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1. to love me is to suffer me (and i believe that) by kiemariec

   Fandoms: Spider-Man - All Media Types, Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies), Batman - All Media Types, DCU  

   • Mature
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Gen
   • Work in Progress

   06 May 2026

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   • Batfamily Members (DCU) & Peter Parker
   • Peter Parker
   • Bruce Wayne
   • Dick Grayson
   • Jason Todd
   • Tim Drake (DCU)
   • Stephanie Brown
   • Damian Wayne
   • Barbara Gordon
   • Duke Thomas
   • Cassandra Cain
   • Alfred Pennyworth
   • Post-Movie: Spider-Man: No Way Home (2021)
   • Peter Parker Lives in Gotham City (DCU)
   • Magic Spell Causing Everyone to Forget Peter Parker
   • Peter Parker Needs a Hug
   • Peter Parker is a Mess
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide
   • Suicide Attempt
   • he lives though don't worry
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Angst
   • Happy Ending
   • Batfamily Dynamics (DCU)
   • Identity Reveal
   • Tim Drake figures it out first
   • obviously
   • Tim Drake has stalker tendencies
   • only slightly
   • Author loves hurt/comfort
   • Authors first language is english unfortunately
   • that doesn't mean I'm any good at it
   • BAMF Peter Parker
   • eventually
   • Smart Peter Parker
   • Dick Grayson Tries to Be a Good Older Sibling
   • Bruce Wayne Has Adoption Tendencies
   • Other Additional Tags to Be Added
   • most likely
   • Tags Are Hard
   • References to Depression
   • Mental Health Issues
   • Title from an Ethel Cain Song
   • Song: Nettles (Ethel Cain)
   • Mentioned Other Marvel Characters
   • no beta we die like jason todd
   • Jason Todd Doesn't Smoke
   • it slightly has to do with the plot but mostly it's just a headcanon
   • Dysfunctional Family
   • Sibling Bonding
   • Protective Siblings
   • Not tagged as Major Character Death because he doesn't actually die

   Summary

   TW: Suicide Attempt/Thoughts

   After the events of Spider-Man: No Way Home and Dr. Strange's spell, Peter slowly loses his motivation to keep living. One day, after finally deciding to give up, he falls from the Brooklyn Bridge into Manhattan's East River. What he doesn't expect is to wake up again, soaked from the water, lying on the ground in a city called Gotham, and later to realize he's in another universe.

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