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good night, melpomene (come home, erato) by psychosei
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
05 Aug 2017
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Neil Josten paints a portrait of a fellow student, unbeknownst to them, and submits it anonymously to a student gallery showing.
Andrew Minyard encounters a portrait of himself, painted without his permission, and is unmoored.
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03 Jul 2026
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Andrew shrugs. “If you’re going to stick around, don’t insult me. Stand there and look pretty, or disappear and leave me alone.”
Neil laughs harshly. “Andrew, it’s me. I’m real. You’re not that crazy.”
“My dead boyfriend is in front of me, implying the FBI helped him fake his death.” Another drag. “I could use a different word, if you prefer. Psychotic, schizophrenic, delusional. Find me a thesaurus, would you?”
“Boyfriend,” Neil echoes.
“Whatever you were.” Andrew stubs his cigarette out on the step between his feet. “Whatever we were going to be if your father hadn’t disemboweled you.”
Neil is dead, until he isn't.
A Neil-Died-In-Baltimore-But-Not-Really AU
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02 Jul 2026
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He just wanted a mocha with too much sugar. Instead, he found a dark bookstore run by a man who doesn't know how light switches work and a dog that looks like it eats intruders for breakfast.
Neil is a walking disaster who doesn't realize he’s being watched. Andrew is a man who watches everything and feels nothing—until now. The Foxes are still broken, the "reunions" are still a nightmare, and Andrew is pretty sure the book he just bought is poorly edited.
But he’s going back tomorrow. Not for the book. For the "bat."
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A universe where Neil never joined the foxes and now we follow a depressive (not new..) post graduation and pro Exy goaly Andrew as he discovers a newly oppened bookstore owned by a traumatized Neil Josten who this time very much lost his vision in Baltimore ;bBookmarked by MellowMarsh
02 Jul 2026
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Honestly, Seth thinks that Neil’s ass could rival even Allison’s.
5 times Neil made men question their sexuality +1 time he affirmed Andrew’s
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02 Jul 2026
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You want to fuck Neil, Andrew says, like it's nothing.
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02 Jul 2026
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Deep down, Andrew knew he would always reach this crossroads, a time where the thought became too strong to ignore.
Going all the way with Neil. It's not something he can continue to avoid thinking about. When Andrew looks back to the days where he held Neil's hands down, when he never got off with him in the same room, he's forced to acknowledge how much he's allowed.
Not allowed. Welcomed. Wanted.
But that’s not all there is to it, and the desire to make a decision finally makes itself known.
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- Part 5 of progress comes in small steps
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01 Jul 2026
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“Dude, I just asked if you could get my food, not another-“ Matt finally got around to seeing the man on the floor. “What is Aaron doing?”
“I don’t think this is Aaron.” Neil stated. Matt had a transfer sheet ready, dropping to the floor with Neil, carefully sliding the transfer underneath the man.
“Then who do we have?” That was a great question, but he didn’t get there yet with Aaron’s doppelgänger, so Neil just ranted about what he knew.
“Male, mid twenties, possible head trauma,” Neil said quickly. “Unequal pupils, responsive briefly, he felt tachy, then syncopal episode plus a possible fracture of the clavicle.”
Or: Neil is in the second year of his residency, working in the Emergency Room. Today was just like any other until a man who looked extremely like an asshole co-worker of his decided to pass out in the waiting room.
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01 Jul 2026
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He wasn’t getting up.
Neil’s teammates were shaking his shoulder and pulling off his helmet. Exposed to the camera, Neil’s skin was waxy and pale. With his eyes shut and his body limp, he looked painfully young.
The medics forced the players away and were taking his pulse.
He wasn’t getting up.
Andrew’s blood turned to ice as memories of Neil, pale, unconscious, and bandaged in a hospital bed, came flooding into his mind.
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01 Jul 2026
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The subject of Katelyn and Neil hasn't felt like dangerous territory in a long time, but Aaron feels the bomb countdown already coming to an end before Bee even opens her mouth.
"Well, the two of them are so alike," Bee goes on, oblivious to the tension leaking into the space. Her smile is pleasant, teasing. "It just goes to show how you and Andrew have similar tastes despite being so different."
The world freezes on its axis.
Andrew inhales a little too loudly the same time Aaron chokes on his spit. "W-What?"
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- Part 2 of progress comes in small steps
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01 Jul 2026
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Andrew’s upped his training in preparation for his pro offers. It shows. It shows a lot. And fuck.
The sauna was not their brightest idea. Neither is working out together like this, late at night. It’s too private, too tempting.
It’s become a habit.
The more Andrew benches, the lighter Neil becomes in comparison.
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30 Jun 2026
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Neil is nothing and everything all at once, the entire universe for Andrew, however small of a universe that is. Even Aaron is starting to see it, though the pieces still don't line up.
And Andrew is trying to convince Aaron that he's never jealous? Yeah right. You don't spend your entire life being denied, being hurt, going through foster care with nothing to call your own only to be okay with someone else trying to take the one bright piece of life you call yours.
Or, Aaron is done with Andrew's shit and makes it his job to prove his brother wrong.
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- Part 1 of progress comes in small steps
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30 Jun 2026
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"Neil doesn't talk about his mom and doesn't think about what she'd do to him if she saw him now. He has a family, he has Exy, and he has Andrew. He has more than enough, more than he ever could have dreamed of.
Neil doesn't talk about his mom until a warm fall day outside the locker room, waiting for the start of their game with his team and family. It's a place that she doesn't belong, where not even a memory of her belongs, but she wriggles her way in and takes root in his chest."
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Neil reveals, piece by piece, what life with his mom was like.
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29 Jun 2026
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an acquired taste the asbestos is lovely by cyanica
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
29 Jan 2024
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“What did you take?” Andrew demands.
Neil wonders if Andrew will taste all that is wrong with Neil when he kisses him. He wonders if Andrew will recognize it. Andrew knows what it is to hurt himself, and this must be familiar. It’s deja vu, Neil thinks, if only a little bit worse, a little more terrible.
Neil shakes his head, groaning into the toilet, “I don’t want to tell you.”
Andrew pulls out his phone, and Neil can already hear it dialling when he says, “You can tell the paramedics.”
Or; “Cigarettes,” Neil says. “I ate your cigarettes.”
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28 Jun 2026
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Neil Josten was a liar before he was anything else. In the nest, sometimes his choices were between lying and dying. He’d had a decent amount of self preservation that he’d chosen the former. But now, being free, the world felt so heavy. He wished he’d chosen dying.
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28 Jun 2026
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hang me up to dry by orphan_account
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic, the foxhole court
20 Apr 2016
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There’s a chance he’s been looking at the food with a pondering gaze for far too long. Andrew picks up on it, obviously.
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28 Jun 2026
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sweet talk me into something real by jupiterrains
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
17 Jun 2025
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Andrew has survived the sexual landscape of college solely through the usage of his rules: No repeat hookups. No touching without asking. No feelings. No cuddling. No sleepovers.
It's a simple set of rules, easy enough to abide by that Andrew has had no trouble sleeping around, and in his two years at Palmetto, Andrew has never once broken them.
Of course, until Neil Josten.- Language:
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27 Jun 2026
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Neil Josten is trying to learn to be a normal person. He has an apartment and a cat. He goes to therapy every Wednesday. He has friends and attends their study group regularly. He eats lunch with his best friend's brother.
The hardest part is letting people in, but he thinks that one day he'll get there.
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- Part 1 of all of me wants all of you
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27 Jun 2026
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No Ordinary Cats by nekojita for Aheshke (pharmacistfangirl)
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
08 Feb 2017
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Andrew gets a little more than he bargained for when he rescues a tattered cat from some drunken idiots at work one night.
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27 Jun 2026
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people problems by loveroulettes for ConventionalExy (Conventionals)
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
05 Feb 2022
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When Neil meets the perfect guy Andrew realizes that six and a half years later, he still doesn’t know how to ask the important questions.
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27 Jun 2026
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Neil feels small. Not powerless, not weak, not out of control. Small. Protected. Safe. It's a feeling that he's tried to suppress for so long, picking fights and puffing out his chest at anyone who dared to look his way. With Jean, it's different. Jean lets him lead, lets him set the pace.
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Raven!Neil Josten has a size kink when it comes to his partner Jean that they decide to explore one night after practice.
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27 Jun 2026