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The conversation moves on. Buck orders another shot and laughs on cue and remains silent. He might as well be invisible. Nobody has asked him a question in forty-five minutes—
“So, what do you do?” The Hot Priest turns to Buck, gentle brown eyes filled with curiosity. The table falls silent.
“Uh–” Buck stammers, disarmed, “I run a store. Or, well–a coffee shop. A cafe.”
“Cool,” he says like he means it, and Buck kind of believes he does.
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Or, the Fleabag au.
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Eddie heard a shout from somewhere in the street below. Neither of them moved. It was a small aftershock. They weren't going to die.
But it felt like it, a little. Death had always been right around the corner, but now it was in the house. Sitting on the couch. Eating their cereal. They weren't going to die but maybe they were.
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“Okay, Uh—“ he racks his brain for something else Buck has done that he hasn’t. “Never have I ever kissed a man.” Buck doesn't put his finger down, just cocks his head curiously.
“Damn, six months without even a kiss, no wonder Tommy left.” Eddie mutters half under his breath. It causes Buck to snap out of his daze and give him a half-hearted middle finger. He’s still thinking, though, eyebrows scrunched together in that adorable way they used to whenever he tried to help Chris with his elementary school math homework. “What, Buck?”
“Never?” Buck asks.
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Eddie doesn’t love him back. Buck would know by now—he's been out for almost a year, broken up with Tommy for months, and—radio silence. Eddie has been finding joy, going after what he wants. He would have gone after Buck by now.
So Eddie is straight, and he doesn't love Buck. And maybe Buck loves Eddie but—it's okay. Nothing has to change.
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"Night, Buck.” Eddie whispers into the darkness. He listens to Buck’s breathing even out, feels his own eyelids get heavy. And maybe it's the lingering tequila in his blood, or maybe it’s the exhaustion tearing down all his walls of shoulds and shouldn’ts. Either way, he barely even thinks. He just rolls over and drapes a heavy arm across Buck's waist, like it’s muscle memory. The front of his knees press into the back of Buck's, and his nose brushes against the soft skin of his neck. Buck sighs and practically melts in his arms, and before he knows it, Eddie’s falling asleep faster than he has in years.
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Or, five times Buck and Eddie cuddle drunk and one time they cuddle sober.
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“So let me get this straight,” Hen says, once she’s stopped laughing at him. “Your nerd crush-”
“-Evan Buckley,” Eddie miserably interjects.
“Your nerd crush,” Hen repeats, waggling her eyebrows. At the kitchen table beside her, Chimney is grinning like Christmas just came early. “Read your drunk tweet and then sent you animal facts via DM?”
or: Buck's a zoologist. Eddie's pretty sure he's in love.
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listen to you breathe the evening glow by foxwatson for WheelsUpIn_Five
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09 Jul 2022
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He presses his thumb right against Buck’s pulse, feels it under his fingers, and exhales, slowly.
“Your nightmare…” Buck says quietly.
“Was about you,” Eddie confirms, looking down at Buck’s hand, instead of his eyes. “It happens, sometimes.”
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“Oh no, we’re not doing this.” Chimney pops a bubble with the gum he’s been chewing as he moves one of his fingers back and forth to point between The-Man-who-isn’t-Buck’s-man-he’s-just-The-Man and Buck. “You didn’t drag me to the gym just so you can ditch me to fuck some guy in the showers."
Buck lowers his voice, leaning forward as if trying to make the words’s journey shorter between him and Chimney so they can’t escape and reach anyone else’s ears,“I wouldn’t fuck him in the showers.”
Chimney’s response is wordless in the form of an eyebrow raise.
“Not anymore, okay?” Buck clarifies, rolling his eyes. “That’s not who I am now."
(spoiler alert: Buck does fuck the guy in the showers. but that comes after nicknaming him Big Beautiful Brown Eyes, finding out his name is actually Eddie, becoming his best friend, and falling madly in love with him.)
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“I'm gay.”
He's looking at his feet, because he hasn't quite come to terms with the fact that he's saying this in a room where other people, strangers, can hear it.
But this is still the first time he's said it this way: out loud, in a declarative sentence. Being nervous is fine. Frank said that being nervous is fine, and Buck just said he's proud, and the only thought Eddie has in his head is that it's embarrassing he can't raise his head and say it like a man, so clearly, he's going to need to hang on to other people's words for the time being, someone who isn't his dad trying to explain the ways Eddie's allowed to inhabit the world.
He doesn't need to ask anyone's permission to be who he is. That's also a thing Frank said.
in which eddie attends a self-empowerment group for gbtq men to supplement his therapy, and is empowered to: forgive himself, say "i'm gay" to his own reflection in the mirror, accidentally adopt an adult, make fried rice, and tell his straight best friend that he's in love with him. not necessarily in that order.
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“Sorry,” Eddie says suddenly, with a little frown between his eyebrows that makes Buck’s next breath come in a wheeze. “I didn’t even ask if you’re okay. Any anxiety? Shortness of breath, irregular heartbeat?”
“Not—uh,” Buck coughs, trying so hard to say something normal, but against his best efforts, what comes out is: “Not because of the elevator.”
Eddie’s eyebrows climb up his forehead.
“I’m not claustrophobic, is what I mean,” Buck says, but the damage has been done. “Just, you know.”
or the one in which buck stumbles on the rest of his life in a malfunctioning courthouse elevator.
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