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    "What do you think it is to be human?” Flins asks, slow and deliberate, fingers tracing the rim of his drink. 

    “To be human is to feel,” Illuga says, definitively. “To be human is to hurt, to bleed, to cry. And then wake up the next day and do it again. Wake up a thousand times and do it again, knowing that the pain doesn’t stop.”

    Flins’ gaze is piercing. “Why?”

    “Because if we can still feel pain, we can still feel joy.”

    Illuga thinks he knows what it means to be human. He has a few things to learn.

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    03 Jul 2026

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    absolutely loveee but ch3 is the good shit (beat up bloody uke x uke,,,, sighs dreamily)

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    Things changed. Cloud never left Nibelheim, instead becoming the town's only mechanic. Life is good, if a little boring, until one day Zack and Sephiroth arrive to argue with the village council about demolishing the old Shinra mansion.

    Well, they almost arrive. Their truck breaks down outside of town, which leads to a meeting that can really only be one of two things: fate, or just really, really awkward.

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    20 Jun 2026

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    resounding applause

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    Even at the alter, General Ren does not smile. His expressionless gaze is cast on their joined hands instead as if it offends him. He does not lift his gaze until they rise from a deep bow, deeper than Dan Heng has ever had to in his life and it is for a man who has slain thousands of his people.

    His smile slips when their eyes meet, a clash of green and red so vivid the world comes to a standstill to this single point in time.

    After six years on the battlefield, Dan Heng meets defeat in the face of his consort.

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    In the aftermath of a bloody war, the way to a lasting peace treaty comes in the form of marriage; generals of their respective armies would be offered as consorts for the heirs of their nations. In the name of peace, Dan Heng reluctantly accepts the show of goodwill but seeing an enemy as a friend is no easy task.

    It quickly becomes clear that his own people would sooner seek vengeance for their losses than to accept this political power play, even at the cost of their prince's life.

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    13 May 2026

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    9.9999/10 stars only cause I didn't get to see Dan Heng suck dick 💔

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    Kaveh once thought that he would run out of himself. He would give and give and one day there wouldn’t be any left and then he would die. But there is no dying in e-cigarette purgatory and there is no salvation in waiting for eternity, except maybe if Kaveh waits for one more eternity there will be.

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    13 May 2026

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    really wish I could remember the tweet that recommended this

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    Hyun joins a running club and Haru ruins his peace.

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    14 Apr 2026