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“And, like, now that I know that I’m not her… That she didn’t just lie dormant in my gem all my life… It’s making me think that everyone’s just disappointed. I’m afraid of being like her, because she’s horrible, but afraid of not being like her, because after that, my worth is just conditional.” What’s seventeen years to a millenia? Or several?
“Oh, Steven.” She was looking at him with an expression he couldn’t place. “What she did…” —her eyes brimmed with tears, tone cautious— “It was never your responsibility. I was never your responsibility.”
He can’t blame anyone but himself; few Gems never fully grasped the meaning of “child,” even if he once taught a Human Bio class at Little Homeworld. “It shouldn’t’ve been. But it was.”
She rose, walked over to him, sat and propped her knees up so they’d be at eye level. She stroked his hair in a soothing gesture, perhaps a tad out of her depth. “Oh, stars. When did you get so tall?”
“You sound like Pearl.”
A giggle, jubilant. “Good.”
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she took my fingers to her mouth (the kind of thing that makes you proud, that nothing else had ever worked out) by find_chideva
Fandoms: Steven Universe (Cartoon)
18 Jan 2026
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“Besides,” she says, sheepish, “It’s not like there’s much to do at night; nowadays, anyway.”
“Sure about that?” Bismuth deadpans, and Pearl dissolves into a very unladylike string of snorts.
“Hush, you,” she says, and Bismuth can’t help a grin.
“Hon'. Kid’s fifteen; he’ll be okay. He’s got the powers and the strength to protect himself. No Homeworld upper-crusts are after us anymore. Ain’t it time to let ‘im fly the nest?”
Pearl stiffens against the crook of her neck, and she wraps her legs around Bismuth instead, a beat of silence between them for her to think. “You’re right. But he said he wanted to watch a movie with me and everyone else after dinner; he said you would like it too.”
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or, the old forge brings on the heat. alternatively, bismuth is a great stepparent. -
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“Say that again,” replied Luz, grinning widely. She was always so good at compartmentalization: she didn’t mention bullying incidents to her mom, instead directing towards her spilled iced coffee (containing enough sweeteners that would give Lilith a premature heart attack) at lunch. Five entire dollars, down the drain like that.
“It was necessary?”
“Before that.”
“I felt bad.”
“You really are better than him,” Luz muttered to the dying sky. He was conscious of shaking his head but didn’t fuss. She slung her arm over his shoulders. “You try. That’s what matters, right?”
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or, when everything is over, luz finds hunter by the graves. -
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Hello. I watched your performance, and it did not disappoint. I have heard your voice many times over my life, and it remains as radiant as ever. I know we have an unsavory history, but I was simply doing my job. Surely you understand?
“I was simply doing my job,” Furina echoes aloud, scoffing. “For the Fatui!” —She continues on.
By “surely you understand,” I am referring to your masquerade. My Lady, the Lady of Love, seems to hold much respect for you. While I cannot fathom why, I realize you must have done something quite extraordinary to have earned the respect of a God. While you are justified in your fear of me, do understand that it was nothing more than diplomacy. I kept your secret; that should be reason enough to trust me.
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or, furina is having trouble using her vision, and the knave keeps making attempts to befriend her. things couldn’t possibly be worse, but maybe an unlikely friendship is what they both need. -
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The first thing Sasha says when they sit down is, “I went on a date this weekend.”
Anne’s breath hitches. Why does she care so much? Sasha deserves a happy life. “Oh. With who? Did you like it?”
Even this is unusual. In the Before, they’d always known everything about each other, from food preferences to idol biases.
Sasha is no stranger to confessions. This time, it’d been an eighth grader from the middle school department, a boy with fluffy red hair and freckles. He was cute , she admits, but in the same way a fad fashion trend or lost raccoon was. Not pretty, like the Perseids, Anne’s smile, or Marcy’s rambles. Sasha is… a selfish person. She was too cowardly to confess, so she went for the next best thing.
Did you like it? On that, Sasha contemplates. Going on a date with a random person to fill a void was not something a nice girl did. Sasha has long known she is far from a nice girl. Nice girls don’t steal.
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or, anne, sasha, and marcy, in the aftermath.Series
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i’ll die like a girl (in your arms; as the world caves in) by find_chideva
Fandom Amphibia (Cartoon)
20 Jul 2025
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a series of fics about the calamity trio, their lives, and their relationship with each other.
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a series of fics about furina, focalors, and their plan, spanning over five centuries.
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Year 166. The Hydro Archon, Focalors—for who else could it be?—encounters the Abyss Princess, and she is not afraid—for what would such an eminent god have to fear?
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It is on Clorinde's fifth visit after the Flood that she brings it up.
"Neuvillette wanted to know if you'd be okay with him visiting."
OR: a process of getting reacquainted, building (metaphorical) sandcastles, and discovering what remains after the tide.
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semi-transparent boy by beecalm
Fandoms: 地縛少年花子くん | Jibaku Shounen Hanako-kun | Toilet-bound Hanako-kun (Manga)
22 Oct 2020
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But sometimes, Hanako searches the rooftop for stolen textbooks and keychains and Omamori earrings. Sometimes he sees humans as something worth saving. Sometimes he plays the piano.
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Secret, self-contained, solitary as an oyster by a_big_apple
Fandoms: Steven Universe (Cartoon)
21 Apr 2020
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“I see,” Pearl says, sliding the clipboard back across the desk. “When did they arrive?”
“Wednesday. They seemed so sweet when they came by, all holding hands like we might try to split ‘em up. They were real happy when I told them they could share. It’ll be nice to have other pearls around, huh?” Pearl hums noncommittally, and Spodumene reaches across the desk to pat her arm. “Aw, don’t be like that. You’re still our Renegade.”
Pearl plasters on a smile. “Thanks."
Or: Pearl comes to terms with her own identity, and also falls in love.
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- Part 7 of and it's bright
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Why Don't You Talk to Each Other by thesometimeswarrior
Fandoms: Steven Universe (Cartoon)
08 Sep 2019
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He sighs. “Pearl...Pearl really was a slave, wasn’t she?”
Greg, Pearl, and growing past awkward conversations.