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Neil swallows back blood. “Andrew.”
“Abram,” Andrew returns.
“I’m losing my mind. I think I’m losing my mind.”
“You aren’t,” Andrew says, so easy, so certain. “You’re tired. You’re scared. That’s it.”
Neil grits his teeth. “I’m,” he exhales shakily. “I’m – seeing things,” he admits.
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In which Andrew gets into a car accident one week into the off-season, and everything is fine right up until he starts dying every night in Neil’s dreams. Things get worse, and then they get better.
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Or, how trauma and triggers persist even after decades of safety, and how Andrew and Neil navigate them and take care of each other throughout it all.
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Bookmarked by togirlis
12 Jul 2026
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Neil was always going to run, the choice to reveal his name and hidden designation never should've swayed Andrew, but they had.
Neil had swayed him, and now Andrew can only reckon with the fact that he was stupid enough to want again.
It's those thoughts that are circling his head when the car pulls up. It's not smooth, he watches as the driver goes over the curb, though Andrew doesn't care enough to tell them off for their horrible park job.
Not until Neil fucking Josten practically collapses out of the driver's seat, beat to all hell and with red hair to boot.
Andrew is at his side before his conscious mind realizes, his body already having made the choice for him. He smells blood, and fear, but they're overpowered by the sweet scent of strawberry sorbet pouring out from Neil's neck.
His mouth starts to water as Neil practically folds into his arms, pupils blowing wide as he catches the heat scent of slick in the air. He has a second to curse before Neil is looking up at him, glazed eyes blinking heavily before getting stuck on Andrew's face.
"Andrew," He says his name like no one else ever has, possibly ever will.
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08 Jul 2026
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Staring down the barrel of a hot sun by Bramstokerhateclub
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
03 Jun 2026
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None of this was new to them yet, but it still felt momentous because this was a Neil who was his, who’d let him claim him in front of his family and his teammates, who’d been wearing his clothes and his marks for months on end now and who was delighted at the thought of Andrew wanting a future with him permanently, semantically synonymous with forever, a much too scary word for now, but maybe not in the future.
Future.
Andrew’d never thought he could have something like that, hadn’t really planned to make it past thirteen and now here he was, he was an adult, he was safe, he was in his own bed in his own home with a man who would quite literally die for him, who he was planning a future with. He’d never planned for this, had nowhere to store it in his mind, in his body, so he put it into Neil instead.Bookmarked by togirlis
07 Jul 2026
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We can't talk about it (It'll only make it worse) by onlythebrave_28
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
24 Sep 2024
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Aaron does not trust Neil. How can that runaway, mafia kid, who has only ever caused them problems be good for Andrew? But this isn't about Andrew. Nope. Not at all. It’s about Neil and Aaron will find out what is so special about him that meant Andrew let him stick around.
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04 Jul 2026
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He turns, ready to abandon the dance floor and their friends once and for all, and then stops dead in his tracks.
There’s a man at the table, with Andrew. He’s leaning on it, both forearms flat, putting his back into a suggestive arch. He’s talking to Andrew, eyes lidded and entirely too much tongue escaping his mouth, and Andrew…hasn’t asked him to leave.
Neil watches, frozen, as Andrew takes the man in, and then responds, only for the man to lean in even closer.
Neil can understand the connections he has now, the friendships he’s built, the fact that he has people to rely on outside of himself.
There is a quiet truth he knows. One that Andrew and him circle around so tentatively, that understanding of why Andrew asked him to stay, and why Neil needed to hear it so badly in the first place.
This though, this is something Neil Josten doesn’t quite understand, but Abram has always been so intimately acquainted with jealousy.
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- Part 2 of Stop Running For Nothing
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29 Jun 2026