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    “Right,” he responded, “Shane. It’s – my name is Shane.”

    “Shane,” Ilya’s mouth curled into a smile. “It is very nice to meet you,” his eyes tracked down to the label sewn on his front jacket, S. Hollander. “Shane Hollander, paramedic.”
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    or: Ilya is the Ottawa Centaur's star player. Shane Hollander is a paramedic. What starts as one hour together becomes years of chasing, longing and - despite their best efforts otherwise - falling in love.

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    23 Jul 2026

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    Shane returns from the showers to find the locker room far more animated than when he left it. Everyone has their phones out, and when he sees Shane coming, JJ says, “Câlisse, Hollander, about fucking time! Ilya Rozanov got caught kissing a man.”


    After the tuna melt debacle, but before Rose, Ilya makes the reckless decision to go to a gay bar to take his mind off of Shane. When photographs get published, Shane has a realization and devises a plan: he's going to ask Ilya Rozanov to marry him.

    Ilya's going through enough without things he can't have being dangled in front of him. He needs to figure out a different way to avoid going home, because eventually Shane Hollander will realize what Ilya already knows: Ilya isn't worth what Shane wants to do for him.

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    22 Jul 2026

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    “I’m sorry,” Shane whispers against Ilya’s hair. “I’m so, so sorry. I didn’t—”

    Shane cuts himself off with a faint stutter in his breath that Ilya feels in his own chest.

    “Please,” Ilya begs, but he isn’t sure what he is even asking for.

    He wants Shane to leave. He wants Shane to stay. He wants Shane to hold him and never let go.

    Ilya feels Shane’s fingers fist in his curls, holding tight as if Ilya could ever bring himself to pull away.

    Shane doesn’t know that Ilya could never, that he cannot fathom turning his back to take even one step away from him.

    All he can do is push Shane away, make him walk first, and pick up the pieces left behind.

     

    Or an alternative to that fight from the long game, but instead of Shane leaving as Ilya asks, they actually talk it out

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    22 Jul 2026

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    Six months after their Boxing Day breakup, Shane puts the cottage where they once learned to love each other openly up for sale. Ilya buys it anonymously, unable to bear the thought of anyone else living inside the life they built there.

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    22 Jul 2026

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    Shane’s uncle arrives from Japan for Shane and Ilya's wedding, which becomes complicated in ways Ilya does not expect.

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    21 Jul 2026