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    5 times Ilya Rozanov’s crop top personally attacked Cliff Marleau, and the 1 time it was someone else’s problem

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    16 Apr 2026

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    Who needs a nice guy in Montreal, anyway?

    (or: 5 people who were pleasantly surprised by ilya rozanov)

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    15 Apr 2026

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    “I want one day,” Shane interrupted Ilya’s inner meltdown with, really, the only acceptable response. “And then we can…” Shane trailed off. “Then we can, I don’t know. Reset.”

    “Reset,” Ilya repeated, unconvinced.

    “Yeah.”

    It was another few moments of stunned silence before Ilya spoke again.

    “We could go somewhere.”

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    or, what if Shane decided to stay, that night… and then decided to miss his flight home the next day.

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    15 Apr 2026

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    Ilya is not going to do anything. He knows this. He's also standing very still.

    He thinks about his mother's arm, hanging over the side of the bed. He was twelve. He'd thought she was sleeping.

    He closes the cabinet.

    The face in the mirror is someone he recognizes in the way you recognize a city you lived in as a child: the basic geography is familiar, but you can't find anything you're looking for.

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    Or: A closer look at Ilya’s first year in Ottawa, set against his first in Boston—featuring a long-lost answering machine he claimed he’d never listen to, the family inevitably left behind when you move, and the mostly self-imposed pressure of loving a man as large and looming as the great Shane Hollander.

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    08 Apr 2026

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    The Swiss National League doesn’t care about the legendary Hollander-Rozanov rivalry. When the MLH can’t negotiate with the Hockey Players’ Union in time to prevent a hockey lockout at the start of the 2015 season, the Zürich Lions jump at the chance to sign both Shane and Ilya to short-term contracts. For four months in Switzerland, they share a team, a line, a house, and a bed. 

    Then the lockout ends in January, and it’s time to go back. Back to different countries, cities, lives. Beds.

    Reentry is harder than expected.

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    27 Mar 2026

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    devastatingly beautiful. my fucking god.