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Rite Beneath the Radiance by Mei_MyselfandI (maymyselfandi)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Ember & Ice (Audio Drama)
27 May 2026
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Shane is well aware of his position. His life revolves around discipline, study, and training. He can’t risk indulgences. His mother is the crown ruler of the Lunare kingdom. A kingdom he will one day rule.
Prince Ilya Rozanov on the other hand has an older brother, and is not next in line for the throne. He can drink and fuck and dance like he has not a care in the world.
Like he has freedom.
Shane would love just a taste.
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The Stars Incline Us, They Do Not Bind Us by Mei_MyselfandI (maymyselfandi)
Fandoms: 富豪刑事 Balance:UNLIMITED | Fugou Keiji: Balance:Unlimited (Anime)
25 May 2026
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Haru should never underestimate his father’s capability for cruelty. “I can inform the MCPTF that Haru Kato is an omega and by legal statute cannot work there anymore. I can also inform them that Haru Kato is not actually Haru Kato.” Haru paled as his father continued. “I can ruin your precious fake little life.”
And, the panic began to set in. The panic that had been bubbling in his chest for hours, for months, for years.
He’s been caught. All Haru wanted was to live a simple life, it was an incredibly naive thing to think he could have that.
After striking a deal with his father to keep his life as Haru Kato, Haru struggles to keep both of his identities separate from one another. It isn’t until they both begin to collide due to none other than Kambe Daisuke, that everything starts to go to shit.
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Until It Wasn’t by Mei_MyselfandI (maymyselfandi)
Fandoms: The Flash (TV 2014), The Flash - All Media Types
20 Apr 2018
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“We’re going to be okay, Michael.” He whispers to his son. His son who is terrified and shaking, trying so hard to stifle the sobs that threatened to spill from his lips.
He hears Michael sniffle, “H-how do you know?”
Hurry, Len.
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- Part 2 of ColdFlash Week 2018
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Water Is For Washing. Vino Tinto Is For Drinking. by Mei_MyselfandI (maymyselfandi)
Fandoms: The Flash (TV 2014), The Flash - All Media Types
18 Apr 2018
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“I was a good kid, then I spent two years in Iron Heights,” Barry paused shaking his head and sneered, “I wasn’t a good kid after that.”
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- Part 1 of ColdFlash Week 2018
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Ever since he was a kid, the only way he ever felt better was when there was a blade pressed against his wrist and blood dripping on the floor.
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ColdFlash Week 2018 by Mei_MyselfandI (maymyselfandi)
Fandom The Flash (TV 2014), The Flash - All Media Types
20 Apr 2018
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Modern Lockets by princepixel
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
12 May 2026
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“Sweetheart, your pretty little head is so silly. For every photocard I make of ugly hockey men, I make two of my gorgeous, radiant, pulchritudinous boyfriend. Sometimes three.”
A smile breaks through the heated haze of Shane’s expression. “You’ve been using the thesaurus Dad got you for Christmas?”
“I will beat Yuna Hollander at Scrabble one day,” Ilya declares against Shane’s hip bone.
In the year between the Cottage and the Centaurs, Ilya misses Shane more than ever. Svetlana’s teenage cousin offers a coping method: Kpop-style Shane Hollander photocards to stare at all day long. It's a shame carrying around pictures of fellow hockey players is just not socially acceptable.
…At least, not yet.
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Bookmarked by Mei_MyselfandI (maymyselfandi)
11 Jul 2026
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Modern Lockets
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Hi Ilya,
My name is Shane! I don’t speak Russian, I hope that’s okay. I’m also 25 years old and I love hockey too! So we have some things in common.
I’ve never written an inmate before. I don’t really know why I’m doing this. I guess I’m lonely. I’m not very good at making friends or dating. I think maybe I can be a bit awkward in person, but I’m good at writing. So I hope that’s okay.
or Shane Hollander finds Ilya Rozanov on WriteAPrisoner.com and sends him an email.
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Bookmarked by Mei_MyselfandI (maymyselfandi)
07 Jul 2026
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cardiac tamponade by asthestarsforetold
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Apr 2026
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Cardiac tamponade: pressure on that heart that prevents it from filling and beating adequately.
Shane thought he knew two things: his move to Ottawa would cause chaos, and that the Ottawa Centaurs were nice.
As it turned out, he only knew one of those things.
(Or: the Cens are still a team of professional hockey players. They're going to fuck up.)
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Bookmarked by Mei_MyselfandI (maymyselfandi)
07 Jul 2026
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Ilya had a three steps plan since his father told him he would go to London to put order into his deceased cousin legal affairs:
1. Fix the paperwork to his name.
2. Import the good vodka from Russia .
3. Avoid marriage.
Unfortunately for him, step three becomes harder to achieve after meeting Shane Hollander, a quiet English debutant with a smile beautiful enough to destroy his yearning for freedom.
Now Ilya has a new three steps plan:
1. Improve his English.
2. Understand dumb British rules.
3. Make Shane blush as much as humanly possible.
And, hopefully, convince Shane to marry him.
🫧🫧🫧
Or, the Bridgerton idea I couldn't shake off.
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Ilya widens his eyes, moves his hands in an impatient “get on with it” motion. He has the urge to say it for him, end both their misery. Shane blinks rapidly a few times, takes another deep breath. “I want to stop,” he says simply.
Ilya lets out one humorless laugh, “Stop what?”
Shane ignores him. “At the All Star Game, I told you I liked you. And you said about Russia and your family. And I looked some things up. I get it. I get it better now. I know we can’t but I can’t stop wanting to be…more. Unless we stop.”
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Shane just wants to be friends and Ilya is, like, fine with that or whatever
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Bookmarked by Mei_MyselfandI (maymyselfandi)
04 Jul 2026
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in your arms i'd start a war
justhere4ke