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    Shane and Jackie die. Ilya and Hayden become friends.

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    1988: Uther Pendragon moves to the little town of Ealdor with his little boy, Arthur, and his wife, Ygraine du Bois.

    1999: Arthur Pendragon is found wandering the streets calling out for his friend, Merlin. He turns in his father, Uther Pendragon, and claims that Uther killed Merlin.

    2009: The zombie apocalypse. Merlin's come back, and nothing is the same.

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    Arthur is going mad, as his father before him. There is no other explanation as to why, randomly, when he is alone, he will start seeing a small white dragon hell-bent on stealing Excalibur from him.

    Or is he?

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    18 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 24

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    Ilya is married. He is married to Shane and has Shane in their bed and their house every day. He has Shane as a part of his life more fully than he ever has. People know about them. He holds Shane's hand in the grocery store without Shane pulling away. They are on the same team, getting ready to share the ice for a whole season.

    Ilya has everything he'd been longing for over the past four years. Maybe longer. Probably longer.

    Ilya has a hole in his chest. The edges push aside his heart and lungs, digging up under his ribs so everything feels tight and cramped while the core of his being vacillates between aching and emptiness.

    In which Ilya collects pills, distracts Shane, and has a great time doing it.

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    17 Jun 2026

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    Marlow: UHHHH
    Connors: GOOD LORD
    Carmichael: WHAT THE HELL CAP?
    Ilya: Oops
    Ilya: Wrong chat
    Ilya: Obviously
    Ilya: You’re welcome though 😏

    Or: A handful of times Shane and Ilya accidentally send sexts to a group chat, +1 time they sext in a group chat on purpose

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    17 Jun 2026

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    Never mind the next two weeks, the next eight hours stretched endlessly in front of him. He had no idea how to occupy his time. His house was basically empty, which sounded sad but was really a good thing, evidence he’d built himself the life he wanted – where he always had something to do, outside and with other people. Ilya had been restless for as long as he could remember, had never been able to sit still. He’d gotten in trouble for it as a kid at the dinner table and he got in trouble for it as a full grown man on the team bus. He’d gotten in trouble for it when the doctors had been trying to take the x-ray, his leg jumping without his permission.

    Ilya gets injured, stops leaving the house, loses his mind, learns to read tarot, and sends Shane Hollander a lot of photos.

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    16 Jun 2026

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    Something churns across Luca’s expression. It’s schooled away a moment later; Luca stares a little blankly at them for a brief moment before he shifts, getting off Shane’s lap, stepping back. “I need to go,” he says. He fishes visibly for an excuse. He settles on: “I’m not feeling well.”

    Ilya opens his mouth, and then closes it. “You’re not feeling well?”

    “Headache,” Luca says. He steps back again. “I’m sorry.”

    “Luca,” Shane tries.

     

    or: mix tuna melt and ‘will you come with me to the cottage’ in a bowl and make it hollanovaas

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    15 Jun 2026