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    Andrew’s upped his training in preparation for his pro offers. It shows. It shows a lot. And fuck.

    The sauna was not their brightest idea. Neither is working out together like this, late at night. It’s too private, too tempting.

    It’s become a habit.

    The more Andrew benches, the lighter Neil becomes in comparison.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    Neil is nothing and everything all at once, the entire universe for Andrew, however small of a universe that is. Even Aaron is starting to see it, though the pieces still don't line up.

    And Andrew is trying to convince Aaron that he's never jealous? Yeah right. You don't spend your entire life being denied, being hurt, going through foster care with nothing to call your own only to be okay with someone else trying to take the one bright piece of life you call yours.

    Or, Aaron is done with Andrew's shit and makes it his job to prove his brother wrong.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    "Neil doesn't talk about his mom and doesn't think about what she'd do to him if she saw him now. He has a family, he has Exy, and he has Andrew. He has more than enough, more than he ever could have dreamed of.

    Neil doesn't talk about his mom until a warm fall day outside the locker room, waiting for the start of their game with his team and family. It's a place that she doesn't belong, where not even a memory of her belongs, but she wriggles her way in and takes root in his chest."

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    Neil reveals, piece by piece, what life with his mom was like.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    “What did you take?” Andrew demands.

    Neil wonders if Andrew will taste all that is wrong with Neil when he kisses him. He wonders if Andrew will recognize it. Andrew knows what it is to hurt himself, and this must be familiar. It’s deja vu, Neil thinks, if only a little bit worse, a little more terrible.

    Neil shakes his head, groaning into the toilet, “I don’t want to tell you.”

    Andrew pulls out his phone, and Neil can already hear it dialling when he says, “You can tell the paramedics.”

    Or; “Cigarettes,” Neil says. “I ate your cigarettes.”

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    28 Jun 2026

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    Neil Josten was a liar before he was anything else. In the nest, sometimes his choices were between lying and dying. He’d had a decent amount of self preservation that he’d chosen the former. But now, being free, the world felt so heavy. He wished he’d chosen dying.

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    28 Jun 2026