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He can’t handle this. He can’t handle the number he sees staring back at him. He can’t breathe. Breathing is a foreign concept to him. Where’s Minho? Minho would know what to do.
Or; Jisung struggles with body image until it becomes too much.
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“Why are you out here alone?” Ilya asks. “Who left you here?”
Hesitantly, Shane’s eyes cast up at the apartment building. Ilya follows his gaze, confused.
“I’m sorry,” Shane says softly, “I went home with someone.”
Ilya’s head snaps in his direction. “What?”
-an episode 4 au where shane goes home with the bartender instead of rose, and it goes very, very poorly-
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13 Jul 2026
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flushed by probablylily for WeeBeastie
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
15 Apr 2026
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"Baby," Ilya coos, moving his hands to guide Shane's hips. "You need to slow down, or you are going to come like this."
"No," Shane whines. "No, I'm not. M'fine… just give me a minute." The words come out mushed, slurred together and obscured by Shane's heavy breathing. "We're gonna, we're gonna have sex. I need you inside me."
"Okay," Ilya says, disbelieving.
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A drunk, handsy Shane chases his release on Ilya's lap
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11 Jul 2026
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To my dearest by mochababy
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Jun 2026
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“Ilya–” Shane breathed, high and wheezy. “You can’t– You can’t leave me! Please, God, please, don’t take him. Please, please, I can’t lose– I can’t–”
A blaring alarm yanked him out of his panic like a fish out of water. He shot upright, flailing his limbs that were caught in something soft. Blurred splashes of colour steadily painted a picture of a bedroom he’d recognise anywhere. It was brighter now, light pouring in through partially shut curtains. His breath was heavy and he struggled making sense of how the hell he’d ended up in bed when just a moment ago, Ilya had–
“Hollander.” Ilya slurred, narrowing his eyes at him. “Turn that thing off.”
Or, Shane is stuck in a time loop that resets whenever his fiancé dies.
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- Part 1 of a letter to my only (safe grounds)
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06 Jul 2026
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i want a better body, i want better skin by Anonymous
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 Feb 2026
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Shane did not have an eating disorder. He didn’t have a “food problem”, he was just a dedicated athlete. He wanted to be the best, and to do that you have to make sacrifices. So maybe he doesn’t drink pop that isn’t diet, and maybe he skips lunch, and maybe when he doesn’t know exactly what’s in his food he has a panic attack. So what? It didn’t mean anything.
Ilya thought differently.
or; 5 times Shane didn’t need help + 1 time he got it.
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01 Jul 2026
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something so broken, but I might be hoping by imbihesgay
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
02 Feb 2026
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“Hollander?!” Rozanov exclaims, carefully dropping him back down.
Shane doubles over, gasping and wheezing, hands clutching his ribs for dear life.
“You’re fucking hurt,” Rozanov realizes, wide-eyed.
(or, shane hides an injury in an attempt not to ruin his hookup with ilya)
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30 Jun 2026