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is just ten year plan to fuck by akatomlinson
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 May 2026
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Shane fucking Hollander. Hockey’s Golden Boy. Long-time crush of Ilya Rozanov. Long, looooong time. A decade of being a fucking simp for this man. God, he was in trouble.
It should be pretty much illegal to go from their only contact being at face-off across the ice, to suddenly hosting Shane in his exclusive club—during a fucking event, no less. Ilya’s event.
He would never admit it, but he’s been stealthily trying to get Hollander to show up at his club for years now. Hell, Shane was the whole reason he invested in the club in the first place. Bought a fucking house here. Maybe that was an insane thing to do, but he didn’t care. Ilya was insane. Insane for Shane.
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- Part 1 of kitten shane series
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- English
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- 354,916
- Chapters:
- 27/27
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- 3,722
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17 Jul 2026
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Hold Me Together While I Fall Apart by Rachel1410
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
17 May 2026
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Before Shane and Ilya are out Montreal plays Ottawa and Shane has a bad panic attack before the game. Hayden's solution is to take Shane to Ilya in Ottawa's locker room for Ilya to help Shane calm down.
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16 Jul 2026
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Unreasonable by CRW for Bookwormfax1
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
20 May 2026
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“Oh, I’m not sure you’re supposed to smoke here,” Hollander said as Ilya grabbed his hand. He had forgotten he was even smoking.
“Okay,” replied Ilya. With his other hand, he quickly pulled the cigarette from his mouth and let it hang between his fingers. He didn’t let go of Hollander.
“You’re an awesome player to watch,” Hollander’s eyes shifted to their hands.
“Yes,” Ilya said.
There was a silence then, and Hollander withdrew his hand slowly. Ilya’s eyes didn’t leave his cheeks, admiring how his freckles look with a rose tint.
“Anyways, I should-”
“Have you eaten?” Ilya interruptedOR
What if Shane and Ilya had each other from the start?
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- English
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- 26,750
- Chapters:
- 9/9
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- 394
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16 Jul 2026
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On Their Own Terms by CertainlyUncertain, Pammcasso
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
04 Jun 2026
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Before Felix could remove his headphones, he heard it. Heavy, borderline panicked breaths. Felix realized that it must be Hollander. His mic was not turned off when he left the interview. Footsteps. And then a door opening and closing. They had filmed the interview that morning at the offices of the Irina Foundation. It sounded like maybe he had gone into his office.
“Hey, what is it? What is wrong?” Another voice. Unmistakable anywhere. Even if Felix hadn’t spent weeks now listening to it, he would still have recognized Ilya Rozanov’s voice.
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What if the filmmaker making the documentary about Hollander and Rozanov discovered the truth about their relationship. So he approaches Shane and Ilya about filming them over the course of the 2020/2021 season to create an honest documentary that tells the true story of their lives. Canon-divergent AU set during The Long Game.
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- English
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- 30,451
- Chapters:
- 10/10
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15 Jul 2026
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For years, NHL phenoms Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov have maintained a carefully constructed wall of glass between them. To the North American media, they are the league's fiercest, bloodiest rivalry. To each other, they are a lifetime of unspoken longing, shared twin mattresses in Toronto dorm rooms, and late-night hospital vigils.
Shane has spent his entire life building a rigid fortress around himself, believing he is only worth as much as his perfection. He is convinced that admitting his desperate, possessive love for his best friend will shatter the only safety net he has left. But Ilya is done playing the patient friend. Starving for the boy who saved him years ago, Ilya decides it's time to bring a sledgehammer to Shane's front door...Bookmarked by idactuallyratherdie
15 Jul 2026
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Ottawa Centaurs (Mister Hollander’s) by buckleydefender
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
13 Jun 2026
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Ilya frowns. “Did Dykstra call me stupid?”
Shane laughs. “No, Ilya. It’s like– when someone is so in love that they act a bit foolish with their… lover,” he explains, putting a special emphasis on the word lover, enjoying the way his boyfriend’s eyes crinkle with joy.
He kisses his forehead for a split second, just because he can.
“Ah,” Ilya finally understands, cheeks flaming red despite Russians not blushing. “I, how you say, contain multiples. Shane tells me always.”
Everyone laughs, not in a mean or unkind way, and Shane is sure that he’s about to burst at the seams with all the love that is flowing through his veins.
“It’s multitudes, Ilya. I contain multitudes,” he gently corrects.
A very stressed Shane decides that Ilya deserves to be celebrated. So he comes out to the Ottawa Centaurs on his own and throws his boyfriend a surprise birthday party with them all.
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15 Jul 2026
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Why Do You Care So Much Whose Dick I Ride? by ChaoticRussian2481
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
05 Jul 2026
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“I didn’t come out today because I owe anyone an explanation. I came out because I refuse to let the man I love stand alone while the world decides his worth. We've spent years hiding and even denying our feelings for one another because we were afraid of what people would say. We thought we were protecting each other. That ends today. I’m done caring about anyone except me and him.”
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A leaked photo leaves Ilya exposed, and the league wastes no time deciding what to do with him.
Ilya is willing to lose everything if it means Shane gets to keep his career.
Shane takes exactly one look at the world trying to shame the man he loves and decides that if Ilya's name is going to be in every headline, his will be too.
The only thing more dangerous than outing Ilya is giving Shane a reason to fight.
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- English
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- 14,434
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12 Jul 2026
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pull at the thread by xogray
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
10 Jul 2026
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Yuna slides a folder on the table closer, pulling out two packets of paper. She’d gone all out with the contracts. Mainly, Shane suspected, to ease his nerves about the lines of the relationship. Plus, she was always nothing if not prepared.
She hands one contract to Shane, then another to Rozanov. “As a reminder, this is not legally binding. If either of you wants out early, can’t meet obligations, or wants to change things down the line, that is perfectly fine, and we can work with that. This just lays out the exact timeline of the relationship,” she begins, “down to the start and end dates."
- or, Shane and Ilya never start hooking up in 2010. So eight years later, after they both come out on their own, Yuna Hollander (momager of the century) decides that a PR relationship would be very beneficial for her son and his infamous rival. And everything definitely goes exactly according to plan... or something like that.- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 108,003
- Chapters:
- 27/27
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- 1,057
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12 Jul 2026
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frequently, secretly fond of each other. by milominderbinder
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 May 2026
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Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”
“Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.
He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.
A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.
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- Part 1 of frequently, secretly.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 222,222
- Chapters:
- 28/28
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- 17,863
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12 Jul 2026
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it only falls into place when you're fall to pieces by dreamsoflovingness
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 May 2026
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“Tabarnak,” Shane heard JJ curse from the other side of the locker room.
“You okay?” Miitka asked as JJ eyed everyone nervously.
“The Centaurs plane is missing,” JJ said carefully.
“It’s what? How the fuck does a whole plane just go missing?” Miitka said.
“Yeah, it never arrived in Tampa and it just disappeared from radar,” JJ explained, “they’re searching the area for the crash site.”
Missing.
Never arrived.
Not on radar.
Crash Sight.
Ilya.
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Manifest style AU. The Centaurs plane disappears in 2021, only to reappear three years later the day after it original vanished. Those three years broke Shane Hollander. Ilya is determined to put him back together.Bookmarked by idactuallyratherdie
11 Jul 2026
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No Grave Can Hold My Body Down (I'll Crawl Home to Him) by Wants_To_Write
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
09 Jul 2026
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It's then that the alert comes though.
It buzzes his phone lightly as the headline comes across the top of his screen, yet he only catches the words 'Ilya Rozanov' before the alert goes away.
He clicks over to it, assuming it'll be a highlight from one of last season's games. They may not have won the cup that season, but they made playoffs. Shane was certain they'd get it this year.
Only, when the article opens it doesn't say something like 'Ilya Rozanov, Best Goals Breakdown' or 'Ilya Rozanov, Craziest Come Back' instead it says:
'Ilya Rozanov, Beloved Husband, Captain, and Friend. Dead at Thirty-one'
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Ilya takes a brand deal without Shane out of the country. Somehow, his plane gets diverted to Moscow, Russia. As an out, bisexual, man married to a gay man, it isn't exactly where he wants to be. Yet he has no choice, and when someone tries to kill him, he isn't fast enough to stop the news from breaking and his world from slowly crumbling around him.
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Alexei is a piece of shit, Ilya is presumed dead, Shane loses his fucking mind. It's all downhill for a while but thing's start looking up eventually.(HE IS NOT DEAD)
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- 3/3
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- 145
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10 Jul 2026
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A healthy boy. by yourethemoon
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
05 Jul 2026
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At 3:00 AM, Shane and Ilya receive the phone call they have spent three years waiting for.
“We have a placement for you. You aren’t going to believe this Shane.” Sarah sniffled, “A newborn. A healthy boy. He was born two hours ago.”
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09 Jul 2026
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Spend the Day With Ilya Rozanov by UglyGreenJacket
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
07 Jul 2026
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[Ilya Rozanov yawns and stretches shirtless in his kitchen. Pajama pants hang low on his waist, and his hair is rumpled from sleep. He smiles and waves at the camera, and when he comes closer, he leans down so his face is level with the camera, his eyes bright even though he’s obviously tired.]
Ilya: Good morning! It is ass o’clock, and I hate that I am awake, but today you are going to spend the day with me and my boyfriend. And I know what you are thinking, ‘what man could possibly be worthy of you, Ilya?’ and I get it. I ask myself this every day, but my boyfriend is very wonderful, even if he is much, much less famous than me and not nearly as good at hockey, and I think it’s about time you all get to know him. So, yay boyfriend reveal! And now I’m going to make him his disgusting breakfast smoothie, and then bring you along for our day together because my friend Harris Drover says I need more content on the internet, and what better way to do that than to tell you I’m bi, and that I have a boyfriend, and show you how disgustingly in love we are?
[Ilya straightens so that his bare torso is the only thing in the frame, his abs flexing as he reaches over to turn on the blender.]
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- English
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- 470
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07 Jul 2026
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High Altitudes, Waterfalls & Blue Boobies by willensimme
Fandoms: Young Royals (TV 2021)
01 Feb 2026
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“I want to go backpacking. You and me, Simon. And we need to do it now before it is too late.”
“But why now?” Simon continued to be confused about Ayub's sudden desire to see the world.
“Because it feels right! Because I have the time and the money right now to do something slightly crazy. And I want to do it with you, because Simon, we both know there is a deadline until you cannot do this trip together with me anymore.”
That made Simon shut up.
Everyone knew that it was only a matter of time until the Crown Prince of Sweden would ask his long-time partner of eight years for the hand of marriage. It was not a question of if, but when, and the truth was simple: if Simon would not do it now, he never would get the chance again.
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Simon and Ayub go backpacking in Ecuador together.
What starts as a fun trip makes Simon reflect on his relationships and how much his life has changed since he started dating Wilhelm.
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- Part 1 of Blue Boobies Verse
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26 Jun 2026
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Destroy Gilead by shk_1991
Fandoms: Young Royals (TV 2021), Heated Rivalry (TV), Heartstopper (TV), Gilead - Fandom
30 Jun 2026
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Years after Gilead rises to power, omegas are heavily controlled and sorted into schools where they are trained to become mates for Commanders.
Simon, Shane, and Charlie are omegas living in one of the most prestigious omega academies.
The government believes they are obedient.
They are not.
Each omega becomes connected to a different alpha.
None of those connections happen the way Gilead intends.
Meanwhile, a hidden resistance is growing beneath the surface.
Nobody realizes that one commander, one commander-in-training, and one man outside the system are all moving toward the same goal:
Destroy Gilead.
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22 Jun 2026
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Reunion by orphan_account
Fandoms: Percy Jackson and the Olympians - Rick Riordan, The Heroes of Olympus - Rick Riordan
21 Feb 2020
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"Nobody knew what happened to them. There were rumors going around, but nobody saw any of them besides Frank and Hazel in the past ten years. There was even a point where Nico was asked to check Underworld in case they died or something.
But now, they are back."
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21 Jun 2026
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Like Real People Do by FoxFire16
Fandoms: Percy Jackson and the Olympians & Related Fandoms - All Media Types
28 Nov 2023
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Nico has always made Percy feel a little... weird. He's not bad, he's just odd.
But this contact of his seems to make him feel happy--and what is he hiding?A very fluffy life fic about an alpha and an omega and the way their friends see them as they figure out a difficult and exciting time in their lives together.
Title taken from Hozier's song of the same name.
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21 Jun 2026
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When the Dawn Breaks by FoxFire16 for erana_simp
Fandoms: Percy Jackson and the Olympians & Related Fandoms - All Media Types
29 Sep 2022
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Prince Will is an alpha in a society where omegas are merely slaves for the pleasure of their mates. He's always rejected the idea of giving money or support to such organizations as slave traders, so as of age 20, he is unmated.
Until one day at the market, where he sees a beautiful omega on the edge of death—and refusing to stop fighting.
In order to save the omega with the unbreakable spirit, Will buys him—and suddenly, the whole country thinks he's preparing for a wedding. The only problem?His new omega hates alphas. Including him.
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- Part 1 of When the Dawn Breaks
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 67,883
- Chapters:
- 10/10
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- 308
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21 Jun 2026
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Werewolf Solangelo by Bljelly
Fandoms: Percy Jackson and the Olympians & Related Fandoms - All Media Types, Percy Jackson and the Olympians - Rick Riordan, Percy Jackson & The Olympians (Movies), The Sun and The Star - Rick Riordan & Mark Oshiro
21 Dec 2023
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Nico is the Alpha King who just wants to find his fated mate. To find someone he can take care of.
Will wants nothing more than to be taken care of, but every alpha he's ever known is an asshole. He won't let anyone get to him.
Nico finds his omega in a dirty prison cell, he’s a shattered puzzle he has to put together, piece by piece. It tugs at his heart when he flinches every time he touches him, or when he braces for a hit at every movement of his. He wants to kill every person responsible for the mess that is his mate.
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- Part 1 of The Wolves of Shadow Moon
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 113,852
- Chapters:
- 37/37
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- 1,010
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- 1,386
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21 Jun 2026
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13 Jun 2026