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feather by feather, thought by thought by gravebirds
Fandoms: 崩坏：星穹铁道 | Honkai: Star Rail (Video Game)
26 Jul 2024
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“Ah,” Aventurine says. “Real bad, huh? Okay.”
Sunday wants him to leave. Sunday wants him to never go away.or: this breakdown Sunday doesn't have to spend alone.
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14 Jun 2026
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Thirty-Three Million Graves by Galahad_71
Fandoms: 崩坏：星穹铁道 | Honkai: Star Rail (Video Game)
29 May 2026
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After Amphoreus finally becomes a real world, Phainon hides himself away in a collapsing building outside Okhema, his body failing under infection and exhaustion while his mind refuses to stop replaying every death he has caused across thirty-three million cycles. He expects to be forgotten in silence—but Mydei finds him, alive and breaking, and refuses to let him disappear.
or Phainon tries to die quietly after the loops end, but Mydei refuses to let him become another casualty of them.
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11 Jun 2026
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Phainon tries to live with the trauma of 33 million cycles and yet is hopelessly filled with guilt. Mydei comforts him and insists on fulfilling the promise they made.
No one is more deserving of happiness than you, Deliverer.
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11 Jun 2026
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The tears came quietly at first—a slow build, a blink too long, a hitch in breath. Then, one slipped free. A tear trailing toward his temple as his lip trembled.
Mydei kissed it as it fell.
Phainon turned his face away, a sharp breath catching in his throat—not from pain, but shame. “Don’t…”
But Mydei only kissed his cheek again, slower this time, lips dragging along damp skin like he wanted to drink the sadness from him. His hand slid behind Phainon’s head, fingers tangling gently in his hair, anchoring him.
“Don’t look away from me,” he whispered, voice heavy with restraint. “Not now.”
Phainon couldn’t speak. His body arched, breath stuttering, but Mydei’s hold never faltered. He kissed each new tear as it slipped free, murmuring nothing but breath between them. And all the while, his other hand drifted lower, stroking bare skin with the kind of control that felt dangerous in its tenderness.
It wasn’t the roughness of it that undid Phainon—it was the opposite. The unrelenting gentleness. Mydei touched him like he was made of memory and porcelain and fire all at once, like every part of him needed to be known, adored, worshipped.
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11 Jun 2026
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Greet the dawn with eyes wide open by Lilliae
Fandoms: 崩坏：星穹铁道 | Honkai: Star Rail (Video Game)
14 Aug 2025
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There was only one person who could cook such a delicious meal. The very same only person who could enter and exit his home undetected when he refused to open it for anyone—because he had personally handed over the spare key.
Mydei.
The man who would spite him with terrible food when his jokes grew as stale as the bread he must have left uncovered just for him, or his methods in their latest spar was as slimy as the fish gutted but raw and unscaled. Who could now recall the whole truth but still prepared such a thing with care for the person responsible for his every death.
Amphoreus has become a real planet forged from the memories accumulated over millions of years.
Every citizen is bestowed all the memories that are rightfully their own, so there’s no escaping the actions Phainon took to prolong the cycles until a true hero could arrive with the new dawn.
But when Phainon is unable to see his own worth and face the tomorrow everyone had longed for, there are plenty of people at his side willing to help open his eyes to the truth.
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- Part 1 of After the pale dawn breaks
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10 Jun 2026