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Newcastle University, 2004, three eighteen year olds meet and become firm friends. But while her new friends are confident in their own identity, 18 year old Lisa Swain is still figuring herself out.
After uni, Lisa finds herself settling down in the north east, getting married and having a baby. But when Lisa's wife is killed in a hit and run, she moves back to the Manchester area with her daughter to start afresh.
Four years after losing her wife, Lisa is lonely. Letting herself be set up on a blind date might turn out to be a terrible plan. But, then again, maybe it might just turn out to be the best thing Lisa ever did.
(Eve Panesar-Unwin is a character in this, but she is written in a way that you don't need to know anything about her for this to make sense. So non-Eastenders fans can treat her like an original character.)
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21 Jul 2026
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The things we lose have a way of coming back to us in the end, if not always in the way we expect.
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Another Swarla affair fic in which they are both morally questionable but they’re soulmates so it’s probably okay
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02 Jun 2026
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Trinity Santos is have a very bad no good day - until she stumbles in on two of her favourite co-workers in a compromising position.
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22 Apr 2026
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After they get back from their weekend in the cabin, Dana and Cassie try to navigate their relationship and working together.
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- Part 2 of Secret Garden
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21 Apr 2026
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“Will you be my date?”
Dana’s head whips up from her paperwork so fast she’s pretty sure she’s given herself whiplash. She knows she didn’t just hear those words, especially coming from Dr Cassie McKay’s mouth. She knows her mouth is gaping and her synapses are failing to fire, because there’s no way Cassie just asked her that, at the hub, in the middle of a busy day shift.
Or: Cassie asks Dana to be her date to an old friend's wedding
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19 Apr 2026
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05 Apr 2026
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"What the fuck?" Confused by the glass of water and pills on the side, she picked up her phone to check the time and saw a text.
McKay:
Drink the water. & text me if you need anything!Dana didn't dwell and chucked the pills back in one. She flopped back onto the bed with her hands covering her face. "What the fuck."
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After 30 years of marriage, Dana has a chance to start over, find the joy in life again. What she didn't expect was that it'd be Dr. Cassie McKay to help her do just that.
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- Part 1 of the start of us
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04 Apr 2026
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Dr Cassie McKay slowly approached her 10th year of sobriety, but she felt her mental health slowly deteriorating and the cravings returning. After a particularly triggering shift, something snapped and she found herself on the edge of a relapse. Despite their relationship being strictly friendly coworkers (who secretly have feelings for each other that they've hidden for years), she called Dana Evans in the middle of the night to intervene. Dana was able to save Cassie from her worst impulses, and it changed everything between the two.
Cassie and Dana try to figure out what their relationship means through recovery, mental health crises, and learning to be who you really are later in life.
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01 Apr 2026
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"I like to think there is God."
"I really hope there isn’t"
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Cassie grew up catholic, and every time she sees Dana’s crucifix, she’s hit with an enourmous guilt, which drives her to relapse
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01 Apr 2026
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Carla feels that cocoon start to wrap around them – the one that blocks out the rest of the world when it’s just them, just the two of them and the intoxicating this.
OR the ficlet scenes I wrote for Tumblr, finally finding their home on AO3.
Muscle Memory (noun): the ability to reproduce a particular movement without conscious thought, acquired as a result of frequent repetition of that movement.
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08 Feb 2026
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it would sure do me good to do you good by Phoebmonster for PlainBadHeroine
Fandoms: Coronation Street
25 Mar 2026
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Carla's arms were crossed, and she looked far too glamourous to be sitting on a plastic chair in an A&E waiting room, with her manicured nails and calf length leather boots. "So... I'm your emergency contact?"
"I had to put someone, and it turns out, you're basically the only adult I know who doesn't work where I work, and that was so depressing that I didn't want to tell you." Lisa said begrudgingly. "That's just another fun side effect of my wife dying. You suddenly don't have an emergency contact."
or, the five times carla was called on as lisa's emergency contact
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03 Feb 2026
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When they finally find their way back to one another, they do so each with their pockets emptied inside out and their palms outstretched, uttering to one another on a constant loop— you’re safe here— as they take their clothes off for each other to see.
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31 Jan 2026
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Carla’s still not looking at her, is snatching up her coat and stalking toward the door, and Lisa wants to scream, wants to say— look at me! you’re the only one who can see me! please!— and knows that if Carla will not look at her now, no one ever will.
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29 Jan 2026
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But you love the life that you had before more by Youaremyscar
Fandoms: Coronation Street
02 Feb 2026
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Carla has had enough, enough of Becky, enough of feeling like an outsider, an interloper, in her own home. Enough of watching the love of her life be pulled closer and closer to the not so dead wife that she can’t seem to see through.
Little does she know, it’s not just her that she has to think about.
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26 Jan 2026
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So my lovely laila helped come up with the idea of this fic😁 Carla spends the week teasing Lisa, picking a different sense each day to focus on…
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25 Jan 2026
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A very small few chapters of absolutely smutty encounters with Lisa and Carla who are obsessed with being in each others orbit and release their frustration through the art of sexual desire
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24 Nov 2025
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Lisa watches Carla at work and wishes she’d boss her around in bed.
If dominant Lisa is more your thing, check out my other work, Claimed.
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23 Nov 2025
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Carla begs Lisa to give drag a try, for charity, of course. Lisa agrees, and the surprise performance shatters everything. The rules they once had are instantly gone, and a new, dominant power dynamic takes over.
tl;dr - Lisa Swain is SUCH a top
Song is "She Calls Me Daddy" by KiNG MALA
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08 Nov 2025
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Protégé by new2svu2017
Fandoms: Law & Order: SVU, Law & Order: Organized Crime (TV 2021)
18 Jul 2026
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Lieutenant Olivia Benson has just been promoted to Captain and CO of Manhattan’s Special Victims Unit. One of her first tasks is to hire some new blood, specifically a legacy detective, only a year out of the academy, Elliot Stabler. Set during season 14 with a few changes. Older Olivia/Younger Elliot trope for your reading pleasure. Note the tags please, heavy smut. TW for boss/employee relationship, if this type of relationship bothers or triggers you, please don’t read.
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30 Sep 2025
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Five Ghosts by Width_Circle
Fandoms: Law & Order: SVU, Law & Order: Organized Crime (TV 2021)
27 Sep 2025
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It wasn’t fair. None of it was.
She wanted to hug Elliot without the shadow of trauma looming over them, because what they shared transcended it. They were not just two souls fighting against the quicksand of death. They were two partners who loved each other and always would.
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This is a post ep fic following the "I love you" in the S27 premiere ep. The idea started as a thread on twitter.
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- Part 8 of Carverse
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30 Sep 2025