s skin so, so softly. The soothing feeling of it makes it very hard to focus, but Shane tries very hard to do it anyway. “I tried-we tried, but this can’t happen again.” It takes a moment, but Shane finally manages to make sense of the words, and he lets out a soft noise of understanding.

    Ah. He’s apologizing that he won’t be able to see Shane in the hospital again before he leaves.

    “I understand,” he says, and he does. It was probably really hard for Ilya to get here even once, and it can’t be very long before his plane leaves. He’s sad, of course–they didn’t even get to spend time together, really–but it’s not like this will be the last chance they ever have to see each other. He gives Ilya his best attempt at a smile, and if it comes out a little sad, too, all Ilya does is reach out to stroke the backs of his fingers gently over his cheek.

    (ilya goes through with his plan to break up with shane in the hospital) (the problem? shane is too high to understand that he's being broken up with)

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
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    12 Apr 2026

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    They’re seventeen and they’re forty-five and they’re every age in between, and Ilya isn’t sure if he believes in fate – not quite – but there isn’t a single moment from the past three decades that hasn’t felt like it’s been ushering him quietly towards some form of destiny.

    There are other ways to die, beyond the physical; slowly and agonizingly, locking the truth away until it’s indistinguishable from the lies. And there are other ways to live; slowly and carefully and secretly, and then out loud, all at once.

    Or: love between the lines, glimpses of the moments spent in secret before the arrival of the abstract ‘some day’. Five times Shane and Ilya hid themselves from the world, and one time they didn’t have to.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
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    02 Apr 2026

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    Til forever with you

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    “Am I a bad friend?”

    Hayden has always been the guy Shane joked with, the guy he trusted to feed him without mocking him, the guy he roomed with on the road, and Shane is the only man who has ever seen Hayden cry, and Hayden loves Shane. He fucking loves him. They are like brothers, and they have been for almost ten fucking years. He’s always been Shane’s guy, Shane’s best friend.

    Except all along, maybe that wasn’t true. Ilya Rozanov, apparently, had been the guy. Before Hayden had ever met Shane, Ilya Rozanov had been there. And Hayden had never even noticed.

    Shane is all over every inch of Hayden’s life. Hayden thought that was reciprocal.
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    “You know I think about you all the time,
    And my deep misunderstanding of your life,
    And how bad it must have been for you back then,
    And how hard it was to keep it all inside.”

    Language:
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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
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    11,931
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    67,098

    02 Apr 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Holy shit, maximum feels, incredible

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    The problem is, no one knows how to market Ilya Rozanov's (in his own words) sexy Euro masculinity to an audience of white straight men.

    He needs the best. And if it happens to be his secret lover’s mother who despises his very existence, so be it.


    +16319607169

    See? That is what I need. Do not care that you are not professional. You are best
    This is Ilya Rozanov

    Yuna

    This is a fucking joke, right?

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    Language:
    English
    Words:
    13,908
    Chapters:
    2/2
    Collections:
    23
    Comments:
    2,696
    Kudos:
    22,153
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    106,737

    01 Apr 2026

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    Ilya makes Yuna his marketing manager and his friend I love them

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    Ilya doesn’t even realize when Arthur slips from his thoughts. There’s no sharp turn, no clear moment where the article stops being about a little boy who loves reptiles and starts being about the man lying beside him in bed. It just… happens. The way his mind always seems to find Shane eventually, like water finding its lowest point.

    a character study on shane’s undiagnosed autism

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    974
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    26,666
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    194,186

    31 Mar 2026

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    😭 tism being supported instead of annoying people 😭 autism positive

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    Someone’s posted a shaky video from the stands, just behind the whole altercation. It’s close enough to catch the snarl on Rozanov’s face as he charges up the steps. He’s so pretty, Shane thinks faintly. The video starts too late to show what set him off, but it catches the tail end of what the man is yelling, the things he's saying about Shane, before pivoting to calling Rozanov a cunt and bitch and a pussy instead.

    Rozanov drops his gloves for Shane. He wishes he could just be grateful, but it feels a little bit like the end of the world.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
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    1,176
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    31,244

    30 Mar 2026

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    When Shane was born an ocean away from her homeland, Yuna Hollander, who did not pray, whispered into the world: Let every door open for him, my son.

    OR: Yuna Hollander learns to appreciate Ilya Rozanov, one step at a time.

    Language:
    English
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    11,235
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
    5
    Comments:
    467
    Kudos:
    8,090
    Bookmarks:
    1,984
    Hits:
    53,035

    30 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    feeeeeeels

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    “Shane Hollander’s having a big gay wedding.”
    Ilya’s ball rocketed sideways into the woods with a crack like a rifle shot; somewhere in the trees, a goose honked in outrage.
    “Jesus Christ,” Tyler said.
    “Wow,” Marly said. “That was…what the fuck was that, Roz?”
    Ilya was gripping the club so hard his knuckles had gone white. “Bad swing.”
    “That wasn’t a bad swing, that was like a physics-defying swing. I didn’t know you could make a ball go in that direction. You okay?”
    “Fine.” Hollander was getting married. Getting gay married. Who the fuck was Hollander marrying? He wasn’t even… Ilya cleared his throat, shoved his biggest club back in the bag, noted distantly that his hands were shaking. “Hollander is gay?”

    OR: Ten years after the Tampa Bay All-Star Game, Ilya Rozanov crashes Shane Hollander's wedding

    Language:
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    Chapters:
    8/8
    Comments:
    2,587
    Kudos:
    11,099
    Bookmarks:
    3,993
    Hits:
    164,300

    28 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Aching, crying, feeling

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    There was nothing standard about Shane and Ilya's relationship, so it really shouldn't have been so surprising that they had their first date over a decade after meeting each other.

    It also shouldn't be surprising that it took roughly five minutes before it turned into a competition.

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    Words:
    15,122
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    1,065
    Kudos:
    12,229
    Bookmarks:
    3,840
    Hits:
    139,588

    28 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    This is perfection

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    Ilya tucked his smile against Shane’s neck and brought his hand down Shane’s front. “He used to be so boring,” he said to Hunter. “Would not let me fuck him because you were next door.”

    Shane groaned. “You’re such an asshole—that was a long time ago,” he said. “I was trying to be discreet.”

    “Yes, and now look at you,” Ilya said. “Go suck Hunter’s dick.”

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    312
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    Hits:
    26,970

    27 Mar 2026

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    The hot mic incident was just the beginning.

    Now the internet watches in real-time as Ilya’s Spotify playlist gets leaked (with NOTES), Shane attempts subtlety (narrator: he fails), they bicker about boy bands on late night TV, someone admits to having a ring for six months ON TWITTER, and approximately 20 different social media platforms collectively lose their goddamn minds.

    Featuring: journalists having breakdowns, Reddit threads that require moderator intervention, TikTok compilations with 1.2M views, brand partnerships from Skittles, a plague of engagement speculation, and two hockey players who cannot stop being chaotic disasters on main.

    The fandom was writing fic about them. Turns out reality is messier, queerer, and somehow MORE unhinged.

    [or social media reacts to the week following the Hot Mic Incident™, told entirely through tweets, Reddit posts, Instagram stories, podcast transcripts, and the world’s most romantic Spotify playlist]

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    English
    Words:
    11,067
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    701
    Kudos:
    18,386
    Bookmarks:
    2,440
    Hits:
    160,423

    25 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Wish fulfillment in that if the world was 39% more chill and less homophobic that our chaos king can be his true self to the world

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    “You wrote about us having sex while Hayden watches!”

    “Fictional us,” Ilya corrects. “Real us would never do that. Probably.” He pauses. “Unless …”

    “No!”

    Ilya Rozanov has always been competitive. But when his husband’s best friend starts calling a little too often, Ilya discovers a new arena for dominance: Archive of Our Own.

    Armed with a pseudonym that fools absolutely no one, explicit tags that would make a sailor blush, and a truly impressive commitment to pettiness, Ilya wages psychological warfare one kudos at a time. His weapon of choice? Extremely detailed fanfiction about why Hayden Pike will never, ever measure up.

    The problem? Hayden writes back.

    What follows is the most unhinged rivalry in hockey history: a battle fought not with fists or slapshots, but with comment sections, kudos, and increasingly creative ways to humiliate each other in front of thousands of readers. Featuring: footnoted statistics, educational sex advice, one very concerned wife, and Shane Hollander wondering what the hell he did to deserve this.

    Language:
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    Words:
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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    441
    Kudos:
    7,928
    Bookmarks:
    1,388
    Hits:
    45,620

    25 Mar 2026

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    TEEEHEEE YES

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    It had been a very weird day, but Shane wasn’t going to jerk off about it a second time.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    612
    Kudos:
    4,121
    Bookmarks:
    710
    Hits:
    34,267

    21 Mar 2026

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