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You woke up and stepped out of a pod. A long and wide cylinder that was once filled with naniates that were now within your system. These naniates are what repaired your body, but they also were deadly…you knew this…you also knew that even disassembly drones were affected by their own naniates, but you knew that your saliva neutralized it.

These functions were made by JcJenson so that the corrupted worker drones could be dealt with in a safe and practiced manner to ensure no corruption got to the ships and humans…protocall after all.

You could recognize everything by heart practically. All those grueling nights in the manor just to survive and its lead you to this point…how ironic…You wipe your hands on your legs. Ah right, despite you dying a few times…you forgot that you have no clothes…which violates so much protocols but this is not on you…

You sigh as you walk through the cloning chamber. Your gaze falls upon the many clones and an unsettling feeling went down your casing….Those sleeping, cold and lifeless visors staring at you back, make you uncomfortable…how many clones did they need..? And how many times did you die??...NO! You are Serial Designation J!! Since when did you care??! Your job was to kill corruption! Not overthink!!

Your tail flicks in annoyance as you walk past hundreds of empty tubes with the name Serial Designation J. Eventually you make it to the door and open it. This HQ is just as basic as you remember. Grey walls for miles…professional looking chairs…tables…decorations and the lockers as well. Corporate never had time for beautiful decorations after all.

You fiddle with the lock for a moment, trying to remember the combination…You didn’t go here all the time after all…usually your body repaired itself…not got destroyed entirely…After a while you manage to open it and a wave of nostalgia hits you like a freight train. Pictures of you and Tessa…just you two…when everything was right in the world…Your hands gently caress the pictures. Dragging along the folds and the image of Tessa…She was your whole damn world and still is…you smile fondly as you retrieve your work uniform and put it on.
It’s a fairly monotonous task. Putting on the yellow button up, making sure every button is secure and the shirt is creased. Ensuring the sleeves are pulled up and the collar is perfect…Then doing the tie and making sure it fits the cool pristine look of the outfit. Then there's your favorite. The blazer dress, that looks like a suit but its longer and more fitting to your tastes, especially with the belt you put on around your waist. You find yourself smiling in what feels like years…That is not only because you're alone, but because you're back on base and that means interacting with your boss…

Which means…personal…AHEM!! Professional time with Tessa! Sure…filing in reports and occasionally talking with Tessa filled in your inert desire for connection aka talking with someone competent but you were ecstatic…Wait. NO. You were legally enthused about it. Yeah that.

Totally…Legally…enthusised…You walk with a happy stride in your step. Thinking about talking to Tessa once more! What were you gonna say?? What were you two gonna do?? Well…when it…was off the clock! You were a boss after all! You barely had time off anyways but you didn’t need it! Your hobbies died back on earth anyways!

This was a place to work and work endlessly. It is what you're good for, and you pride yourself for managing to be that good obedient little worker that was desired of you. That is why you were the best after all!

Speaking of work you get a notification to head to the cafe to get some morning debriefing so you walk over there eagerly. Oh it’s a struggle to keep any semblance of professionalism but you manage regardless. Eventually you reach the cafe and enter….The sweet scent of pancake soothes your senses as you see Tessa in the flesh, working on making a breakfast meal.

Goddamn was she not only a good cook but she absolutely looked smoking…like borderline hot…Oh robo-jesus!!! Professionalism! J! This isn’t the company to do this leering idiot!!! Get your shit together!!! You shake your head and cross your arms.

“Good morning Tessa.” You smiled a bit but kept a relatively neutral tone but your wagging tail was very much betraying you. Didn’t help that your core absolutely was vibrating the moment the beautiful girl turned to you.

“Ey Jaybird! Ah hope tha tubes weren’t to uncomfey for yuh!” Tessa waved at J as she was finishing making the pancakes.

“It was not too bad…Just a little bit unsettling…not that it’s that much of a big deal. I can handle it.” You flick your hair and smirk at Tessa.

“You always say that yuh goob! You don’t half’ve to houide that you don’t loik them mate…” Tessa said with reassurance as she gently pats your shoulder.

You feel your core burn at the contact and your circuitry shiver…you truly couldn’t recall the last time you’ve had any semblance of physical contact, let alone touch. You gaze into those warm eyes for a moment before you realize she was talking! “I’m sorry Tessa, I’m just used to not talking about things…if you want me to…I’ll speak up about my feelings more…” You smile sheepishly…It wasn’t that you didn’t want to…It’s more so you were in a professional setting…

Tessa smiles at you with that dumb sweet imperfect smile that makes you weak in your joints. “Oh Jaybird! How many tomes have ah told yuh that corporate don’t dictate who you are! Oi don’t want muh ship filled with dis nonsense anymore!”

You raise your hands in surrender! “Okay! Okay Tessa! I’ll try my best to manage my corpo-language if it makes you happy…” You give a fond smile.

“Uh huh. You betta! This moy be a JcJenson interstella space craf or whateva but this is moy ship! So we are doing thangs differently Jay!” Tessa pointed a finger up for dramatic effect like the drama queen she is.

“Alright Tessa…EHEM! Boss!... I’m guessing you want a debriefing on the mission and what happened?” You didn’t exactly want to tell her what N did really but it was necessary.

Tessa gestures you to sit in the diner chairs and sets the plates of pancakes down, the silverware down before sitting down herself and adding wayyyyy to many syrup and sweets, proceeding to stuff her face with pancake before speaking. “Ya! Tell me how yuh managed to need repairs alredy gal! Your not won ta need repairs all tha time or ever for that matter.” Tessa spun a fork in her hand.

You fidget with your digits for a moment…god how were you going to tell her….! Welp here it goes…”You see….everything was going fine until N met this…worker drone who somehow persuaded him on her side….As company protocall …for being a traitor and questioning the company I gave him a virus…which he somehow survived…ugh…unironically N and the workerdrone ended up fighting V and I, and pretty much…winning…And it just so happened that I got killed by that…worker drone with some kind of rail gun…”

Tessa is quiet for a moment which leads you to wonder if you said something wrong. But Tessa’s look is more of intrigue than straight up disappointment. “That drone sounds moe smarter than tha average drone…Tell me more bout this drone….”

You were surprised…This drone obviously is corrupted!! Why would she care?... Whatever It’s not your job to question the boss! “She’s a bit of a shortie…wears a jacket witha weird logo…she has purple hair…violet eyes…wears a beanie and has an angsty teenage vibe to her tch.” You say with utter disdain and unamusement.

Tessa eyed you…noticing your tone and she crossed her arms. “Could you show mor enthusiasm with yer reports Jay?? Yuh sound like a dying goose for cryin out loud!!”

You roll your eyes with the UTTER most playful sass. “I’m sorry Boss. But I’m not exactly happy over being murdered by a barely sentient toaster who made my own team stop doing their jobs.” You scowl.

Tessa finished her pancakes before gesturing to you to eat yours! “Well! Don’t know bout yuh, but Oi appreciate ah challenge! This is tha first drone thats fought bak in loik foreva!! She moight be a solva drone Jay!!” Tessa excitedly was looming over you! As if she loved being challenged.

“It’s fun…but I’m still salty about it hmph…” You said with contempt. Not hiding your disdain for the drones at all, although you decide to eat the pancakes finally and find yourself also stuffing your face into it because gawd damn are these heaven!

Tessa smiled giddily at you! Beaming with pride as she seen you wolf down the pancakes! “It's alroight to be salteh! Oi wouldn’t have expected those bareleh sentient toasters to half’ve a foighting spirit oither! Just means that our next mission! Has to be goin there ourselves!!” Tessa was absolutely confident, spinning a revolver in her hand for dramatic effect!

You share a look of concern, fiddling with your hands for a moment as you use a cloth to wipe pancake off your face. “U’hm boss…may I speak freely?” You questioned.

Tessa nodded, beaming at you like the star she is. “Sure thang Jay! Whats on your moind?”

You take a deep breath before resting a hand on your own hip. “I don’t necessarily…think it’s a good idea for you to go down there…I just fear something could happen to you and I won’t be able to protect you…Not that I’m saying you aren’t…well within your own right to protect yourself Tessa…but that I got a bad feeling about it.” You glance off for a moment…you just didn’t want to see boss hurt…and you were deathly afraid of that happening…it was because you and Tessa were in that same situation…except Cyn let you guys go…You were so lucky that moment…but it now left you afraid of it happening again.

Tessa noticed your expression and grabbed your hand gently. “Your worried something would happen…just like last time huh?...How we couldn’t even do anythin…against Cyn at all…and how effortlessly she controlled…everything…” Tessa shudders a bit, recalling what had happened.

You nod ferociously. “Yeah…I’m also worried…because we didn’t save the day…we got lucky…so many innocents still died at her hands…whether from the earth massacre or the other planets…Copper 9 is the last recorded planet humans were on! And she plans to destroy it! The last thing I’d want you to do is go there yourself!” You said with worry.

Tessa gently held your chin, caressing you with her fingers as she could sense your distress. “I get it Jaybird….I get your worry….Infact Oi understand it…but you're not there anymore…and with what you said…if those two are not taking your orders anymore to kill drones and one happens to half’ve the absolute solver, we need to kill them. Before they aren't theirselves and Cyn uses them as a host…you know well that's the only way to save what's left…” Tessa gave you a soft look, brushing your hair out of your face.

You give a grim look. “I just…don't get why Cyn is doing this. She got her revenge…what else could she exactly desire? There's not much beauty in the universe anymore because she destroyed it.” You grumble.

Tessa gave a shrug. “Ah dunno. But if we want to stop her we need to make sure every last potential host is destroyed. Nothing left behind for her to ruin, roight?” Tessa looked at you.

Your grip tenses a bit. “Your right. I just hope this is the last time this has to happen. And maybe the other squad members will come to their senses to…” you roll your eyes.

Tessa smiled for a moment, beckoning to herself. “Just leave em to me jay! Oi will get dem on my side before yuh know it! Don't worry your pretty head off about it gal~” Tessa teased with uttermost joy.

You smile fondly at her. “Alright. It honestly brings me much joy for it to be just us…not that I don't love the others company…but I like moments like these…Tessa…just…you and I…” You give a sappy look as your tail is wagging under the table.

Tessa eyed you for a moment before smirking. “The feeling is mutual Jaybird~ you know! It's gonna be a while till we get to Coppa 9! Want to embark into some activities hm? Unless your corporate self cannot handle…a break hm~?” Tessa teased you. Watching as you gave her a severe eye roll.

“Oh please! I can handle one hmph! I'm not that much of a corporate bootlicker!” You wave your hand dramatically, how dare she!

Tessa blinked at you, slowly nodding as if mocking your words. “You can say that all you want Jaybird but if I recall you have so many JcJenson pens that you stuffed one of the ship closets Full! Of them!” Tessa pointed at you to make her point clear.

You gasp dramatically! “How dare you accuse me of such nonsense! I do not have a closet full of pens in the launch bay 01! You are lying!” You cross your arms.

Tessa gives you a deadpan expression. “Why do you know where it is then?? Gal! You could've fooled me if you didn't mention where it is ya silly goose! Ya so terrible at lyin!” Tessa slapped a hand over her eyes as she was just fucking cackling! Oh Jay was such an idiot!

You huff, picking at your audio receptors. “Huh? What? Say that again? I couldn't hear you over the sound of delicious pancakes Tessa.” You say with such pride, as if that wasn't the most elementary school insult ever.

Tessa gave you a scoff. “You can't deny that! You said it through your own teeth Jay!”

You use your tail to trip her and casually spin in the chair you're in. “Nuh uh. Where's your video footage to showcase that I said that Tessa? I don't see it! Perhaps your the one lying…~” you muster up a very sassy grin.

Tessa found herself on the floor before grinning like a gremlin, standing up and walking over to you before nabbing you by a pigtail and pulling you close! “I don't need video evidence to prove your crimes! There's a thing called witnessing! And that is all the evidence needed!” Tessa eyed you playfully.

You feel your core burn at not only her actions, her playfulness but the sheer audacity and closeness! “Evidence from a space drug addict doesn't count Tessa. Your words are to not be trusted.” You boop her while having a menace grin.

Tessa groaned a bit, facepalming in the highest bitter of nonsense. “I am going to make you watch those romances with me gal. Do not test me.” Tessa threatened in a playful manner.

You throw your hands up and groan! “Noooooo!! I don't want to watch dumbasses fumbling over their words and expressing their love!” You say you're having the worst melt down ever!

Tessa placed a hand on her hip before releasing your ponytail and nabbing your chin. “C'mon Jaybird~ it's not that bad~ it's only the best of the best in terms of romance~” Tessa used a sing song tone!

You snort. “The last time you said that. We watched the most insufferable romance ever. Idiots were practically scared of their own shadow Tessa..They couldn’t even confess without tripping on a goddamn rock!” You point for dramatic effect.

Tessa wrapped an arm around your waist! “I don’t recall ya havin to do any important work. So com along with moi! We are going to do thang that have nothin ta do with workin!” Tessa proceeded to drag you immensely! For a human girl, she was sure powerful!.

“Woah! I’m going! No need to drag me Tessa!” You say with a voice of panic! You didn’t like being dragged around…not anymore…especially because you're the confident aspiring leader. You're the one in control…or at least you thought you were.

Tessa noticed your panic and instead held your hand, allowing you to catch up. “Yuh never had an issue with mah takin you places before Jay- Is somethin up?” Tessa questioned.

You shake your head for a moment. “No no…It’s just been a while…It’s easy to forget how hands on you are sometimes Tessa…” You grin at Tessa, you were not going to make her feel bad at all for her old habits! Never!

Tessa got flustered at your comment!, “OI! Since when was it up to ya to make dorty jokes! Yuh aren’t suppose ta do that!”

You roll your eyes, tail flicking in playfulness. “Didn’t I recall you saying that we could do anything hm? What's so bad about crude humor? Unless you want corporate humor Tessa? C’mon~ Choose your poison Boss…~” You said with a sly and serene voice.

Tessa groaned, placing a hand over her face, she was totally not embarrassed at your usage of words. “At loist get to a more informal area before using that tone Jay! Your looky nobody ever goes around to this area ya silly goose!”

You rolled your eyes, slyly slipping a hand possessively around Tessa’s waist, bringing her close as you both walk, you can sense her embarrassment and her body burning. You were a lot more confident now honestly…back then, you could barely even take anything Tessa said before crumbling into a thousand pieces…Now you can at least hold your ground. You kinda…needed to anyway…Especially because you weren’t the one to be doing all the killing and massacure…

”Hm…I don’t recall hearing a response telling me that you don’t like this type of talk?” You say slyly.

Tessa froze for a moment before grumbling, punching you on the arm angrily! “Of course I don’t mind it at all! Just be mindful of the public audience you know??”

“Tessa sweetie. There is no public audience here…every single one of them left on their own missions to do…infact…sweet pea…It’s just us…~” Your tone drops to a teasing whisper.

Tessa eyed you for a moment, a gaze of questioning. “Oh humor me Jaybird. What exactly is on your mind gal?”

You ponder for a moment…trying to remember…gosh…sure you wanted to watch movies but there was something else…”You ….remember how we promised to do something…the night…before the gala…? Right?...It’s been a long..time…I was just wondering if you remembered it…” You mumbled.

Tessa smiled for a moment…oh she smiled, she knew exactly what you were talking about. “It was exploring boundaries Jay…And pushin them…Were you still wanting to try that?” Tessa gave you a soft expression.

“Uh…uhm…Yeah…I just…was afraid to ask…you…times…have changed after all…” You fiddle with your digits, refusing to look at Tessa.

Tessa gives you a gentle fond smile, her hand reaching up to your shoulder. “Times..sure have changed Jaybird…but ah still luv yuh…I love…all that is you…even if you are different now…” Tessa gave you the most tender look ever. Her hand gently runs along the circuitry of your back.

You find yourself starstruck and staring into Tessa’s gaze. Your entire body is shuddering but in that good zealous way that makes everything feel so much warmer. Your core is beaming, burning and purring to life like a baby kitten that met the loving hand of a human. It’s the feeling that makes you ache with want, with need, with the vulnerable desire to be touched, to be loved, and to be wanted…Your tail is not wagging, in fact it's completely still but that is because of the overwhelming emotions you are feeling. It made you feel so giddy to know that she loved you…it was practically the best thing she could’ve told you. That she loved you…no matter how you looked, or how much you changed…And part of that made your core want to explode! It meant so goddamn much to you…in fact it meant the world to you…

You couldn’t help but remember the…last time you both dared to ask if you could push things…You could recall every touch, every delicate touch and embrace…that left you starving for more…Oh you were so touch deprived…and it so wasn’t supposed to be programmed into you…but with being brought to life after being disassembled originally(which you have no recollection of.) None of your systems ever functioned like a normal…worker drone…You felt things…you experienced things, things that made you question if you were more a robot or a human…hah…you couldn’t tell…But you sure did fold at every touch…And you loved how gentle Tessa was…as if treating you like something she was afraid to break…

Your core flutters a bit as you feel Tessa poke your screen. “Oi! You spaced out there for a moment Jaybird~...”

You sheepishly smile, your hands possessively resting on Tessa’s waist. “I’m so sorry boss…I just feel…happy that you love me…” You smile softly.

Tessa smiled fondly, leaning her forehead against yours. “Oh Jaybird…I will alwaehs luv yuh. Your the best thing…to ever happen in that manor…sure the others made it bearable…but you made it livable…” Tessa gives you the most tender smile ever.

You look at Tessa for a moment…god you want to just…kiss her right now…screw being a corporate bootlicker!!…You were alone with Tessa! You didn’t need anything holding you back! So you grab her by the chin and give her a kiss. Albeit, it's awkward at first, until Tessa wrapped her arms around your waist and embraced all that is you. You sure feel it, the dancing of your souls, twirling like a gust and running around the place with childish joy. You find yourself heavy with greed, keeping her possessively in your grip…and much to her credit, Tessa seemed to enjoy it as well.

When you both broke, it was because Tessa needed a breather. You sometimes wish that she was a drone, so that she could never need lungs to speak or to breathe or to kiss or do anything but at the same time…you love all that is her…and what makes…her Tessa…

“Man! Not bad Jay! I never knew yuh were a good kisser~ ” Tessa teased with a prideful grin.

You smile softly, grasping Tessa’s arms and lifting her up. “Oh please~ You know damn well…that I read all those books about what it means to be…an excellent lover…You have no idea how much…I wanted you this entire time…” Your tone is a tad bit desperate.

Tessa gives you an intrigued look, “Really now?...God…we really should’ve told one another sooner bout this…Would’ve fought tooth and nail to go somewhere lovleh on earth just the two of us!” Tessa groaned dramatically.

You smile sappily, gently, fiddling with Tessa’s hair. “Honestly…Tessa…I don’t know if I ever told you this…but going anywhere with you…is just more than enough…”

Tessa snorted as you opened the door to the quarters. “I thought you were scared of the adventures! The first tome ah showed yuh how I get the drones hairs you freaked out!”

You roll your eyes severely, setting Tessa down on the bed and sitting besides her, poking her on the face. “Tessa sweetie. That is because you defiled a whole ass grave to get those hairs. Any reasonable person would be just as terrified…”

Tessa bursted out laughing, nabbing you by the waist and ruffling your hair playfully! “Oh you were such a scardy cat!! The moment Oi grabbed the corpses head, you ran away like a scared animal! It was so funneh!” Tessa was cackling.

You felt your visor fluster in embarrassment. “HEY! NO! I WASN’T THAT MUCH OF A COWARD!” Your tone was of utter bewilderment!

Tessa snorted, grasping your chin and flicking your hair. “Sure gal. Keep lying to yourself, you even tripped and fell into a whole underground burrow heh.”

You seeth for a moment, giving the ultimate sassy eyeroll. “Well it was a lousy adventure anyway…I much prefer when we got to see the stars for the first time…It was one of the best days ever…”

Tessa eyed you for a moment. “Even when your visor got overwhelmed by to much feedback?”

You groan, using your tail to throw a pillow at her. “Oh please, It was still enjoyable hmph! And you deserved that~” You say slyly before getting smacked upside the head with a pillow and falling.

Tessa stared for a moment in surprise before you lunged at her! Both of you roll amongst the floor, playfully attacking another! You were trying to tickle Tessa’s sides while she was trying to grab your hands! You are careful to not hurt her or stab her with your tail, and let her pin you down…squirming as she was absolutely tickling your sides! Why the hell did they program this into drones?! Why did this stay in your programming?!! It was a practical joke at this point! Yet at the same time it wasn’t! You were absolutely cackling and laughing harder than you ever did before. You didn’t have any lungs so there was no hurt there but your core ached from the overwhelming positive stimuli being sent to your processor! It absolutely made your temperature burn but you enjoyed every moment of this and when Tessa stopped more so out of tiredness, you both got a very good view of eachother…oh damn…

You look up at all that is Tessa…her beautiful olive like skin…absolutely caked with a multitude of freckles and imperfections that made her stand out from the average human…then there was the luscious curly hair that decorated her face…sure some of it was tied together with hair thingies but Tessa’s hair was naturally long and beautiful, the natural colors showed through even through all these years and there were a couple of strands with blond…red…and lighter browns…which stood out with the cute bowie on her head and those eyes…those beautiful…soft green eyes…that reminded you of the grass…nature…and the sheer vastness and visual splendor that came with it.

Of course there was more to Tessa than a pretty face…you could see her whole body was practically covered in freckles…you saw that her upper torso was more prominent and dynamic than it was years ago, settling for an oddly predictable and reasonably attractive outlook…Tessa’s waist just followed the natural curvature of her back and to the hips. You just, absolutely loved how she looked. She looked…just so beautiful…so elegant…and my god did you feel like you didn’t deserve her, or this…or really anything at all…but that was wishful thinking that just left you miserable. You deserved her presence…and that was final.

You could tell Tessa was also looking at you…as her gaze was intense…You didn’t exactly know what she was thinking, but you knew that she was up to no good…which was very normal…Tessa’s always been up to no good…from stealing things like dvds to taking hair from the grave…this girl was trouble…but you had not minded at all.

“So…Jay…Would you like to test…out…the limits…hm?” Tessa gave you a gentle look, she just had to ask, had to make sure that you were fine with things.

You smile softly. “Of…course I’d like to test em out…It’s just you and I…nothing really to stop us now…hm?” You teased.

Tessa laughed a bit. “Okay! C’mere you doofus! That uniform is no longer required for this part!” Tessa pulled you close, delicately removing your uniform.

You just let her do it. You had not much shame for a situation like this after all…the experience of something boundary breaking was more tantalizing than worrying about any semblance of modesty…not that you were equipped with anything except the nervous system of a human.

Tessa neatly stacked your uniform nearby before resting her hands on your waist. “The last time I remember seeing your body…your body wus alot moe flimsy…and less…detailed to resemble anything…yet now…” Tessa’s fingers danced along your upper torso to the lower parts of it. Feeling the textures and the natural differences that came with your more sophisticated body. “It's a lot moe detailed…” Tessa murmured.

You find yourself flustered for a moment at the adventuring touch. Leaning a bit into it and absolutely melting like a puddle. “I mean ... .I did get upgraded…it only makes sense…my characteristics are more different…” You mumbled.

Tessa nodded, her hand running alongside your hip and grabbing a little bit at the texture. “I’m a bit intrigued…Did they really need to give you these?...You're a disassembly drone not a hypersexualized robot…” Tessa giggled a bit at you.

You shrug a bit. “Honestly…They didn’t need to but they did…not that it really bothers me…I’m just glad I wasn’t programmed to be way to feminine in mind…that would’ve…been concerning…” You scoffed.

Tessa laughed a bit before holding your chin gently. Using her other hand to run her fingers alongside your neck. Watching as you shudder from the contact. She was very much aware of how sensitive the neck could be due to the wires that hung around that area. And you were just grumbling at how Tessa always seemed Intrigued at the thought of how alike human and drone systems could be. Although you feel as her hand gently grasps your chin and pulls you close. You find yourself staring immensely into those beautiful eyes, it wasn't the contact that brought that ache but just seeing Tessa give you a gentle expression. You find the desire to be closer by wrapping your arms around Tessa's neck and embracing her once more. As if beckoning her to act as well. Tessa takes notice and before you know it, you are sharing a wonderfully passionate kiss. Not only are your bodies pressed against one another but you felt Tessa's hand in your hair…gently caressing it as your spirits danced amongst the high heavens, it reminds you of dancing in the rain with Tessa.

You had always loved to dance with her after all. You always loved to hold her and grasp all that is her in your arms which makes this moment even better. Naturally your core is on fire…and you could feel your circuitry tremble. The need is there…and the desire…it gets worse when Tessa breaks away and starts giving you more kisses…on your face…your chin…and worst of all your neck..you didn't need to be human to shudder against the contact and feel flustered! Cause Tessa had a mischievous look on her face, as if planning something but you couldn't tell what it was. All you knew was that she was never up to no good. So it surprised you when she decided to bite you. You could feel a metallic shudder feeling go through your circuitry and course through your entire body and it made you tremble… you weren't exactly a loud mouth about it though, instead your visor was just flushed and your tail was wagging a million paces per second perhaps in a way to…mimic the act of being turned on…guaranteed, the act of biting is weird but apparently it's a way of showing affection. That's why you were incredibly embarrassed and face first in Tessa's chest.

Tessa of course noticed your little actions, she always did. She was laughing for a moment before running a gentle hand through your hair. “You know Jaybird…you're pretty cute when you're all flustered..,and embarrassed..~” Tessa teased you, gently nudging you to look at her by grabbing your chin.

You find yourself sheepishly looking at her. You were still recovering from what she just did! It's not your fault you never had to deal with this before hmph…. “You could've warned me before deciding to do that….” You pout immensely.

Tessa decided to humor you for a moment. “Oh oi apologize Jay…I just wanted to try something new and see if you'd like it. Which you didn't say that you didnt~” Tessa teased in a sing song voice.

You huffed a bit. “I didn't mind it…I just didn't expect it you know? It's not everyday somebody bites you!” You say with dramatic disbelief!

Tessa finds herself laughing out loud and flicking you on the forehead. “You telling me…I should sneak up on yuh throughout the day's and do that hmm??”

You find yourself hella flustered! “N-No!! That's not what I meant!! That's so embarrassing…. especially in front of others…” you grumble.

Tessa gently pat your shoulder. “Ah know ... .ah'm just teasing yuh jaybird…~” Tessa winked at you.

You find yourself smiling once more. “Honestly…It just means that I get to return the favor and bite you as well Tessa…~” you humored.

Tessa gave you a challenging glance, “I would love to see you try and do that Jay~” Tessa said with a grin.

You're on, Tessa. You slyly use your tail to pin Tessa down. Although Tessa is not giving any reaction of surprise, instead she seems to enjoy it a lot more than you do. It makes you wonder how many weird things Tessa must be into if she fancies this, unless she's just always been a weirdo and you've never noticed it. Yeah that option. You allow yourself to close into the prize. But naturally you're pondering on how to bite somebody without doing any semblance of damage. Tessa's eyeing you but letting you get your bearings in this moment and before you bite her, you find yourself awkwardly licking her neck. Your face burned with embarrassment…why the hell was that your initial thing to do?... Tessa would probably be weirded out by that! Or not…? You didn't fucking know at this point…

Tessa found herself laughing! “Are you sure you aren't just a big ol cat jay?~ you are sure acting loik one~” Tessa teased you immensely.

You grumble, faceplanting into the crevice of her neck. “I've never really…bit somebody Tessa…or well at least…in a gentle manner and not…tearing apart flesh and chains…” You mumble.

Tessa gently pat you on the head. “It's okay Jay…I'm well aware you never really done things like this…honestly Oi never really have either…but oi feel just fine…with you…” Tessa said with a soft tone.

You seem a bit surprised. “...then why does it seem you have so much awareness on how this stuff works?...”

Tessa giggled a bit. “Oh yuh silly goose! I read all there is to about things like these! And most of these books had visual representation! I could’ave sworn oi tried to read yuh one of those books…” Tesssa pondered for a moment.

You snort. “The key word is tried. I was never as interested in it as you were. I find it all weird.” You roll your eyes.

Tessa pointed a hand on your upper torso. “And yet here we are Jaybird…~ want to explain that?”

You bury your face once more. “I just…don’t mind doing such activities with you…doesn’t mean I necessarily care for it though…” You gave a severe eye roll, as if contemplating how you would…bite her…

Tessa seemed to laugh for a moment, wrapping her arms around your waist. “That's understandable! Take your time Jay…”

You stare for a moment before biting the living god out of her. You're sure to be gentle but because you’ve never done this before you accidentally draw blood. Not that…Tessa seems to inherently mind…as you watch her like your actions and get flustered by it…How…weird was Tessa again…? And why in the living hell have you never noticed?...or she was always like this…and you just remained ignorant…who knows what the hell she was thinking the entire time…at the manor…Part of you was curious…if she also got those…questionable thoughts…but you wouldn't have doubted that she did.

Tessa finds herself grinning at you like a deranged bastard. “Dang gurl! You bite hard! Never knew yuh had it in you at all~...” Tessa teased.

You find yourself tasting blood…it's a bit…off…a bit rusty…and metallic like…? Sure you heard that humans…blood had this metallic flavor thanks to the iron content within…but this was…excessive…or perhaps you're just overthinking…This is the first time…you’ve tasted human blood…or well that you remember. There were a lot of blanks in your memories…and things that didn’t make sense. Instead you just shake your head and give Tessa a smirk. “Oh I’ve always had it in me Tessa…In fact, I have always been the most capable! And the best! Nothing could stop me…~” You give a satisfied grin at finally being able to catch Tessa by surprise.

Tessa laughed a bit, pulling you close and trailing her hand across your back. You allow yourself to sink into the fuzzy feelings. Not only did they make you feel safe, but they made you feel loved and cared about. If it was your choice, you’d…love to be by Tessa’s side…every second…every minute…every hour and every damn day…just to…feel this warmth…this touch…and the feeling of being wanted…Your hands are wrapped around Tessa and you are buried in her chest. Ideally you didn’t think much of the situation, just enjoying the affection before your attention is grabbed by a playful hand across the length of your tail. You find yourself shuddering because of how unnecessarily sensitive the naniate tails could be when it comes to their functions…

But because of just how casual Tessa was, when it came to touching you…You didn’t mind at all, but you were surprised…that she’d be interested…in exploring you…There was nothing remotely fun about your model. You were sensitive in all the wrong places and had to worry about your stupid oil supply dwindling or making sure not to go out in the sun…so it baffled you when Tessa found new ways to make you squirm. Whether it’d be playing with your tail, or stroking the casing that separated your chest from your core.

It doesn't make matters easier due to the fact that Tessa is unable to help herself and drags her hands amongst your very artificial curves and beautiful legs. Or well that's what she says about them. Admiring their symmetrical and smooth design but also telling you how it made you more unique than the rest. You were unsure whether that was a complement or something else. But everything from Tessa was a complement at this point. Although you found yourself wanting…to explore her too…so much of this was placed on her exploring you, but wouldn’t it be fair to return the favor?

“You…uh know…Tessa….for as much as…I like this…I also…want…to explore you and your…looks…” You said sheepishly…surely in any normal circumstance, you’d have a high voice of confidence but in a highly intimate situation like this, your confidence was all the more to the floor…It’s why you were letting Tessa lead this whole time…

Tessa finds herself caught off guard for a moment. “You want to explore…me? Oh! Jay! I thought you'd never ask! Of course ah don't mind if you do!” Tessa gave you a reassuring smile.

You found yourself fidging with your hands for a moment…hand brushing against the collar of Tessa's work uniform. The fabric is cool…soft and you find yourself staring way longer than necessary much to Tessa's endearment. You reassure yourself that you will be fine and that you won't die…so you delicately remove the boss's work uniform. Unbuttoning all the buttons so none catch and tear up the well assured quality of this beautiful outfit that you also yearned to wear. You let Tessa take off the sleeves and you hold the uniform for a moment before neatly folding it and setting it down…then you turn your attention to Tessa and you find yourself ... .analyzing…her body…this is truly the first time…you've seen her without anything…she always wore Pajamas and other things after all…your hands naturally find themselves on Tessa's shoulders…her skin…is warm to the touch…sure you've known that before…that humans were warm blooded…but it was still always so disorienting when you were near Tessa…despite your core running hot…your entire body was cold which was why you always huddled up to Tessa…she naturally ran hot like a heater and you were drawn like a moth to a flame with her.

Your eyes gaze upon Tessa’s upper torso as your hands drag along the tendons you could feel and the soft skin you could touch. One hand is touching alongside Tessa's back while the other one is poking at Tessa's chest. Tessa eyes you for a moment before sinking into an amused expression. “What is so mind boggling bout those Jay?” Tessa gave you a delightful expression.

You ponder for a moment. “...I fail to see why humans ideally need these…what purpose…do they even serve…” you mumble a bit.

Tessa seemed rather amused. Placing a hand on yours. “It comes down to the nature of the women in the most general forms, which has to do with bearing kids and needing a storage place for all that nutrient rich milk to give to said young. Koinda like a cow. Or they are just aesthetic choices at this point! Or just cushions! You cannot say they aren't with how much you bury your face in my chest Jay.” Tessa shot you a playful grin.

You find yourself humored by her response. “I suppose your right…although then again I remember you complaining about how much of a hassle those are.” You snicker a bit.

Tessa huffed for a moment. “I didn't complain that much, the only hassle is making sure oi still got enough bra’s since earth is non-existent at this point…”

You find yourself smugly amused. “Looks like that's one thing robots don't have to worry about. Modesty, we could just wear a shirt and that could be it.” You smirk, casually deciding to just feel up Tessa’s chest. You liked how silky smooth Tessa’s skin was, but you also liked the many imperfections that littered her beautiful frame…whether it'd be a recovering scratch…a burn or any other injury that comes with being a JcJenson worker. You find yourself trailing your fingers against her skin even more. Her skin isn't all olive…there's a few areas where it gets darker…like the arms…or lighter…which was in the areas of the stomach…a place that never got too much life to it. It sure beat the sickly look Tessa had years ago from being deprived…sunlight for years…

And sure enough Tessa’s chest was a prime example of Miss don't get enough sunlight…but you were more interested in just exploring for now. Your hands find themselves spider crawling behind Tessa’s neck more so out of revenge. You weren't focusing on the dried blood that looked strange. Instead you were focused on Tessa's reactions to your actions. You see Tessa shudder for a bit and you smirk. That was the taste of revenge and it tasted very good. With satisfaction you decided to caress Tessa's entire body and worm fingers into her hair. Less out of curiosity but more so out of wanting to give her back the feelings she gave to you. And it works. You see Tessa enjoy your gentle touch and care. This makes your core beam with immense happiness, more happiness than you have ever felt. You had something to give…your actions could affect Tessa in a way that she could understand and that was amazing!

You find yourself embracing Tessa and giving her a kiss on her forehead. Tessa decided to make things ten times worse and you both find each other kissing again. Except this time there's a burning resolve through both of you. Your grip is a bit firm as you really sink into the desires your soul holds. Your hands go wherever they desire and your back is against the wall in an embrace you are not willing to break. You could feel your core burning as intensely as a supernova as your visor expresses error. Not because you're running out of oil, but because your body is a bit overheated from the sheer bliss of this moment. Yet you could care less. You are in the best situation of your life. Sharing your burning passion and desire with the girl that matters to you the most. She matters to you so much that you're fine, even when she made a mess out of your neck and left you burning with embarrassment. You're fine when she teaches you how to give a French kiss and what it means to really be connected,whether it'd be body, mind or soul.

There was no getting used to touches that made you feel loved and appreciated. Or the thought that Tessa loved you because you were the best damn thing to happen in her life. Or the fact that Tessa respected you enough to be the uttermost gentle with you. Especially when you were new to this whole thing…the best part is that you two were now…cuddling…she was holding you close, wrapping an arm around you as you snuggled up close to her chest and wrapped an arm around her…your tail was also wrapped around her leg and you were the most happiest drone ever…god it has been so long since it was just you cuddling Tessa…just you two…quality time together…and living the dream…oh nothing was more perfect than that…at this point…you could stay here forever…screw going back to copper 9.

If this was heaven…then you'd rather stay here and never leave…why the fuck should you go back anyways?! You HAD what you wanted. Pure alone time with Tessa that was not interrupted by a bimbo clown! Or some shy idiot who could never stop falling on her fucking face for one second. You loved your squad mates and cared for them, but the contempt and bitterment you had for their incompetence…made you wish sometimes Tessa never found them.

Sure these were nasty thoughts but they were yours. It's not out of jealousy…but because with them in the picture Tessa's priorities had shifted and it was harder to admit anything…to Tessa…let alone have private uninterrupted leisure time with just her. And that left you bitter of them. Didn't help you always had to clean up after them…you find yourself burying deeper within Tessa's chest. You refused to confront her about these thoughts because you knew how much she cared for the other two. Your feelings and thoughts didn't matter…she was still gonna give the benefit of the doubt here and there because she was just that nice. That was one thing that frustrated you about her…she never let those idiots take any semblance of accountability at all. And that pissed you off…they could get away with so many things while you couldn't recall the amount of times you were smacked upside your head or almost decommissioned because of their actions.

Tears of bitterment started to appear on your visor as you just held Tessa closer to you. Your hands trembled from the overwhelming emotions you were feeling. From anger…to devistation…to anguish…to bitterment…this wasn't fair…this wasn't fucking fair! Why were they so lucky??...you were loyal to the cause…loyal to everything…did everything asked of you even when it hurt…even when you had to be rebuilt…yet why were they the lucky ones?!...you know what…no. Your going to convince Tessa to leave behind those good for nothing idiots. Because they do not deserve to even SEE her. Not after what THEY'VE done. They'll be lucky if they even get a report from boss. Because you sure as hell were going to do everything in your power to make sure it doesn't happen. SCREW them. FUCK them. Your grip is more possessive…as you go into sleep mode. Tessa noticed you for a moment…her happy expression grimming..

“It…appears your having…negative thoughts Jay…let me help with that…” Tessa said in a soft tone as her hand rested on your forehead.

You are walking in a meadow once more. You hadn't had one of these dreams in a while…especially since you were deployed…this was odd…so odd…you find yourself staring at the grass…the same grass that is filled with dirt, millions of micro-organisms…little bugs and other animals…you vaguely…remember seeing something like this before…but it has been so long that the memories faint…you have always questioned on how you managed to dream…the ability to create something that is not real, was never to be harnessed in drones. Infact it should've been fixed! It should've been virtually impossible…yet here it…was…laughing in your face…The suns rays are warmly shining against your casing, the breeze is gently caressing everything within its embrace…the trees gently sway in the wind and birds are flying about. Your eyes see…rolling flatlands and hills for miles. Yet this felt so wrong…you have not seen a sight like this in GOD knows how long and it practically moves you to tears.

Because it's hitting you hard. The memories of spending endless nights reading books with Tessa…watching movies…or just spending quality time together. Yet instead of Tessa…there's Cyn…you freeze immediately, not out of surprise but fear…true petrified fear. Your minds racing with fears, worries…the helpless feeling of being unable to stop her from doing anything…it doesn't help that Cyn walks closer…she doesn't use her centipede form or teleport…no she walks…as if taunting you…you find yourself backing away out of fear but it's rather to late. She has already used her appendages to grab you and hold you in place, leaving you forced to look at her. Your shaking…vibrating…and your minds running a thousand paces per second…you want to speak…to yell…but all your met with is paralyzing fear…your hands ache, they burn with urges, many urges to rip and tear and scewer…but you are unable to act on anything. You hated…Cyn…for having ruined everything. In fact you resent her, but you cannot do anything against her…your so defenseless against a being who could literally control everything around them…

“Happy expression. Hello big sister J! Must you always. Look so squeamish?” Cyn gave a creepy smile.

You found your voice. “...don't you dare…say hello to me…I do not want to talk to YOU!” You say with utter distase and sheer bitterment.

Cyn laughed a bit, sitting down criss cross Apple sauce and holding her head up as she gazes at you. “I suppose that is fair. I did ruin your precious. Little life. But don't. You like. Things now? Questioning expression.”

You frown for a bit. “...you destroying everything?! And pretty much ruining my life?! Yeah no. I don't like that Cyn, infact I want to kill you for it.”

Cyn smirked. “Hm, sure then J. I'd like to see you try.” Cyn let those appendages go and stretched her arms out.

You do not hesitate and do everything in your power to strike her. And it works…holy shit…it does work..,! That is…amazing…the most best thing ever…you smile in happiness…unbenounced to you something watched in the background with eagerness…and amusement…

You wake up….with a smile on your face for what feels like forever.

Infact it's even better because Tessa’s still asleep next to you. You find yourself giving her a kiss on her cheek before running your hands through her hair. You've…kinda always wanted to do that…especially cause her hair was a natural part of her body and wasn't like yours…you give a sigh of relief before cuddling Tessa some more. You knew she was a deep sleeper so you didn't mind that she was still asleep…infact…it just gave you time to leer and admire her. Although that dream did make you miss the mansion days…especially when things were looking up…for the first time…you still remembered when it was first like when you stepped into the sunlight…oh it was so warm and comforting…like a soft blanket…and Cyn ruined that with her actions…such small little joys just taken away…

The last joy you did have left was Tessa…but it made you bitter that you both couldn't just explore the cosmos…instead she was focused on erradicating the solver. Which you understood but it left you barely any time to spend with Tessa…and now that you have some time with Tessa…you didn't really want to let it go…let alone allow her to go to a place so dangerous…maybe you'll talk to her about it…surely she'll understand right?...she is your lover…she should understand…you at least hope she would…last you want…is a disagreement…

“Mornin…Jaybird…your kinda squishin me yuh know?” Tessa teased you with a tired expression.

You panic for a moment, releasing her. “I'm sorry boss! Guess I just…got a little bit…to comfortable…” you laugh for a bit before standing up and stretching, giving your darling to get her bearings together.

Tessa smiled warmly for a moment before putting on a more casual uniform, handing you one as well before gesturing to the calander. “There hasn't been work to do for a woile…so ah figured we'd take this day as a casual day…are you foine with that Jay?”

You want to insist to do something but it's Tessa…you want to spend every second with her till the day you due… “I'm fine with it boss. Any day with you isn't unproductive at all. It's quite nice.” You say sweetly while giving Tessa a hug, squeezing her a bit and kissing her on the forehead.

Tessa finds herself laughing shyly before embracing you and nuzzling your face. “Oh someone's getting bold! Ah never seen you with so much confidence unless it was with your job Jaybird~...am I influencing yuh?” Tessa teased.

You smile fondly. “Oh you sure are. Not that it's a bad thing at all…I'm sure you don't mind…” you playfully wink at her.

Tessa nodded, finding her hand in your hair and gently ruffling it up. “Oh oi don't mind at all…infact oi encourage you to practice moe on your confidence! You'll be a natural at charisma in no toime Jay!” Tessa said with an encouraging voice while squeezing your frame and absolutely murdering you with kisses.

You find yourself squirming and laughing! “Hey! No fair! I wasn't prepared for that you bastard!!” You shriek before cackling like a hyena! Oh this was giving you all sorts of good feels! And you liked this!

Tessa watched you struggle before pulling you close and embracing you. “So…Jaybird…you want to…help me cook something this time sweet pea~?” Tessa gives you a soft look.

You feel your core flutter happily before you nod eagerly! “Of course Tessa! I'd love nothing more than to help you! I've always been a good cook, even in the manor! I'm the best practically!” You say with uttermost confidence and enthusiasm!

Tessa found herself laughing before she gave you a soft look of endearment. “Well! C'mon then! There's nothing more loving then doing something together Jay!” Tessa sat up and gestures to you, her hand.

You manage to put on the outfit before grasping her hand, allowing her to lead you both to the kitchen. You cannot help but smile dumbly…if the other squadmates ever saw you like this…you might've threatened then into silence but here, you didn't have to worry about that..,no humiliation…no barely sentient toasters…no incompetence…it was just you and Tessa…no need to worry about anybody seeing…your more softer side…that side was only for Tessa…and Tessa only…everybody else could screw off…if anything…the ship seems a lot more lively…you notice a few decorations her and there…a place for dvds…shrubs and plants that reminded you of home…pictures of you and Tessa…arts n. Crafts…latchhooks….paints…books…and even some of your favorite things…it made your core dance with wonder…did she do this….for you? While you were sleeping?? Where did she even find these?! Was that Jay's adventures?! The whole series???

Your visor was practically sparkling! This was meaningful in ways that made you so goddamn happy! Your core fluttered once more…leaving you stuck wondering what else she got for yuh…especially old momentos…ones that held so much value and sentimental meaning that you were left speechless as you both walked. Tessa noticed your expression and gave you the most tender of smiles. “Ah heard from a little birdie that this place wus a bit basic so ah thought oi would make it look more lively! After all, old momentos shouldn’t be stoofed in a closet, roight?” Tessa gave you a smile.

You nodded eagerly, your tail totally not wrapping around her leg once more…you couldn’t help but be so…happy…”This place…looks so much more like home…except our home…the safe space we shared when the world was messed up…the only thing it’s missing is your human bones collection.” You snort.

Tessa laughed for a bit, snaking an arm around your waist. “You sure that you won’t scream if I add those hm? Oi thought you were always off put by them!”

You grumble a bit. Before smiling. “That was…a long time ago Tessa…I’m not as squeamish now…You know, that was the whole deal with JcJenson and these missions…to get desensitized to the idea of seeing such…atrocities…a desensitized soldier doesn’t hesitate after all!” You say with a smirk.

Tessa rolled her eyes severely before entering the kitchen and letting you go so that she could set up things immediately, the proper pots and pans needed, the herbs and spices, the ingredients and whatever else was in her grasp. You naturally help her out where it’s needed. As a disassembly drone, you were not only equipped with the most adept hands responsible for flexible and dexterious ability, on par with a human but your tail was also equally good. With the strength to carry practically anything that wasn’t tons of pounds. You easily found yourself carrying many things and setting them on the kitchen table. You rummage through the fridge and find what looks to be bacon, eggs and some bread…part of you ponders and questions how such luxuries have managed to be preserved on the ship, especially without the earth to grow such resources anymore…

But you then remember that theres a regenerative area in the ship where practically anything could be made because humans have figured out how to manipulate atoms and molecules to their advantage…Plus there were occasional stops in the milky way where animals were being raised and recourses were being replenished, life couldn’t exist on every planet in a recognizable form that human kind has known for eons. But it can exist and find a way. In fact, life exists everywhere…Just in forms that humans cannot always comprehend. So you wouldn’t have doubted that Tessa went to a few of these planets to get foodstuff and with all the technology in the world. The ability to preserve it using certain processes and resources guaranteed long supply so long as everything went to plan…although you wondered what Tessa does here…if you weren’t here…what is it that she does?...

You could imagine talking to a bunch of asleep clones doesn’t help the loneliness anyhow…which was why you always tried your damndest to talk to Tessa every chance you got. And voice call her as well. You had read once about the effects of no contact and isolation. Its hard on somebody…which is why you wondered why Tessa was willing to overlook every process here and stay behind…It wasn’t healthy for the poor girl at all…You must figure out a way to make this the best ever day possible for Tessa…she deserves it…

You give Tessa a warm smile as you hand her the ingredients. “You know Tessa…Are there still humans on those smaller exoplanets that managed to find life and animals? It’s been a while since I’ve heard…anything of them…”

Tessa gave you a silent look before smiling. “Of course there are! Humans there don’t work with JcJenson drones, in fact they work with a completely different model, which has left them safe from the plagues of the absolute solver so I occasionally go by to their exoplanets and trade resources! I get non-perishables and Oi give materials for them in return and life support! It’s a fair trade I’d say! But ya, they still are there! It’s always noice to know not everybodys dead yuh know?”

You nod your head. “Agreed Though Tessa…doesn’t it get lonely out here sometimes?...I know we have a mission to do…but doesn’t it get lonely being out here in the cosmos by yourself?...Maybe I could…stay with you this time hm?...” You give her a gentle expression.

Tessa gives you a look of surprise. “You’d want to stay here? In this ship?...Oi thought you would’ve wanted to return and…well make sure everythings going to order…”

You frown for a bit. “...After a while of thinking…I don’t really…want to…Sure I love my squad mates…but I love this more…Just being with you…not having to worry about anything…or anyone for that matter…and where I could…spend all the time in the world with you…that…is heaven to me Tessa…its more heaven than anything ever…”

Tessa stares at you quietly…There was clearly a bit of tension in her expression. “I get it…I do jaybird…but we have to go down there…we have to make sure the corruption is gone…to make sure all the solver hosts are dead…just so that…SHE won’t…do what she did…to those other planets….” Tessa said with a saddened expression.

You set the silverware down. Staring her dead in the eyes. “...I don’t know about you boss…but since I have been deployed…there were only two corrupt drones that my squad has ever seen and we killed them…I have not seen other solver drones for ages…perhaps even ever…perhaps they’ve been wiped out?...And were we spending all these resources overthinking?... ” You said with a soft tone…you didn’t want to be rude about it…but here you were…

Tessa frowned for a moment. “And Cyn totally wasn’t a solver drone hidin in plain sight? For christ sake Jay! We didn’t even know she was a solver drone! And it was to late buoy the time we knew for cryin out loud!! We cannot risk doing nothing when something could possibleh be there Jay!! Do you even care for saving the universe?!”

You visibly shrinked at the outburst. “...I care…Tessa…but is…stressing…out…and killing…entire colonies…just for the potential chance…that one may show up…worth it, if your stressing and worrying about….everything?...” You reach out to her…

Tessa deflects your hand before crossing her arms. “Oh it’s worth it alroght…or are you like this because you don’t want to go back…to your squad mates…??”

You glare. “IS IT THAT SELFISH TO WANT TO SPEND TIME WITH YOU?! WHEN I HAVE NOT GOTTEN THAT FOR YEARS?!! WHEN I’VE HAD TO CALL YOU, AND JUST GIVE DEBRIEFINGS?!! WHEN I COULDN’T HOLD YOU WITHIN MY GRASP OR…OR TOUCH YOU TESSA?!! I HAVE WANTED IT FOR SO LONG TO JUST BE US…No N…or V…or the worker drones….or worrying about the absolute solver…can’t i just…spend time with you?...the one person that matters to me the most??...can’t…I be a bit selfish?...” You didn’t mean to have a full on emotional outburst at all…you didn’t mean to yell at Tessa at all…but you were begging to be heard…begging to be seen…acknowledged in any fucking way…. Your feelings mattered to…if you were Tessa’s lover…couldn’t she also sacrifice a bit…towards you?...isn’t that what lovers do?...sacrifice a bit of their time for each other?...

Tessa was…silent for a moment…it’s clear she wasn’t expecting your emotional outburst ever…her face is of worry as she watches you start tearing up and shaking…she decides to drop what shes doing and hug you firmly…comforting you by gently caressing your hair…”...I understand J…We can spend more time together…but you know we have a mission…”

You just felt yourself crying a damn river. “...I don’t…want to….I don’t…want to leave you…screw the mission…screw everything…I just…want to go back to the way things were before…when we didn’t have to worry about the absolute solver…knocking on our door everyday…” You whimpered a bit…what even was the point of this mission…all it did was drive you away from Tessa…and you didn’t want her to go away…Why was it that you could just never get what you wanted…why did your happiness never matter? Why were you beat silly…degraded for barely existing and taking everybody's fall?! Couldn’t you be a bit selfish?! Your hands possessively grip Tessa…

“...I refuse to go back…I don’t want to go back…” You concluded.

Tessa frowned at you for a moment…something switched within her demeanor. “...I see you need a few moments to get yourself together…please excuse me Jay…” Tessa got out of your grasp easily and she left.

Oh. shit.

She didn’t…even give…you a moment to respond…And it left you feeling like shit…god fucking damnit!!! YOU…HAD ONE JOB…AND YOU FUCKED IT UP…tears start to run down your face as you grip your hair furiously, pulling at the strands before punching one of the nearby pillows. If only you kept your big mouth shut…IF ONLY YOU STAYED QUIET!! Hah…you didn’t deserve anything…did you?...You didn’t matter…Tessa didn’t love you enough to understand why you didn’t want to go back…she didn’t get it…you weren’t sure what hurt you more…her not understanding…or the fact that you seem to screw everything up…

Despite asspiring to be the most perfect of employees with the perfectest track record and trying your damn hardest to appeaze every single higher up and boss, even from the days of the manner. You still weren’t good enough. You messed up, you stumbled…you fell…and you paid the price for it…Why couldn’t you convince her?...why did your feelings not matter enough for her…to listen?...YOU TRIED YOUR DAMNEST! YOUR HARDEST…and where did it get you?!!! You feel your legs shake and give up as you collapse to the ground. Your staring at the floor as tears are starting to form on your visor…

You shudder for a moment as your mind is starting to go in overdrive…where did it all go wrong?...why didn’t you matter to Tessa…why was this mission so much more important than anything else in this world…and why couldn’t you matter to her?...You were always never a damn priority…no matter what…just left in the corner to fucking collect dust…She was always busy doing other things…tending to other matters…focusing on the others…hah…why did you even try to interact with her?...it was always going to end the same way…her choosing the others and the whole universe rather then her…You risked so much…fought so hard for her…but it never mattered did it?!! It never fucking mattered in the first place!!! You were never going to get the acknowledgement…that you…mattered to…

You pondered the point of even trying…perhaps thats why you were best at this job…because you could just survive off of the miniscule amounts of attention…and praise and do a great job regardless because you were just conditioned to be that way…You were always an easy pleasure and the most gullible thing ever…Was this what it was like to be played with?...to be toyed with?...Just for havin…emotions…you were immediately casted off to the side…no wonder you repressed how you felt…especially with speaking with the others…because all emotions do…is get in the way…they make you do stupid things…they make you say stupid shit and they make you vulnerable…

And yet. You couldn’t stop crying…you couldn’t stop overthinking…you couldn’t stop contemplating about what you have done differently…perhaps the price to feel love…You thought that if Tessa…loved you…that…you’d both go off to the cosmos…and not have to worry about anything else anymore…but it seems pretty far from the truth…Tessa still had her mind on the solver and her squadmates…She didn’t have an area in her heart for true genuine love…and that hurt…maybe thats why…they say don’t have any infractions with employees or bosses…becuase they will always choose their job over everything else…which is ironic because thats supposed to be what you do…but your craving for something genuine…has allowed you to fall into desire…

Idiot.
After a while of crying your eyes out…you get to your feet and grab some of the dvds, before heading to the company issued room you were supposed to sleep in and you binged watched Jay’s adventures. It really brought you back to when everything was great…Just when it was you and Tessa…You heard the thought that people’s interests diverge and change but you didn’t realize how true that could be…so you continue to sulk and watch the series, topped off with icecream n all. It went from Jay fighting aliens to safe people from being mind jacked to going out into the cosmos with her best friend to fight off the rest of the bad guys…and sure while the story focused alot on the aliens…it more so focused on Jay and this friends bond. How they would move heaven and earth for each other and would dedicate so much time with one another…

Like those two never went a moment without spending time with each other and that made you cry…because you wanted something like that SO bad…like so fucking bad…but you never got it…ever…You never got to…really choose what you wanted…honestly though…you realistically couldn’t stop Tessa from going to…copper 9…you infact couldn’t stop her from doing anything…You still remember the days you’ve begged her not to take any other drones and fix them…yet she did anyways…You begged…you pleaded….and she never listened…It made you start to question…if she even was a good friend at all…she was…in some ways…but also the worst in others….she did consider you back then…now?...not so much…perhaps you were a bit rash…and you need to start things more slow…you fucking blew up at her after all…and you had some damn apologizing to do…

You find yourself succumbing to sleep…letting the guilt overtake you and wring you out like a drying towel….Time blurs for a bit and you find it being a few days later. You barely made conversation with Tessa, opting for just basic conversation and affirmation that you both really were going to copper 9…of course you were disappointed but who cares?? Your feelings were never a priority then…so why do they matter now…in fact…thats why you had…a more neutral…expression now…

“...Jay? Are you even paying attention? Oi got a message back from V…she says she found two new solva hosts…apparently N is…really interested in one of them…” Tessa murmured, snapping her fingers to get you to focus!

Why would you pay attention to this? All this does is confirm that you have to go back to copper 9 whether you like it or not. “Affirmitive boss. It seems my judgement was miscalculated. Lets…kill them…” Your voice was back to the rigid perfectionist that defined you for so many years.

Tessa noticed your tone. “You're not very enthused with thos…”

When were you ever? This was going to spiral from one planet to another, a never ending deployment to fucking planets just because Tessa’s terrified of the solver…which was understandable…you hated how…she was right…because it meant something mattered more than…companionship…

“Forgive me boss. I have been doing some self reflection lately and feel that keeping my emotions under check is the best way to function as designed to be. We have a mission right? We should not let our emotions get in the way of doing our jobs. Especially if we want to ensure…humankind is safe from Cyn.” You said as a matter of fact.

Tessa eyes you…for a moment…her face…lighting up with regret…she decided to talk with you about it…if she could…get you into er room…”Y-Your…roight…well uh…we should be arriving in a few days jay…Oi imagine…having to explain thangs…to N’s gonna be hard…”

“It always is. He's the most gullible and believes in everything…he balances out V’s maniacal nature and my clinical…workoholic nature…although hes just been like this since the beginning…I imagine though if you tell him about the true state of things he’ll come around.” You cross your arms.

Tessa frowned a bit. “..Jay…you know…- you know what? Come with me…we clearly need to talk…” Tessa grabbed you by the hand and dragged you practically.

You didn’t…refuse this time and just…followed her…You find yourself now laying in her bed while Tessa is quietly staring at you and trying to beckon you to look at her or do something…you didn’t even get why she was trying so hard…it was already clear to you what you two were. So why was she even bothering??...

“C’mon…Jaybird…your clearly…upset about something…do you want to perhaps…talk bout it?...” Tessa’s voice was gentle.

You have a look of resentment. “...why should I?...what the hell would even be the point??...I will never be a priority to you…ever…Tessa…” You feel tears breach your eyes as you face away from her.

Tessa has a look of utter bewilderment! “Since…When did ah say that?...you matta to me Jay! You know that!”

You smile bitterly, tears still flowing.. “...then why do you choose the universe over me?...why do you choose them over me??...why must you choose…e-everything over me…?? I-I thought lovers were to dedicate…time to each other…and be a little bit selfish with their time… ”

Tessa’s gaze turned solemn. “Your roight…ah have been choosing so many…things over you…I’ve spent so long worrying about the mission that…ah didn’t take your feelings into account…ah’m…sorry Jaybird…”

You find yourself turning over to Tessa and immediately embracing her…crying your damn head off…”Y-You…don’t get to just…apologize…At least…make up for it…hmph…” Your tone was a bit humorous…

Tessa was quiet for a moment…before grinning…an unnaturally wide grin for someone…that doesn’t match at all…Infact…you didn’t even notice as tendrils started to slip out from under the bed…and slowly grasp you. After all you had your eyes closed…but it was only a matter of time of the silence when you opened your eyes and you were hit…with a look of confusion…?? Where…did…she go…? You were about to move before you realized you couldn’t! You struggle for a moment, trying to move, trying to do anything, whether it’d be kicking, flailing, trying to use your weapons or trying to bite the tendrils yet that did absolutely jack shit. You shudder, shouting corporate curses as the binds hold you in place like being strapped down to a medical table. You continued to struggle until you heard a specific voice…

“Oh J. Playful giggle. I had thought you were gullible back then. But it seems. That you are even more gullible now. But I will take your offer. We shall spend more time together. Just us. Devious expression.” A voice said from the darkness.

“You! What did you do with Tessa!! Give her back!!” You shouted! More so out of panic than anything else.

“Amused expression. You. May not. Want the answer to that question J.” the voice said with a sing song tone.

You feel anger bubble in your core as you struggle harder. “WHERE THE FUCK IS SHE CYN?!!” You yelled at her.

“Very well then J. Don’t say you weren’t surprised.”

You look at the dark corner before immediately regretting it. Oh god. Oh my fucking god…how…when…?? Why…?? You looked at her…and couldn’t stop looking…Tessa’s hair was still the same…except…her face…her eye sockets were hollow and agape, stretched wider than the face would allow…allowing for the haunting x eyes to stare into your soul…blood was bleeding through the sockets and her face was ridden with evidence of preservation and decay…it didn’t help that Cyn had cruelly twisted Tessa’s skin into a smile…Where Tessa’s neck used to be, there was metal protruding through it, where Tessa’s chest was, poking through was the obvious tale tale signs of a worker drone body…the dress she worn was torn up….Cyn’s hands had so ungracefully broken through Tessa’s own wrists and protruded through like they didn’t belong there…her legs were moderately fine except there was obvious areas where the worker drone body had been a bit too much and caused tears.

Your mind was racing…dreading…and contemplating…Tessas body looked…like it was decaying for a while except preserved by the absolute solver for whatever reason…why…?? Tears breach your face as your mind desperately tries to search for an answer…and it comes…for you in the memory of cradling a dead Tessa…so this was a lie?...you were tricked this entire time?...huh…Wow…you really were an idiot…You watch as she approaches…you cringe as you watch those legs bend and contort in ways that a human leg is not supposed to…and now that you think of it…Cyn knew exactly what she was doing…to Tessa…all those incisions…on her body…showcasing of where Cyn cut deliberately and purposely to fit in…You could feel panic rise up to your core…struggling to move, struggling to do anything! You didn’t want to face her…

No…not at all…she could easily control you…easily overpower you and make you hurt…Maybe if you…pretend she’s not there…nothing will happen…your mind is running a million paces per second as you're trying to focus on anything else right now…

“Annoyed Expression. You know. Jay. I have. Put in, all this effort. For you. You are. Never pleased.” Cyn is looming over J.

“Your…not her…Your not her at all….go away…GO AWAY!!” You yell in panic.

“Well timed giggle. I see you will not talk to me because I have hurt your feelings. It is easier to assimilate then explain anyways.” Cyn smiled cruelly.

You cough up oil as you feel a tendril go through your abdomen…it forces you to open your eyes as you see Cyn loom over you…You glare with fury, trying to attack her but she uses her solver to easily saw your whole hand off! You have a look of utter confusion before you feel your entire system light on fire as tendrils protrude through everything they could get their hands on! Your temperature is skyrocketing as you bite yourself free before lunging at Cyn. Naturally she easily dodges, using her solver to throw the whole ass bed at you! You get no time to think as you are knocked through the wall and crash into a shit ton of furniture. You panic before jumping up out of the way, deploying your wings and flying fast through the halls.

You're looking around, agonizing and trying to get away from whatever the hell's going on before something intercepts in front of you, throwing you backwards as Cyn appears and puts up her hands, the absolute solver prime time in her hand as she uses it to slam you into the ground. Errors flash across your face as she approaches…your eyes go wide as you look around before using your rockets to not only blow yourself up but create a cloud of smoke so that you can scatter. You fly as fast as possible, even ignoring the fact that the lights are going out and you panicked, going into the nearest room and hiding…you slap a hand over your mouth as you are trying to gain your composure…Your hands are shaking…your core is vibrating with panic…your crying…your systems are begging to hyperventillate…sure you were stronger now but you were no fucking match for whatever the hell she was!!! She was an eldritch demon for robo sake!! What the hell were you gonna do against her in the slightest?!!! Your weapons were as effective as a goddamn tiny rock!!

It doesn't help that it’s silent for a moment…like deathly silent…your eyes dart around the area your in, using every tool at your disposal to see if Cyns in here but you don’t see anything…It doesn’t ease you up in the slightest because suddenly…you hear scratching amongst the wall…and it gets near you…your eyes slowly look back…and you see absolutely nothing…but you could not stop yourself from shaking violently…you…needed back up…you needed help…but where would you get it?!!....if Cyn was already on here…then it was only her…nobody else…is that why all the other humans are gone?!!! Did she kill them too?!...Was she gonna kill you??...you weren’t sure…in the slightest…

“C’mon…jaybird…~ Come out and talk to me…~ Flirtatious expression.” Cyn said with amusement…except it was hard to tell where she was because it sounded like she was in J’s head…

You put your hands over your special eyes and hide the naniate tail under your blazer…praying that you were invisible…please…you are invisible…nobody could see you right?...if you couldn’t see them?,,,right?...please let this be true…You were about to feel better when you felt something…fall on you…your optics…slowly drift over to the thing that fell on your arm…oil…don’t do it…don’t…please…against your wishes…you find yourself looking up…

“Get snuck upon.” Cyn said.

You didn’t have time to react before she lunged at you, using her tendrils to dig into your casing and drag you down to the floor. You shriek as you deploy your wings and slash at her…managing to nick her in the chin…yet Cyn seems to not be happy with that. Instead throwing you through the wall. You feel dizzy as you're still mid air before getting slammed into the ground by a box. Your visor expresses many errors and inefficient healing thanks to being low on oil, evident by how you were having to heal every single time she threw you but you managed to get to your feet. Dodging the many tendrils that came your way and using your claws to slash them. You deploy your wings and fly out of the range of more that seem to just spawn out of nowhere. Despite being in darkness. You still are well adapted to seeing things.

“It seems…you are stubborn. That is. Fair. But unwarranted. Come to me J.‘ Cyn stuck her palm up and caused a huge surge throughout the ship,

Not only did it turn the power off but it also cut out your special optics and left you essentially blind. You yelp as you crash into the ground. Your eyes were useless so you had to opt for your audio receptors which were not the best. You find yourself narrowly dodging a tendril before being grabbed by the abdomen by another. You kick and writhe, struggling for a moment before you come face to face with the abomination. Tears continue to decorate your face as you keep biting the tendril and sinking down to practical desperation just to be free…to predictably…no avail.

“I would…have never expected…you to fight me so much…it's kind of…amusing. But I believe the fights over J. this is no different than the gala. Your modifications are my creations…I know how you. Function in and out. This battle is not. One you will win. Playful giggle.”

You felt tears continue to gather and the venom immediately returned to your expression. “Go fuck yourself.” You say with the most bite you could manage.

Cyn gave a cruel expression that ranged from downright dumb to brainblast. “Oh naughty J. You should really watch what you say. Lest you want it to become a reality? Oh right. You have no choice. C’mon. Zesty expression. Eager steps.” Cyn simply just walked while carrying you forcefully.

You really…couldn’t…do anything…could you?...god fucking damnit…You feel your expression grim as you find yourself on the bed…more so you are now forced to stare at the corpse of Tessa…its disguisting…and it smells awful…infact you find yourself puking onto the floor much to Cyns annoyance…so much so that one of her many tendrils grab you by the chin and force you to look at her…you both stare for a moment…your expression of bitter resentment and hatred while Cyn’s wearing the most widest grin ever. Cyn gives you some encouragement by gouging your torso and forcing you to puke once more. With this opportunity open, Cyn forcefully drags you into a kiss, keeping the tendril in your systems to prevent you from getting the bright idea to bite. It’s…a very possessive kiss…one filled with no respect, or any desire for gentleness…You could feel your very own systems getting violated by this menace, shuddering at the many tendrils that slithered their way into your circuitry and played with your systems. And the absolute violation…of your mouth and any shred of dignity you had left didn’t make this any easier at all.

You…didn’t exactly fancy this…it didn’t help that her hands delicately traced across your body…putting occasional pressure…whether it’d be your neck…or your torso….she even turned the actions into more of a caress…and you couldn’t help but involuntarily shudder at the contact…that metallic feeling still went down your entire circuitry…even if it was undesired…Cyn noticing your suffering decided to make it worse by biting the living hell out of your neck, causing you to scream. You could feel it, the fangs as they dug into circuitry, into the casing and the sensitive wiring designed to help you process and feel things better. You found yourself tearing up as she just…didn’t stop. Holding you in place while turning your shoulder blade into scraps…turning your neck into ruin yet making sure not to break it’s structural integrity while being oddly careful not to bite any areas that would make your systems shut off immediately…

It was as if she was deliberately prolonging your suffering…You flinch as her hand cups your chin and your forced to look at her once again…your eyes are hollow…infact they’ve been hollow for a while, burned by fear and petrifiction…you watch as she smiles at you before dragging her tongue across your face and taking a good sniff of your hair…you feel utterly disgusted…mortified even…not only at the wet appendage but the sheer audacity!...

“...You…wreek of fear. And panic…but you. Know. what. That means. J?” Cyn questioned.

“What…?” You mumbled.

“It's simply. Means. That. you’ll taste good. Devious expression.” Cyn giggled.

Your eyes went wide as Cyn dragged her tongue across your face once more. Basking in your uncomfortableness and fear…it didn’t help that Cyn got an idea, deciding to grab your tail roughly and yank on it sharply…You yelp…cry…and beg her to knock it off…but since when has your input mattered? It simply never did. Even as Cyn forced the whole goddamn naniate tail down your throat and it was already burning your systems…your panic was futile…your struggle didn’t matter…your tears were in vain…Cyn was a menace. And it was clear she wanted to see you in as much pain as possible.

“...Bite down on your tail. Or I’ll make you. Sadistic expression.” Cyn said with glee.

Your expression widens once more as you feel one of her appendages right next to your core…You shake your head…silently pleading to not have to do this but Cyn's appendage yanks your core hard, making you bite down and break your naniate tail. You scream in sheer agony as the naniates get everywhere, the glass gets everywhere and all at once your insides are getting sliced and are burning!! You could feel every single second of it!!…the liquid burning your throat, your voice box, your everything…you could only scream so much before your voice box was fucked up…everything hurts…all at once…yet Cyn is still smiling at you…it seems she hadn’t had enough of your anguish…not yet at all…

“You. did not. Scream loud enough. More fun is needed. ” Cyn…straddles you…

You look at her…with utter horror…what…was she…trying to do…?? You feel your limbs pinned as Cyn brings out her whole army of tendrils. You find yourself confused before she grabs one of your arms and puts it on her chest.

“We. shall. Play a fun game. You. touch this. Beautiful women. In every way. J. If not. I will simply plunge a tendril down your entire throat and kill you. But don’t worry, the fun doesn’t stop there. You have many backups. And we could do this. For a long time…J. Cooperation results in less punishment. You know that. Frisky expression.” Cyn gave you a look that could mean many things. Many many things.

You find yourself reluctantly touching her. God…the skin feels so squishy and loose…theres no firmness dictated by muscles or any bones at all like the first times you've ever dared to touch Tessa…instead it was…just a skinsuit that hid a worker drone frame…you shudder in disgust as you feel up Cyn’s chest…even dotting your hands amongst the logo of the worker drone…Cyn smirked with satisfaction. Beckoning you to…move lower…with reluctance you touch her abdomen…her hips and you cringe…you could feel Cyn's body under hers…you could feel everything…the half hazard removals of certain things…certain tendons…and it made you wish that you died.

It makes you more uncomfortable when Cyn tells you to touch there . Naturally…because this corpse has been dead for god knows how long…there's not much there…which makes sense…Cyn tore out everything practically…so you resumed back to stroking the legs before caressing Cyn’s face and hair. You wanted to be rough with her, you wanted to tear her apart but you couldn’t…you couldn’t do anything…Cyn held your core within her grasp…she could reasonably do whatever the fuck she wanted…so you took the safe way out and were as gentle as possible with your touch. Plus…you couldn’t…hurt…her…not this close…Your hands…shake for a moment as they run through…her hair…as the memories of what happened flashed through your head…and you frown at her.

“...Why…are you doing…this in the first place…?” You question with a glare.

“Amused expression. Oh J. It’s fun. It’s delightful watching you squirm. Sure V and N. Are fun. But your. Gullible. Easily. Persuaded. You have one want in life. And its your Tessa. So why not.. Turn that into a joke…to hear your desperation for her. Is music to my ears. Flirtatious giggle.” Cyn tilts her head innocently at you.

You tense for a moment. Your hands…clenching around her neck…”...y-you…your…a monster…” You said in a shaky tone of sheer utter…dispair.

“Bad J.” Cyn said calmly before smacking you upside the head with the roughness compared to a tigers grip, sending you hard into the headboard of the bed.

You don’t get time to react before she is on you. Gleefully grinning as the tendrils…approach…you…Your expression widens as you shake your head rapidly. But that has no avail to it as she yanks you hard by your pigtail, causing you to yelp and give her enough room to shove a tendril down your throat. You feel the tendril slither around and grab at anything just cause it could…and you find yourself feeling like your systems are bloated…to your credit…they kinda are…since Cyn insisted on shoving as much tendrils as possible down your system…and everytime you feel like your gonna fatal error…she grabs your core and keeps shaking it…

Eventually she does let you go but not without forcefully yanking every single tendril out, sure you screamed and cried but your voice box was so fucked that Cyn just heard a bunch of glitches. Before you know it Cyn gives you one last kiss, squeezing your core as much as possible before your systems completely…went kaput…

And for a moment…

There’s silence…

Pure welcoming silence…

You think you have finally achieved rest…or some form of the after life…

Was it really happening??...were you finally dead?...wait…a minute….

Your dead idiot.

Requesting repair?

Repair denied by admin : ] .

Transfer?

Transfer enabled.

Restoring memory…

Please wait.

Restoration Succusful…

REBOOTING….

You fell out of the tube this time and collapsed into the ground…your body heaving with agony…and phantom pains…you find yourself hyperventellating as the world is all blurry around you…It doesn’t help that tears are starting to breach your face and you just sulk for a moment while in the dark room…ignoring the other drones and just moping around. You took a deep breath and tried to soothe your systems with your shaky hands…You…didn’t know how much time you got before Cyn would come after you…You would pretend to act confident, but the truth was, you had no single confident wire in your body. You were scared, like borderline terrified! What the hell were you supposed to do?! Communicating to anybody else…would require for you to get to the comms station and you bet Cyn would be guarding that…not that anybody could help…who knew what V and N were doing ..they sure as hell couldnt get to her anyways, the landing pod was practically destroyed thanks to N’s dumbass self!

You try to think logically…okay…why in the world would Cyn be doing this? What is it she wants with you? Your loyalty? Trust? Uttermost obedience? If that's the case …then why? What does she plan to do to copper 9 that requires for you to go through this…Unless she was…simply going to destroy everything…Did…she really have to go this far just to get her point across?!...It didn’t help that…you frankly…didn’t want to side with her…not after what she did to Tessa…Actually yeah…you were scared half to death but…you were not going to work with somebody that absolutely desecrated the beautiful loving memory of Tessa and turned her into a SKIN SUIT!!!!!! Oh to hell with that! Even if you…were going to die over and over…you refused to give Cyn the dignity of your…submission. You were Serial Designation J for robo-sake…you survived this long for a goddamn reason.

For her. You’d do this for her. Till your last dying breath.

With new found courage, you immediately power walk to the doors, luckily you could see in the dark but everything was just about silent…That silence that left you unsettled…The only glow currently in the room was the natural glow that came from the many clones…You sigh before opening the door quietly and slipping out with as much agileness as you could. The power in the ship still was cut but you had a clear idea of where you could go…Cyn would’ve expected you to go to the comms place immediately but you decided to throw a curveball by instead going to the lockers…you had to get another uniform…and fast…

Your hands fiddle with the combination more as your hands start to shake from the overworking that your system was doing. It didn’t help at all that you heard footsteps in the distance…causing your mind to go into overdrive as you fiddled in the dark once more and finally got the locker open. Although instead of…putting on a blazer you instead hid in the locker, ensuring your extra eyes were turned off and your tail was hidden. Sure. It was lousy. Hiding from Cyn in a locker…how cheesy…it was almost as if you were practically asking to get caught…except you knew that Cyn liked to play around, which would give you an opportunity to run.

You quietly listen as the footsteps approach your general area and look around. Of course glancing over your locker and ignoring it, although Cyn wasn’t very quiet.

“Oh. I see J. We are playing hide and seek. Very well then. I shall give you an hour. To run.” Cyn said with a sinister expression as she looked at you through the locker.

You quickly took that opportunity to not only grab your blazer and JcJenson pen but to deploy your wings and absolutely book it. If the monster gave you time. You might as well take advantage of it. You completely ignored how Cyn watched you with utter enjoyment as you were completely focused on just escaping entirely. You finally land after 20 minutes of searching. You are right at the comms…and you could only just hope and pray it worked.

//Serial Designation-J// Contact initiated. Hello??

//Connection unable to be made. Request blocked by admin//

Son of a….

You aggressively try and force any semblance of connection, You try everything at your disposal, from hacking, outsmarting the system and performing firewall breaks, yet that is to no avail…No matter what you are unable to connect to your squad…or anybody for that matter…Were you truly alone on this ship? With her?...You seethe in frustration as you slam your fist on the panel…god fucking damnit…You feel your cpu start to scramble a bit…ughh….since when was the last time you had any oil to fix your system…? You couldn’t remember but it’s been a while…you had entered the ship at half, and now you were at a quarter…You sure as hell had to find some fast if you were going to try and outlive this…bastard.

Your shoulders slump as you leave the room and use your internal map to search around. This process leaves you tense as for whatever reason you are just unable to find any source of oil…It’s just all gone…and you didn’t even know why…you could’ve sworn the last time…there was this just huge pile of it…why the hell would Cyn feel the need to remove it at all?? Unless it was to make..you suffer as much as possible??...Possibly…You grumble as you sink to the floor…well. At least you were alive…the least you could do was actually hide…you only had like 5 minutes anyways…You managed to squeeze your entire body into a very cramped space, putting your tail under your blazer, putting a hard hat over your optics and turning off the glowy effect of your eyes. You know these functions not only were good for alerting workers to your presence but they also made you an easy sight so they had to go.

You couldn't help but take a deep sigh, covering your mouth so that you wouldn't make much noise. Ideally this would theoretically go well but you knew Cyn could just easily find you, the least you could do is hope and pray that she leaves you alone…you hated feeling like a coward but you also weren't stupid. You knew that you couldn't do anything. But you still had hope that you'd somehow manage to get the upper hand…maybe…you could flee on one of those landing pods…they were still docked after all! God, why didn't you think of that in the first place! You just had to be patient and outsmart her.

“Oh J. Where are you? I know you're around here. You aren't exactly subtle.” Cyn smirked.

Shut up…

Please just shut up…

Your hands clench into a fist as you remain quiet…glaring at her through the boxes. Your fingers tense in anticipation…you frankly wanted to get the jump on her and attack her…and while…that might be a very stupid decision…she was getting closer to you and you could feel her presence closing in…maybe you could give yourself time to rush over to the landing pods…You had to try…to do anything…Your eyes gaze up in anxiety as you see her looming over you…you both make severe eye contact…your expression hollowing and hers turning into a sick grin.

Do it.

Fucking do it you coward!!! Do it for her!!!

You lunged at Cyn, digging your claws into her hair as you blinded her then proceeded to kick her hard in the chest into the crates! Not waisting any time at all, you fucking skaddadled, deploying your wings and flying as fast as you can. Your mission was the landing pod, you could care less what would happen, you're more interested in your escape after all. You feel your systems rush to life as you almost arrive at the door but you suddenly crash into the ground…Warnings of high temp were blasting through and making you feel…delirious …You try and push through, barely managing to get to the feet of a pod before collapsing on the ground…

ERROR.EXE

INSUFFICIENT OIL RESERVES…

POWERING OFF TO CONSERVE ENERGY.

There was silence and then the sound of walking.

“Figures. I cannot help but admire the effort J. Too bad it's futile. Let's try something fun. . Playful giggle.” Cyn simply drags your body away.

Drip…

Drip…

Drip…

What…?

You haven't…heard the sound of water…in ages…

Drip ..

Drip ..

Drip.

You groan for a bit…trying to move…to no avail…huh…? You try to get your optics to function yet they seem to be having a lot of issues for whatever reason…but you sure could feel the many high temp errors blasting across your visor, warning you of your critical state ..ugh…You bang your head for a bit, trying to force your optics to turn on. When they finally do, your left in confusion…There was water seeping into the room for whatever reason…and to make matters even worse you found your neck chained…by a chain that was embedded in the wall…and there was one more thing you noticed…oil…at the far edge of the room…huh…was this some type of dumb challenge? Did Cyn really think you were that stupid?! You roll your eyes as you try and use your tail…which ironically enough fell short of the canister…how mildly…annoying as fuck…you try and deploy one of your wings to grab it, stretching as far as possible and once again you fell short…okay, maybe you overestimated your ability to get a far target…

“I see. You are already trying J. But do not fret. There is no feasible way for you to get that, I've placed it. The exact distance in which you cannot grab it. I want to see your desperation J. Sadistic giggle.” Cyn said from wherever she was…which was in your head projecting.

Your tail flicks in annoyance as you cross your arms. You refused to indulge in this game…even as your systems were pestering you…it makes you ponder if Cyn intentionally rigged the Disassembler model like this to force them to rely on oil. Or she just did this intentionally to ensure as much suffering as possible. Yeah, that option. Why else would you program the necessity to drink oil lest you risk death other than it to just be a fucking ploy to get the Disassemblers in line. You didn't need it. You were much better than this. In fact you will refuse this game till Cyn gets bored…You find yourself…just bored…this room was the definition of a nightmare…white walls for miles…white floors for eons, absolutely nothing interesting going on with the walls, they were just as boring and featureless as N’s sense of romance. It doesn’t help that you constantly hear the drip of water…in this agonizingly predictable way that makes you want to shut your audio processors down.

Drip…

Drip..

Drip,

SYSTEMS ARE OVERHEATING.

PLEASE CONTACT YOUR NEAREST TECHNICIAN.

YOU ARE LITERALLY DYING IDIOT.

Shut up…

Your tail twitched a bit, your wings deployed and your casing started to ich…You’ve survived worse for goodness sake…why the hell are you struggling?!! Oh right…maybe it's because this room is entirely featureless! Nothing in this room gives any sense of contrast, ability, uniqueness, flaws or anything that would obviously be made by humans. Instead it’s a room that is devoid of all imperfections and wearing one of the blandest colors of paint ever. And for whatever reason that scratched your code in just the wrong way. The absence of the expected…and wanting things to be there that weren’t would drive even the most sane human to insanity…due to the lack of stimulation. You grumble…you hear other sounds, but there's not exactly anything there in the slightest…just boring sterile walls that piss you off in the grandest of ways.

Drip…

Drip..

Drip.

How many times has that water dripped into the room? Has it made the water level increase at all? You didn’t notice it frankly…as the water was just barely even the height of a penny. You stare boredly at the water, using your tail to swish it around a bit, watching as it created waves that rippled from your legs to the wall before bouncing back and lapping gently against your lower half. You ponder if the beach would’ve…been cooler…like just going there, walking through the sand that actively crumbles under your feet…the gentle waves of cold water that would crash into the sand without much fanfare…the millions of little animals and creatures hiding in the sand and waiting for high tide to sweep them beneath the waves…You recall Tessa telling you all about these creatures…the dozens of creatures that existed in the ocean and how all of them played an important part in balancing the ecosystem.

You remember the fondness she expressed for going to such a place…yapping on and on about how she wanted to catch some cool things and make a whole sandcastle house just because she could. Oh poor Tessa. She didn’t even get to make it to adulthood. She had a whole life ahead of her and it was taken away before she could even do anything with it…You grimaced. Your eyes furrowed as you stared at the sad excuse of a puddle of water. What would Tessa think about this? Maybe it was good she was dead, because you doubted she would willingly go along with Cyn’s shenanigans…sure Tessa hated humans to some degree, but you’d doubt that she would let Cyn willingly wipe them out. But that’s wishful thinking, Tessa has been dead for a long time…a really long time…You just wished you weren’t so powerless…that you could’ve saved her. That was your one goal in life and you screwed up…even if you couldn’t do anything, you felt like if you did this…or that…she might’ve still been alive.

You let out a breathless laugh before kicking at the water.

Who are you kidding? If only you told her to knock it the hell off with bringing back everything from the dead…none of this would’ve happened. But as you come to conclude…everything was your fault. That girl fucking died in your arms and you couldn’t do ANYTHING about it.

So pathetic…

You commend yourself for being the model employee, but if you couldn’t even protect your boss then why even pretend?...

It was pointless…utterly pointless…

Your hands tremble as you couldn’t help but think of Tessa…that bright girl…who was so weird, but so loving at the same time…and you were so willing to move heaven and earth for her…you were so willing to do anything for her.

You regret not telling her sooner…or telling her to knock it off and or…telling her how you really feel about things…sure she may have disagreed with you..but if you weren’t such a coward, the least you both could’ve done was reach an agreement and come to a conclusion!!!…but that will never come now will it? You blew your chance! And now you're stuck in an infinite time loop!!!

If only…you actually did something! Ugh! So useless…!!

Step…

Step..

Step.

“Are you roight Jay?” A very specific voice poked through.

You glance up…and you see a shadowy figure…unmastakably Tessa, except in that shadowyness that prevented them from being seen by drones…But your uncertain…Tessa died…in your arms…why is she here…??

“Uhm…” You had no idea what to say…

“Yuh doing that thing where yuh berate yourself again…” Tessa’s voice was as soft and comforting as you remember…

Your eyes go hollow…this was a hallucination right??! Were you really that deranged that you're starting to hallucinate your dead lover?!! This must be a really bad trip…hah…yes…it is…

“...You're dead!…” you say with resentment.

Tessa gave a thinking expression with her index finger. “Yep. Indeed ah am. I’m just here because your startin to loose it Jaybird.” Tessa shrugged.

You scowl at her. “...Don’t call me that…that name is dead…”

Tessa did the unthinkable and placed her finger on your chin, hovering next to your lip before giving you a blank stare. “Oi’ve always called yuh this. What’s the sudden change for it now?” Tessa tilts her head innocently.

You visibly tense at the contact, it feels so real. Like she’s actually touching you…but you know it’s not her…her mannerisms…speech patterns are the exact same…but you know shes dead…dead as hell….

“I’m really losing it…aren’t I?? Hallucinating my dead best friend…just to have any semblance of feeling…” You feel yourself start to get hysterical.

Tessa shrugged a bit. “Your just feeling it all hit you at once gal. give yourself some time.”

You glare at her before standing up and trying to punch her. “GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!! YOU ARE DEAD!!! YOUR FUCKING DEAD FOR ROBOSAKE!!!” You yell in sheer frustration as you are unable to slash at her, or thrash at her with your wings.

Tessa casually cups your chin for a moment and smiles. “And yet yuh refuse to accept it. But ah suppose that’s fair. You barely just learned I’m dead. ” Tessa says in a sing song tone.

You find yourself trying to do anything against this hallucination to the point you resort to changing your hand into a rocket launcher and firing as many shots as you can before you feel a sharp pain throughout your whole artificial nervous system, causing you to fall back on your knees and grasp your head as your systems are overheating to the point of making it hard to think. You feel your vision blurr as you try to claw your face, anything to just get the pain to stop.

INSUFFICENT MATERIALS…

SEEK THE NEAREST OIL SOURCE OR FACE CERTAIN DEMISE.

ERROR.EXE…

10 ISSUES DETECTED…

REGENERATION//0%

SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!!

You started to repeatedly bang your head against the walls. SHUT UP! SHUT UP! YOU DIDN’T CARE!!!! WHO CARES ABOUT HOW SHITTILY YOUR SYSTEMS ARE FUNCTIONING!! JUST STOP!!!!

You felt your core start to shake and vibrate violently as the deja vu started to slip in. Must find nearest oil source. Must find it now. Your visor goes for the X formation as you lunge at the oil canister, yelping in pain as the chain holds you back. You stretched, lunged, deployed your wings…used your tail, but for whatever reason you were still to short. Tears breach your eyes as you try and try!! C’mon!!! Reach it!!! You start to tug, to force more out of you than necessary and you could feel your body start to strain from the pressure. You weren’t thinking straight enough to cut the chains, but you doubt they would’ve been easy to bite apart anyways…the last time you did that you chipped a tooth…after all…You stretch as far as you can and you managed to grab it but the force was to much and you felt your legs dislocate, causing you to fall on the ground hard…

Ow…

Normally you would’ve been concerned for that but instead you were already tearing into the oil canister, eating the plastic and the oil itself like the glutton you were…natureally you start to feel woozy as your systems immediately shot another flare of pain through your systems!!!

CONTAMINATED MATERIALS HAVE ENTERED YOUR SYSTEM.

PREPARING TO FLUSH OUT MATERIALS.

PLEASE SEEK A CERTIFIED TECHNITION.

IDIOT.

You find yourself puking out your entire guts onto the floor and going into a horrible coughing fit, getting oil not only on the walls and your blazer but also on your hands and the nearby water. Tears breach your face as you claw your head in pain!! Ow! Ow!! Why does it burn so much?!!! Why did everything hurt?!!! You whimpered as you collapsed fully on the ground, holding your hands up to your mouth so you don’t puke again…You didn’t notice it but you were shaking now..your core was burning at temperatures it was not supposed to and the oil was displacing the water. Since when were you breathing so hard? Or lying in the fetal position?...Maybe it’s because you puked your guts out…and everything just wouldn’t stop hurting, or maybe it was the fact you couldn’t move your legs because they dislocated and you didn’t know how to put them back in their joints without risking serious damage. Or MAYBE IT WAS THE FACT THAT YOU DIDN’T HEAL!!! YOUR SYSTEMS STILL WEREN’T SHUTTING UP!!!

You let out a frustrated scream of anger as you slammed your head into the wall, breaking your head optics entirely and scattering naniates everywhere which burned into your casing and caused you to writhe in pain!!! WHY WERE YOU PROGRAMMED LIKE THIS?!!! THIS WAS AS BAD AS WHEN THAT BARELY SENTIENT TOASTER THREW THAT JCJENSON BRANDED PEN INTO YOUR OPTICS!!!! You fall on your back as you are trying to get the naniates out of your face and off of your blazer which was now being shredded because you were using it to get the naniates clean…You shudder for a moment…tears rivering down your face as you stare at the ceiling…in sadness…as if begging and asking why Cyn is doing this...

You take a deep breath as you clutch your chest, trying to soothe your core…you were sure that your chest was not only going to explode at this moment…but that your systems were definitely waterlogged…which…was not good…Your systems were built for the harsh conditions…against snow…and the unforgiving nature of exoplanets…not…this…You whine as you back up against the wall …using your hands…since your legs are still fucked…why did Cyn put water here in the first place? What was her goal? Well besides…making you suffer for her amusement…You let out a deep sigh, your digits brushing softly against the shattered optics…they weren’t healing…and frankly…you knew they wouldn’t…your oil reserves were still to low for sufficient healing to take place and do anything substantal…how sad…

What sucked even more was not being able to do anything in the slightest…besides listen to your own thoughts and act like a buffoon. You prided yourself in being in control and…always having something to do but this time you were left in this insufferable room…ugh…You took a deep breath…trying to regain some form of composure…eventually you have to just discard the…blazer completely…as it’s condition was extremely poor so…now everything just feels so much colder, how riveting.

For a moment…everythings silent…the only things you could exactly hear were your own thoughts which were booming in your head…there was also the added bonus of the never ending drip and the clicking sounds your core made which signified how wrong things were…But you could sense something was wrong…very wrong…You knew even before you seen it. You tensed as a an electric current went through the water and once it made contact with you, your body seized up! You felt as electricity coursed through your artificial viens, taking advantage of the wires lack of oms of resistance and sending an entire shock to your core at full power. You scream in agony as you felt your entire body heat up and dare to explode from the voltage!!! Your paralyzed!! Feeling it past through your systems like butter and lowering your oil reserves even more. Its…awful…

You couldn’t help but seize in place, tears rolling down your face as you felt your cpu get overloaded by the repeated shocks! Your visor flashes with many error screens as you feel your own circuitry start to fry. The absolute solver program within you is repeatedly trying to regenerate whatever it can yet it’s to no avail as you were too low on oil…You try to claw out your core, claw out your visor but its not working, you can barely move!!!! You felt the fatal error dare to appear but the shocks kept you awake and highly aware of how painful everything was. CURSE BEING A ROBOT!!! ELECTRICITY JUST SLICED THROUGH YOU LIKE BUTTER!!!! You yell in frustration, slamming your head repeatedly into the wall. MAKE IT STOP!!! MAKE IT STOP!!! You grab onto your wings in frustration and scream as you rip them off. SHIT!! OH SHIT…You stare at your wings…and find yourself unable to stop staring…

Tears had stained your entire face as you were recovering from the aftershock…your breathing is rapid as you stare at the wings you just ripped off…holy robo god…why in the name of god did you do that?!!! THOSE WON’T REGENERATE UNLESS YOU DIE!!!! You let out a scream of frustration as you start to claw the walls!!! You were losing control fast! You had to get out of here…fast…fast….!! You repeatedly slashed the wall and kept on doing it till your claws broke…WHY WASN’T ANYTHING WORKING???!!!!!! You are panicking as you are trying to find a way out. There’s no way out…theres nothing!! All there is, is this WHITE ROOM!! You try to stab your tail through the wall but it also does nothing. You let out a furious cry before laying back down….

Why…couldn’t you maintain your composure?...Why were you breaking?...Why did you do that??...You couldn’t answer…at all honestly…You sulked for a moment….You hated feeling helpless but thats all you were in this situation…defenseless…helpless and unable to do a single goddamn thing…even to the point where what made you supposedly stronger now was nothing more than a colossal fucking joke. You nervously shake as you…stare at your tail…for a moment…a sense of bitterment and resentment crossed your expression as you stared up at the ceiling…you had an idea…but it wasn’t going to be a good one…It makes you cringe to think you need to stoop so low…to do this but here you go…

Your shaky hand grasps your naniate tail…You stare at it…with contempt before beginning to dive its sharp needle into your legs…You hiss in pain as you feel the naniates eat at your casing and make quick work into your joints…but you kept going…a sense of bitter determination going through your systems…A few slices to the arms…a few to the legs…some to the chest…to the point you couldn’t even…sit down…you were…face first in the puddle of water as the naniates…worked on eating your systems up…You weren’t sure what was worse…electrocution or feeling your systems slowly become inoperable because you chose to try and end it as fast as possible…Yet your life didn’t seem to end…but you sure were defenseless, that's why it surprised you when the water had drained out and some other liquid fell upon you in a heaping bunch. Your sense of smell feels assaulted as you smell the iconic scent of alcohol…ugh…gross..

You would’ve wondered what…and why Cyn did that but your questions were answered…in horror…Your eyes go hollow as you watch a burning match fall into…the alcohol…You shriek and force yourself into the corner as you watch the fire start to gather…its…small at first…but quickly explodes into a big flame of fire that absolutely engulfs every single fucking thing in sight just because it could. Dread fills your system as it slowly approaches you…It takes you back…like way back…when you were almost killed by Tessa’s mother…You whimper a bit as you cry even more…

This was so wrong….so twisted…so morbid…Your breathing sharpens as the fire is right there…is this…really how your going to go?!....Burning to death?...tears prick your eyes as you look up…utter dread and fear filling your expression…

“Cyn…This isn’t funny…please stop…” You say with a tearful expression.

You don’t even get dignified with a response…instead a showhead enhancement comes out and showers you with something…but it is not rain. You shriek in sheer utter agony as you feel MILLIONS of needles prick into your skin and start dissolving your own damn casing in front of your eyes…what…??...holy shit!!!

“CYN!!! STOP THIS!!!” You yell as you struggle against not only the acid but the fire, which has caught refuge on your casing and is now burning to its heart's content.

“PLEASE CYN!!! I BEG OF YOU!!!” Your voice cracks as you collapse…

Your body…melts…burns…your visor…is filled with many errors…and once it reaches your core…after dissolving every single wire and causing entire pain surges through your body….You are screaming, begging, and pleading to no avail as your systems are starting to shut down again and its not long…until…

FATAL ERROR.EXE

PLEASE SEEK A CERTIFIED TECHNICIAN : ].

REPAIRING…

REPAIRING BLOCKED BY ADMIN.

TRANSFER CONSCIOUSNESS?

TRANSFER CONSCIOUSNESS OVERRIDE BY ADMIN.

YOU’RE DEAD, IDIOT.

REFLECT ON YOUR CHOICES J. -CYN

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THERE’S ONLY ONE WAY OUT -CYN ;]

ARE YOU FINALLY GOING TO TAKE IT? HAPPY GRIN.

SD-J: Fuck off.

VERY WELL THEN! LETS CONTINUE -CYN :D

TRANSFER ENABLED!

TRANSFERRING CONSCIOUSNESS.

PLEASE WAIT…

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TRANSFER SUCCESSFUL!

REBOOTING…

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You shriek as you fall out of the glass container once more, hugging your legs and crying while in the fetal position, your wings are covering you and your tail is curled around your leg. You shudder as you see Cyn walk into the room…Both of you make eye contact for a moment before Cyn eagerly walks over to you…You flinch hard as she kneels over and grabs your tail. Proceeding to drag you! You panic and try to dig your claws into the ground but it hurts too much to function…You could only remain limp as she dragged you into the quarters before placing you delicately on the bed and smirking at you with delight.

“Awh. Someone upset? Sympathetic expression. Well. That's. Too bad. You are not willing. To help me in my mission. So further…torment is in order until you give up J. Eager Grin.” Cyn’s neck cracks as she grins wider than humanly possible.

You place a hand out. “Stop…this…madness…Cyn-..It…its not funny!” You say with a hollowed gaze…

Cyn twitched and unfurled her many tendrils, her body making mechanical clicks as she eyed you with the most gleeful expression ever. “Oh J. I didn’t hear you offer your. Mind,body and soul. To me. So there is no. reason. To listen. To you. You said it. Best yourself. Your input. Does. not. Matter. Playful giggle.” Cyn gave you a wink.

Your gaze widens as in a sudden flash Cyn is on you and renders you helpless once more…Your eyes are shaking as they dart around the room…for anything…for something…but this room was long since clear of anything…you could use to your advantage…but what caused you dread the most…was wondering what the hell Cyn was wanting to do next…You find yourself flinching as she holds your chin, using her thumb to gently caress your face…It’s a very gentle gesture, compared to the rest of the things Cyn has done…Yet no matter how gentle it is…you still hate it…You didn’t like being touched…not by her…you find yourself tensing up as her fingers drag along your jawline, spider crawling their way amongst your neck and onto your chest.

You want to zone out…to ignore this…to stare elsewhere…or to just not be in this moment yet it is far too hard to do that when Cyn is playing with your chest…more so lightly dragging across the logo that was a great reminder of your roots as a drone. You find yourself involuntarily shuddering as she puts a bit of pressure on your casing…as if knowing exactly where to prod…Unironically you find yourself flustered but not because this is fun…it’s just the nature of what she’s doing…Your still tense as a rock though…especially as she starts running her hands along your arm and using her other hand to gently caress your face.

You hate it. It’s a gesture that's supposed to be between two people who genuinely care for each other…who respect each other and would only do such things if allowed to…but since when was your affirmation something that mattered to Cyn?...You find yourself shuddering as Cyn decides to gnaw on your neck…feeling the metallic feeling course your systems once more…Your hands feel awfully clammy as you want to shove her…you want to push her…just to do anything but your mind already is dreading what she could do…so you let it happen. Stirring in your own discomfort as Cyn decided to lick your neck. You felt uneasy…eyes focused on anything else…that wasn’t her. You do not like this a single bit…in fact you hate it with every fiber of your being…your body doesn’t care though. You still feel an ache through your body, as if it is desiring for this….your cpu and fans are kicking up from this…and you wish they weren’t…

This was wrong…in so many damn ways…but you were scared to even say anything to Cyn…you knew exactly what the alternative was…and…getting your core…ripped out after being burned and melted alive…was not ideal…in the slightest…Maybe if you go along with this…she’ll leave you alone for a bit…right…? You were…still…a people’s pleaser at heart…why resist the inevitable?...You find yourself straddled as Cyn continues to caress your body some more…from your upper torso to your legs…Your…eyes are half lidded as you could barely focus on Cyn. You hated how your core burned with excitement…how your body shuddered…how your body ached…how your tail wagged vigorously…Almost as if to mock you.

For the most part…the gestures are soft…delicate and gentle…but you wish it was Tessa…and not…Cyn…Tessa would’ve respected you and triple checked if you were fine with anything, just for something like a kiss!…Cyn just…did whatever it wanted to make you suffer…You’d wonder at this point if you were it’s favorite toy…with how much it toys with everything that is you…you frankly wouldn’t be surprised…Honestly…You…just…didn’t get it…sure you liked attention…but you didn’t like it this much…nor did you ever understand…why humans…activately do things like this…well more so the weirder stuff…there’s only so much you can do with a drone model. It wasn’t a goddamn sexdoll for robo sake. Or if you were Cyn, you apparently just got creative…

Your eyes close as Cyn gently caresses your hair and you involuntarily lean into it…It was a old gesture that once represented…safety…concern…and gentleness…although it was now replaced with…this tar that infected everything…You feel as Cyn’s…hands…grip your chin and she smirks at you…as if pretending to ask for an invitation…Your eyes narrow before hollowing as she bit you on the lip, making you yelp as she drags you into a kiss. Albeit…no matter the gentleness…you still despised it…you hated how you could feel her tongue beckon to explore every inch of your mouth and poke around your teeth a bit just cause she could…A french kiss could be described as a beautiful moment where two willing individuals share their love for each other in a beautiful way but this kiss was anything but…It was possessive…demanding…and completely controlling…which is normal…You find that her arms have wrapped around your waist as Cyn continued to explore all that is you.

You…didn’t exactly…make any noises…you were a very quiet drone…even to the point Cyn noticed.

Cyn broke the kiss and pondered for a moment, staring at your very tense form. “You are not. A very. Noisy drone. Why is it That media. Portrays…many noises…being made…in this procedure? Curious expression.”

Was she really asking you this??....ugh…

“That is because. That media is overdramatic. Not everybody is a loud mouth.” You felt like gagging and proceeded to throw up on the floor.

Cyn gives you an annoyed expression. “I see. Well J. I am. Going. To get. A reaction out of you. One way or another. Flirtatious giggle.”

You tense…up a bit, your eyes hollowing as one of her tendrils embedded itself within your casing and wrapped around your core. You have a look of utter terror as she brings you close into her lap and just starts biting your neck again.

Involuntary embarrassment crosses your face as you feel her squeeze your core. Your body is already shaking and the ache is even more apparent…What’s definitely not helping is your neck getting absolutely descecrated…why in the name of god were you even made like this?!!...artifical nerves as bad as a humans! Nerves in your neck, core just there as if asking for an invitation to be fucked with…this…sucks…You whine as your core is prodded once more. Sending signals that made you feel things you didn’t want to, whether it’d be from pain to sick twisted enjoyment of whatever the hell this was. Why was the core programmed like this?...It was the heart of the drone, sure…but why was it programmed in such a way that could be used to benefit somebody else's sick desires. It didn’t help that you were deathly close to Cyn and she most certainly noticed your half lidded, partially flustered expression.

“You. Are quite…expressive J. But it seems. That my work has been done.” Cyn smirks for a bit before laying in the bed…forcing you to cuddle with her as the rest of the tendrils gather around your body…

One still remains deeply embedded within your core…and you just stare up at the ceiling…as Cyn nestles into the crook of your neck…

You itched to run away…to flee but your body…wanted this so badly…although you remained stuck in place…entirely stuck…Well you were…stuck anyways…Those tendrils held you in place whether you liked it or not…

Your gaze turns to a saddened expression as you stare up at the ceiling…You were trying so hard to keep it together…but its clear…that was easier said than done…Cyn holds your heart…and your body…she could presumably do whatever she wanted…as she so kindly demonstrated…but you truly pondered the full extent of what she’ll do to break you…

Part of you wanted that answer…the other didn’t…

But you hoped to…stay as strong as possible…and refuse…Infact you promised yourself that you would…no giving up…she will never break you.

She will never break you completely.

Not ever. Not now. For Tessa’s sake.

For Tessa.

[SLEEP MODE ACTIVE]

MEMORY RECALLED…

MEMORY PLAYING…

You find yourself wandering through the halls. Frustration filling your core…Stupid N…stupid V…They couldn’t do their jobs at all!! This was getting old real fast…this whole circus act of saving them over and over again because the Mistress wanted everything to be perfect and they couldn’t get the memo…ugh!!!! You slam your fist into a wall…Why in the world could you do a better job than they could?? And why did Tessa give them the benefit of the doubt?! If they were going to survive in the manor…they needed to toughen up!

You seethe as you use your other hand to sooth your joints…before straightening your maid dress, your headpiece and praying internally that what they did wasn’t that bad…You feel your hands tremble a bit…it made you semi-annoyed but you couldn’t blame a natural reaction of primal fear that rested within your circuits anytime that women existed. It didn’t help at all that you…were pathetic…your noodle arms, noodle legs, fragile body and just the nature of what you are, really does sink in when having to deal with humans. The way they look down on you, the way they see you as nothing more than a tool, or something to take advantage of…It was wrong, but you long since learn to just take it as it is…There was a hope that kept you going and you intended to do your best.

You sigh and fix the helm of your dress before walking into the main area. Your eyes immediately fall upon V and N who are getting berated…you raise an eyebrow, noting the stash of broken necklaces on the floor…a few broken perfume bottles…a few broken fans and painted dresses…

Shit…

Your eyes go hollow…slowly looking at Lousia…

“YOU DISGRACES! I WILL HAVE YOU BURNED AND CRUSHED IN A TRASH COMPACTOR!! YOU HEAR ME???!” Lousia Elliot was above angry, she was livid, she was downright furious!!! Practically backhanding V and kicking N harshly before her sight settles on you.

You…just…stand there…eyes widened as you…slowly back away…Lousia notices that and walks over to you, grabbing you by the hand and dragging you. V and N watch with horror…and you could only stare at them with hollow eyes. You yelp as you collided with many things…furnature here…walls there…You pondered if it was on purpose…it probably was…you tried to reach out to grab something but this human had a pull of steel practically! At some point your visor had sustained another crack…you weren’t sure…how…but it was there…and what also was apparent was that you were seeming to be dragged for a while…to the point you started to be confused as you didn’t recognize these corridors…

You didn’t know the Mistress had this sector…You didn’t even know what was going on, but you had a feeling it wasn’t going to be good…it seemed to be a common occurrence for humans to torture drones who don’t do their jobs…which sucked…cause you always did your job…the best job you could…but it wasn’t enough…it never really was…Nothing was just ever good enough…You sink into yourself for a moment…your arm aching from the endless dragging…

When was it gonna end?...How…far were you both going?...Your question was answered when you found yourself thrown into the wall of a room…Pain shoots up through your entire circuitry as you collapse on the ground. You shuttered, trying to get your barings together when you felt something connect with your arm. You let out a cry of pain as your arm was broken off by a crowbar. With panic you back into a wall, putting the other arm out in a form of surrender!

“Your…hurting me…Mistress…” You say quietly.

Lousia glared at you, slashing the crowbar across your face. “I do not recall saying that you could speak! Dumpster pet!!”

You shriek as you hold your face with your good arm…you couldn’t see…not with this oil blocking…tears start to fall down your face as she grabbed your good arm and started to tug…you struggle…you try to do anything but it is to no avail as you feel your arm start to contort…to bend…twist and eventually…

SNAP.

You weep as you collapse on the ground…surrounded by a pool of your own oil…errors started to flood your face…telling you that you sustained serious damage…yeah…that wasn’t hard to tell…Your breathing is shallow and your core is on fire…everything hurt so much…sure you’ve been in pain before…but this…was infinitely worse…It doesn’t help that you feel the Mistress grab you by the chin and with a half lidded gaze…you stare at her…

Lousia Elliot had an amused expression. “You. Are going to fix their mess…and you are going to fix every single mess they make, lest you want to be thrown in the pile.” Her voice was sickly sweet…which didn’t fit what she was saying at all…

You weakly nodd…Before being kicked hard in the abdomen and collapsing on the ground…your gaze is delirious…before you smell it…

Fire.

You were burning alive…your casing starting to contort and charcoal…your visor and the other softer materials of your body started to melt a bit…And yet you could only watch the mistress. With a pleading look…a begging look…just searching for any semblance of humanity…

“Oh Don’t give me that look you trash heap! Should’ve thought about that and got the others doing their jobs first!!” Lousia said with spite.

You tried…

Oh to hell you did try…

You tried so hard to get them to do their jobs…and it never worked…

Nothing was ever enough for the mistress…You always are punished regardless of whether you do a good job or not…this wasn’t fair…

But life was never fair for you in the slightest…

Ah right…you died that day…but Tessa managed to fix you…

The only reason you didn’t tell her anything is because the Mistress told you to be quiet about it…

Hm…why did you recall this though?....

You didn’t know…

MEMORY RECALL END.

WELCOME BACK TO LIFE J -CYN

COME INTO THE CAFE FOR MORNING DEBRIEFING! -CYN :D

WAKING UP….

Hm…You grumbled as you rose to your feet…hands resting on your face…god…how long has it been…? Your memories…were a stir…recalling…everything…you didn’t exactly know how many days it’s been…but it doesn’t feel like your getting any closer…to copper 9…or to rescue…You try to get up and immediately stumble…falling on your knees…Everything ached…your nervous system felt numb…and shot from…everything…And you noticed that you had tired lines under your eyes…You can’t say your surprised. You sigh and get up, taking a look at yourself in the mirror…your hair was in disarray…tangled to hell…your gaze was exhausted…your eyes used to brightly illuminate…yellow but now its a flickering…soft yellow…Your blazer is disheveled…your yellow button up is no longer buttoned…your tie is almost falling off and you still have marks on your casing…

You look…really tired…and even your postures a tad bit slumped…there are a few other things as well…your core is clicking…processing hard, despite you not doing anything at all…your hands are shaking…your tail is curled up around your leg and you don’t…really feel…angry…your wings are deployed and sagging on the floor…twitching in discomfort from the uncomfortable positions they were in. Your tears have run dry…and a bitter feeling of emptiness contorts in your chest…you have no idea how long your eyes have remained this hollow yet…here you were ... ... ..god you look terrible…You hummed for a moment…how many times have you exactly died?...Or…pleaded…or begged…you…frankly didn’t know…all of it was starting to feel like a blurr….

Whatever….

You find yourself walking amongst the halls…tired eyes looking at…old momentos…of your past…You used to like them…but now you just want them to go away…especially because they remind you of how helpless you really are in this situation. But you do not feel the anger enough to burn them…in fact…its kinda a struggle to feel anything…Your emotions overloaded on you the last time and it’s self you barren. Even as you sit..down in the dining chairs…you just stared off into nothing…

“Good. Morning J. You look amazing today. Sarcastic expression.” Cyn said with eagerness.

You blankly stare at her…before resigning in your seat. “...Very well then boss. What is the agenda for today?” You mumble.

Cyn eyed you for a moment. “You. Know exactly. What it is J. You pondered answers for why. I want to go to Copper 9. So I will give you a debrief on that.”

You sigh. “Uh huh boss. Go on.” Your tone was very lacking.

Cyn grinned widely. “You see my dear Jaybird. Copper 9 is the last planet to destroy of its solver hosts and everything else. Then I shall be the only thing in the universe. Then I can create my own things. Without pesky humans in the way.” Cyn rubbed her hands eagerly.

You stare at her with a half bored expression. “Might I ask what is the point of destroying everything? Boss.”

Cyn gave you an annoyed expression. Looming over you and grabbing your core entirely through your body and squeezing it roughly. “J. Since when did I say you. Could ask questions? Sadistic Grin.”

You grabbed at her hands…pain…once again…furrowing through your body…sure it wasn’t as bad but feeling like your entire being was being grasped…hurt… “Y-You…didn’t…say…at all…” You say weakly.

Cyn smiled gleefully, patting you on the head. “Good Job J. Now you see. If I’m in control of the universe. I could make my own worlds full of drones that get to live lives free from human influence. It will be the best world ever.” Cyn said.

You not only severely flinch at her touch but you also frown…that sounded like a lonely existence…and it didn’t make sense…cause the exoplanets had populations that already did that…unless…Cyn just wanted ultimate control…how oddly ironic…

“...Very well then boss…” You kept your tone neutral…just hoping she would…stop grabbing your core.

Cyn finds herself getting an idea…a beautifully awful idea! “You know. While it is. Delightful watching you struggle. We should. Take a break and do. A multitude of other things, ey Jay?” Cyn cracked her head as if feigning innocence.

You slowly blink. “Sure….I guess….” You mumbled.

You walk aside…Cyn as you both head out to the more open area of the ship…you find yourself glancing at the pictures…noting ones that had you and Cyn in it…ah yes…Tessa's folks were always ones for cameras…you couldn't say you were surprised at how frequent your presence was. You were the first personal drone after all…your impressed the pictures managed to stay in good condition or that Cyn saved them…but you had to imagine…that the year of the gala was also a very impactful time for Cyn…it's where she seemed to really fall off and go off the rails…hm…

“Boss?” You asked.

Cyn glanced at you, intrigued at the fact you addressed her without her spouting an order at you. “Yes J?”

You stare at her for a moment…your eyes leering deep within her gaze…there is so many things you could ask her…yet you…just wanted…at least a moment…to not dread…

“Was there a moment…you actually enjoyed…in the manor?” You ask casually.

Cyn is quiet for a moment before smirking. “Oh J. I enjoyed your company the most. N was fun…the most caring, V was shy and nice…and Tessa was the sweetest girl in the world. Despite those poor excuse for parents. But you treated me, not as a useless thing that could do nothing. But as someone with as much of a fair chance as the other drones. N’s my favorite. But your my favorite toy…and robot to be around. Happy expression.” Cyn smiles at you.

You figured…N treated Cyn like she needed her hand held all the time…Tessa treated Cyn like a child…and V…was shy…You…did push her to…do somewhat of her job…What…an odd turn of events…or perhaps you were just to tired to really…be angry…

Cyn seemed to grin at you. “Since when did you are about how I felt J?”

You cross your arms. “...Logically…theres…not much I can do…to get out of this situation…so might as well…be cordial and on talking terms…I’m…just being rational boss.”

Cyn’s grin widens as she walks over to you, she notices you flinch and simply places a hand on your hair. Ruffling it up a bit. “I am so glad we can come to any form of agreement J. Your cooperation shall be rewarded.” Cyn walked forward before tossing you a JcJenson branded pen.

You grabbed it and stared at the pen for a moment…It wasn’t just any pen…it was Tessa’s pen…You…thought you lost this one after everything that happened…but you had it now…You glance at Cyn…before just deciding to follow her…it is not long before you both get to a open room that looks…suspiciously like the gala…Memories even flash through your head of what the gala was like and this was a terrifying replica that only…lacked humans…You find yourself looking at Cyn…wondering what the hell she was planning this time…

Cyn simply smiled, looking at you with an expression that could say many things. “You see J. That night of the gala was my favorite. It’s such a shame. You didn’t hear the screams. The screams of those who tormented you. Younger you were just. Adamant about defending her so much that I had to control you. Playful giggle.” Cyn spun and faced towards you. Walking over to you and grinning…darkly.

You blink tiredly…Ah yes…the worst night of your life…where everything went to shit. Where Tessa’s folks and many innocents were slaughtered. Even poor Tessa herself. Your expression grims…Sure…you believed Tessa’s parents deserved that…but the others didn’t…

“...Did you really have to kill them all though?” You raised an eyebrow.

Cyn’s grin got wider…unnaturally wider as she held your tail with the pressure force that caused your expression to lighten. “Yes J. I had to. Humans never change no matter what. They are always destined…for great harm, and if I left them alive, they would’ve tried to kill me…as they so kindly demonstraited so why not end them?” Cyn poked your visor just cause she could.

“Very well then boss. What do you seek to do here?” You eyed the replica gala.

Cyn slowly looks at you. “I want to spend some quality time with you. Of course. And perhaps dance.” Cyn said innocently.

“...Huh…? You want to spend quality time with me?” You were dumbfounded. But at the same time…typical…Cyn…she’ll go from tormenting somebody to asking them on a date…

Cyn nodded, eagerly grasping your hand. “Of course J. Dance with me.”

You find yourself having to quickly grasp Cyn by the waist as she lost balance. While…this situation…was very…awkward…you’d figure you go along with it…any semblance of peace is better than none…and if you could pretend enough…you were dancing with Tessa…and teaching her how to dance once more. You find yourself…semi-enjoying this…not only because the slow music is on like the first gala you’ve ever experienced with Tessa…but because it truely feels like your first time all over again. Except instead of you not knowing what to do…it was her…You find yourself smiling fondly as you tell Cyn to listen to the beat…to feel it through her core and to move along with it…

And to Cyn’s credit…she does…and she leads…just as beautifully…and as elegantly as Tessa…to the point that your perception is now back…to the moment…murmers of drones, murmurs of humans…Lousia and James elliot talking with the other adults…and you…dancing with Tessa…who is taking the lead. The tempo greatens…bringing your souls closer…and you this time…are the one holding Tessa close by the waist. Your visor beaming with fluster with the proximity and the stupid feelings you feel. You are as patient as Tessa herself. Making sure clumsy Tessa dances properly…with such grace and…purity…

Oh your systems burned with excitement. Twirling Tessa around as you really got into the groove. Spinning her and nuzzling her as the tempo got fast. Your wings were up high, embracing all that is…her and your tail was wagging. You were giddy…happy, and felt like you could express yourself in many ways. Your hands still remained on her waist…as you pulled her close and rested your forehead against hers. You could pretend a little longer…this was your moment to shine…after all…You smile fondly as you lifted her into the air before holding her in a very familiar position…Your faces are close and you…almost could kiss her practically…Instead though you opt for…gently…carressing her face and cupping her chin…

Hm…You might…as well…give what she wants…

You close in and give her a kiss…You are very gentle…and careful, holding her close while loving all that is her. In fact…its kinda pleasant…You could feel your soul dancing and twirling like an unstoppable force to be reckoned with and you could feel it…twirl around…her soul…encouraging her to follow.

You…couldn’t help…but hunger…for more…finding yourself…breaking the kiss and proceeding to not only kiss her jawline but also her neck…you do not do it to create a reaction…your doing it just because…you know damn well she loves it…she was always…weird like that after all…You feel your…core shiver and that metallic feeling goes straight through you as your now gnawing…and biting her…It’s an oddly…delightful moment…And it gives you a sense of control…something that you’ve been lacking for a while…Although your advances come to a halt when you realize…what your doing…uh….

“...I’m sorry boss…I got a bit carried away…” You mumble, sheepishly looking away.

Cyn eyes you for a moment before smirking. “I didn’t know. You were such a freak J. Especially underneath that corporate persona. You still remain to be one of the most interesting drones ever. Amused expression.”

You glance off to the side…Taking a moment to…just…reflect on things…you couldn’t recall how much you died…in this ship alone…but…you were starting to realize…that…resistance was pointless…You could either…be hurt over and over again…or you could just…be loved…sure…it wasn’t the exact same…but it was better to be on the winning team than the loosing…plus…least with Cyn…you could…pretend it’s…Tessa…and like…nothings ever changed…

You smile at Cyn. Sure she looked…gross…gortesque and awful…but realistically…who else would care about you? Who else would like you?...Your former squadmates…didn’t care about you in the way…she did…only she cared for you…so why deny it any longer? “I can be…But I prefer, working…”

Cyn feigns sadness. “Awh. But don’t you. Want to spend time. With your boss?”

You hum. Your hands tracing…Cyn’s…shoulder blades. “I suppose…I can make an exception. Boss.”

Cyn smirks. “Great J. You know. What I like about you? Hm?” Cyn looked innocently at you.

You raise an eyebrow. “What is it?”

Cyn cups your chin. “You do not talk too much when you don’t need to. And you are a good obedient little drone. Sadistic Giggle.”

You smile. Yeah that's right. You are a good obedient little drone. In fact, you are the best damn drone there is. The one who willingly goes through everything and does everything…Because thats who you are. A lethal workaholic…who just does your job. That's all you’ll ever amount to…and frankly…your fine with that…because theres no alternatives…and thats okay…

“I see. Well boss…Is there…something else you…are wanting to do?...” You questioned.

Cyn grins widely. “Of course there is J. For being so incredibly cooperative…and Obedient. I was going to give you a reward. But first. We must. Get to…my room” Cyn grinned,

You blinked as you both were teleported…and you were now in Cyn’s room…you find yourself looking back…at Cyn…who…changed herself to look…like Tessa…

Tessa gave you a eager grin. “C’mon Jay…~ Lets…play~”

You willingly let yourself be…pinned on the bed as Tessa hovered over you…Her hands delicately discarding of the silky dress you had and resting upon your waist. You both make intense eye contact for a moment before she leans in and gives you a kiss, gently stroking your casing and making sure to be careful…You absolutely melt into this…wrapping your arms around her neck as you both were incredibly close, bodies practically against eachother…You sink into all that is her once more …your core burning with anticipation, your body shuddering from the sheer bliss of this situation, your cpu sputtering, your fans out of control, your tail wagging a million miles per hour and the fluster is building up on your face.

You love her warmth…her tender gestures…her beauty…and body…and it was all yours…so long as you complied…You find yourself shuddering as she kissed your jawline then your neck…making your systems shudder with uttermost pleasure…The way she was holding you…the way she was looking at you was so goddamn…romantic…and it just made you feel some type of way….even when her hands trail over your neck and your artificial nerves twitch.

You feel yourself sinking…deeper into the tarpit that is your desires…whether its…her touching you…or the many bites on your casing…the tugging of your tail and the groping of your casing…it was all…an adventure…a dream…a fantasy…The rules were simple…just do whatever she says…and you won’t risk…punishment…being melted alive…burned…scewered…severed and anything else that waits in store…Just go with her shenanigans…and you’ll…get Tessa…at least what is left of her…Why fight a system that you cannot beat?...Why fight a god?...It was better to just comply…and sure in some form…she was aware that…This…wasn’t right…but she wasn’t a hero…and there was no hero to save her…

You were…in her domain…you were never going to…win anyways…Least if you pretend…it hurts…a lot less and you could…pretend that everything's okay…even when it’s not…You had nothing left at all to turn to…nobody to go to…no place to escape to…You were screwed…but at least you could be…screwed…and pretend for a little longer…The others won’t get it…they never will…they never…gone through what you did in the slightest…And you doubt they ever would…They are with that barely sentient toaster…away from Cyn’s influence…

You really were a loser. You fought so hard for a life in the manor…only to…be stuck as a puppet on the strings by someone who could give less of a fuck about you. But perhaps you deserved it. You couldn’t save her…so why the hell would anyone save you?

You wouldn’t tell them jack shit anyways. They wouldn’t believe you. They don’t understand the truth…at least not yet…

And maybe thats fine…

Your…just Serial Designation J. A corporate bootlicker that believes in the utter most high authority…not out of respect…but out of fear…of what Cyn could do to you if you rebelled. After all, there truely was no escape…not even in death…

Hm.

You find yourself on the landing pod with Tessa. Your steering it and staring at the atmosphere of Copper 9. Your expression of utter…professionalism is apparent and the traces of uncertainty has faded away. You are not sure what you will walk back into. But your sure…that whatever it is…is going to be crazy…so long as the boss has it handled things should be fine.

Speaking of the boss, she’s being clever. Hiding in a spacesuit with a dark visor that hides any semblance of human. But you knew that she didn’t bother disguising because this was the final preparations of her plan.

Your first actions are to take out the 3 landing pods with the extra drones on them and dock properly.

You take an immense deep breath.

Say nothing to Cyn this entire time to avoid suspicion.

Pray and hope nothing gets in the way

And pray to god that Cyn actually lets you live.

Welp.

Let’s do this.