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  1. Public Bookmark 3

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    A Vice Captain of the Knights of Favonius. I remember his look. That quiet, starving anticipation. But was his actions heroic after all?

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    03 Jun 2026

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    While the people of Nod Krai want, Lohen is the only one who needs. Friends and strangers alike shower him in praise, status, gifts, in return for all the good work he does– Lohen takes takes and takes, and what Illuga gets at the end of the day are bites across his body. But the knight doesn’t pretend it’s anything else. His motives aren’t hidden. The exchange doesn’t come with hidden expectations. His ‘rewards’, if something so depraved can even be called as such, are something genuinely tangible, and, as ashamed as Illuga is to say it… useful. Any soothing teas or appreciation gifts haven’t quelled his mind nearly as much as Lohen’s body.

    He’s real.

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    Illuga desperately needs a way to distract himself from the insurmountable stress in his life. Lohen desperately wants someone willing to ruin him without remorse. Predictably, one drags the other down. Only, Lohen never expects that, somehow, Illuga would become worse than him.

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    07 May 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 40

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    Lohen leaves for a military campaign and they exchange letters with Illuga. It's sad and sometimes not and then sad again

    There are so many empty rooms I had to learn to pass by, but there is only this much endurance in one person. I don’t think I have any more left, you know? I can’t even write this letter in one sitting. Every few words I have to look up and force myself to stop tearing up so much because right now I don’t know if that letter still has someone to arrive to.

    I hope you’re reading this. And that you think how stupid I was for losing faith in you. I’d gladly be stupid. I never wanted anything more than that.

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    29 Apr 2026

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    I thought I would perish fighting the Wild Hunt. I could imagine my end like that. But I’m no longer on my own, you promised to patrol with me, didn’t you? And as selfish as it might sound, if I was alone I would be allowed to die, but I no longer am because we are here. We happened. We have promises to keep, days to spend, meals to share. No matter how hopeless it sounds, we can’t die. So keep your part of the deal, Lohen.

     

    Maybe this once I should end the letter in a traditional way?

     

    Yours truly, because I don’t know where else I could belong,

     

    Illuga

    FUCK FUCK FUCK

    this was such a delight to read, immaculate pacing. Dont even play with me, I'm so emotional rn

  4. Public Bookmark 42

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    Lohen was never at the receiving end and wasn’t sure how he ended up here, under Illuga’s weight that pressed him to the bed. When did his instinct turn off, why did he stop fighting to lead, did he even try? Illuga kissed him, easily taking away Lohen’s breath and all remaining ambition to change this situation. His body melted under the touch, the man could do anything to him and he’d comply. Illuga showered his chest with kisses, never wasting an occasion to nib on his nipple, tearing out small mewls from his throat.

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    28 Apr 2026

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    This is so cute in gonna cry

  5. Public Bookmark 58

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    "You drink a lot?"

    "Nah, only once in a while. I like how it feels, though," Lohen muses. 

    Illuga scrunches his nose, "What, being drunk?"

    "Tipsy, yeah."

    "Somehow, that doesn't surprise me at all."

    Lohen smirks. "Bet you'd love to see that, huh? Flagship it is, then."

    Or; Lohen gets to know the bird who caught his heart better.

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    20 Apr 2026