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    In the mornings, afternoons, and nights, there is one thing that is always there for Ilya Rozanov.

    And that's McDonalds.

    While he does miss his usual spot back in Boston, he's been coming often to the closest one to his new home in Ottawa. It's convenient. Plus, who's gonna say no to a McGriddle?

    Unfortunately for Ilya, the breakfast menu items are all unavailable at 1am.

    Luckily, he has his perfect, regular late-night order that he always gets. And he orders it with pride, like a white girl at Starbucks.

    But the best part of the night isn't even Ilya's food, but the worker at the window.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    your fave is problematic - yourfaveisproblematic.tumblr.com/post/6453061/ilya-rozanov
    Admin note: POST IS WIP
    1. Admitted to using the f-slur during his rookie year in the NHL and doubled down with ableist remarks on Twitter.
    2. He’s a stalinist and supports the unlawful slaughter of children.
    3. He’s supportive of the porn industry, which is notably exploitative and misogynistic.
    [cont…]

    subhollander reblogged ⇄ yourfaveisproblematic
    #first celeb ever to get cancelled for bisexual pegging porn im crying #also not be that person but that was amateur porn #so???

    torontoszamboni reblogged ⇄ subhollander
    so you’re also saying that the women were amateurish at their job???

    subhollander reblogged ⇄ torontoszamboni
    quick tell me what amateur porn means

    hunter4life reblogged ⇄ subhollander
    then let’s talk about the fact that he liked that tweet as a pr stunt to distract from the f-slur????

    russianlovemachine reblogged ⇄ hunter4life
    #shane: what are you doing #ilya, swallowing: public relations

    Ilya Rozanov lands himself on yourfaveisproblematic for—well, quite a few reasons.

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    25 Jun 2026

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  3. Public Bookmark 53

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    25 Jun 2026

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    Shane is in a post-game interview when his world stops.

    He’s just answered a question about Montreal’s offensive strategy going into the game. Clean passes, avoid penalties, draw defenders wide. It had worked and the Voyagers had beat Colorado soundly, 4-1. Shane had scored two of the goals and assisted on a third.

    Usually, Shane would be eager to boast about the win to Ilya. But ever since their fight- since Ilya told Shane to leave- winning feels hollow. Losing feels better, somehow. As if Shane deserves to lose after being so selfish. Ilya gave up everything for him- his home, his team, and to some extent- his happiness. Hockey. Ilya gave up hockey- good hockey- for Shane.

    A ripple goes through the room of reporters. Shane swears he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘crash’. But no one is paying attention to him anymore.

    “What’s going on?” he asks into the microphone, feeling strange at the role reversal. Usually, he’s the one being asked questions.

    No one answers. And this time he knows that he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘Centaurs’.

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    Shane rushes to Ilya after the almost plane crash. Their secret is no longer a secret.

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    23 Jun 2026

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    Ch.10

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    “You will not be so nice when we beat you,” Ilya told Shane Hollander, holding onto his hand, not letting him pull away. Not yet.

    But Hollander’s brow furrowed, not in anger but in confusion. “Ah, um, sorry,” Hollander said. “Merci. My English is bad. Worse… than you. Maybe slower?” And he leaned in, like that would help him understand.

    Ilya’s eyebrows rose, and his smile widened.

    Or, Ilya Rozanov grew up in Russia. Shane Hollander was raised in France. When they first meet, neither of them can speak English very well. Somehow, it’s easier to understand each other when words aren’t getting in the way.

    (Stand-alone remix of “I’m Reading Your Lips (You’re Speaking My Language)” but this time neither of them are native English speakers, and learning a new language is sort of like falling in love, if you think about it.)

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    18 Jun 2026

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  6. Public Bookmark 36

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    Photographer Ilya has been crushing on tattoo artist Shane who he has never even met for years. Until Svetlana bugs him when Shane posts a full day sitting up for grabs.

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    15 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander is the most respected hockey journalist in Canada. He's been covering the Boston Raiders for three years. He has interviewed Ilya Rozanov fourteen times in a professional capacity. He has written 47,000 words about Ilya Rozanov's career. He has approximately zero words for what happens when Rozanov corners him in a hotel corridor after Game 7 and says, very quietly, in that voice: "You always leave before I can talk to you." Shane has absolutely no idea what to do with that.
    (Or: Shane doesn't play hockey. He just writes about the man who does. It is, objectively, worse.)

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    12 Jun 2026

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  8. Public Bookmark 60

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    When Shane Hollander, the most famous actor of the moment, shows up wearing an engagement ring, everyone starts speculating about who the lucky one is… no one had bet on Mercedes' Russian F1 driver Ilya Rozanov

    Or:
    Shane and Ilya have been secretly dating for years and they are ready to go public.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    Shane sees his ex at a cafe and texts what he thinks it’s a dud number to look busy, little does he know it belongs to Ilya. Shane uses the thread to use as a reminder for stuff he has to do. Ilya enjoys reading what this mysterious man does until he gets a text at 3am.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    If you are reading this, it means that Danny is following my emergency plan that we practiced. I’m not safe and neither is he. Please, I beg you, take him to his grandparents at this address.

    Yuna and David Hollander
    2242 Grandview
    Ottawa, Ontario

    If I ever get the chance, I will repay you.

    Please tell him I love him. My parents too. And if you could tell them I’m sorry.

    ~Shane

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    10 Jun 2026

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    Ch.4

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    June 2018. Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are about to execute the first step of their ten-year plan, with Ilya signing with the Ottawa Centaurs when free agency begins on July 1.

    Except Shane accidentally, drunkenly, outs himself to the Montreal Metros at the end of the season. Who are not as okay with it as Shane would have hoped.

    AKA the most eventful Canada Day that the MLH has ever seen.

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    10 Jun 2026

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    Ch.6

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    “Marley.” Ilya says evenly, suddenly knowing he can actually breathe. He had a plan and he knew what he needed to do. And he couldn’t do it from the locker room bench. “If he is very injured, if he cannot play again, if he is very bad, I will kill you. I will kill you painfully.”
    Cliff gapes at him.

    In which the hit that Cliff Marleau had on Shane Hollander goes a little different. For one, they’re in Boston. For another, Ilya realizes he might be panicking? Which is probably not something to do in the middle of a game. And, oh yeah, he just outed both himself and his not-boyfriend to an entire locker room of hockey players.

    But that’s okay, because while Boston may be vicious, they do take care of their own. And they quickly realize that their captain’s happiness and willingness to stay with the Bears is tied to Shane Hollander. The solution is easy, they’ll just have to make Shane Hollander a Bear.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    Ch.12

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    Shane clicked onto the next slide displaying his classroom's schedule and turned back to the group seated facing him. His eyes landed on the parent who had just walked in.

    First, this man did not fit in the small chair designed for a second grader.

    Second, he was really fucking pretty.

    Shane Hollander built his life after college around safe choices. Safe job, safe routines, and a safe distance from the hockey world he abandoned years ago.

    That is, until Ilya Rozanov walked into his second grade classroom.

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    05 Jun 2026

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    TMZ @TMZ
    Trouble in paradise? First Husbands of Hockey, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov, spotted having a tense-looking debrief in their sprinter van right after leaving a fundraising event for the Ottawa Children’s Hospital. The couple appeared strained, sitting with quite a distance between them despite giving the appearance of being all over each other earlier in the night. Fans are wondering, is this the end of their chaotic “love story.”

    - or -

    Shane's getting really tired of people talking shit about his husband.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    Four years ago, Shane Hollander suffered a career-ending injury after getting hit by Marlow on the ice. Despite Ilya’s best efforts to reach out, he never hears from Shane again. Nor does anyone as Shane Hollander disappears from the public eye. Complete radio silence.

    That is, until Ilya receives a call from his agent, asking if he is willing to ‘say a couple of nice words on camera about Shane Hollander’. Why? Oh. Because he will be induced in the MHL Hall of Fame in three weeks. And said Canadian golden boy will likely be there.

    Ilya is totally okay about this, of course.

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    03 Jun 2026

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  16. Public Bookmark 55

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    He could be an athlete, obviously does some sort of physical training to have a body like that. And it’s so compelling, touches on this little niggling fantasy that Ilya has at the back of his head. Something about being around muscular men all day, everyday, practicing alongside each other, competing on the ice.

    ‘Jane’ leans forward a bit, adjusting himself in the chair, and then he clears his throat. “So… Let’s get started, yeah? What do you want to do to me?”

    Like this is some game recognized by the audience, a flurry of comments explode in the chat, everyone going into detail on what they want to see of ‘Jane’, what they want to do to him, how they would have him if they could. After a moment, there’s this little breathless chuckle that sounds out through the speakers on Ilya’s laptop, a noise of exasperation.

    “Yeah?” His voice is already breathier, deeper, and Ilya’s eyes zero in on the sliver of skin revealed where his shirt is pulled up. “All that, huh?”

    Ilya feels the start of something swirling in his gut, some warm satisfaction at the tone the man is taking. The proposal of a challenge.

    Or, Ilya stumbles upon a cam site.

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    29 May 2026

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  17. Public Bookmark 61

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    Shane is a man of many secrets. First, he did break his dad’s glasses when he was a kid, despite letting his own mom take the fall for it. Second, he is very, very, stuck in the closet gay. And third, Shane spends most of his nights in front of a camera, touching himself for money.

    At least, it should be for the money.

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    3,719

    28 May 2026

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    The first thing Ilya Rozanov felt was a headache the size of Massachusetts.

    Seriously, his head was pounding so badly behind his eyes that the moment he tried to sit up in bed, a violent wave of nausea nearly made him throw up. He immediately dropped his head into his hands, elbows braced against his knees while he forced himself to breathe slowly through it.

    Jesus Christ.

    What the hell did he drink last night?

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    Comments:
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    26 May 2026

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  19. Public Bookmark 22

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    “You’re the one that came to bother me. You have to take responsibility for it.”

    Pae squinted, his hand gripping the strap of his bag tight. “Responsibility? How?”

    “Let’s date. Three months.”

    If Pae had known that creating that account would bring him this much misfortune, he would have never created it in the first place.

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    26 May 2026

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    Lily Hollander
    @hollalily81

    It has been 28 days 17 hours and 35 minutes since I last kissed @ShaneHollanderHockeyPlayer

    --

    My take on Ilya having a Boston Lily twit account

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    25 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

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