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1. In Spite Of by LoneFish

   Fandoms: Merlin (TV)  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Gen, M/M
   • Complete Work

   19 Jan 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Merlin/Arthur Pendragon (Merlin)
   • Merlin & Arthur Pendragon (Merlin)
   • Merlin (Merlin)
   • Arthur Pendragon (Merlin)
   • Freya (Merlin)
   • Vilia (Merlin)
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Depression
   • Grief/Mourning
   • Unresolved
   • Ambiguous/Open Ending
   • Dark
   • Post-Canon
   • Immortal Merlin (Merlin)
   • Arthur is dead
   • Merlin Waiting for Arthur Pendragon's Return (Merlin)
   • Unrequited Love
   • emotional isolation
   • Loneliness
   • Trauma
   • Survivor Guilt
   • Long-Term Grief
   • Dissociation
   • self-destructive thoughts
   • mental health struggles
   • alcohol abuse (referenced)
   • Near Drowning
   • Hallucinations
   • Unreliable Narrator
   • Avalon - Freeform
   • Once and Future King
   • Fate
   • Free Will
   • letters never sent
   • Epistolary
   • Modern Era
   • introspective
   • Character Study
   • Slow Descent
   • Quiet despair
   • Bittersweet
   • Melancholy
   • Lyrical prose
   • this hurts on purpose
   • Loving a Ghost

   Summary

   Merlin has been waiting for a long time...

   Language:

   English

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