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  1. Public Bookmark 68

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    Michael Zhang makes his palms itchy, the back of his neck clammy and cold. The world’s going to be hard on you, he thinks, and watches the kid watch the floor, his mouth flooding with the bitter metallic taste of blood before he realizes he’s bitten down. Learn to take a hit already. He feels a kind of repulsion that he doesn’t want to be feeling, a part of him that instinctually wants to flinch away, like you would from something old, or sick.

    This is what it's like, seeing your reflection.

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    24 Jul 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 28

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    On the day after he comes out to his team, Shane wakes up with a lump in his throat.

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    Or, Shane Hollander x Catharsis

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    24 Jul 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 18

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    One night in August, right before Sasha heads off to boarding school for his final year, there is a moment when Ilya has him on his knees, face down, ass up, and is bending over him to tangle a hand in his dark hair. There in the half dark, mid-fuck, with Sacha’s face buried in a pillow and his cries muffled and blurred, Ilya finds himself wondering what Canadian poster boy Shane Hollander would look like underneath him like this.

    How does one evolve from a sweet, big-hearted mama's boy into Russia's Greatest Love Machine™? Words are slippery sometimes, but bodies are honest.

    A pre-canon and early canon-era character study of Ilya Rozanov, self expression through sex and intimacy, and Ilya's relationships with those caught in his orbit: Svetlana, Sasha, and Shane.

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    20 Jul 2026

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    Shane: omg how did you know im on pain meds? u know everything!
    Shane: like how I’m gay
    Rose: Shane, don’t tell people you’re gay right now, okay?
    Shane: I know I know
    Shane: he said shhhh
    Shane: he is so cute
    Shane: he held my hand :)

    Or: A look into Shane's texts while high on pain meds.

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    18 Jul 2026

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    Shane (to himself): This is great. I'm going to get a good grade in friends with benefits, something that is both normal to want and possible to achieve,

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    When Shane sticks it out at Ilya's house, and the tuna meltdown doesn't happen, he still walks away confused about what Ilya actually WANTS from him. When an opportunity presents itself in the form of Rose Landry and a very thorough PR relationship contract, Shane decides to take advantage of it to show Ilya that he can be a totally chill and normal friend with benefits, and definitely isn't too attached.

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    18 Jul 2026